honey eyes & a stormy mind

Under the moon

With nothing but the sweet melody of silence

I chase the seeping nostalgia

The light of laughter

As it slips away

And becomes yet another moment

Burning like flesh and stars

Crumbling like a fragile sand castle at the mercy of the sea

As I lay

With a ghost of a tear on my flushed cheek

And pray

To live a life

Where the present holds me

A little longer than the past

And a little tighter

tell me why

the breath between your lips is a space I long to invade

to capture and steal

keep it safe in my heart

in case you’re a mirage

a fading dream at my fingertips

and as I feared

you slip

gently

leaving nothing but a lingering touch

and now I’m left

cold and broken

with a heart pounding loud yet not loud enough

to drown

the giggle that echoes through my mind

and you are

you are nothing

but

remnants of dust on my body

with a heartbeat imprinted into mine

and lips left quivering

I wish

Permission to explore

A labyrinth of a mind

With nothing but beauty in store

And a hope for my fingers to be intertwined

In nothing but the stardust that kiss his face

Or the bubbles of anxiety guarding the base

Of the thunder inside

Permission to explore

Each crevice of his memories

The hidden tears

And broken realities

The hum of his lullabies buried deep inside

The grumble of the gears churning in his mind

Permission to explore?

Access denied

How funny is it

That we went from cross my heart and I hope to die

To crossing our legs and untangling the strings of each other’s minds

And with lips quivering we chant

More time, more time

In your eyes,

I see a storm brewing

A melting pot of tears with specks of desperation

As our memories play

Coercing me, serenading me one last time

Before the thunder claps

And the Lightning strikes

Before your hands guard the battle inside

Dying, desperate, declining the delusion of what once was and the reality of what can be

You see

Or maybe

You don’t anymore

For I am not yours any longer

But am my own

A storm is brewing

And your eyes are spilling

But little did you know

I’m riding the thunder

Into the eye of destruction

Where I find peace and tranquillity in the absence of the warmth of you

But in the warmth of myself

My eyes are not the shade of honey for you to taste in despair

My eyes are honey for those who gaze upon in respect and love

My eyes are honey for those who taste the sweetness of titanic vows

But to you

I am salt

The salt of the tears you’ve caused

Smeared across my once twilight skin

As you begged to whisper one last empty promise into the midst of the night

Yet you have forgotten one again

That I am not the foolish sun in the sky

I am the moon and the stars and the galaxy you breathe under

But in your eyes

I’m just the flashing light of the storm

In your eyes