nikki

Just losing my mind while working. Trying not to show it on my face or in my voice. Was ALREADY angry and u knew that. I said i was fine. Funny why when its people i care about i can hear and see when its just a word and that they are in fact not fine? But if i say it everyone just takes it at face value. I understand if its someone who doesn't know me well, but if u love me or say u do shouldn't u be able to tell by now that my voice is just slightly off screaming for help. Im drowning and you don't care. But while i drown i don't want to scream to loudly because i know ur stress. So the more my brain reminds me of that the quieter i get. Just let me sink i guess . sorry to write this