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Driver seducing you with card tricks
Hear me out. Weird quirk he has is he's oddly smooth with playing cards.
And first time he met you he used them to legit sway you into going home with himmm..
headed off to bed :p i got zero writing done, buttt i did get my masterlist/ nav page up!
so here are my late night horny ryland grace x reader thots (18+ smut incoming, fem!reader, p in v, the works) ((warning: unedited & iâm half asleep))
thinking about ryland pressing on your stomach while heâs fucking you.
âg-gosh, taking me so deep huh? feel good?â
heâs standing at the edge of the bed, youâre lying on your back on the mattress, one leg wrapped around his waist and the other propped up against his body, the heel of your foot resting on the front of his shoulder.
heâs watching the way your stomach bulges as he thrusts into you.
one of his hands comes to your hip now, the other splays over your torso, pressing lightly.
you can feel every inch and every ridge and vein of his cock as he slams into you. hard and deep, but not too fast. heâs taking his time.
one hand snakes down to rub at your clit, the other moves up to rest below the base of your neck.
âplease,â you moan out.
âplease what, baby?â he asks, âam i not giving you enough? so greedy.â
you canât find the words to beg, so you place one of your hands over the one heâs placed below your neck and move it higher up on your throat.
he gets the hint and squeezes lightly, applying the perfect amount of pressure as his hips start to move faster.
he groans as he watches your mouth fall open, his name falling off your lips over and over again.
âsâgood, ryland. you feel so good,â you mumble, starting to feel drunk on his cock.
he stops rubbing your clit just before you can finish.
âkeep telling me how good it feels, honey. need you to tell me,â he rasps.
his eyes are half lidded, drooping behind his glasses, which are starting to slide down the slender bridge of his nose.
he squeezes your throat again after a moment of reprieve and feels you instantly clench around his cock.
âf-fuck! you feel so good, ryland. so good to me, wan- want to c-cum,â you whine, your hands moving to reach out for him.
both of his hands move to your waist and he pulls out quickly, letting your legs fall.
you want to cry.
âwhatââ you begin to ask.
but he beats you to it, he flips you over so youâre bent over the bed.
he lines himself up, letting out a shudder as he pushes back inside you.
you moan louder than ever before as he hits the perfect spot inside of you.
your head falls into the mattress, cheek pressing into it as you arch your back and take it.
ryland moves to grab your wrists with one hand, holding them behind your back as he fucks into you mercilessly.
âstill good, baby?â he asks, blissed out.
ây-yea, so good,â you whimper into the mattress.
finally, he finds your clit again, rubbing circles as his hips start to stutter.
you know he canât cum until you praise him again, but you make him work for it.
he works you closer and closer to your orgasm as heâs hanging on by a thread.
he releases your wrists, moving to give your ass a gentle slap with the hand that had them pinned down. heâs urging you to say what he needs to hear.
you cave in just before you cum.
âgood boy, ryland. so good for me, you make me feel so good,â you praise, chasing your own high now.
he lets out a guttural moan, his breathing picks up, the sound of deep gasping breaths fills the room.
heâs whimpering your name now as he works carefully on your clit, trying his best to get you there before he taps out and finishes.
âbaby,â he whines pathetically, finally dropping his dominant facade.
you smirk, cheek still buried in the mattress.
âcum for me, be a good boy,â you finally say, voice completely wrecked as your orgasm tears though you.
âoh, ohhhh,â he wails, finally breaking and filling you to the brim with his cum.
you feel him pulse inside of you as he finishes. his spend runs down the back of your legs. his body nearly short circuits as he watches it drip.
at last, he collapses forward onto you, enveloping you in his strong arms.
he presses a kiss to your temple before picking you up and cradling you in his arms and taking you to the bathroom to clean up.
he sits you gently on the counter and turns on the sink.
after you both freshen up, you brush your teeth together, giggling the whole time.
eventually you fall asleep with your head on his chest, completely content and completely fucked out.
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writing smut is getting a little easier, but it is still so hard. im trying my best, you guys. thanks for reading :3
hoping to get to some requests soon!
no one gaf abt my ryland grace stoner au but idgaf iâm writing it anyway ugh heâs so sexc i must hit him with my stoner ray gun and make him hotter
hello your local femme here to request a full strap on butch clark fic thanks
inside of me
pairing: butch!clark x reader
summary: your girlfriend clark puts you in the mating press position.
word count: 588
content warnings: 18+ only! this is just pure smut. nothing else. strap on sex (r!receiving). praise kink. clark is a little shit in this. not really proofread since i am on a road trip rn.
tag list: @punksnotdeadbutiam, @unabashedlyinlovewithyou, @whotfisthatsblog, & @polkadotprint444! wanna be added?
a/n: thank you anon for requesting this. i <3 the strap!! i got the mating press idea from this post.
âGood golly, sweetheart⌠look at how sheâs sucking me in.â
Clark had you on her bed, pinned in the mating press as she pushed the siliconeâthat was too big for your cunt in and out of you.
You whimpered pathetically with each thrust. Your knees that were against your chest were aching, but you didnât care, or even realize it. Your mind was basically putty at this point.
Her big calloused hands kept her body wide open, stretching out. With each slow, deliberate roll of her hips elicited a sharp gasp out of you.
Her hand cradles your face, smiling down at you mischievously, âGreedy little thing, isnât she?â
You nod, leaning your head backwards against her pillow. You then mewl as her lips attach to your neck, sucking onto your skin. Your cunt flutters around her when she hits that one sweet spot.
Clark felt your thighs tremble as she applied the most pleasurable pressure, getting you to chant pleas for her to go faster. âOh, fuck⌠f-fuck. Clark.â
She hums against your neck, nipping at it. She pulls the strap out and grins when you whine. Your hands harshly drag down her back, but she doesnât even feel it. âOh, is it not good enough for you, pretty girl?â
You shake your head, drooling while you hiccup, âNo, no, Clark.. It was p-perfect. Just needââ
You almost hate yourself for how badly you need it, especially when you see your girlfriendâs shit-eating grin. If you werenât so cockdrunk on her strap, youâd say something about how you know Ma Kent didnât raise her to be like this.
She nodded, teasingly dragging the tip across your slick folds. It catches on your clit when she speaks again. âOh, I know, babyâŚ. I was just trying to be nice. You know how sensitive you get sometimes.â
You released a low, aching note as your back arched against her bare chest, âI can take it.â
Clark smiled slyly, tilting her headâinching it back into you, âOh, yeah? You can?â
You nod vigorously as you cry out, feeling her stretch you out again. âYes, stop toying with me.â
She chuckles softly, creating a faster pace, âAinât my fault, love. You make it too easy.â
The strap somehow sinks deeper than before, probing against your G-spot. If your brain wasnât short-circuiting before, it sure is now. The angle overwhelms you in the best way.
The sound of Clarkâs pelvis hitting against yours echoes throughout the room. The thick base of the strap continues to widen you in a way you didnât know was possible. Your eyes squeeze shut, almost screaming, "Oh my God, Clarkâ"
Her hips shudder as your inner walls start to spasm around her cock. She speeds up, chasing your peak. âThatâs it, darling. Taking it so wellâsqueezing me so good.â
Then you feel your entire body locking up. A broken very escape from your mouth, pulsing around her. Everything feels so fucking humid and endless around you two. You begin to sob as the coil in your gut snaps, âClark⌠Iâm cumming. Oh, Godââ
It hits you so goddamn hard that vision whites out. You come around the strap like a thunderous force. But it doesnât get Clark to stop. She keeps fucking you, calling you a good girl under her breath. Youâre not sure if sheâs trying to help you ride it out or taunt you.
Once she eventually pulls out, she laughs at the white rings around the silicone dick. âGosh, you soaked me completely, babygirl.â

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god ryland would be SO good at talking us through it, i already know.
but how would he react if the roles were switched? heâs just become accustomed to using his voice during intimacy, finally comfortable with whispering filthy words in your ear and praising you, even when youâre on top. but say heâs had a hard day, asks you to ride him, and sayyyy reader takes initiative and starts talking to him like that. not like usual, but more to sort of guide him into a subspace đđ
yes yes yes!!
you could tell the type of day ryland had experienced just from looking at him. his movements were stiff, tension held in his shoulders that just wouldnât go away.
the gentle words that came out of his mouth when you climbed into bed didnât surprise you, not one bit.
âdo you think you could ride me tonight, honey? i just wanna feel you for a little while. youâre not too tired, are you?â his words are soft and sincere as he speaks. you know with one hundred percent certainty that if you told him you were too tired, the conversation would end there and there would be absolutely no pushing from him.
âmânever too tired for you.â you tell him with a soft smile, the response is easy and truthful.
you waste no time, shimmying out of your cotton pajama bottoms and underwear before crawling over to him. you straddle him, hands placed on his shoulders to balance yourself as you get seated in his lap. you really feel the tension in his shoulders now, woven deep into his muscles, right under your finger tips. your bottom lip juts out, unpleased with the realization. ryland takes quick note of this, his eyes moving around behind his glasses and coming to rest on your lips.
âwhatâs that sad little face for, huh, sweetheart?â his brows furrow together as he brings his hand up to your face, rubbing his thumb lightly across your jutted out lip. his eyes track the way your lip moves under his thumb.
âyouâre so tense, ry.â you sigh, fingers working their way into his muscles to try to alleviate some of that tightness. you know tonight is one of those nights where ryland is going to need a little extra care from you.
âi know.â he whispers, sucking a breath between his teeth as your finger digs into a relatively sensitive spot on his shoulder. âlong day.â he sighs, withdrawing his hand reluctantly from your face and running it through his hair before he places it down against the mattress.
âyeah?â you hum, grinding yourself down onto him through his sweatpants. âi can help you. you want me to help you relax, right?â your voice is soft and sweet, penetrating him deep in his stomach and coating his insides with sugar. you know just how to work him, what makes him fall apart right under you.
âplease.â he nods, letting out a deep breath at the contact, shoulders slouching and eyes closing as he lets the sensation wash over his body. the feeling of his thighs twitching under you already has you smiling with pride.
you continue, hips rolling languidly against his lap. you feel the way he begins to harden underneath you, which only gives you more courage to continue.
âdoes that feel good?â you whisper, moving your hands from his shoulders to the nape of his neck, fingers grabbing at the short hair that rests there.
âyeahâyes,â he sighs, eyelids opening once more to see your face. his eyes peer into yours from behind his glassesâhis pupils have grown, blown wide as that familiar desire creeps into his limbs and makes its way to his stomach. âyou always feel good.â he smiles lazily, hands coming to rest on your hips to help guide your movements against him.
with the added force of his hands on your hips, one particularly rough drag of your core against his now hard dick has you gasping involuntarily. you look down to his lap and see that his light grey sweatpants now have a darker patch covering them, evidence of your wetness rubbing against him.
you slow the motion of your hips and raise slightly from his lap, which causes a dissatisfied sound to fall from rylandâs lips at the loss of contact.
âslide your sweatpants down, ry.â you order him gently, fingers scratching at the back of his neck. he nods, hands moving from your hips and down to the elastic waistband of his sweatpants, thumbs hooking into them and pushing them down just far enough for his dick to spring free and hit his stomach.
you donât settle back down on his lap just yet, instead, you lean forward to place a gentle kiss against his cheek, then a peck against his lips. âlet me take care of you tonight, yeah?â you whisper against his lips before pulling away completely.
being cared for without expecting something in return is something that ryland is still getting used to (and sometimes canât believe), so when you meet his eyes again, heâs looking at you as if youâve hung all the stars in the sky specifically for himâall because of that one simple sentence.
âokay.â he agrees at last with a faint nod of his head. you give him a small knowing smile which he returns immediately.
you finally sit back down to continue the rolling of your hips, the wetness from your core coating the length of him in preparation as you drag yourself back and forth against him.
heâs sighing at the contact, head falling back to rest against the headboard before he raises his hands to your hips again, but this time they donât guide youâthey just rest there, allowing him to ground himself.
âare you ready?â you whisper against his ear, your breath tickling his skin as you speak.
âiâm always ready for you.â he answers quickly, voice low and honest.
you remove one hand from his neck and push it down between the two of you, grabbing his hardened length in your palm and giving it a few strokes before lifting your hips and guiding his tip to your entrance.
you swear you can feel ryland shake under your fingertips in the anticipation of feeling your tight, welcoming warmth wrap around him.
you begin to take him in, your walls expanding around him as they accommodate the familiar stretch youâve grown very quickly to crave. ryland breathes in deep, holding the breath and not letting it go until youâre fully seated on him and heâs buried to the hilt.
only then does he release the breath heâs holdingâhis head falling forward to rest against your shoulder as his fingers squeeze the flesh of your hips.
âfeels good?â you question, already knowing the answer, but still wanting to hear him say it.
âso goodâalways so good.â he mumbles into your shoulder, arms moving to wrap around your back and pull you even closer into his chest.
once youâre adjusted to the familiar stretch, you start slow, rolling your hips against him as you grind yourself down onto him. the head of his dick is pressing in deep, pulling soft moans from you as you feel him right where you need him most.
you raise yourself, ever so slightly, then let yourself fall back down into his lap. rylandâs breath hitches at the stimulation.
âis this what you needed, ry? to feel me wrapped around you?â you question, panting as you work up a steady rhythm, raising your hips, then letting them fallâbouncing yourself in his lap with more momentum.
âyesââ he nods frantically against you, âyes, i just needed you.â he groans, placing wet kisses against your shoulder to try to muffle the sounds that are falling from his lips.
you canât help but notice the way ryland is leaning into youâhis body slouching as that tightness expels itself from his muscles with each and every deep drag of him against your walls.
âi love feeling you inside of me, ryland.â you whine, pressing a kiss against the side of his head as you continue to push him further to the edge. âi love making you feel good.â you hum, lips pressed into his ear as you speak.
the rest of that unwelcome tension and stress inside of him dissolves right then and there as if the words youâre speaking to him are some sort of magic potion to cure all of his ailments.
âgodââ he groans, his hips twitching as he hears the soft words youâre speaking specifically for him and him alone. âi donât deserve you.â he whispers, voice breaking off at the end with heightened emotion.
âyou do.â you argue, driving yourself down against him with quicker momentum. you feel the way his length twitches inside of you as he grows closer to painting your insides with his release.
you use the hand thatâs placed in his hair to pull him back away from your shoulder to get a good look at him. his cheeks are tinted red, glasses askew, and his eyes are glassed over with pent up emotion. your chest constricts at the sight.
he is utterly beautiful when heâs a mess underneath you.
âi want to feel you cum inside of me. can you do that for me, please?â you question, voice low as you begin to feel the familiar tightness growing in your own stomach.
a small âyesâ is all he can manage to get out before heâs leaning in and pressing his lips against yours. you tug at his hair with your fingers as you work harder to make him collapse under you.
thereâs the familiar twitch of him inside of you before heâs letting go like you asked him to, covering your insides with his seed. he groans into your open mouth as you squeeze around him to help milk as much as you can from him.
âi love you, i love you so much.â heâs panting out, placing kisses against your jaw as he uses his last bit of energy to drive up into you, helping you reach your own release as he rides out the end of his.
your chest is heaving as your movements slow, then come to a halt. âi love you.â you return the sentiment, a tired smile making its way across your face as you feel him begin to soften ever so slightly inside of you.
ryland is spent. his blonde hair is sticking to his forehead from sweat and you can see the tiredness creeping into his eyes. every blink is slower than the lastâas if his eyelids are growing heavier with every passing second.
