It is not entirely horribleâ painful as it is, and as cautious as she has to be in which details she speaksâŚitâs also almost therapeutic, in a form of getting some of the weight off her back. Perhaps youâre helping yourself here, perhaps youâre hurting someone else hereâ maybe both of you, really ( but she never realizes these things until too late, foolish girl who insists on retreading the same paths like something will change ). ItâsâŚokay, talking about these things; sheâs strong, or at least she can act like she is, and this pain isnât really much in comparison toâŚother matters. She can get through this.
Ayano is relieved that his immediate questioning isnât about the story she weaves, even if the topic at hand is perhaps still not any easier. âWhy would IâŚ?â Tinge of curiosity, a gentle smile that does not wait for any answer as she resumes speaking. âPeople may hurt and be hurt, butâŚthat doesnât mean that the people should be unkind, right? Maybe Iâm a little biased here, butâŚall Iâve ever wanted is to see people be happy. My personal, uhm, philosophy. That doesnât mean always being kind, but that itâs okay to be that way. Even if everyone else thinks that Iâm a foolâŚI can help people that way, so itâs okay.â With a question like that, she canât help but wonder if theyâre kindred spirits in that way, she can certainly understand where heâs coming from: regardless, sheâd like to think that her words are of help to him ( sheâs kind enough to avert her gaze whilst he wipes his glasses ).
Sheâs pleased by how much he seems to put together, even with how careful her wording is. âCorrect. That person has always gone after those sheâs close to, butâŚsomeone with awareness to the situation would have a higher risk. Er, at least, thatâs what Iâd speculateâŚfor the sake of that âpotentialâ though, Iâm not entirely sure if itâd make any difference. In any case, thatâs why you canât get involved, if it ever happens here. Not only for your own safetyâŚbut for Marryâs sake too.â Indeed, if nothing elseâ she has to think about prioritizing things in terms of Marryâs actions ( sheâs not sure how cleanly her powers would work here, after all; if they worked at all ).
Hah - such a pure, almost naive mindset, to simply want others to be happy. Heâs glad that he and her did not meet back when he first arrived here, when his mask was still very much up out of self-defence: the old Klug would have said what a foolish venture that was and how likely it was to lead to her being âusedâ for someone elseâs advantage, because he knew - he knew how important it was to keep oneâs guard up - that might have hurt her. Heâs glad that he has made those changes: while heâs reserved and prefers smaller groups, the fact of the matter is that perhaps that mindset and his want to protect those friends he has made are not so different after all logically.
âI really hope...the people youâve helped keep your own spirits up, too. Such open kindness is a rare thing, you know?â A soft, thoughtful statement, before he moves on, sadly, to more serious matters, frowning as he takes it all in. Of course...Mary would be the most upset at the people she had befriended being targeted, given how lonely she was before: he wants to avoid her having to be alone again as much as possible, so itâs clear that he canât know any more, for her sake as well as his own.
Aya wouldnât let him hear the end of it if he got himself into a mess while his back was turned, too... âRight...I promise I will try to keep my distance, sheâs been through far too much already and I donât wish to add to that, but - forgive my bluntness, but you seem....to carry a lot of troubles yourself. I wonât pry to those, myself, but...â He recognised the âtrying to stay strongâ look, because his sold mask had given much the same airs. âAny friend of Marryâs is my friend too. If you ever need to talk like this, Iâll listen, ok?â