* 𝐁𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑 / ₜₕₐₙ ᵐᵉ

you’ve met baby daddy drama ... the hulk ... and now introducing ... idk we’ll make up something for her as time goes on .

𝓃𝒶𝓂𝑒: stella jade sanchez

𝓃𝒾𝒸𝓀𝓃𝒶𝓂𝑒𝓈: ella , stell , stella bella 

𝑔𝑒𝓃𝒹𝑒𝓇: cisfemale

𝓈𝑒𝓍𝓊𝒶𝓁𝒾𝓉𝓎: bisexual

𝓅𝓇𝑜𝓃𝑜𝓊𝓃𝓈: she/her

𝒷𝒾𝓇𝓉𝒽𝒹𝒶𝓎: july 22nd 

𝓆𝓊𝒾𝒸𝓀 𝒻𝓊𝓃 𝒻𝒶𝒸𝓉𝓈: her favorite food is steak , she was born and raised in nyc , has a record collection , wears her birthstone on at least one piece of jewlery everyday . her family is in the mafia , but she has NO idea . other people might know and not like her family for it , but she’d never have a clue why since they keep her in the dark . her favorite color is green , she rather fruity drinks and wine if its anything else shes not drinking .

BACKGROUND !

so , my lil baby always grew up with money . being her parents last child , she never had to be the one who dealt with the come up . with that , all she knew was tiffany bracelets and diamond earrings but really had no idea where it was all coming from . the only thing she knew ? daddy is a hard working man . stella loves her family , but there was a huge strain on their relationship when she grew up and realized they HAD to be keeping something from her . this caused stella to become rebellious , not really having a reason why . all she went on and continues to go on is her intuition . by 18 she moved had fully moved out , still only seeing her family on holidays . in reality , it hurts her feelings a lot that they won’t just tell her she’s not crazy and instead will allow this strain to continue . 

stella found music when she was a kid, always dancing to her grandmothers records, and now she actually has an extensive record collection herself . whenever things don’t work out for her, she turns to music . hoping that learning this new skill will not only separate herself from her family and their name . her music career gained traction pretty fast , but she’s still known for everything else she’s done in life rather than the music . stella is working on being taken more seriously in the industry , since it’s truly her passion. 

WANTED PLOTS !

OVER MY HEAD .

      “ why did i start with this ? well ... i liked the first line a lot . ‘ i would say sorry , but sorry for what ? ‘ i feel like that was something i had to get a grasp on the last six months . but also , ‘ you call it being damaged , i call it complicated . ‘ i’ve had a few whirlwind romances before my fiancé . all ... being me not wanting to feel love anymore . and i fell for this guy , who will probably be here . maybe . i don’t know . and i didn’t want to be alone but i didn’t want to be in a relationship . i wrote this when i was feeling super fucking toxic . i just wanted to sleep with him , and the more he talked about wanting ME , the more annoying it got . yeah , that’s where my head was . ” @romeofms​

CONSTANT BULLSHIT .

      “ ah ! one of my favorites . i wrote this one two nights ago , actually . i blew up ace’s phone , hoping she could stay up with me and help me out with it . it kind of conveys how i felt when ... my exs , one ex in particular , tried to play the amazing boyfriend card while calling me clingy ,  psychotic . a bitch . and while i’m in a place where that won’t move my emotions anymore ... it reminded me of how fucked the relationship was . and how even years later i didn’t recognize how much he hurt me . it wasn’t until recently , actually . i’m not difficult , i’m not a problem . and i’m so fucking glad i see that now . ” @acecfspvdes​ @beckhcm​

BBU . 

    “ i wrote this one in a california studio with my fiancé . i was torn up over ... this other guy , you all know him . and i remember ... breaking down in that studio . i cried for so long and he wasn’t even my boyfriend at the time . but i just remember feeling so guilty and so damn unloveable . i just didn’t understand why i felt the need to protect myself to the point where i hurt others . so , i came up with the chorus , and nico helped me come up with the rest . and somehow ... boys before you became an apology to ryder . the only one i’ll ever give him . ” @romeofms​ @nvcolcs​

YOU DON’T KNOW ME .