âhow do you feel?â you question, maneuvering your hand to his forehead to brush his hair back before letting your hand linger, your palm caressing his jaw softly as you rub your thumb across his cheek.
âbetter,â he answers, turning his head to place a quick kiss against your palm before heâs nuzzling his cheek into your gentle touch.
âalways better because of you.â
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ain't no country boy quitter
pairing: butch!clark kent x sex columnist reader
summary: itâs been roughly three years since clark kent arrived in metropolis as superwoman. while battling interdimensional monsters and alexa luthor, she becomes annoyingly smitten with the daily planetâs bold sex columnist. one day during a lunch break, she overhears her crush confess to lois about her upcoming column about superwomanâŚ.
word count: 5.9k (it got away from me)
content warnings: 18+ only!! these idiots are IN LOVE!! slow burn romance, my beloved. pure fluff in the beginning. 80% of this is just dialogue, iâm sorry. reader rambles and embarrasses herself in front of superwoman. clark fucking reader as superwoman. oral sex and fingering (r!receiving). clarkâs scissoring game is UNGODLY. soft dom!clark talks you through it. she also loves your tits <33
tag list: @punksnotdeadbutiam & @unabashedlyinlovewithyou! wanna be added?
a/n: this was not proofread! i am posting this past midnight, so it will be messy. but we die like men. enjoy and reblog please.
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âThese are for you,â Clark said, awkwardly holding out a bouquet of violets and lilies. In the middle of the bustling newsroom filled with hyper-caffeinated reporters, your coworker Clark Kent, Smallvilleâs golden girl in flannel, was giving you flowers for your birthday.
As you gently took them from her hands, your fingertips grazed her skin. You attempted to shake off the thought that Clark had, for a second, melted under your touch. Too many coffees this morning. You managed a quiet thank you as you placed the bouquet down on your desk, trying to hide your obvious flustered state.
It was juvenile, actuallyâborderline hypocritical that you were acting like this. For almost five years at the Daily Planet, youâd been writing about sex. Passion. Unabashed desire. What itâs like to hook up with thirty-somethings. Modelizers. Threesomes. Hell, even foursomes. So why did you suddenly become so strung out every time Clark came within five feet of you?
When you eventually glanced back up at herâat her full six-foot gloryâyou smiled softly. Clarkâs expression subtly shifted as you tried to sound confident. âTheyâre beautiful, Clark. I love them.â
She nodded, gulping as the words seemed to escape her. âIâyeah. Good. Iâm happy you like them.â
Clark didnât move right away, and neither did you. You cleared your throat, running your hands down your outfit. âIs there anything else you need, sweetie?â
She blinked, snapping herself out of whatever fantasies she was having, and vigorously shook her head. âNo. Just⌠happy birthday.â
Clark then nodded once more, too quickly, as she started to back up, trying to smoothly return to her desk while maintaining her gaze on you. She bumped into a fellow reporter, causing them to drop all their papers. âAh, darn it. Iâm so sorry,â she immediately said, leaning down to help the person out.
You watched her, tilting your head slightly as you pouted while she clumsily cleaned up the mess. God, she was such a puppy dog. Even in your Clark afterglow, you still picked up the scent of cheap cologne behind you. You could practically hear that smirk already forming in Jimmyâs thoughts. âShut up, Jimmy.â
Later during your lunch break, you were sitting in the staff lounge at a small table with Lois. You were stabbing a piece of leftover birthday cake from your friendsâ surprise party the night before. Lois scoffed while watching you. âYou really think Perry would approve of that?â
You playfully rolled your eyes, swallowing the bite of your cake that was mostly fondant. âPlease, in my first year here, he published that one column of mine about my friend Sammyâs girlfriend wanting to do it up the butt.â
Lois chuckled before sipping her bitter coffee. âWell, that was differentâand kind of expected of you. This is a piece about lesbians wanting to screw Superwoman. For fuckâs sake, you wanna name it âSupersexâ.â
The second she uttered the words, Clarkâof courseâwalked past the break room after coming back from fighting Ultrawoman all afternoon. Her steps slowed down as soon as she heard her alter egoâs name slip from Loisâ mouth. She didnât mean to lean against the doorframe and listen in, but apparently, curiosity killed the superhero.
You came to your ideaâs defense quickly. âHey! Itâs not about lesbian women wanting to fuck her. Itâs more about why people continue to drag politics into the bedroomâwhy so many gay women Iâve talked to use Superwoman as a haven during sex. She basically represents strength without the threat that sometimes comes with it. Itâs like protection without the patriarchy.â
Out in the hallway, Clark found herself glued to the floor. She felt like sheâd been thrown into a building again, as she had only an hour ago. Her body straightened up against the doorframe, suddenly very aware of how obvious it was that she was eavesdropping.
Your words, âSuperwoman as a haven during sex,â were already repeating throughout her mind. Her face was entirely red, from embarrassment and from the new insight that people were role-playingâor cosplaying herâshe couldnât remember the exact term for it in such an intimate manner. She gulped in slight discomfort, but she kept on listening to their conversation.
Lois replied to you, âYouâre lucky Perry loves you for some reason unknown to me, and that youâre good at your job, because that pitch is still batshit insane. It would be better if you could get an interview with Superwoman.â
She laughed, but despite your best efforts, you perked up immediately at the mere concept of it. Lois paused, pointing her fork at you. âDonât even think about it. I was just pulling your chain.â
You were already somewhere else, biting down on your lip, fantasizing about finally being alone in a room with the most powerful woman in the world. âStranger things have happened, Lois,â you mumbled.
Following that week, you were lingering near the edge of a blocked-off street. You were fiddling with your press badge against your chest, tapping your foot against the cement. The people around youâcommon civilians and even more thirsty reportersâwere trying to push you out of the way, but you remained put, refusing to give up your position.
Most of you were there for the same reason: Superwoman. She was hopefully nearing the end of her grueling fight with one of Alexa Luthorâs creatures. You were supposed to be maintaining your gaze on her steel limbs and quick movements across the sky. Yet you were too focused on Clark Kentâor the lack of her.
Where was she? Every time Perry published one of her articles about Superwoman that included an interview with her, Clark told you guys that she just happened to be at the right place at the right time. You had your doubts like any journalist would, often teasing her and asking if Superwoman was her girlfriend.
She would always blush like a little schoolgirl, shaking her head with a tight smile as she muttered, âI donât see why good journalism is funny.â
You frowned as you momentarily forgot about the superhero that was harshly throwing the Luthor tech monstrosity into the pavement, causing nearby vehicles and pedestrians to rattle. Despite your distraction, you could faintly hear the ground crackingâsomething you could already imagine Jimmy commenting on tomorrow after Clarkâs next Superwoman article hits the front page again, but only if she actually shows up.
Finally, the final impact rippled through the entire block. As Clarkâor Superwomanâcontinued to hover in the sky and dust from the wreckage swirled around her, her posture straightened involuntarily as her eyes scanned the crowd below.
She was barely paying attention to how some civilians were almost getting trampled by emergency crews and reporters, or to all the accidental damage she had created in the aftermath, but to you standing right there, waiting for herâboth Clark and Superwoman.
The worst part was that you were looking right back up at her. You squinted your eyes as she quickly looked away, swearing she had made eye contact with you.
You knew you probably didnât, since the last time youâd felt this way was at your first concert, sitting in the nosebleeds, watching your favorite artist talk to the crowd and foolishly believingâout of sheer adrenaline and delusionâthat they had actually seen you.
Superwoman eventually landed a distance away from the barricade, not daring to even approach you. Instead, she turned her attention toward the rampage of squealing children rushing to her. Cameras started to flash behind as she crouched down to their level, already welcoming them into one big group.
You bit down on your lip as she picked one child upâa little girl with light brown ringlet curls in a sparkly dressâand twirled her around in the air. You could hear her voice as the little girl giggled. âYou look like a princess!â
Against your better judgment and your infatuation with Clark, you immediately filed this sight of Superwoman away for posterityâblaming it on your ovulation, or whatever felt convenient in the moment to make yourself feel a little less slutty.
The echoes of the childrenâs laughter drifted into the background as their parents began gathering them up, stuttering thanks to Superwoman for giving their kids even the slightest bit of attention. She straightened again, flashing them that charming smile that had made you want to bash your head in after seeing it on TV in the newsroomâand now you werenât sure youâd survive seeing it in person.
As the crowd behind you fizzled out, you kept watching Superwoman gently guiding overstimulated, clingy children toward their proper caretakers. It strangely reminded you of that one time when you and Clark spent all afternoon looking for a poor lost tabby catâs rightful owner after she found it outside your home.
You even stayed, unlike the reporters and civilians, noticing the awkward interaction between Superwoman and the Justice Gang. If you didnât know any better, you might have guessed that she was trying to fight the urge to zip away. Thankfully for her sake, you didnât have superhearing abilities like she didâespecially when Guy Gardner saw you standing there, resembling a child who had just thrown up in the middle of the night.
He let out a slow whistle, gesturing toward you. âHey, somebody is waiting for you, dude.â Superwoman didnât have to follow where his finger was pointing. She knew you were still there. She glanced at you briefly, sucking on her teeth. âYeah, I know. Coworker. She wants to, uh, do an interview with me.â
Guy wiggled his eyebrows, lightly punching Superwomanâs shoulder like she was one of the bros, while Mr. Terrific and Hawkgirl were already mentally clocked out. âAn interview, huh?â he joked. âAre you completely sure thatâs the only thing she wants?â
Superwoman frowned at him, tilting her head in disapproval. âCome on, Guy? Seriously?â Her question only stirred Guy on, his shit-eating grin widening. She dipped her chin as she relented and started to walk over to you. Her voice dripped with roughness. âGoodbye.â
You barely had enough time to fix yourself once it hit you that the woman of steelâSuperwoman herselfâwas not only approaching you, but making eye contact with you. When she stopped in front of you, you failed to remain strong and professional the second you gave that damn smile again, now directed only at you.
Her voice fell from her defined cupidâs bow as she asked gently, âIs everything okay over here, maâam?ââtrying to sound as normal as she possibly could.
The next night, the impending interview with the infamous superhero. She was running an hour behind. You were running two hours behind. Somewhere between taking apart your closet and the remaining shock, you had forgotten about making dinner for your guest.
You had music playing in the background as you ran around your kitchen. As you attempted not to overcook the already crappy food on the stove, you were still thinking about how you got her to agree to this crazy idea.
Once you returned to the Daily Planet after your walk back, leaving erratic voicemails to Clark about questions about where the hell she was, the second and third people you told were Lois and Jimmy.
Both of them stared at you like youâd just casually discovered Kryptonite as you explained that you dared to ask Superwoman not just for an interview for an article about people role-playing as her during sex, and that she was actually open to your stupid suggestion about having dinner at your place.
As the initial bewilderment passed and a flushed Clark reappeared in the newsroom with messy hair and a poorly buttoned dress shirt, Jimmy tried to share the jarring news with Superwomanâs favorite reporter. Luckily, you caught him in time, throwing a pen at his head before he could. âOw! What was that for?â he asked, rubbing his forehead with a pout.
You flicked your fingers at Jimmy, giving him a warning glare to drop it immediately. It was bad enough that even after three years of Clark working here, she still referred to you as an âintimacy writer.â You didnât want her to know you were writing a column about her idol-friend in that way. Little did you know.
Now your shoesâthe same ones you often wear at work because of Clark, which give you an extra few inchesâtap against the hardwood floor. You try to indulge in the slow, traditional musicâthe kind you imagine Superwoman listens toâbut your mind is too frazzled. Not to mention the small radio on your counter next to the stove, updating you on your late date and overpowering your record player.
As you were placing the plates down on your round dining table, feeling like a housewife, there was a tap on the glass door leading out to your balcony. Your body froze, except for your hands that were shakily grazing the plate you just set down. Another tap echoed throughout your home, snapping you out of the haze.
You wiped your clammy palms on your perfect outfit as you crossed the room. When you reached to open the door, your heart dropped to your stomach. There she was.
Superwoman was standing awkwardly on your teeny tiny balcony, acting like she was one of those bugs that was more scared of you than you were of it. You noticed how her cape was drawn in and how tense her shoulders were. She was also hidingâor trying to at leastâto hide in the shadows so your neighbors wouldnât see her. You appreciated her anonymity, since you knew she was doing it to protect you from possible scrutiny and harm more than herself.
Her eyes were already on you, glancing down your body, taking in your clothes. Her heart softenedâyou dressed up for her. She melted when she heard the flutter of your heart from her gaze. For a minute you two stood there in silence.
You managed a meek, âHi.â
She responded with a soft sighâsomething she seemed to remember she could do. âHello, Miss.â
You felt your body freeze again at the sound of her voice. You forgot how to speak. For Godâs sake, youâd apparently left your brain in your kitchenâor maybe last month, before you even came up with this column idea.
âHi. Shit, I already said that, didnât I?â
Superwoman nodded, chuckling. âYou did, but thatâs okay. I understand.â
She cleared her throat. âI donât mean to come off as improper, but can I come in, beforeââ
Your brain short-circuited slightly, laughing dryly. âOh, yes. Iâm sorry. Please come in.â
Superwoman leisurely stepped inside, slightly ducking her head. You eyed her as she stood by the threshold, unintentionally making her resemble a gentle giant in your small house. You didnât know why her mannerisms kept reminding you of Clarkâmaybe the two were rubbing off on each other or something.
She adjusted her cape. âYou look pretty⌠really pretty.â
Your brain short-circuited. âOh, um⌠thanks. Thank you?â You let out another dry chuckle, turning on your heel and guiding her to the dining room.
As she quietly followed, her eyes traveled around your home. Unbeknownst to you, Superwoman had already been here beforeâeven slept on your couch after you needed company after a bad date. But tonight, it seemed different to her. The lighting was warmer. The smell of homemade food lingered in the air. Or maybe it was just because she was finally on a not-really-date date with you.
She spoke while keeping pace with you. âYou have a lovely home.â
A mortified sound escaped your lips, something that landed somewhere between a hum and a forced chuckle. You waved off her compliment, nodding no. âItâs such a mess, I apologize. I started cleaning five hours ago.â You gestured toward the dining room as it came into your eyesight. âBut thank you.â
Superwomanâs smile deepened, widening as she saw what was sitting on your wooden dining room table. Simple silverware and plates that had grilled chicken and mac and cheeseâwhat she knew was your comfort food. She peered at you, biting down on her grin. âThis is nice. Looks good.â
You let out another forced laughâsomething that seemed to come out on autopilot. âThanks. Youâre lucky I didnât give up and go to the store and buy microwaved meals.â
She complied as you gestured to her seat and sat down. âThat would have been fine too. Iâm not a picky eater.â
You winced as the words continued to slip out of your mouth. âOh, well, I love that for youâyour parents probably loved you.â
You pointed toward your kitchen behind you, smile tightening. âIâm gonna, uh, go grab our drinks. Is soda okayâthatâs all I have. And turn off the radio. I forgot it was on. I was using it to keep track of you. Sorry, that was kinda creepy.â
As your back was facing her, you whispered a quiet âfuck,â reeling from your embarrassment, completely unaware that Superwoman was smirking at your endearing rambles. She was amused that you were just as nervous as she was.
