oh, and the moon.

I think it’s rly fucked up how hard you have to think about a career move tbh. Like “is this a career I can do for the next forty years sustainably? Is it vulnerable to AI layoffs? Is the money for a degree/training/certification a good trade off salary wise? Will I have to move? Can I afford the commute? Can I afford to leave my current job for the training period?” It’s absolutely paralyzing to consider everything bc ur whole life, ur ability to stay housed, fed, and have access to healthcare depends on it. It feels like a gun to ur head!! I should be able to be like “fuck it I’m gonna be a florist for six months and if I don’t like it I’ll just leave” without it being life or death!! Fuck everything!!!

Rents late, student loans dropped my credit score 78 points, and now my phone service is cut!! Hate my life hate my life!!!