     “ i wrote this the same night i wrote constant bullshit , actually . it’s funny how something so angry can sound so beautiful . but i give that prop to ace . anyway , this entire song is about how my ex , beckham carlyle knows absolutely nothing about me . i tried , cried , kicked , screamed ... did the most ! i was so tired , i am tired . because no matter what i’ll never be understood by some people and i’ve learned to be okay with that . it’s no longer any of our responsibility to know each other . so yeah , just wanted to make that message clear . because still ... i do think i know him better than he thinks . but i don’t know that man , sorry to that man . ” @beckhcm​

DON’T LIKE TO BE ALONE

      “ my fiancé stressed me the FUCK out when we first started our ... whatever . i truly did not like to be alone , so i would stay at his apartment instead of my own even though he barely had hot water . but this song is a little funny to me because it’s vulnerable but in a very ... baseline way . i wanted to be with him , but i wasn’t sure how yet . and we were going back and forth , struggling to find a compromise ... girl , it was a fucking mess . ” @nvcolcs​

UNLOYAL FT. GISELLE 

      “ i’ve hinted to this man so many times . so i’ll just say his name , hopefully he stayed this long . romeo , i’ve always been bad at keeping secrets . so while i’m here i’ll say broke us is also about you . sorry about that . but he accused me of being like ... a lot of things . being unloyal being one of them . but you see , when you’re single you don’t consider those things . you don’t think at all . i think that’s something this entire city could work on . considering others and letting love in . so , thank you to my cousin for filling in on this song . you’re amazing and always make sure that i’m happy . so thank you for never leaving me alone and reminding me i AM loyal . ” @romeofms @gvsclle​

CLOSURE

      “ oh , i’ve been waiting to get to this one . jake chaves i’d like to talk to YOU . dianne is my soulmate . and when she’s happy i’m happy . but also , when she’s upset i’m upset . i feel that every single time . and there isn’t a man on this earth who could get in between us but ... when i wrote closure it was because i remember her wishing she had it . so when she flew from her trip with georgia for a few hours to go have sex with YOU ... did you give her that closure ? or ... did you bring her closer like i wrote that you would . ‘ still looking for new ways and every time i need closure .. mess around and get closer to you . why you gotta hang love over my head like that ? ’ she deserves love and you sir , you’re not it . samira , i’m sorry . you all deserve a love that’s ... admirable , not devious . ” @divnnc @samirafms​ 

VANITY 

      “ this was about two people who don’t really even know ... the gravity of how i felt . omari we don’t talk anymore and it’s because i never felt seen by you . we were close friends and you just ... look . you came off as this narcissistic asshole who left whenever someone didn’t beg for you to come back . i’m not a begger . and i don’t miss you as my friend . you’re just there for me . but i’m happy you’re ACTUALLY there for elijah . you deserve it . he deserves it . and then there was a deeper part of this song that was about caleb . someone who only thought about himself when it came down to it . i had to get this out , i feel bad about it because we aren’t on the worst of terms . but you all needed to know . ” @cvlebmoreno​ @omvrii​

BROKEN PROMISES

      “ this might have been the hardest song to write . i had to sit and reflect on everything . everything since the debut . this song is old and probably wouldn’t have been released if i wasn’t so ... clear in my head now . ‘ i don’t wanna be sold another piece of your dream . ’ is in the first verse but was one of the last lines put in . because i had this bad habit for so long of wanting to fix things with exs who didn’t actually want me . i have been put in situations where i looked psycho , got called psycho , clingy , annoying –– a bitch . ‘ you can’t tell me nothing about my man . ’ is truly me just reflecting on –– me . i’ll always be in love with the man i choose . whether that’s eli , beck , caleb , romeo , or nico . my heart is open in every situation and i mean EVERY i put myself in . ‘ the first one was a fuck up , second one was a no one , third one was a come up , fourth one said you’d be different . ’ you do the math . ‘ i built you up , you tore me down ... ’ i wear my heart on my sleeve and also my past . i was just tired of being hurt and now i never have to go through that again . thanks for all the broken promises , i’m so much smarter now . ” @beckhcm @elijahhqs @romeofms @cvlebmoreno​ @nvcolcs​

KARMA (FOR THE KING OF NYC) 

        “ beck you are a disgusting human being . i am saying it out right , i hope you can hear it . i told you karma is a bitch . and for so long i was HAPPY for you . happy that you found someone to appreciate you at night but no matter how many good things you get , just like when you were younger , you find a way to hate the world . i wrote this not because you deserve to go to hell ... even though you do . i wrote this because you need someone who isn’t afraid to tell you in front of an entire city that you destroy things that are good for you . when things get too good you get bored . i hope for the sake of your relationship you never get bored . but because karma doesn’t have a pause button , i hope you at least learn to never try me ever again . cheers ! ” @beckhcm

DEEPER  

         “ when i wrote this i wanted to get laid . nico and i were like in our pajamas and doing our self care stuff . but the difference between me normally wanting to get laid and recently ... is that it’s always emotional . so that’s what this is . me emotionally telling my man to come to bed . i never wanted to get super emotional with him but it seemed like every time we ... got there ... i couldn’t help myself . play this if you want to get laid besties ! ” @nvcolcs​

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