When you returned with the sodas in your hand, she seemed more relaxed now, but still sitting carefully, as if she didnât want to break your beautiful furniture. She leaned in to you as you set down her soda. âThe music youâre playing is pleasant.â
You brightened slightly, shrugging as you sat across from her and setting your soda down. âOh, thanks. I figured you might enjoy it.â You regretted your words when you noticed her brow lift.
Against your will, more words decided to come out. âI mean, Iâm not saying that I imagine you in that way. Iâm not. My mind just thought that since youâre Americaâs symbol of hope, youâd listen to music like this.â
She tilted her head slightly, snorting lightly. âI actually listen to a lot of punk rock.â
You blinked. âYou do?â
âYes, I do.â
âOh. Well, I donât have that genre on vinyl. But my record player can connect to Bluetooth, though. I can justââ
Superwoman raised a hand, dismissing your offer. âItâs fine, sweetie. I like this too. I can introduce you to my favorite bands later.â
You donât know what shuts you up firstâthe goosebumps rushing up your body like a flood from the pet name, or the thought of seeing her again.
Dinner was beyond awkward.
Not awkward in the awful sense, just painfully self-aware awkward. Your food was barely touched since you were riddled with nerves, whereas the woman across from you had devoured her entire plate. After wiping her chin like a well-mannered superhero, she spoke up.
âSo when does this interview of yours start?â
Your body went rigid, your gaze flicking to her as your hovering fork trembled. âWhenever you want. I, uh, kind of forgot it.â
She shrugged, reassuring you. âWeâre taking this at your own pace. I made sure to ask for the night off.â
Besides Vivienne Clareâs âSilver Lullabyâ playing in the background, it was so quiet you could hear a pin drop. You placed your fork down, gulping as you hoped your voice didnât sound too shaky. Why were you so nervous? It was dĂŠjĂ vu from all the times before with Clark.
âCan I start now? Before I lose my nerves.â
âOf course you can.â
You hesitated before finding your voice again. âOkay, first question. How did you feel when I told you that peopleâqueer women in generalâhave been using you as a symbol during sex?â
Your shifty eyes finally met hers. To your surprise, she was already staring. She had an attentive and patient expression, as if sheâd been waiting for you forever. Then:
âIâm not going to lie. It did baffle me at first. But as I thought about it, public figures like myself are generally going to get interpreted differently. There are some people like Alexa Luthor who believe Iâm no good⌠and there are people like you.â
You blinked. âPeople like me?â
Superwoman huffed, her grin remaining. âYes. People like you who see me as a humanâeven in this suit.â
Something in your chest tightened at that, making your heart skip several beats. Her unwavering gaze on you made all your coherent thoughts come undone.
âDoes it bother you? Knowing that people are getting their partners to essentially role-play as you?â
You watched her smirk and tilt her head, your thighs tightening around nothing as you realized it might be one of the most beautiful things youâd ever seen on a woman.
She replied softly, âNo, it doesnât.â
You paused once more.
âIt doesnât?â you probed, surprised.
Superwoman shook her head. âAs long as both parties are on equal terms, and it stays within the limits of their bedroomâwithout interfering with me personallyâIâm more than okay with it. People are allowed to express themselves freely, even sexually. This is a free country.â
You snorted, the composed superhero continuing to unravel you. But something in her answer made you study her. You gasped, lifting your fork to point accusingly at her. âYou practiced! You did your homework.â
She exhaled through her nostrils, putting her hands up slightly. âAh, you caught me. Itâs just not every day Iâm asked by an intimacy writer if I want to be interviewed for an article aboutââ
You waited a beat. Intimacy writer. That phrase. You know that phrase. Why do you know that phrase? It sounds so familiar, but so different hearing it from her. Too specific. God, maybe Superwoman did turn your brain into mush.
You tried again, finishing her sentence. âYour persona being used as a haven during sex?â
She didnât flinch from your bluntness; her smirk only grew as her voice dropped slightly. âSomething like that.â
Despite currently having your A/C on to battle the Metropolis heat, a burning sensation took over your entire body. Damn itâshe was using the voice on you. How were you supposed to survive that?
You exhaled quietly, not knowing what to do with your fork anymore. âYou really did practice.â
âI did,â she stated, her eyes twinkling at the glorious sound of your heartbeat continuing to spike. It hasnât calmed down since she walked through your window. âI was nervous⌠just like you. Nervous about saying the wrong thing to such a well-respected columnist.â
You snickered, keeping yourself from making a self-deprecating jab at your line of work, not wanting to get a lecture about how you should respect yourself more from the woman of steel herself. If she knew half the things that were running inside your head right now, sheâd realize that you had none at all.
âThatâs highly ironic,â you said. âConsidering every time I open my mouth, something worse comes out than before.â
That earned you another chuckle. You didnât know your chaos could be so endearing to someone else.
âYouâre being honest. Itâs rare to see somebody like you who also wears your heart on your sleeve as I do.â
Okay, it was official. You were melting. Or you had already melted all over your chair, slipping off it and becoming part of your carpet. You quickly grabbed your soda, giving her a tight smile before guzzling it down like it was tequila.
Once you finished, you noticed her eyebrows fully raised, her smirk having transformed into a grin. âYouâre very good at making me forget my own questions.â
She teasingly pouted, head tilting to the side. âWell, I apologize for that. Itâs not my intention.â
Your empty glass hit the table as you began to fidget. âNo, itâs my fault. I should have written them down or something. I never interview peopleâI basically just take tidbits from my friendsâ lives and mine for my columns.â
Superwoman cleared her throat. âI know. Iâve read your work.â
You stared, momentarily thrown. âYou have?â
She nodded. âYes. Iâm a Metropolis citizen first before Iâm a superhero. Plus, Iâm usually already reading your coworkerâClark Kentâs articles about meâand youâre often next to hers.â
You shifted in your seat, avoiding her gaze. âYeah, even in the news, Clark and I still seem to find each other.â
Her smile softened, never failing to warm your heart. âI like to believe sheâd say the same about you.â
You muttered, âYeah, me too.â
Later in your kitchen, you were trying to wipe off the mac and cheese stains from the dirty plates as quickly as possible. Even though they were basically glorified plastic dishes you got for a buck at the store, you still wanted to keep them niceâespecially if you were going to do this again with Superwoman, as she mentioned before.
The interview got better once you started pretending your soda was actually alcohol. You asked her about maintaining her image and the responsibility that came with it. You questioned her ability to handle being perceived in every sense of the word.
Luckily for your column, she was answering all your questions perfectly. For your sake, she was answering them a little too humanly. You had to remind yourself this wasnât the time to get parasocial about Superwoman.
After youâd gotten all your material down in the back of your head, the conversation steered into something more personal. Suddenly, you were the one in the hot seat. She asked you about your lifeâwhat it was like being the Daily Planetâs first sex columnist and an openly lesbian woman.
As you rambled about your favorite artist or bookâor whatever it wasâyou could have sworn youâd told her before, particularly when she was nodding along, resting her chin on her hand, like sheâd heard it somewhere before but still wanted to hear you talk.
Her voice carried into the kitchen, probably still sitting at your dining room table: âEverything alright in there?â
Your plate almost slipped from your hand, reality shaking you out of your fantasy of her kissing you senselessly. âOh, uh, yeah! Just trying to get⌠the stains off the plates. Iâll be back out there in a second.â
Once you finished with the dishes and dashed over to your record player to stop it so you didnât damage your vinyl, you walked back into the dining room. You found Superwoman standing there, hands interlocked together at her waist.
She was smiling at you again. Yet this time, it seemed sad. Thatâs when it hit you. She was getting ready to leave. Of course she was. Not only was the dinner done, but so was the interview. Well, the interview was done almost two hours ago.
But the thoughtâthe sight of whatever this wasâmade you want to cry. You wondered why. Youâd only met this woman yesterday. So what if youâd had one of the best not-really-date dates with her? Or that your conversation with her was the most earnest youâd ever had with another person.
The words came out before you could stop them: âAre you leaving?â
Superwoman stared at you, bewildered, like she hadnât expected you to seem so disappointed. She let out a shaky breath, the awkwardness flowing back into her veins.
âYeah, I should,â she mumbled. âIâm guessing itâs late.â
She was rightâyour stove clock did say it was nine-thirty. Superwoman was probably the type of person who went to sleep early, like an old person. âRight, yeah. I donât mean to keep you.â
She pressed her lips together and held your gaze. âYouâre not, I promise.â
She held out her hand, putting herself on the line and hoping you would meet her halfway. âThank you for tonight. I enjoyed myself.â
Your mouth opened as you unsteadily slipped your hand into hers. âYeah, youâre welcome. I did too.â
The second your fingers grazed hers, something sparked within you. It wasnât subtle. It was electricâcompletely unmistakable. Like in every bad romance movie youâd watched growing up, the air now held a sudden tension so sharp you could cut it with one of Cat Grantâs heels.
Neither of you moved, until, before you could say anything, Superwoman pulled you in and crashed her mouth into yours.
At first, she was gentle, with a sense of desperation. Her other hand slid up to your waist, as if she wanted you to climb under her skin. The kiss wasnât rushedâuntil you let out a breathy moan.
Upon hearing you, the rest of her restraint snapped. Her grip on your waist tightened as the kiss deepened. Your hands clutched onto her suit, fingernails digging into the blue fabricâwhimpers continuing to fall from your mouth. At this point, she was the only thing keeping you steady.
Once she retreated, you felt her lips pecking at your jawline as her hand moved to your shoulder. In between devouring your moans and attacking your neck, she began tugging on the spaghetti strap of your top.
While licking your neck to soothe a hickey, she whispered, âBeen wanting to do that since forever.â
You whimpered back, biting down on your bottom lip to conceal your sounds. âWe met yesterday.â
She huffed as both straps of your top completely fell, eyeing your shoulders. âYou donât even know half of it.â
She leaned in to kiss you again, but you pulled away slightly. âI, uh, have this rule. I donât sleep with women I just met.â
Superwoman only chuckled against your lips, like she knew something you didnât. âWell, if it makes you feel better, itâs already tomorrow in Paris.â
Both her suit and your clothes were discarded onto your bedroom floor. Her naked body glistened on top of you beneath the sheets, each kiss growing more possessive as her desire for you becomes more uncontainable.
The room had already faded around you. It was just Superwoman kissing down your chest and smirking at the sight of your front-clasp bra. Your breath hitched when you felt her remove it, teasing you as she said, âSomebody meant business.â
You gasped loudly as you felt it in your head when she took your right nipple into her mouth while groping the other breast.
âSuch a pretty girl,â she mutters. âIf you knew how many times Iâve thought about thisââ
You cut her off with a blaring moan, "F-Fuck... I forgot⌠Ah, how sensitive I am.â
She chuckled, switching over to your left breast, enveloping your nipple with her lipsâgiving it a slight tug. "Mm, good. That gives me something to play with.â
Finally, her mouth unlatches from your nipple, now pressing kisses down your midriff before stopping at the edge of your panties. On instinct, she whimpered against your skin.
Sheâs been dreaming of this for three years straight. If she couldnât get drunk off a glass of wine, she could get intoxicated off your cum.
You lifted your hips, trying to get her where you needed her the most. âPlease, baby, please.â
She chuckled as her large palms held you down. âPatience, darling. Iâll get there.â
Her eyes skimmed down as your legs began to spread, noticing a dark patch on your underwear. She grins. âIs this all for me? Can I, sweetheart?â
You nod instantly, attempting to wiggle your hips, but her grip on them remains strong. âFuck, yes.â
Her left hand squeezes your thigh, before gradually sliding the lace down your legs. âLanguage.â
If you werenât in such a haze, youâd be more embarrassed by how soaked you were, or how another moan was taken from you as she dragged her tongue against your cunt.
You started acting like a fish out of waterâlegs shaking, hips bucking, and hands tremblingâtrying to get a hold of yourself.
She pulled away for a moment to get a better look at you, realizing sheâd let her greediness take over for a minute. She staredâmouth slightly agape. âGood golly⌠she looks even better than I imagined, honey.â
She lowers her head again, pressing her mouth to you more deliberately this time. She runs her tongue up and down your folds, causing you both to moan.
As you grind your aching cunt against her nose, she mumbles something about how youâre the best thing sheâs ever tasted. She even slipped two fingers into your hole, curling them just perfectly.
âOh, God,â you mewled as she switched to sucking on your clit. Your hand becomes tangled in her hair, pushing her down even furtherâif thatâs possible.
She whimpered into you once more, sending a thrilling vibration through youâmaking you feel like you were the one with the ability to fly.
As you were about to see the entire galaxy and come, she takes her fingers out and gently pulls her mouth away.
You cried out, raising your head slightly to see what was happening. âWhat⌠What's wrong? I was so cloââ
She giggled, guiding herself back up your body. With her hand, she brushed strands of hair away from your eyes. She nipped at your bottom lip. âI know, sweetie. You were doing so wellâtaking me so well.â
You threw your head back, slightly annoyed that Superwoman had just blue-balled you, for all intents and purposes.
âThen why did you stop?â
She smirked down at you, grabbing your legs to wrap them around her waist. âBecause I want you to come with me.â
âOh.â
She nodded, lining her cunt up with yours. You knew youâd be seeing the bruises on your skin from how tightly she had been holding you. âFigured you would like that.â
You two then started rubbing your cunts together in an agonizingly slow way. She groaned into your neck as your arms circled her neck. âGosh, baby. You feel so perfectâso warm.â
You whined, beginning to drool against your pillow as her clit hooked on yours. âOh my god, please!â
She kisses your cheek, pinching your nippleâgrinding against it a little faster. âThatâs it⌠Thatâs my good girl. Câmon, sweetheart. I know you can. Weâre so close.â
Her back finally hit your bed, her breathing heavyâbut not as much as yours. When she peered up at you, there was still a glassy film in your eyes. Your head had been swaying slightly as you slipped in and out of consciousness. You couldnât remember the last time you were fucked so good.
As she watched youâafter grabbing you a glass of water from the kitchen and peppering you with kissesâshe held back from telling you that she was in love with you. For all you knew, she was a stranger. She wondered if you did this sort of thing more than you admitted in your columns.
In the quiet aftermath of everything, she glanced up at your ceilingâlooking at all the cracks that seemed to mirror her mind. She involuntarily listened to your heartbeat, making sure it was steady.
For the very first time in her life, she didnât want to see your face. She didnât want to turn her head over and watch the slow rise and fall of your breathing. She knew if she did, sheâd get selfish and never want to let go of you. You didnât deserve somebody who used her alter ego to get into your pants.
After what felt like hours of damning silence and her thoughts running wild about how she could flee, she heard your soft, sweet laugh.
"Perry's gonna kill me. I just slept with both my interviewee and coworker."
Her head snapped toward you, eyes widening in utter disbelief and horror. "H-how did you know?"
You smirked at her, your hand searching for hers under the sheets. "You just told me."
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And They Were Roommates!
summary â an unexpected layoff forces you to move in with a random man you meet on the internetâwho just so happens to be ryland grace. a blind date forces the two of you to finally acknowledge your true feelings for one anotherâand just how deeply they run.
pairing â ryland grace x f!roommate!reader
content â fluff, slight angst, smut (mdni), oral f!receiving, subby!ryland, dirty talk, they (try to) ignore their feelings for each other, confessions of feelings, reader works at a library, ryland works at grover cleveland middle school
word count â 8.3k (it just kept growing!! my longest fic ever)
a/n â i want to preface this by saying that this is my first time writing for ryland and i have not yet fully read the book so if any of my writing for ryland seems out of character, i apologize! if there are any mistakes, please let me know & i hope you enjoy the fic! feedback is always appreciated <3
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A year ago, you never would have imagined needing to live with a roommate just to get by at nearly thirty years old, but life had other plans.
