My Life Is A Story

Kasi alam ko naman sa bandang huli, sarili ko lang maaasahan ko. Sarili ko lang mag mamahal sakin.

Why?

The first time I fell inlove with you

I found you. You accepted me.  

At first, I don't know what to call this A feeling I cannot understand Being happy and sad at the same time It is so confusing, why do I have to feel it Sometimes I smile without reason Often it's so painful I can't stop crying It is the cause of my happiness and joy But also the reason of my pain and sadness I don't know when I started to feel it The reason for it I also don't know Just one day I woke up and realize What I feel for you is already love

We don't even know each other Or that you or me exist But this is where we started Being a stranger with one another Then we met each other Learned each other's name But there is nothing more than that We're not even interested with one another Many years had passed We don't even remember each other I thought this is our ending Being a stranger with one another I don't know if it is our faith Or a destiny we can't avoid Once again we met But this time, it is different We got to know each other Negative and positive side Though this is not our ending But we became more than stranger Being friends with each other Relying to one another This is just the beginning Can you guess what is next? We started to fall in love We made promises and dreams When I asked what I am to you You said, "It is more special than a friend". ------------------

It was already decided before I saw you To be in love with a man I don't even know who But it is not an arrow who taught me love It is you Aeneas who made me feel love Cupid is not even necessary for me to love you All the things I did for you, I don't regret Though what you feels for me may be different But my love for you will always stay the same You are my life, I can't live without you Now you are gone, so my life must also be ~Dido~ ----------------

The times we spent together Keeps hunting me forever The more I think of you The stronger the pain I feel Why do you keep coming In my head and not to me If waiting for you is like this Oh please come back to me If you make me wait any longer Beware you'll might be late I might disappear one day And it will be your turn to wait --------------------- -for you

Words that I can't say Through the screen that separates us It is so hard to express I can't even see your face Talking without sounds What's on your mind I cannot tell I have so many stories to tell Not to a mere screen but to you I want to hear your voice Not a "ding" but your own I want to see you smile Not a smiley but your cute little smile How I wish I can tell This feeling of mine for you How I wish you can hear my heart Beating fast because of you I want to say "I love you" Not in a chat but to you

I hate you. The one who truly knows your secrets, can see what's inside your brain. Being the one who you show your negative sides and share what you really feels. Who really knows the things you keep to your heart. The one who truly hates you but still understands you. Thank you myself, but I'm sorry I hate you too.

but it also causes pain