SEEING SPENCER LIKE THIS MAKES BASH ANXIOUS, because sometimes he allows himself to forget about the context of their current life :  witness protection, deceased parents, a blackmailer. compartmentalizing has been something heâs already excelled at, but bash knows his sister doesnât operate that way.  â i have no idea what to expect, â  he sighs, but sheâs right. theyâve been in witness protection for almost a year now, and havenât been told any new information about their case. how much longer will this last ?  â if⌠WHEN we eventually get out, what do you think youâll do ? â  bash asks tentatively, because he knows itâs a tricky conversation, because there are so many moving parts.  â i donât know if iâd go back to being jay. it kind of feels like he died along with mom and dad. â
            a hand moves to her heart like sheâs just been shot with what she would explain to be a paint ball, as anything worse would cause for bigger dramatics, even though spencer knew her reaction to a literal bullet in the same position would likely be the same poised, single movement reaction. âOUCH,â spencer says. âi donât think i can handle finding out i lost HIM too,â are the words that leave the brunette, dripping in sarcasm. she sits up, tucks hair behind her ears and welcomes this moment of solitude, this moment before nudge comes walking back in, or their gallagher schedules get in the way, to really sit with bash and have this conversation. âi kinda donât even like the name rory anymore,â she admits with a sense of child-like gossip, like sheâs EXCITED to unpack the logistics. âaurora? magnifique. but RORY? i donât know. spencer feels more REFINED, but not too disney-princessy, more me.â she doesnât know when she had that realization, when it stuck, when it all came together in her mind, and maybe this was the first time sheâd admitted it to anyone, even herself. âi donât think weâd have to do anything majorly different. i mean, iâd like my ass to be going on missions, thatâs for sure. --- but other than that, i think i just want that sense of FREEDOM without ties to this shitty situation. the longer weâre in witness protection, the longer it feels like that day is going to loom over us, ME, and just rule the rest of my life. --- at least outside of witness protection we can TELL people weâre belikovs... if we really want to.â