A layoff from your corporate job and taking a new position at the local library with a drastic pay cut had changed that, which is how you found yourself becoming roommates with Ryland Grace.
It was by chance, choosing your roommate. An online search that yielded only two results.
The firstâa man in his fifties who was, exclusively, looking for women in their twenties to share an apartment with. That one was easy to ignore, which left you with only a single other result that you had no hope for after reading the description of your first choice.
To your surprise, the description of your second option for a roommate was exponentially better.
Male, thirties, no pets, open to males or females. I occupy one bedroom in a two bedroom apartment and am looking for someone to occupy the other. You will have your own room, but a shared living room, kitchen and bathroom. My occupation is a middle school science teacher, so my schedule is set. I would prefer someone with a similar work schedule, but am open to other options as well. Rent and utilities will be split equally. If you are interested, my contact information is listed.
A year later, you canât help but be grateful for giving your second option a chance.
If you hadn't, you never would have met Ryland Grace.
You and Ryland had clicked almost instantly. He was kind and accommodating, even taking a whole entire Saturday to help you move all of your boxes and furniture in when you made the big move. The two of you also built your new dresser together that first weekend, which is the first big test of any relationship, platonic or romantic. It didn't end in arguing about who was right and wrong, instead the time was spent laughing together and getting to know how each others brains ticked. Admittedly, though, it did take the two of you entirely too long to build that dresser.
The two of you fell into an easy rhythm of living together. It helped that your schedules were similar, giving you more time to spend together after your workdays to get to know one another past just the surface level details. You had expected your roommate to be someone you were cordial with, spoke to in passing, but never went out of your way to get to know on a deeper level, but with Ryland it was different.
You found yourself looking forward to coming home and being able to debrief about your days together, which quickly became a habit. Ryland always speaking of the students in his classroom and you, always the kids that came into the library. Sometimes they overlapped, his students coming into the library after school to work on projects. You had heard stories about their fantastic science teacher, which you later learned was Mr. Grace. On one occasion, you let it slip that you knew Mr. Grace, which didn't seem like a big deal at the time, but you later realized was a mistake.
Ryland came home the very next day with a story about the huge rumor that had dropped that day about Mr. Graceâs secret girlfriend who worked at the library. The two of you spent the rest of the evening laughing about it, and it turned into one of your favorite inside jokes that you shared.
You did find yourself becoming attracted to the scientist-turned-science-teacher, but that was something you would never confess to, at least not to Ryland. It was too nice of a living situation to risk things turning sour, so you bit your feelings back and swallowed them down the best that you could. There had been hints of reciprocal feelings, small gestures and comments that never went any furtherânothing physical or concrete to really go off of.
Which is why you found yourself hooked up on a blind dateâsomeone a friend had said you might like. You didnât have high hopes, but you still agreed.
You just hadnât told Ryland yet.
You make your way towards the kitchen, freshly showered and dressed, but still stifling a yawn against the back of your hand as you cross the threshold into the kitchen.
âGood morning, sleepyhead. Did you snooze your alarms again?â The familiar cheery voice of Ryland greets you. He has his back turned towards you, pouring himself a cup of coffee. He's already dressed, wearing his knitted fox cardigan that you love, and had, admittedly, stolen a few times to wear to work. You received lots of compliments on it, too. It also was more ammunition to feed the secret girlfriend rumor at school.
âItâs not even seven yet, Ry.â You argue, pulling the chair out from the kitchen table and taking a seat. You did snooze your alarm, but you wouldn't dare to tell him that. You donât want to give him the satisfaction of being right this early in the morning.
âYouâre usually showering by six, I didnât hear the faucet turn on until quarter after six this morning.â He states matter-of-factly, finally turning to face you. Heâs holding two cups of coffee, you notice one of the mugs as hisâa mug you bought him for his birthday that says I make horrible science puns, but only periodically.
The other is yoursâa mug he bought you for Christmas thatâs speckled with stars, and in the center it says youâre the star of this story. He places the mug in front of you without a word before bringing his own mug to his lips and taking a large sip of his coffee, drowning almost half the mug in one go. You're positive it's probably already his second cup this morning.
âWow, Ry, thatâs a bit creepy, don't ya think? I think I might need a new roommate who hasnât memorized my shower schedule.â You tease with a smile, wrapping your fingers around the mug and letting the hot porcelain warm your palms. Truthfully, you liked that he had memorized your schedule. Knowing that you take up space not only in his apartment, but in his mind too makes your stomach flip with what you can only describe as butterflies.
âCâmon, after a year of living together I know your routine and our rhythms. Youâre trying to paint me unfairly as some freak and I do not appreciate that, thank you very much. Especially this early in the morning.â His eyes crinkle behind his glasses as he laughs, watching as you take a sip of your coffee. You hold it in your mouth, the sweetness of the creamer mixed with the bitterness of the coffee coating your tongue deliciously before you swallow with a content sigh.
He has your coffee preferences down, too. He used to tease you about how much creamer you consumed, saying that you liked the sugary taste more than the coffee itself, which while it was definitely true, you always argued that that just wasn't the case.
Though, recently, youâve noticed that there's always an extra unopened container of your favorite creamer sitting in the fridge, waiting specifically for you. He doesn't acknowledge this new habit, doesn't hold it over your head. It's just Ryland being Ryland, doing something for you and expecting absolutely nothing in return. Just one of the many reasons why you've found yourself holding a certain fondness for himâa crush? That sounds utterly ridiculous for your age, so you'll stick with fondness.
âGood?â He raises his eyebrow expectantly, his glasses have slipped down his nose, so he's staring at you over the lenses rather than through them, waiting for your response.
âPerfect.â You answer, placing the mug back down, a soft clink rings out as it hits the table. He smiles and nods, already knowing what your response would be.
"It's Friday, so you're off at four today, right?" He asks casually, bringing his mug back to his lips and finishing off his coffee before turning and placing the empty cup in the sink basin.
"That would be correct." You nod even though he can't see you. "You know, you're really not helping those freak accusations we talked about. First my shower schedule and now my work schedule? It just keeps piling up." Your voice is light, your smile shining through the words.
"Can't a guy just have a good memory?" He teases, spinning back around to face you. That slanted smile you've grown attached to is plastered on his lips.
"Maybe." You return with a shrug of your shoulders, smile still on your face. Everything pauses as the two of you just look at one another, taking each other in. The moment is soft and fleeting, but it still makes your heart clench. Before you know it, he's pushing himself away from the counter and coming to pass you, reaching his hand up and ruffling your hair as he passes by.
"Hey!" You protest, swatting your hand at him and missing, which earns you a childish laugh from him as he carries himself to the living room, entirely too pleased with himself.
The conversation lulls as the two of you go about your morning, existing side by side, but not exactly together. His presence is always near, but never overbearing. Itâs nice, comfortable even. You finish your coffee off before standing and making your way to the sink to set your empty mug beside his in the basin. His footsteps sound in the hallway, old floorboards groaning under his weight as he makes his way back to the kitchen where you still are, grabbing your lunch from the fridge to pack it away.
When he reaches the kitchen, he has his bike helmet in his hand and his backpack on his back, signifying that heâs getting ready to leave. âDid you want to get food from that new Thai place tonight? Iâve heard good things this week in the break room about it. I can grab it on my ride home if you do.â He offers, pausing by the table as you zip up your lunchbox. Your movements still as you take in his words.
Your date is tonight.
You know you're not doing anything wrong by going on a date, but your stomach still flips with a weird sense of guilt for Ryland and the fact that you haven't told him yet.
âActually, I wonât be home tonight,â you start, and you can see the confusion wash over his features in real time. âI have a date tonight.â
Your heart just dropped to your stomach.
You're sure of it.
It takes a few seconds, but he responds. âA date?â He echoes the word, voice slightly frayed at the edges. He tilts his head, shifting his weight between his feet uncomfortably as he waits for your response.
âYeah,â you laugh nervously, picking at the zipper of your lunchbox. âA blind date. One of my friends set it up, itâs silly really.â Your cheeks start to warm as you finish your sentence. That guilt that started in your stomach is working its way up to your chest, and it's moving rapidly.
Ryland recovers swiftly, nodding his head and giving you a small smile, but you're not really sure it reaches his eyes.
Are you making things up? Seeing things that aren't there?
You have to be.
âItâs not silly. Is he picking you up?â He questions, but you think you know what heâs really asking. Am I going to meet him?
âNo,â you shake your head quickly, âIâm taking the bus. Meeting him at the restaurant. I didnât want him to know where I live just yet. I know my friend knows him, but I just didn't really think that was a good idea. You never know." You know you were rambling, but you just couldn't stop yourself. It's something you do when you're nervousâa trait you've found out you share with Ryland.
âYeah, you never know really. Thatâs smart. Definitely very smart. I'm proud of you. Wellâuh, Iâve got to head out. I'm going to be late if I donât get going now. Iâll see you after work? Will I see you? Before your date?â He's rambling too, the both of you just word-vomiting all over the place from nerves. It could be funny if these weren't the circumstances.
âYeah, Iâll be here. Iâll see you before I leave. I hope you have a good day.â He's walking past you and to the door as you speak, planning his exit as quickly as he can. With his hand on the knob, he pauses and turns his head over his shoulder to look at you once more.
âYeah, you too. Sounds good. I'll see you tonight.â Then heâs out the door, leaving you standing alone in the middle of your shared kitchen with the feeling that you're doing something entirely wrong.
âââ
Your shift at the library seems to drag on and fly by simultaneously. Itâs probably the nerves. At this point you don't know if they're from your date, or seeing Ryland when you get home.
Probably both.
âââ
Before you know it, youâre home and changing into your dress for the date that you're not even entirely sure you want to go on anymore. You donât feel the need to make any drastic changes to your makeup, so you just do a small touch up on your makeup from work. Taking a final look in the mirror, you exhale a deep breath and work up the courage to make your way to the kitchen where you know Ryland will be waiting.
When you reach the end of the hallway, you see him sitting at the table, a pen in his hand and his focus on the stack of studentsâ tests that sit in front of him as he works through grading each of them thoroughly.
âYou know you really shouldnât be bringing work home, Mr. Grace.â You tease him like normal, because it's the only thing you know to do. Smoothing the skirt of your dress out, you close the distance to the kitchen table where he's stationed. His focus flicks up towards you, you watch the way his eyes take in your appearance, the way they linger on your dress before moving up to your face.
âThatâs the life of a teacher. Overworked and extremely underpaid.â He responds casually, placing his pen down and stretching his arms out. You hear something pop, probably his back from being stiff and him sitting crouched over the table.
Something you've gotten on him for plenty of times.
âIsnât that the truth.â You smile faintly, tapping your fingers against the table.
He only nods, so you continue, âWell, Iâm getting ready to head out. Do I look okay?â You question him quietly, pulling your arms to your sides so he can get a good look at you. You find yourself wanting his validation.
âYeah, you do,â he nods, giving you a small smile. âYou look very pretty in your dress. I like that color on you. It looks good with your skin tone.â His voice is soft and sincere, almost shy in a way as he speaks. It makes you smile, a real grin that you canât contain.
âThanks, Ry. I appreciate that.â And you do. More than he will ever know.
âIf you need anything, just call me, okay?â His voice has grown serious now. âIf anything at all goes wrongâdonât hesitate. Call me and Iâll be there to get you, even if I have to sit you on the back of my bike and peddle the both of us home.â You let out a small laugh at the mental movie your mind creates for you. It's ridiculous, but you're one hundred percent positive that he's telling you the truth.
âIâve got you on speed dial. You're my emergency contact if it goes south.â It sounds like a joke, but he really is your emergency contact.
Just the same as you are his.
âAnd you better use it if you need to.â He smiles, voice full of sincerity.
âI will. Iâll see you soon, yeah?â
âIâll see you soon. I hope it goes well.â
âThanks, Ry.â
Then you're out the door, leaving Ryland sat at the kitchen table wondering why his heart feels like it's been broken into two.
You knew the date wasnât going anywhere almost as soon as it started. The man was nice, the conversation flowed, but you just didnât click.
It also didnât help that you kept comparing him to Ryland all night. Comments he made, jokes he said that you just knew Ryland would never say. He didn't have that same effect on you that Ryland had. That easy connection that blossomed between the two of you almost instantaneously just couldn't be replicated with the man you met tonight, but that didn't surprise you, not really. Ryland was one of a kind, the type of soul that you could never find in another body no matter how hard you looked.
You knew your feelings for Ryland were there, constantly lingering and slowly growing, but you hadn't realized just how deeply they ran until tonight. All your date had shown you tonight was that you never wanted to go on another one if it wasn't with Ryland.
âââ
You turn the doorknob to your shared apartment and let yourself inâthe apartment is dark and quiet, except for the sound of old reruns playing on the television in the living room. Your eyes flick to the time on the clock and you furrow your brows.
It's late.
Ryland is usually sleeping by now.
You slip your sandals off slowly, careful to not make any excessive noise. Cautiously, you make your way towards the living room, your steps are quiet just in case Ryland has fallen asleep accidentally on the couch. It's not common, but it has happened before. You peer into the living room and see him on the couch, but he's not asleep just yet. His eyelids look heavy, half-lidded, trained on the television, but you're not sure he's actually watching it. You see an empty takeout container of what you can only assume is the Thai food he spoke to you about this morning. The old floorboards creak under your foot as you step on a particularly touchy spot, giving you away. His head turns quickly, eyes opening wider as he sees you standing in the entryway.
"Are you trying to sneak in on me?" He teases sleepily, that easy humor threading itself through his voice as he speaks.
"You caught me red handed." You sigh dramatically, raising your hands in mock surrender as you carry yourself further into the living room, not focused on being quiet anymore.
He watches you, silently, but you can tell there are words sitting in his throat that he won't let come out just yet. He waits, ever so casually, as you take a seat on the middle cushion of the couch, curling your legs up under yourself.
"Did you wait on me?" You know those aren't the words he wants to hear right now, but you ask anyway, eager to hear his answer.
"Yeah, wellâI tried to. I think I was about half asleep when you came in. Didn't even hear the door open." His response was what you were hoping to hear. A smile forms on your face as you watch him shift his body to face towards you. He props his elbow on the top of the back of the couch, leaning his head against his hand, the movement causing his glasses to slightly shift.
"I was quiet. I thought you'd be sleeping so I didn't want to disturb you." You shift now, scooting in deliberately closer to him. Your knee knocks into the side of his sweatpant clad thigh and he feels it, glancing down at the contact before bringing his eyes back up to find yours again.
Neither of you move.
"You never disturb me." He tells you softly, the words dancing around in the air for a moment as you pause.
"I don't think there will be a second date." You finally say, giving him an entryway into the conversation he's been waiting to have.
You swear he almost looks relieved when he hears confirmation that the date didn't go as planned. His shoulders loosen ever so slightly and he nods his head. "I'm sorry it didn't work out." The words sound sincere enough.
"No, don't be sorry. I didn't have high hopes anyway." You shrug casually, sighing lightly. "We just didn't click very wellâyou know?" You scrunch your brows together while you think and he gives you a nod to continue. "Sometimes you just click with people and you know it will lead somewhere. That didnât happen.â
"Yeah, I understand what you mean. Completely." A pause, then he opens his mouth to speak again, closes it, and the words wither up and die on his tongue before he can even spit them out.
