Nothing Special

i feel very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very alone.

I promise you things will get so much better when you start processing people’s behavior as information rather than a verdict on your self-worth. If someone doesn’t text back, suddenly pulls away, whatever it may be, the solution isn’t to put on a tap dance for them and try to regain their approval. It’s not to crash out on them and try to force them to react a certain way. It’s just to take a step back, take a deep breath, and assess what this tells you. What’s this saying about them? What’s this saying about you??

i’m strange but friendly so people tell me things

i'm too tired to worry about things i can't control. i'm tired of begging for space in someone's life only to be ignored, then they make me feel guilty when i finally speak up about it. even if i just decide to not say anything, because i don't want problems, my silence will be a problem. my brain is exhausted, so i'll just say: it is what it is, and i'm going to keep moving

the idea of belonging to someone for the rest of my life sounds so good