Feel the Beat

This world is really testing my willpower..and the will to say in it

I cried for the first time at work today. I can only hope this week gets better. #2017

Closing my heart. Being cold. It’s the only way I know how. This is me. This is who I am.

It's been awhile since I've wrote...but at any rate I hope I get this. Where it takes me will give me a reason to tell myself I shouldn't be feeling left out because it was my choice to leave this life behind. This chapter of my life will be done and I can move on to the next. Feeling like being left out won't be an option because I chose the life of solitude. Away. Just like how things are now except it's because it couldn't be helped. It's a reason that I can feel more Accepting about more than just "because this is my life, this is how things work". I don't belong anymore. But at least this way I won't have anything to feel like I don't belong to.

Two more steps and that would've been the end. But no. That's not the answer. The answer's....somewhere out there.