"Like, you and I, we click. I just didn't feel that with him." You're hoping he catches the hint you're throwing him, but knowing Ryland, he probably hasn't.
"Yeah, we clicked very well. We're very good friends."
There is the confirmation that he hasn't caught the hint. It makes you laugh, how oblivious he can be to things sometimes. Your laughter confuses him, his brows now knitting together as he thinks.
"What?" He questions, letting out a nervous laugh because he feels like he's missing out on something.
He most definitely is.
"He just wasn't you, Ry." The words are quiet, but they're out there now. Hanging between the two of you like a bridge, an invitation that you hope he will accept.
"What? I'm sorryâwhat was that?" He's leaning his head in closer to you now, as if he'll understand what you're saying if he can just close the distance between the two of you.
You try again.
More straightforward this time.
"He wasn't you. I think I knew it wasn't going anywhere before I even met him. I kept thinking of you, and he just wasn't you. The way he made me feeling isn't the way you make me feel. You make me feel things I've never even experienced before. This date just made me understand what I've been too stubborn to acknowledge for awhile. I have feelings for you, Ryland." Your nerves have caught up to you, evident from the lengthy explanation you give him. He's quiet, taking your words in and trying to digest themâmake sense of them.
Your heart is trying to make its way outside of its home in your chest as the seconds tick by.
"You don't know how long I've hoped to hear those words from you." He breathes, his words dripping with honesty. "I think I've had feelings for you since about the fourth month of you living here. It was so hard not to, but I didn't want to make you uncomfortable so I just tried to push them down." You think he's finished, but he continues. "I almost went crazy tonight, sitting here thinking about that awful date and worried you would come home with good news. I know that makes me a horrible person, but I don't think I care anymore."
His confession has you melting, your legs turning to jelly where they sit beneath you. You lean closer into him, reaching your hand forward, not realizing where it's about to land, and place it on the top of his thigh. The two of you look down to where your hand has landed, its place on his thigh that is so dangerously close to his dick. You both look up at the same time, eyes locking on each other. You find no indication that he wants you to move, so you leave your hand there.
The energy between the two of you has shifted, becoming more charged.
You're close now, so close that you can feel his breath fanning across your face. It's warm, heating your cheeks. His breath smells like the spearmint toothpaste that sits in the holder alongside both of your toothbrushes. His eyes are searching your face, looking for any indication of you not wanting this.
Not wanting him.
He finds none.
And still, he asks, because that's just who he is. Always needing one hundred percent certainty.
"Is this okay?" His voice is soft, scared almost, breaking quietly near the end.
Your brain is short-circuiting, all dizzy and fogged up from the closeness paired with his scent. You can't get any words to form, so you do the next best thingâyou nod.
"No," he shakes his head, "Words, please. I need to hear you say it, okay? Please?" He finishes with your name, whispering it so delicately, so softly, as if he's afraid he'll break it, break you, if he doesn't treat it with the utmost care.
"Yes," you manage to mutter, still nodding your head, "Yes, this is okay. Please." You finish stronger, the words coming out louder than the first.
There's a pause, a nervous breath, then his lips are on yours. It's not a perfectly practiced kiss you'd see in movies, it's clumsy, noses bumping into each other and breathy laughter throughout. Two people beginning to learn each other in a different way, a more sacred way.
His hands are hesitant, finally raising them to slide up your thighs and settle on your hips. He pulls away, his eyes are dazed and his pupils are blown wide. "Still okay?" He questions again.
You don't respond immediately, instead, you shift your weight, bracing your knees against the couch cushions and raising to balance on them before you swing one across his lap so that you're now straddling him. His hands keep their place on your hips through your movements, rubbing soft circles against the fabric of your dress as you get yourself situated on his lap. Your hand that was on his thigh moves to rest at his side. The skirt of your dress has risen up, bunching up around your thighs from your movements. You can't help but feel the way his hardening length presses into you.
"Yes," you tell him, raising your hands and placing them on his broad shoulders, gripping the fabric of his t-shirt between your fingers. "Is this okay?" It's your turn to question now, to confirm that he wants this, wants you, just as much as you want him. You watch his eyes flutter shut for a moment, his chest heaves as he takes in a long breath. Exhales, then his eyes are open again.
"Yes," he says, voice still slightly shaky with residual nerves, "this is more than okay." He confirms, a sheepish smile making it's way across his lips.
A smile tugs at the corner of your own lips, then you're leaning back in and capturing his mouth with yours once again. His lips are soft, softer than you imagined they would be. You're both still shy, almost unsure of yourselves when it comes to this new territory between the two of you. You take a chance, moving your hands from their place on his shoulders to his head, threading your fingers through his blonde locks. You tug, just hard enough, that he gasps into your mouth.
You swallow the sound down greedily, wanting to hold onto it foreverâkeep it locked away in a place only you have access to. His fingers tighten, ever so slightly, around your hips.
You pull away this time, getting a good look at his face. His cheeks are tinted red and his lips are a darker shade of pink than usual from your kisses. You bring a hand around, placing a finger under his chin and making him tilt his head back. He obeys so easily, tilting his head back quickly with no resistance at all.
"Did you like that? Me pulling your hair?" Your voice is sweet, honey coating every word.
"I thinkâ" he pauses when your lips find his jaw, "I think I like anything you do to me." He breathes, hands tightening around your hips instinctively. You let out a small giggle, your breath fanning across his cheek. You continue to kiss along his jaw, then down his neck. The collar of his shirt has been pulled down slightly from the bottom edges being trapped under your thighs. You continue, kissing down to his exposed collarbone, pausing momentarily before nipping lightly at the sensitive skin that stretches along the bone.
He groans softlyâthen, subconsciously, his hips buck up into your panty-clothed core. The friction is nice, pulling a soft gasp from your throat. His hands still.
"I'm sorryâI didn't mean to. I really didn't mean to." His words are quick, full of remorse at his unintended actions.
"No, it's okay," you whisper, trying to console him. You begin to make your way back up his neck, planting small kisses against the base of his throat as you move. "Can we take your shirt off? I wanna see you."
"No."
Oh.
The word makes you pause, pulling away from him almost immediately. Your skin grows hot from the feeling of embarrassment. He tilts his head back down so the two of you are face to face again. When he sees your expression, his eyes go wide and he scrambles to correct himself.
"NoâI mean, yes, we can." He sputters, using his hands on your hips to pull you even closer to him. "Yes, I want you to see me. I want to see you too. I justâif we're going to go further than this I don't want it to be hereâon the couch I mean. I want to do it right, in bed." He clarifies quickly, trying to salvage whatever he can of this interaction. His thumbs begin to circle your hips again in hopes of calming you.
You finally let out a breath you didn't know you were holding.
He wants to do it right.
"Okay," you whisper, nodding your head in agreement. "Can we go to the bedroom, then?"
"Yes, please." He nods, tapping your hips lightly with his fingers to signal for you to get up.
You place your hands on his shoulders to steady yourself, swinging your leg off of him and placing your foot on the floor. He keeps one hand on your hip, steadying you as you stand. Your dress falls back down, no longer bunched at your thighs.
It's his turn to stand and he does so quickly, bumping into you on the way up.
"Sorry," he hums, "Just excited." The honesty makes you laugh.
"Excited to have sex with me?" You tease, tilting your head up to see his face.
"Yesâexcited for that reason. To have sex with you." He smiles shyly, the light from the television allowing you to see the tint of red that spreads across his cheeks.
You shake your head with a smile before turning to make your way towards the bedrooms. He follows closely behind, keeping a hand placed on your hip to tether himself to you as if he's afraid one of you will float away if he lets go. You continue, coming up on the first bedroom in the hallwayâwhich just so happens to be his.
You reach for the handle and turn it, pushing the door open to step into his room. You've been in his room a handful of times before to grab something for him or to turn off his fan, but never for a reason like this.
His room isn't fully dark, a small lamp sitting on his bedside table illuminates the room just well enough for you to see. He has a bookshelf in the corner where dozens of textbooks on molecular biology, DNA, chemistry, and other sciences sit.
Just light reading for him.
His desk sits along the wall, the chair pushed halfway in. Papers and pens are scattered all across the face of desk. He has an unfolded basket of clothes sitting on top of his dresser. Folding them is the worst part! His voice pops into the back of your head. You swear you've heard him say that at least one hundred times by now. He watches the way you take in his bedroom, the way your eyes linger on certain things. He finds himself becoming self-conscious when he notices the clothes on his dresser.
"Sorry, I wasn't expecting visitors." He says truthfully. He never would have imagined that he would be ending his night with you in his bedroom.
He surely wasn't going to complain, though.
"With the amount of times I've heard you complain about folding clothes, I'm honestly surprised you only have one basket that isn't folded." Your voice is light, you're smiling as you talk. He laughs from behind you, his hand running from your hip up your side.
"Ry, can you unzip my dress?" Your voice is quieter now, the gentle humor that was there just a moment ago has faded into something gentler.
He doesn't speak, but you feel his hands trail up your back to the zipper that sits at the top of your spine. He grabs it in his hand and you swear you can feel his hand tremble slightly before he works up the courage to pull the zipper down, down, down, all the way to the base of your spine. His hands raise back up, pushing the fabric from your shoulders and down your arms. The dress drops, and you're left standing in your bra and panties, facing away from Ryland.
His hands hesitate before they move down to the clasp on your bra, it takes him a moment, but he unclasps it for you. You shrug the straps from your shoulders and down your arms to let it fall to the ground, joining your dress in a pile by your feet. You have one final article of clothing to shed, which you do so yourself. You hook your fingers into the waistband of your underwear and bring them down your legs before stepping out of them. The pile of your clothes on the floor is now complete.
You take a breath before turning around to finally face Ryland. Your nerves disappear the second you see the lock on his face.
His eyes are wide and his lips are parted. There's something so soft about the way he's taking you in. You think you're going to have to reach out and poke him to bring him back down to earth, but then he speaks.
"You are absolutely beautiful." He reaches his hand out to your hip, finally touching you without the barrier of clothing. His fingertips are soft as he squeezes the flesh between his fingersâit almost seems like he's testing you to make sure you're real. His fingers trail up your stomach, leaving goosebumps in their path. He pauses at your breast, looking towards your face once more for an invitation.
You nod.
He continues.
His touch is soft, ghosting over the flesh of your breast. He grabs a hold of it, holding it in his palm. His fingers close around your nipple, twisting the hardened bud between his fingers. Your body is on fire under his touch. You whimper softly, heat coiling down low that has you squeezing your legs together to get any amount of friction you can.
He takes note of that.
"You like that?" He questions, wanting to take his time to learn you.
You nod.
You're becoming impatient, wanting to see him and feel him.
"It's your turn now." You urge him softly, your fingers coming up to grip the hem of his shirt. He nods, his hand moving away from you and grabbing onto his own shirt. You help him raise it up and he maneuvers it off of himselfâit joins your pile of clothes in the floor.
You knew Ryland had a nice build, but you didn't expect this. His biceps are large, and the skin on his stomach lays tightly over his muscles. It's now your turn to bring your hand up and run it across his stomach, feeling the warmth of his skin and the way his muscles contract under your fingertips. Your hands glide around before settling down low on the waistband of his sweatpants.
"Is this okay?" You say the words that have become habitual to the two of you at this point.
"Yes, please." His eyes meet yours through his glasses as he confirms. You nod, hooking your fingers into the waistband of his his sweatbands along with his boxers and pull the both of them down his thighs at the same time. He steps out of them, and now the pile of your clothes on the floor is truly complete.
You're able to take him in nowâall of him.
He's bigger than you imagined. Not huge, but a good size and thickness. You know the stretch is going to hurt so good. He's hard, his dick is poking out and red at the tip. You reach your hand down to grasp him in your palm, then pause. You raise your eyes to his and he's already watching you.
He nods.
You continue.
You grip him in your hand, running your thumb over his leaking slit to gather some wetness. He's sensitive, already twitching in your palm with minimal effort on your part. You stroke from the tip to the base of his dick and it has him groaning, a sound pulled deep from his chest. That heat, the need, coils low in your stomach again.
"You're so gorgeous, Ry." You tell him, watching the way his eyebrows knit together in pleasure. His eyes catch yours again and you see the way his cheeks turn that familiar shade of pink. He's so responsive it makes you weak in the knees.
"Gorgeous." he repeats, like it's a foreign concept to him. He doesn't really believe it.
"Yeah, really gorgeous." You confirm with a simple nod of your head, like it's the most obvious thing you've ever said to him.
To you, it is.
You stroke him languidly a few more times, enjoying the feeling of him twitching against your palm.
The feeling curling deep in your stomach is becoming too hard to ignore.
You need him.
"Lay down on the bed, please." You tell him softly, giving him one final stroke before taking your touch away from him completely. He whines at the loss of contact, his hips jerking closer to you. His eyes are open and watching as you step closer to the bed.
"Wait, noâI want," he pauses, unsure of himself, then, "can I taste you, please?"
His words land hard, a pulsing sensation flows through you, right where you need him the most. Who would you be to deny him?
Especially when he asks so nicely.
"Yes." You nod, eager for the contact with him. You face the bed, crawling onto it before turning yourself around and laying on your back. The air from your movements causes a waft of his scentâa mix of his aftershave, shampoo, and that detergent he swears by, to blanket you, enveloping you in a nice little cocoon of him. He follows you, making his way onto the bed and lodging himself between your legs, his arms hook under your legs and his hands rest so gently against your stomach.
He takes in the sight of you sprawled out and ready for him and he swears he's in heavenâor as close to heaven as he will ever get. He places a kiss against your thigh.
"You look so pretty." His breath fans over you as he says it, causing your pussy to clench around nothing.
You shy away, covering your face so you don't have to look at him. "Hey, noâI want to see you, please." His voice is so soft it makes your heart ache. You oblige, uncovering your face so your view is now Ryland between your legs.
With your attention now on him, he gets to work quickly. He flattens his tongue, licking a stripe from your entrance all the way up to your clit, circling the bundle of nerves with his tongue. You gasp, which only encourages him more. His tongue moves back down to your entrance, prodding your hole to get a better taste of you.
He devours you like a man starved, scared that this will be his first, and last, meal. Though, at this point, the both of you know that this isn't going to be a one and down type of encounter. He's attentive, quickly learning what you do, and don't like. He licks back up, focusing on your clit, finding that spot that makes you keen and arch your back from the sensation.
"I'm gonna come." You manage to choke out, your thighs flexing tighter around his head. Your voice, those words, are music to his ears. His tongue becomes more precise, flexing to a taut point and circling around your clit to help pull your orgasm from you. Your eyes shift down, the sight of Ryland between your thighs paired with how deliciously he's sucking on your clit are enough to send you over the edge. The coil in your stomach snaps, hot pleasure coursing through your limbs. You reach your hand down to grab a handful of his hair, trying to pull him away from you, but he doesn't let up.
Your grip on his hair paired with tasting you on his tongue has him moaning, sending vibrations through your already overly sensitive cunt. He lets you ride out your orgasm on his tongue, his movements eventually slowing to a halt.
Neither of you speak for a moment, you because you're still too blissed out, chest heaving as you suck in deep breaths. Ryland because he can't believe this is happening. He has stilled, his head resting against your thigh. You feel a few light taps, Ryland's fingers against your stomach, and you look down. His fingers are still wrapped around his hair and his glasses are crooked, but he doesn't notice. The mixture of spit and your release are coating his lips and chin. He's smiling up at you so sweetly it makes your heart ache that familiar ache.
