TaylorBrooke.♥︎

Hey ya'll. I haven't been on here much since my fiance got home from deployment. I assume you can all guess why. :)

It's quite lovely having him home, I have a man to do all the manly things for me again like opening really tight jars and cuddling me at night. I've noticed a lot lately that the people around me, the couples anyways, tend to fight a lot and say a lot of things that should never be said to someone you're in a relationship with. Luckily, my fiance never says anything less than respectful, even when he's mad.

It just sucks to sit and watch some of my very best friends get treated like shit, and do almost nothing about it. I mean it's not necessarily my business, but it'd be nice to see them all happy for once. Idk.

So an update as to why I haven't been posting... For the past 3 weeks i've been in Tennessee on summer vacation. I have Cystic FIbrosis, which is a lung disease. I've been pretty healthy until now. The last week and a half I was there, I got really sick. I got back to Texas on Sunday, and got admitted into the hospital Tuesday.

I cultured 3 different bacteria's in my lungs, plus pneumonia. Breathing is difficult right now. I'll probably be in the hospital for at least the next 2 weeks. I'm on multiple IV antibiotics, and will be for the next year up until I get married. Right now, they're talking about starting me on a drug that is basically going to kill off my bone marrow, leaving me with no immune system. Doctors say that the body cant handle this medication well, and that it's a really hard to get through...Which means, I'll probably be in the hospital for the time period that I take that medication.. :/ 

So there's the short story as to what's going on.

When the person you were with for 4 years, who treated you right the first year and a half but then treated you like crap for the rest, decides that he misses you and that letting you go was a mistake.

ARE WE SERIOUS.

You can't treat me like crap, ignore me, flirt and talk to other girls and do everything that you did and then miss me when I leave. When we broke up, awhile ago, you automatically got with someone "you'd loved for the past 6 years" even though we were together. Now, half a year later, after shes moved in with you, you wanna say that you miss me. You think about me. Treating me bad was wrong and you don't know if you love her. You're not over me. All sorts of things make you think of me. You listen to country now because it makes you think of me, when you'd NEVER even let me play it in the car.

No. It's too late for that. I gave you YEARS, literally, to change the shit that you would do and the way that you would treat me. I told you eventually I would get the courage to leave, and I did.. But not after you left me for other people, multiple times. I was naive, I know.

But it makes me so god damn mad that NOW, you're sorry. NOW it was a mistake. NOW you miss you. NOW. NOW. NOW.

Well guess what, I accept your apology. But I don't miss you. I hope you learned something from "us" and don't do the same shit with her, that you did to me.