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once i start doing sports or something, am allowed to dye my hair and get piercings, and am finally on prescription meds so now my grades aren’t so shit anymore, it’s OOVER for y’all😤

once i start doing sports or something, am allowed to dye my hair and get piercings, and am finally on prescription meds so now my grades aren’t so shit anymore, it’s OOVER for y’all😤

once i start doing sports or something, am allowed to dye my hair and get piercings, and am finally on prescription meds so now my grades aren’t so shit anymore, it’s OOVER for y’all😤

it’s been 3 years bruh… i’ve had a crush on an absolute Fool for 3 years……. BOOOOOO👎👎STINKY LITTLE LOSER MANNN

i want to go to a fucking carnival with him. go on a ferris wheel, hang out on the roller coaster and shit aghdhsjsj- god i can already imagine gettinf me and my friends and his freinds and him all together and we’re hanging out and my friends being like “we’ll go with blank and blank ohh! SS and lad! you guys go together hehe” AND FUCK):&:!/&/ itd be so cute like some fucking wattpad ao3 type shit man, going on a roller coaster and vibing togetjer..<3 hhdhjhdjjsj godddd imagine going on the ferris wheel, its late at night and its the last ride we’re all goinf on. me and him are the last 2 to board, sitting in one booth together, laughing about the day, admiring the view..and then a move is made as we talk about how beautiful the sunset is. and how beautiful the others eyes are…god itd be a perfect moment….peace and stillness as we sit at the top, smiling like dorks, hand in hand flustered as fuck but so damn happy. fuck man..

THIS IS SO FUCKING LAME LMFAOOOOO OH MY GOD RHIS IS MAKING ME LAUGH SO BAD AGANGAKABSLABSMANS MA “WATTPAD MOMENT” GIRL SHUT YO GOOFY AHH UP LMAOOOO

when wearing something like a dress not only do i feel too much like a girl, i feel like too much. too much skin. too much fat. too much space. this is why i like wearing my dads clothes. why i like wearing high waisted shorts. it makes me feel less. it makes me feel more but less. i feel more happy. i feel more confident. i feel less spacious, i feel small, i feel like me.

update: im confident in all sorts of clothes now :) im a lot happier! :))

update update: i usually where feminine and masculine clothing like 50/50 and i feel very happy and confident in both! i like wearing fem clothing because it makes me feel hot as fuck, and i like wearing masculine clothing because it makes me feel happy as fuck! not to say fem clothing doesnt make me happy, it makes me suuuuper fucking happy, masc clothing just has a different happy energy about it yk?

OH YEAH IDK IF I SAID IT HERE BUT J STARTED TAKING PROZAC!! IM ON 20MG NOW AND JUST STARTED SCHOOL AND IM DOING FUCKING GREAT??? I ACTUALLY SPOKE WITH MY TEACHERS, AM INTERACTING WITH OTHER STUDENTS, MANAGED TO YELL OUT A “HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAY” DURINF ENGLISH TO THE TEACHER, AND I JUST FEEL GREAT??? THE ONLY PERSON THAT I ACTUALLY HAVE A DIFFICULT ISH TIME TALKING TO FACE TO FACE ARE PWOPLE I FIND REALLY REALLY COOL OR SOMEONE LIKE THE LAD, NOT TO SAY HE ISNT COOL BUT HE PLAYS CLARINET SO LIKE🤭 /J /J /J HES VERY COOL AHHAKSHSMAH OK BUT IM DOING INCREDIBLE THESE MEDS ARE A GOD SEND!!!!!!! AAAAAHAKAN

oh my god i love looking back on these posts and seeing how happy i am to jusf?? have basic human functions????? also it’s supwr fucking easy to talk to the lad now, we send eschother posts on instagram like everyday and we talk a bit at achool or during band shit :)! it’s weird hoe my brain made up this like version of him in my head where he was just the coolest fucking guy ever but now i look at him and all i can see is the dork who loves music and cats and fucked up cooking ramen LMAO

HHHHHHBNNHNHNGNNNFFNFNFNFHH I TOLD LAD WHENEVER I SEE A CUTE CAT OR FROG I THINK OF HIM AND HE SAID HE DOES THE SAME FOR ME HFJDJDNBDJSBDKDJD IM SCREAMIMG OMG?:&:).&:£/&£// HHWWHHWWHHWHWGDJDHSISJDJDKEHOXHSK GODDDD I REALLY WANNA HUG HIM,,, im planning on perhaps asking him out via this one thing i saw online which this person took a little box and wrote their confession in there and what im gonna do is get a box, write a confession and fill it with some things ik he like- like a little frog or cat plushie tied with some blue ribbon around its neck like a collar, his favourite candy, etc. and im gonna write the confession there and have it say that i like him and i understand if he doesnt feel the same way but i wanted to let him know, and that im okay with staying friends and all that but if theres ever the slightest chance he wants anything more, even just like the smallest bit of flirting or whatever, ill be right there. or somethjng ah- IDK HHHHGGGHHHHHJHSJJS

update: have not confessed to him and i no longer plan to! i’m happy with our friendship :) and tbh yes i do kinda still have feelings for him, but it’s also sorta going away so woop!

i’d say i’m a naturally violent person, but i’ve also got anxiety so those two just constantly argue and are like “ok but what if we tell them to die and it’s an off day? who fucking knows?” “lol die❤️” and i think it’s great but it’s also some bullshit bro😤

me now just saying “die, choke, drown, perish, etc.” to literally everyone <33 hashtag character development!!

when wearing something like a dress not only do i feel too much like a girl, i feel like too much. too much skin. too much fat. too much space. this is why i like wearing my dads clothes. why i like wearing high waisted shorts. it makes me feel less. it makes me feel more but less. i feel more happy. i feel more confident. i feel less spacious, i feel small, i feel like me.

update: im confident in all sorts of clothes now :) im a lot happier! :))