"Good?" He asks, voice unsure. You want to laugh. You just came on his tongue and he's still worried he didn't do good enough of a job.
"Great." You breath, giving a light tug at his blonde locks to signal him to come up. He wastes no time, unhooking his arms from your legs and crawling up the bed, caging you between his arms. Your hands move to his face, fingers grabbing at his glasses to correct their placement. You catch his eyes with yours.
His eyes are soft as he stares into yours, so full of something you can't quite name yet. Your fingers run down his cheek and settle on his jaw, thumb brushing against his skin. He leans into it. The yellow light from his bedside lamp catches his skin so perfectly, casting a warm hue across his face that paints him as one of the most beautiful paintings you've ever laid eyes on. He's so beautiful like this, face so relaxed and carefree.
You think he's an angelâsomething otherworldly for sure.
You feel his length twitch against your lower stomach, hard and leaking from the slit with desire. That familiar heat is already forming in your belly again. "I want to feel you," you tell him, voice quiet and sure. "All of you, Ry."
"Okay," he nods, "I want you, too."
You smile, removing your hand from his face and snaking it between the two of you, grabbing his length and stroking him. "Can I be on top? I want to see you."
"Yes," he nods, quicker this time. "You can have me anyway you want me. Anything you want." His voice is so certain and he's moving before you can say another word. Taking his position with his back flat against the bed, you raise to your knees and sling one leg over him, straddling him once again. His hands find your thighs, resting near the top of them like that's exactly where they were made to be.
You raise again, giving yourself room to take him in. Your hand raises to his lips, fingers splaying out expectantly. There's a flicker of confusion in his eyes.
"Spit." He does so without another command, so eager to please and be good. You gather the spit on your fingers, using your thumb to get the residual saliva left on his bottom lip. You reach down again, grabbing ahold of him once more, fingers now wet and ready to help lubricate him. You give him a few pumps, coating the spit along his length. His hips buck at the contact, a quiet groan leaving his lips as his eyes screw shut. His tip prods at your entrance and you sink down ever so slightly, dragging the moment out.
He whines, a sound so beautiful you want to have it on recording so you can play it whenever you want.
Slowly, you sink down further, taking him in inch by beautiful inch, until you're fully seated on him. A quiet moan slips past your lips at the stretch, the fullness you feel. He fits inside you so perfectly, completely made for you, and you, made for him.
You quickly decide that this is it, you're complete.
Ryland Grace has been your missing piece all along.
You just can't believe it's taken you a year to realize this.
His hands grip your thighs, fingernails marking crescents into your skin. "Youâyou feel so good," he gasps, swallowing hard. "I know I'm not going to last long." Embarrassment weaves itself into his words, but he shouldn't feel that. To you, it's endearing. He's going to come quickly because of you.
"That's okay," you start to shift your hips, raising up, then back down slowly, setting your own rhythm. "I want you to feel good." Moving quicker, you place your hands on his stomach to steady yourself, the tight muscles under his skin flexing as you gain momentum.
He says your name, but it's broken off at the end with a moan, "I don't think I can have you like this just once and be done." A breathy laugh, trying to be nonchalant, but his words are anything but casual and he is literally inside of you, already twitching as your walls squeeze around him.
You continue your motions, the drag of him inside of you making that coil in your stomach already begin to tighten. "I can't either."
He whines at your response, hips bucking up into you as you come down onto him again. The tip of his dick hits a certain spot inside of you that has your vision blurring. You chase that feeling, moving up and down feverishly, trying to catch the sensation again.
Ryland is a moaning mess under you, caught between scrunching his eyes closed in pleasure and trying to keep them open so he can watch the way you get yourself off while using him.
"I'm gonnaâ" a low groan, "Come. Can I?" Come inside? He doesn't have to say the words for you to understand where he was going with the sentence. Nodding, you work quicker, grinding against him to help him reach his peak.
"Please," you beg, "I want to feel you. Please come inside me, Ry." The nickname paired with your movements help throw him over the edge. He's gasping, hips bucking as he releases inside of you. You continue to grind against him, milking him thoroughly as you chase your own orgasm now. Your clit rubs against his pubic bone, the friction helping that coil in your stomach get closer and closer to snapping.
Ryland knows you're close, feeling the way your walls are constricting around his twitching dick. He watches you move, working yourself up and using him to get there.
He thinks it's the most ethereal thing he's ever seen.
"There you go," he croons, rubbing soothing circles against your thighs with his large hands, "Use me. Let go for me, sweetheart."
Sweetheart.
Ryland has never called you anything other than your name before.
The unexpected use of the pet name and the sound of his voice is enough to let that coil snap. For the second time tonight, you're coming all over Ryland Grace. Crying out, you ride the high down until there's nothing left to hold onto anymore.
All that can be heard in the room is the sound of both of you breathing, heavy long breaths as you both try to get oxygen back into your lungs. His hands continue to work themselves over your thighs, then up your hips and your sides to help you ground yourself back to him.
Before you know it, he's wrapping his arm around your back and readjusting himself so he's sitting with his back against his headboard, still inside of you, but growing softer, as you straddle him.
His hands move to your face, fingers wiping back the sweaty hair that's sticking to your forehead. He looks happy, a sweet smile tugging at his lips while he watches you through his glasses.
He would do whatever you asked him to.
He's sure of that now. Maybe he always has been.
"What?" You question, scratching your nails lazily against his abdomen.
"Nothing," he smiles wider, "I was just thinkingâ" a pause, "does this change our roommate agreement?" That humor that flows so easily between the two of you is back, not changed by the events that just took place or the fact that he is literally still inside of you.
The question is so silly it makes you laugh, a deep sound coming up from your stomach.
"Yeah, Ry. I think it does."
Tomorrow morning the two of you will have a lot to figure out, but tonight, youâre just happy to be in each others arms.
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thanks for reading! feedback is always appreciated :)
i knew you pervs would like piss. on that note, TW PISS!
anyways imagine warning dennis during sex that you need to use the bathroom but you feel so good heâs whining out n disagreeing. that spark of pleasure building in his lower abdomen threatening to ignite at any moment, so obviously heâs not letting you up. even though youâre gripping his shirt n gasping out that you really need to go, heâs kinda fed up so he looks down. gazing into your eyes as he says âno, hold itâgotta baby mâso close.â âdenâdenny I canât!â âsâokay then..â and youâre confused before his hand comes down to press soft circles into your clit. almost making you un-tense. it sends sharp rushes of pleasure under your skin and youâre not going to be able to hold it much longer. his harsh thrusts combined with his unrelenting fingers make you shut your eyes in concentration tucking your head into his shoulder. âdonât wanna make a mess on you den..â you manage to yelp out. he coos, and you hear the smile in his voice. his lips dropping by your ear giving a chaste kiss to it, mumbling âcâmon baby..you know Iâahâ donât mind a little mess.â itâs breathy and broken up as he whispers it out but it tears apart any last resolve you have. his other hand comes to wrap around your head holding you tightly to him. his moans increasing in volume and frequency.
âlove you so much..just let it go for me, mâright here.â
Three Weeks
Dana Evans x f!reader
Summary: After Dana comes home with a black eye and bloody nose, you beg her to stay home for her own safety. To your surprise, she agrees.
CW: hurt/comfort, domestic fluff, emotional and physical caretaking, non-sexual intimacy, smut, explicit sexual content, fingering (r!receiving), strap-on use (r!receiving), readers age is undescribed so you can imagine age gap or not
WC: 7.6k
A/N: The poll-winner is here! Hope you like it!
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You leave the entryway light on.
Itâs been on for hours, a little amber square above the entrance to your luxury apartment, because you knew she would be late. The news had cut into your afternoon game show with the alert: a shooting at PittFest, multiple casualties and absolute chaos downtown. Youâd stared at the screen with your phone in your hand, though you didnât bother to call or even text. She never answers during her shifts because she canât, and if she could, it would mean something is wrong.Â
So you cooked dinner, cleaned up the apartment, and waited for her.
Your partner works in an ER. Late comes with the territory more often than not.Â
Itâs partner, by the way, not girlfriend. She makes that very clear, sheâd shut it down years ago, citing she was not, in her words, âa fuckinâ teenager, for Christâs sake.â Partner was the only word you both agreed on.
Dinner is long cold by the time you portion it onto a plate and slide it into the fridge, covering it with foil and doing your best not to feel abandoned. You turned the stove light on because you canât stand overhead lighting when it starts to get dark outside. And then you hovered around the apartment for the rest of the evening with the windows open, listening for sirens, or for footsteps out in the hall, or for the little thunk the elevator leaves when it stops on your floor.
The end of her shift comes and goes without a word.
By the time you hear the key in the lock turn, youâre relieved instead of upset.Â
âDana?â you call, standing from the couch. âI made dinner, itâs in the fridge. I can heat it up if you want.â
The door shuts and thereâs no answer.
You frown, pausing halfway between the couch and the kitchen. Usually she calls back immediately, a version of âHey, baby,â or a comment about the shitty hospital food she had for lunch. Especially when she comes home to a cooked meal. Instead, thereâs just movement, you can vaguely make out the scuff of shoes on the entryway tile.
âDana?â
Still nothing.Â
You pivot, rounding the corner toward the entry way, and stop dead in your tracks.
Sheâs standing just inside the apartment, her bag still slung over her shoulder and her coat unzipped. Her hair is still half-up in her favorite claw clip, though itâs a mess. Not a surprise after a day like today.Â
But her face?
âHoly shit,â you gasp, moving toward her quickly.
Her left eye is swollen and bruised; skin dark down to her cheekbone. The bridge of her nose is mottled blue with faint purpling already beneath it. Thereâs dried blood just under one of her nostrils like she forgot to wipe it away.
âDana, what the hell -â Your hands come up and cup her face carefully, afraid of hurting her but also unable to stop yourself from touching her. Her skin is cold, really cold. âOh my god, what happened? Who did this to you?â
She recoils with a hiss when your thumbs brush too close to her nose, her eyes squeezing shut for a second.Â
âIâm fine,â she mutters, but her voice is rough from exhaustion. âJust - just long a shift.â
âFine?â your voice jumps an octave with panic. âYou have a black eye, Dana, youâre - youâre -â You swallow hard. Up close you can see just how uncomfortable she looks, her jaw is clenched, from pain you assume, and her expression is worn out. âYouâre hurt.â
âI said Iâm fine,â she snaps. The same tone she probably uses on combative patients, but never with you. âItâs nothing.â
It is very much not nothing.
âDana,â you say softly, refusing to let go of her face, even as she slides the backpack from her shoulders. âTalk to me, please.â
She doesnât respond at first, but she doesnât pull away either. She just stands there in your hands as she sheds her coat and you watch the fight drain from her eyes.Â
âAngry patient took a swing,â she says quietly. âHe caught me off-guard while I was having a smoke.â
âIâll kill him.â
She huffs, a weak attempt at a laugh. âGet in line.â
You falter a little at that. You know the hospital would be dealing with it, they have security and cameras, and youâre sure Dr. Robinovich has already made a bigger deal out of this than Dana wants.Â
âCome here,â you murmur, guiding her further into the apartment. âLetâs sit down, shoes off.â
She tries to pull from your grip. âI canâ -â
âNo,â you cut in. âIâll bet my last dollar this didnât happen at the end of your shift, which means you worked through it. Itâs time to relax.â
Sheâs silent as she lets you steer her toward the couch. She lets you keep a hand on her the whole way, and youâre not sure if itâs for her or for you. And when she sinks down onto the couch cushions, her eyes flutter shut again and she almost looks relieved.Â
You kneel in front of her and settle your hands on her knees. âStay right here,â you say. âIâm getting ice. And water. And - and something for the pain. Donât move, okay?â
You hear her chuckle and are surprised to see a small but genuine smile on her face. âMy own personal nurse,â she murmurs, looking down at you.
You hurry into the kitchen before she can change her mind. Ice clatters together in a ziplock baggy, your hands clumsy with adrenaline. You get her a glass of water and the entire ibuprofen bottle from the cabinet. She doesnât even move, still exactly where you left her when you return. Slumped into the couch like someone whoâs run out of fuel.
âIce pack delivery,â you say softly.Â
Her eyes crack open and track the items in your hands, then your face. You gently press the bundled ice to her swollen face and she inhales quickly as she hisses through her teeth.
âSorry, sorry,â you whisper, pulling back a little.
âNo, itâs -â She steadies the ice pack on her face herself. âItâs good, itâs just cold.â
Your other hand balances the water in your palm and the pill bottle in the crook of your arm. âHere, water. And ibuprofen.â
She takes the pills without argument, which makes you much more nervous than if sheâd fought you. Dana doesnât surrender control easily or often, especially not over her own body.
The bruising is bad. You catch sight of it again as she lowers her hands to take the water from you. It makes you both sick and angry, and you want to press for details, but you donât.Â
âDo you want me to heat up your dinner?â you ask, pivoting topics. âItâs still good, promise.â
Her stomach betrays her with a growl. ââŚyeah,â she admits. âIâm starving.â
Relief wells in your chest. It isnât often you get compliant Dana, and youâre grateful for it tonight. âOkay, good. Sit tight. Iâll be right back.â
âBossy,â she mutters, but thereâs no real heat behind it.Â
You hover while she eats. With her plate balanced carefully on her lap, the ice pack resting against her face in between bites, she moves very slowly. You keep refilling her water before she can ask, adjusting her napkin, nudging her fork back onto the plate anytime it threatens to fall off. Your knee bounces with nervous energy that you canât burn off. Every time she winces it causes your heart to lurch.
âYou know,â she eventually says through a mouthful of food, âmost adults manage to feed themselves without supervision.â
Itâs a joke, but you donât smile. âYou got punched in the face.â
âItâs an occupational hazard.â
âDana.â
She sighs, poking at the remaining food on her plate. âIâm a big girl,â she says. âYou donât have to coddle me.â
But she doesnât push you away or stop you when you steady the plate when she shifts uncomfortably in her seat.Â
You practically have to force yourself not to touch her for a whole five seconds as you lean back away from her. âOkay,â you say. âNot coddling.â
She glances at you over the rim of her water glass as she takes a sip. âMhm.â
When she eventually finishes her food, you take her plate before she can even sit up, let alone stand. You set the plate in the sink and come back immediately, perching on the coffee table in front of her. Sheâs leaned against the back of the couch, head tilted up and eyes closed again.
âDana.â
She hums in acknowledgement but doesnât open her eyes.Â
ââŚdonât go back,â you whisper.
Her eyes open slowly.
âTo the hospital,â you continue, your voice trembling now that the request is out there. âPlease, youâre not safe there.â You swallow hard, trying to keep your plea even. âYouâre running yourself into the ground for that place, I canât -â You stop, unable to finish the thought. I canât watch you get hurt again. I canât lose you. Youâre being dramatic, you know, but seeing here like this makes it too real.
For a really long moment, she just looks at you. Then she lets out a quiet laugh that sounds brittle. âRelax,â she says. âIâm done.â
You blink in surprise. âDone?â
She nods. âDone. Thirty years, and Iâm done. And this, tonightâŚâ she waves her hands up toward her face, toward the bruising thatâs still not even fully there yet. ââŚthis was the last straw.â
âDana -â
âI brought my stuff home.â
She nods toward the backpack she left in the entryway. Slowly, she slides off the couch and retrieves it, and then dumps it on the coffee table next to you: out falls her stethoscope, a few pens in her favorite cup, and the photos you know she keeps taped to the Charge Nurse computer.
