My Juanita,
I'm sorry I didn't text, call, talk to you for weeks, you have every right to be mad at me. But please, let me explain.
I'm still in this place, Beach City. It's a pretty town with sunsets that remind me of your smile, blue horizon that remind me of your eyes. It's also a town with a little city of Gem people. You remember when I told you that a Gem saved my life when I was a baby ? I discovered that the accident that nearly killed me happened here, in Beach City.
So. Yeah.
This is the place where my parents died.
Apparently.
But the truth is way more complex, way more unbelievable than that.
It took me days to understand, weeks to accept. That was why I didn't want to tell you everything. Because I had no idea how to tell you this.
My name isn't Noah. Or wasn't.
I already had a life before the one I'm living right now. I lived for sixteen-seventeen years and then something wrong happened and I turned back into a baby, abandoning my old life and my old memories, to create new ones.
At least, that's what I learned during my investigation. I see faces that I never saw but that I still recognize, I feel affection for a man I barely talk to, an affection as strong as the one I have for my dad. Some people freeze when they see me, like I'm some kind of ghost and it's painful to see me, to see that I don't know them. Only this green Gem doesn't care, but as far as I know, she probably lose her memories too.
This is confusing. This is sad. This is madness.
Every step I make in this place is full of guilt. If it's true, I left them.
Every breath I take in this place is full of lies. If it's true, I'm not real.
I don't know what's real anymore. I don't know if Noah ever existed, and in the same time I don't know... I don't know who Steven Universe is.
I don't know who I'm supposed to be.
The only thing that is real for me is us.
Is you.
I want to see you, badly. I want you to call me by my name, or any name. I'll take it.
I miss you, I miss your face, I miss your voice.
I want you to tell me what to do. And I will exist through you. Through our unbreakable love.
I miss you.
I love you.
I need you.
Yours, forever.
Noah.