You donât know what to say. You werenât actually expecting her to agree to not go back, this must be weighing on her a lot heavier than sheâs letting on. This is real, sheâs really not going back.
ââŚokay,â you whisper. Itâs not actually okay, none of this is okay, but youâre relieved. You reach out and take her hand, the one not still clutching the backpack, and brush your thumb over the back of it.
The rest of the evening passes slowly. With Dana not going to the hospital tomorrow, and you sure as hell not going to work while your partner is like this, thereâs no reason to get up early, so you allow the late evening to blur into night without rushing to bed.
You clear the coffee table, moving quietly so you donât jostle the couch where Dana still sits with her eyes closed. She insists sheâs awake, but the exhaustion is evident even in her voice and she isnât fooling you when her head begins to tilt forward.
By the time everything is cleaned up, sheâs already shaking her limbs as she stands, trying to physically rid herself of sleepiness.
The shower is her idea.Â
âIâm not broken, kid,â she says when you hesitate in the bathroom doorway with your arms folded across your chest. âYou can get in here with me.â
You donât bother to deny her. Dana can have whatever she wants tonight.
The shower is both long and gentle. She lets you wash her hair, either because sheâs tired or because she doesnât feel like fighting anymore.Â
Back in the bedroom, you both get ready for bed in a silence that doesnât feel awkward, but is certainly tense. At least, it feels that way for you. You keep glancing at her when you think sheâs not looking, taking in the bruising, the way her mouth is permanently turned down into a subtle frown, the complete opposite of the Dana youâre used to.
The bed dips when she climbs in next to you, settling on her side facing the wall. Her body is stiff even now in the comfort of her own bed. You switch off the lamp and lay beside her, trying to give her space, if her earlier annoyance over your hovering was any indicator of how the rest of this evening will go.Â
But to your surprise, she moves. The tiniest little backwards scoot in your direction, an invitation so rare that you mightâve imagined it.
Dana Evans is not the little spoon. You can count on one hand the number of times itâs happened over the years youâve been together. Dana is in charge, Dana is the caretaker, Dana is the big spoon.
That doesnât stop you from wrapping your arm over her, settling across her waist gently. Then you hear her sigh, see her body melt into the mattress beneath you, settling backwards until her back rests fully against your front.
Her hand finds your wrist and pulls it closer, anchoring it to her ribs just under her breasts. Even as her breathing evens out and she drifts off to sleep, her fingers loosen but she never actually lets go of you completely.
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Week 1
Dana sleeps.
Not the half-asleep dozing sheâs always done between shifts, the kind that never actually let her get through a full REM cycle; but instead a deep, heavy sleep that has her completely unresponsive all night. She sleeps through alarms she hasnât turned off yet, she doesnât toss or turn, she sleeps through sunlight peeking through the windows and the noise of the late-morning traffic outside your apartment. And when she wakes up, sheâs disoriented like she doesnât know where she is or why she isnât at work already.
You take those first few days off, of course. A quick email to your boss with a vague explanation, no details. Thereâs no change youâre leaving her alone right now, not when sheâs in a vulnerable state like this.
Most mornings she goes from the bed to the couch with your blanket wrapped around her shoulders and her hair wet from a shower or sticking up with frizz when she skips one. The bruises on her face deepen to an almost black before leaking into a sickly yellow. She eats whatever you put in front of her and her appetite is unpredictable, like her body still thinks itâs at the hospital and canât spare the time to eat, only to be ravenous later.
By the third day, sheâs hovering in the kitchen while you cook, leaning against the counter with her arms folded because sheâs supervising you more than sheâs actually helping.Â
âSmells good,â she says, her voice still a bit rough from her afternoon nap.Â
Eventually, though, she reaches for a knife to start chopping vegetables at a speed that wouldâve made her coworkers laugh - Charge Nurse Dana, notorious speed demon, reduced to veggie slicing like sheâs teaching a cooking class for beginners. To her credit, youâre the cook in the relationship, your boring 9 to 5 giving you more free time than sheâs ever had.
Later in the week, people start checking in.Â
They text first, brief check-ins that you assume medical professionals do when theyâre worried. Sometimes calls that she mostly ignores and voicemails she listens to on speaker while she stares at the ceiling for so long that you can almost see the war inside her.
You know she misses it, even if she doesnât say it.
Then, inevitably, someone shows up.
Youâre cubing chicken for the crockpot when the knock comes on your apartment door. Dana checks the peephole and you hear her call out that itâs Robby.
She opens the door to find him holding a paper bag from a takeout place two blocks away, the smell of greasy comfort food spilling into your entryway.Â
âJesus,â he says as he takes in the swelling thatâs just now starting to go down under her left eye.
Dana shrugs casually. âYou should see the other guy.â
He doesnât laugh, but his mouth does twitch. âI brought lunch,â he says as he holds up the bag like itâs proof of his usefulness. You all know itâs an excuse.
âBribery works,â she replies. âSheâs in there makinâ food, though.â You can practically hear her nodding toward you even though you canât see them from the kitchen.
âItâs fine, this is for dinner anyways!â you call out to them.
You stay in the kitchen long past necessary, trying to give them the privacy youâre sure they need. But their voices drift in anyway.
ââŚshouldnât have happened at all,â Robby is saying angrily. âSecurity still wants you to press charges. Administration is freaking out.â
Dana laughs, but itâs the same, ingenuine laugh youâve heard all week. âGood, maybe theyâll fix something for once.â
Thereâs a pause where you canât hear anything before Robby speaks again.
âYou look like hell.â
âFeel worse.â
You grip the edge of the kitchen counter as you try to force yourself not to listen harder.
ââŚyou serious about this?â
You know what heâs asking, and it causes your heart to beat rapidly.
When Dana doesnât answer immediately, you imagine her staring at the floor, or maybe the wall absently. She always avoids eye contact with uncomfortable subjects, and this is one of them.Â
âYeah.â Thereâs silence from both of them for a moment before she adds, âI meant what I said. Iâm done.â
You let out a heavy sigh, careful not to be too loud. You keep your back turned to the entrance to the living room even as the tension unwinds from your body at her admission to someone other than you that she isnât going back to that place.
Robby also exhales, like heâs been holding that breath since he walked in, the real reason he came. âThirty years is a long time,â he says.
âExactly.â
âYou donât have to decide right now, you can justâŚtake some time, you know?â
You finally peek out into the living room, quickly so they donât see you. Robby is leaning forward with his elbows on his knees, like heâs seeing her for the first time â this strange version of Dana Evans who isnât in scrubs, who isnât a Charge Nurse, who isnât holding people together by sheer force of will because sheâs too busy holding herself together instead.
âAnd if you change your mind?â he urges.
Dana shrugs casually. âThen I change my mind.â
âBut not today.â
âNo,â she says, shaking her head. âNot today.â
Robby nods slowly, accepting it even if he doesnât like it. He reaches out and squeezes her shoulder. âWell,â he says, forcing a lighter tone. PTMC will survive without you. Probably.â
âBarely,â she replies dryly.
They share a small, tired smile.
You step into the living room then, handing over paper plates for the takeout Robbyâs brought and pretending you didnât hear the conversation. Dana glances up at you as she thanks you.Â
Later, after Robby leaves and the apartment settles back into the quiet of the afternoon, you notice her backpack is still where she always leaves it in the entryway, and you make the decision to put it away. Itâs only in the hall closet, three feet from where it sat before, but those three feet make all the difference. Itâs out of sight and mind, gone from your view because sheâs not going to pack it up and take it to work tomorrow, and putting it away makes it not feel like a ticking clock on your sanity.
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Week 2
The second week brings energy.
On the second morning of the second week, you wake up to an empty bed and have a moment of panic before you hear the sound of cabinets open in the kitchen, followed by the clatter of a mug thatâs been set down too hard on the kitchen counter.
You find Dana standing at the counter in clothes instead of pajamas, hair damp from a shower, with coffee in hand.
âGood morning,â she says casually, as if she hasnât been sleeping sixteen hours a day for the past week.
âYouâreâŚâ you stare at her as you try to figure out the right word. ââŚvertical.â
âDonât sound so surprised.â
Thereâs color in her face now, real color, not the flush from feverish sleep. The bruising has almost entirely faded to yellow, much less shocking against her skin. She looksâŚlike herself.
Later in the day, sheâs pacing. Sheâs restless, unable to sit still thatâs the complete opposite of the way sheâs spent the previous 10 days. Sheâs wiping counters that are already clean, reorganizing the drawers in your shared dresser, cleaning things in the apartment that you already keep spotless. You catch her standing at the large window that faces the street more than once.
âDo you want to go out?â you ask finally, when you canât take it anymore.
She looks relieved at the question, like she didnât want to bring it up yourself. But she quickly schools her expression into a more casual one.
âYeah,â she nods. âYeah, actually.â
The first outing is just the pharmacy, a quick in-and-out. You hover behind her the entire time, on-edge in a way youâve never had to be around her before. She notices, of course, but she doesnât call you out on it. She just bumps your shoulder lightly with hers and takes your hand every time she notices you getting restless.
By the time you make it back out to the car, sheâs smiling. Sheâs clearly missed the Vitamin D and fresh air.
The grocery store is next. Itâs hilariously normal, and Dana doesnât seem half as nervous about being out and about as you are. At one point, you turn around and sheâs disappeared, and she appears only a few moments later holding up a large box of something you like with a small smile on her face.
âI thought you were the one on bedrest,â you joke.
She snorts. âI was.â
You donât miss her use of past tense.
Errands stack up after that, and you do them together: the post office, the gas station, a quick stop for takeout since youâre tired of cooking. Nothing strenuous, just normal life stuff that youâve been avoiding ever since she left the hospital. People look at her face, then away quickly, most polite enough to stare. And she ignores them.
At home, she starts helping more. She jumps in when youâre folding laundry, she takes the trash out before you can get to it.
That night is different too. She still curls into you, sheâs still the little spoon, like sheâs gotten used to being the one held for once. One time, you wake up to find her already awake, watching you with a strange look on her face that disappears the second she realizes youâre looking up at her.Â
âGo back to sleep,â she murmurs, brushing hair off your forehead. I
You do.
The next day, youâre putting groceries away after another trip; nothing that was urgent, just a restocking on things you use regularly. But behind you, footsteps approach you and arms slide into place around your waist.
Dana presses herself up against you from behind, her chin settling on your shoulder.Â
âMissed this,â she murmurs, her breath hot against your neck.
Your hands pause with a box of pasta in your hands. âMe too.â
She doesnât let go though, if anything, her hold on you tightens. You lean back into her, relaxing into her arms and letting yourself be held.
But then you feel it.
Itâs not her hands on your body or her breath at your neck, itâs lower than that. Something thatâs solid, unexpected pressure on your lower back thatâs definitely not something that could be explained away as an item in her pocket with how it presses into the exact center of your back, just above your butt.
You drop the pasta box onto the counter.
ââŚDana,â you say slowly, because surely thereâs a logical explanation youâre not seeing here.
She hums against your shoulder, far more calm than you feel right now.
You turn your head just enough to see the side of her face. She isnât looking at you, sharp eyes looking straight ahead, but thereâs a smirk on her mouth, which is still pressed into the top of your shoulder.Â
Your voice comes out incredulous. âAre you kidding me right now?â
Her hands move, one arm tightening around you, the other traveling to hold your hip. âWhat?â she asks, sounding deceptively innocent. âToo soon?â
âToo soon?â you echo, twisting in her arms as much as you can to look at her. âDana, youâre still healing.â
She doesnât move off you, but you can see her eyes narrow, some of the playfulness leaving her. âItâs been over a week,â she murmurs into your shoulder.
âIâm serious,â you say. âYou donât have to prove anything, I donât want you to do too much too fast.â
She goes quiet, but whether itâs to consider your words or figure out her own, youâre not sure. Then she takes a deep breath, and you can practically feel the lecture coming.
âI donât need you to be my mother,â she says. âI need you to be my partner.â
Youâre facing the counter again, her arms locked so tight around you that turning toward her fully is impossible. But you donât need to see her face. The conviction in her voice is enough, and youâre sure if you could see her, the expression on her face would match.
âYouâve been taking care of me for a week, and I grateful. Really,â she continues. âBut Iâm not broken. And I need my woman.â
You sigh dreamily despite yourself as she lifts her mouth from your shoulder and places a kiss to your neck. Your eyes close and your head tips back enough to give her room.
âLet me take care of you,â she murmurs against your skin. âI want to, I need you.â
The hand at your hip slides forwards, slipping beneath the waistband of your leggings. The fabric stretches around her wrist as she works her way inside, and you feel the pause when she realizes youâre bare underneath. No underwear. Her fingers drift lower, brushing over your mound, teasing lightly over your clit before swiping down through your slit.
âAlready wet for me?â she teases, and you can hear the smile thatâs returned to her face.Â
You nod with a shaky breath, letting your hair fall over your face. Both hands brace on the counter in front of you, your knuckles whitening instantly.
Her middle and ring finger press inside you, and you stretch easily to accommodate. She doesnât linger, immediately moving, pumping them deep and steady inside you, curling as she bottoms out and the heel of her palm grinds against your clit.
You cry out, eyes screwing shut as she fucks you with her fingers, made only worse by her ruthless teasing.
âPoor thing, all pent up.â
âYou needed this more than I do.â
âFuckinâ love this pretty pussy.â
The kitchen fills with the sound of your ragged breathing and the obscene slick sound of her fingers moving inside you.
âFuck, Dana,â you gasp, bending at the waist until your forehead rests on your arms.
She pulls out abruptly, leaving you both empty and aching, her fingers wet and dripping. Before you can protest out loud, though, she shoves your leggings down and fumbles briefly with her own pants, pushing them just low enough to expose what you felt earlier: the harness snug around her hips, navy blue silicone hanging heavy between her thighs. The tip notches at your entrance as she positions herself.
âDana, pl-â The rest of the word is punched from your lungs as she pushes inside you with one swift thrust.Â
Her hands clamp down on your hips as she pauses to let you adjust to the intrusion. Her fingertips dig in harshly, squishing the fat of your hips in her hands.Â
This is the Dana you know. Dominance and confidence are rolling off her in waves. This past week, all of your carefulness and her fragility, dissolves under the weight of this Dana.
When you let out a deep breath and she watches the tension drain from your body, she finally begins to move, pulling all the way out slowly before sliding back in, her thrusts slow and controlled.Â
Her feet hook on the inside of yours, nudging them gently to encourage you to spread your legs for her. One hand splays on your lower back, holding you down, while the other stays planted on your hip, pulling you back to meet her hips.
âA-ah, shit - fuck, Dana -â
Your cries spark something inside her. She leans over you, her chest against your back and breath hot at your ear as her pace picks up. Her hips snap forward, harder, deeper, the strap driving into places your own fingers never could, hitting your cervix in a way that has your vision going white.
âCanât believe I havenât had you in over a week,â Dana grits out, her movements never slowing even as she speaks. âMissed this pussy so - fucking - much!â Each word is punctuated with particularly brutal thrusts that have you moaning loudly.
Your sounds egg her on more, her speed picking up until you canât even think straight, and just as your last braincell tries to form a coherent thought, youâre cumming hard around the silicone, orgasm so sudden it has you letting out a loud, strangled sound. Your hips twitch wildly, running from her even though thereâs nowhere to go, your hips trapped between hers and the counter.
She doesnât stop, doesnât even slow down. She just keeps driving into you, riding you through the aftershock until youâre reaching back blindly, grabbing at her hips with shaking hands, tears blurring your vision and your legs threatening to give out entirely until youâre nothing more than a puddle on the kitchen floor.Â
The rest of the week is no better.
Dana fucks you on every surface in the entire apartment: in the bedroom, in the shower, bent over the front-loading dryer in the laundry room, splayed out on the island in the kitchen, even in front of the window that faces the street when sheâs feeling particularly voyeuristic.Â
Her energy has picked back up and her disposition channels entirely into ruining you every chance she gets.Â
She has you riding her in reverse cowgirl so she can stare at your ass while she smokes a cigarette in bed (which you chastise her for later, even though you werenât complaining in the moment, she reminds you). Sheâs rubbing her own cunt against yours, or over your mouth, or your thigh, or even once over your ass while youâre face-down on the bed. She has you stretching your legs over her shoulders while she shoves you into a mating press, the captain, the hot seat; any position she can fold you into, sheâs doing it.Â
By the end of week 2, youâre exhausted.
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Week 3
Dana is restless.Â
Not in the way that she canât sleep, or that sheâs irritable. But itâs like she doesnât know how to be still anymore. The apartment is too small for her, sheâs pacing the boundaries of an invisible cage like a tiger. If youâre standing up, sheâs standing up. If you grab your keys, sheâs reaching for her shoes. A quick run to the store turns into you wandering the aisles together because she doesnât want to go home and just be there.
She burns through energy the way she used to burn through double shifts. The restlessness spillins into everything: reorganizing cabinets and half-finished projects, long showers that end with your cheek pressed against the tile, hands that canât stop touching you once they start until youâre both sweaty and panting. Mornings blur into afternoons, afternoons into nights, marked by the pull of her mouth and the heat of her skin instead of the time on the clock.
And when she isnât touching you, sheâs watching you.
You catch her constantly. She leans in the doorway while you cook, propped on one elbow while you answer work emails or sit in virtually in meetings, her expression unreadable and filled with something you canât figure out how to name because youâve never seen it on her face before.Â
Something big is weighing in her mind, you can feel it. Itâs partially in the way she watches you, and itâs made up of the restlessness thatâs written into everything she does. She doesnât talk about the hospital, but and you donât ask. Partially because you already know, and because you donât want to hear it out loud.
If this is the calm before the storm, at least youâre in it together.
It all comes to a head on the night you two host a dinner party. The idea was hers, and that shouldâve been your first clue. Sheâs testing the waters.
Itâs just dinner, for three people sheâs known way longer than sheâs known you. Three people who have seen her at her best, her worst, her bloodiest, her most exhausted. Three people who belong to the world sheâs been avoiding talking about for weeks.
In the late afternoon, your apartment smells incredible: like garlic and onion and rosemary, with meat thatâs been slow-simmered and smells rich. Youâre dressed up like youâre ready for a job interview, in slacks that show off your ass and a shirt that shows off your figure a little too well for someone whoâs just hosting a dinner for your partnerâs friends.
The doorbell rings not long after and they arrive together.
You can hear them out in the hallway, voices overlapping and occasionally a burst of laughter. Dana opens the door and everything happens at once.
Robby barrels in first with his arms open, pulling Dana into a hug thatâs so tight her feelings almost leave the floor. Jack crowds in right behind him with a hand landing on her shoulder, squeezing it with a reassuring smile. Lena slips through last, jugging a bottle of wine and her purse, her expression soft once she gets a good look at Dana.
âLook at you,â Robby says into Danaâs hair, sounding relieved. âYou look good.â
âBetter than when we last saw you,â Jack adds dryly.
Dana laughs, still half-buried into Robbyâs shoulder. âYeah, well. Itâs not a hard bar to clear.â
Lena sets the wine down and steps in, cupping Danaâs face with both her hands and turning it gently side-to-side like sheâs looking for any remaining damage. Once she seems satisfied that all of the bruising and swelling is gone, she pulls Dana into a hug of her own. âMissed you, boss.â
A complicated emotion flickers across Danaâs face at that, but itâs gone before you can quite figure out what itâs called.
And then they notice you.
âHey!â Lena says immediately, arms opening just as wide. âCâmere.â
You barely have time to register what sheâs saying before youâre pulled into a hug that smells like perfume and red wine. Robby joins in from one side, Jack from the other, and suddenly youâre in the middle of a three-person squeeze-fest thatâs warm and a little overwhelming.
âThank you,â Robby says quietly near your ear, obviously suggesting itâs for more than just dinner. âSeriously.â
Jack pats your back, firmly and twice. âYou kept her alive for us.â
âIgnore him,â Lena laughs. âWe loved you already.â
When they release you, youâre a little flushed and touched despite yourself.
Dana is watching the whole thing with crossed arms, looking both proud and tender.
The tension thatâs been living under Danaâs skin all week seems to loosen as shoes are kicked off and coats are handed over and hung up. Someone grabs the red wine and heads for your kitchen. Voices bounce off the walls and the air feels warmer, your tiny apartment thatâs normally just for you two feeling more alive than ever.
Your dinner table is crowded in the best way: serving dishes are passed hand-to-hand, wine refilled repeatedly without asking, elbows bumping as everyone settles in. Dana insists on carving the roast herself, waving off your offer to help. And then she settles at the head of the table out of pure habit, you immediately to her right instead of at the opposite end where you usually land.
âThis is incredible,â Lena says around a mouthful of potatoes, pointing her fork at you. âIf you ever leave her, Iâm available.â
âGet in line,â Robby replies immediately. âI called dibs the minute I tasted the gravy.â
Jack laughs. âYou two would starve in a week, neither of you can boil water without paging nutrition.â
âI think the implication is that I would cook,â you laugh.
âExcuse you,â Lena argues. âI can make toast.â
âBurning bread isnât the same as toasting.â
Dana laughs and shakes her head as she reaches for her wine glass. âThis is why nobody invites you anywhere, Jack.â
âYou invited me.â
âAgainst my better judgment.âÂ
You catch the curl at the corner of her mouth as she says it - its fond, not biting.
Robby leans back in his chair, patting his stomach. âGod, this beats the cafeteria mystery meat. Last Tuesday they served something that looked like a hockey puck.â
âThat was meatloaf,â Jack says.
âIt was a crime is what it was.â
âYou all have it easy.â Lena turns to Dana. âNight shift gets the real horrors. By midnight, itâs just whateverâs left in the vending machines and the stale cookies nobody wanted during the day.â
âAt least night shift doesnât have administration breathing down your necks,â Robby counters. âPick your poison.â
âAt least admin goes home eventually,â Lena says. âI had a psych hold try to bite me last week.â
Danaâs fork pauses just before her mouth. âYou okay?â
âOh yeah,â Lena waves it off. âThey missed. Mostly just ruined a perfectly good set of scrubs.â
âOccupational hazard,â Jack says. âBetter than the projectile vomited across three beds.â
âDo not continue this story while Iâm eating,â Robby warns.
âIâm just saying, it was an impressive distance -â
âJack.â
âFine, fine.â He lifts his hands in surrender, then looks to Dana. âSee what youâre missing? Top-tier entertainment.â
That same look from earlier shows itself on Danaâs face again before she schools her expression into a smile again, taking a sip of wine. You feel her foot slide against yours under the table.
Lena leans forward with her elbows on the table. âWe did have a med student hurl during a trauma, though. Nearly took out a whole instrument tray.â
Jack groans. âI told them not to bring him in, kid looked like he was gonna pass out during rounds.â
âNatural selection,â Robby says.
âYouâre awful,â Lena tells him, but sheâs laughing.
Dana shakes her head. âFirst rule of trauma: donât lock your knees.â
âSecond rule is not to puke in your mask,â Robby adds.
âThird rule,â Jack throws in, âif you do puke, at least aim away from the patient.â
âJesus,â you mutter to yourself.
All four of them turn to you at once, grinning.Â
âWelcome to emergency medicine,â Lena says cheerfully, as if any of this is completely acceptable and polite dinner conversation.
Danaâs hand lands on your knee for a moment under the table, a silent apology paired with a small smile.Â
Robby raises his glass. âTo Dana not being there to witness any of this.â
Thereâs a moment that follows the toast where itâs not exactly awkward, but itâs heavier than the conversation has been so far.
But then Dana lifts her own glass a second later. âItâs a tragic loss for the hospital.â
âMay we all be so lucky,â Lena adds.
Jack nudges Danaâs shoulder with his. âSeriously, though, itâs not the same.â
Her expression is soft as she sips her wine. âYeah,â she says quietly. âWell.â
You reach for the hand thatâs on your knee, squeezing it gently.Â
Jack clears his throat, apparently deciding to rescue the mood. âSo, has she been completely insufferable these last few weeks?â
You open your mouth but then glance at Dana, whoâs watching you with narrowed eyes. ââŚsheâs been very helpful,â you settle on.
The table erupts with laughter.
âOh my god,â Lena wheezes. âBlink twice if you need rescue.â
Jack leans forward. âI can get you out of here in like thirty seconds, tops.â
Dana kicks him lightly under the table. âTouch my partner and you die.â
The rest of dinner is easy and light. Plates are abandoned in favor of second glasses of wine, stories are told with embellishment that makes the hospital sound like some sort of thriller movie, told with shorthand communication that comes from years of comradery. But eventually the night winds down with the slow accumulation of cues: empty glasses, phones checked for the time, the slow gathering of belongings.Â
Lena tries to stack plates, but stops when you insist she leave them, that youâll take care of it.
Coats reappear and shoes are hunted down from the entryway.
âWeâre doing this again,â Robby says as he pulls Dana into another hug. âSoon.â
âYeah,â Lena adds. âDonât disappear on us.â
âYou know where we are,â comes from Jack.
Dana nods. âI know.â
Then they turn to you one-by-one, wrapping you in the same affection, promises tossed over shoulders as they disappear out your front door.
You donât bother with the kitchen tonight, it can wait until the morning.
Instead, Dana disappears down the hall and when you join her in the bathroom, sheâs already leaning over the sink, brushing her teeth with a distant expression in her eyes. You fall into the routine beside her, shoulder-to-shoulder with mint foam on your lips.
For a bit, the only sound is the rasp of toothbrushes. Then Dana spits, rinses, and sets her toothbrush down. She doesnât look at you, instead she stares at herself in the mirror.Â
âI thinkâŚâ she starts, but then stops as she considers her words. âI think I want to go back.â
You close your eyes for a moment, mint still sharp on your tongue.Â
Youâve felt it building all week. It lived in the pacing, the sleepless energy, the way she devoured the hospital stories tonight like sheâs starving. She isnât made to exist outside of that hospital for long. Itâs carved into her bones, wired into who she is as a person. The woman you fell in love with is the woman that hospital made, you canât hate it.
You rinse your mouth to buy yourself a second of time, then meet her gaze in the mirror.Â
ââŚyeah,â you say finally. âI figured.â
Danaâs eyes search yours in the mirror. âYeah?â
âI knew it was coming.â You nod. âI know you.â
You turn to face her instead of continuing through the mirror. âIâm not mad,â you add, because you can see the question on her face. âIâm just worried. What happened wasnât a fluke, Dana. You got hurt, badly.â
âI know.â The way she says it isnât dismissive or defensive. âIâm not going to go back the same,â she continues. âI want a real conversation with admin. Security, staffing, protocols, all of it. Not their usual âweâll look into itâ bullshit.â
You search her face, looking for the familiar stubborn denial, or for the determination that sometimes scares you. Instead, you find her thoughtful, almost resolute. Like sheâll really push for big changes.
âOkay,â you say slowly. âI can live with that.â
She looks relieved at that, and she reaches out, cupping your cheek, her thumb resting just under your ear. âIâll be careful,â she murmurs.
You lean into her hand, closing your eyes for a second.
âCâmere,â she says quietly, pulling you to her. She wraps her arms around you, your cheek settling against her shoulder. She holds you tight, chin against your temple, and she presses a kiss into your hair.Â
You finish getting ready for bed quickly after that. Not because itâs awkward, but because the exhaustion of the day has wrung everything out of you and youâre tired. Lights get turned off, your doors and windows are checked.
You settle into bed and she follows, an arm wrapping around your middle, her face tucking into the curve of your neck like you havenât been holding her the same way for weeks now. Little spoon, right where you belong.
You fall asleep before she does.
Dana stays awake with her eyes open in the dark, listening to the rhythm of your breathing.Â
Three weeks. It was three weeks of you doing your best to build a world inside your tiny shared apartment that she could survive in.
You took time off work without hesitation. You filled the fridge, managed the bills, you kept your home running like she wasnât breaking down in the middle of it. You never made her feel like a burden, even when you were doing everything for her. You kept her going. Meals, medication, ice packs, clean laundry, your quiet company every second of every day keeping her sane when she couldnât tolerate anything else.Â
But even now, even when she wanted to go back to the place that scared you so badly, you werenât trying to stop her from being who she is.
Her nose brushes the back of your neck as she sighs into your skin.
Youâve been her calm in the storm, not the cage. You deserve more than the half-life youâre living around her hospital chaos.
The word girlfriend was never an option for her. She hates it, it feels juvenile, temporary, meant for people who donât know what they want. Partner had sufficed all this time, but now it doesnât feel like enough.
Wife.
She presses her face deeper into your shoulder, finally closing her eyes as certainty settles over her.
Wife sounds better.
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the odd couple
fratboy!clark kent x fem!chubby!nerd!reader
18+ mdni
original ask <3
summary: nobody expects the frat boy and the chubby, nerdy girl to ever look in each othersâ direction. but who cares what people expect?
word count: 3.5k
contains: fluff & smut. frat clark the wonderful gorgeous sassy little gentleman, reader is a weird literary nerd, lois lane being kickass propaganda. college kids being pretentious to turn each other on, my fav. some talk of drinking/being drunk, fraternity parties. clark and reader uhaul lesbian tf outta each other, first kiss/boyfriend trope. *piv, protected sex, light and bubbly and sweet because ughhhh⌠*no use of y/n
a/n: well yes, @intwoweeks ! i love frat clark, if you guys want more i will definitely do more with himâ fics, blurbs, whatevs. hope you like ;)
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If we asked anyone to explain how you and Clark Kent went well together, they would be at a loss for words. From the outside, it just⌠didnât make sense. But then again, neither of you really made sense as individuals. That is, you didnât fit into boxes in the way college kids like to.Â
Clark was a brother in Alpha Gamma Rho. He was a backwards-hat, cut-off tank kind of guy. The legend of AGR keggers because he never seemed to get drunk. The very same legend who held doors for everyone, even if it made him late. You could see Clark mowing down brothers on the frat lawn in a game of tackle football, or studying with a pair of crooked, taped glasses in the library. Sometimes he was pulling senior pranks, parking cars on roofs or wrapping an office in Christmas paper. Other times he was exercising his secret duty of negotiating with campus police when a party was coming up, bringing them donuts and promising no problems, if theyâll only let it run its course. Needless to say, the farmboy wore many hatsâ but he had a core that was simple. Warm, thoughtful, passionate love. Intentional care. Remarkable intelligence. Those were just a few things that you loved about Clark.Â
And youâ well, who could ever figure you out? The girl with no solid shtick. President of the literature club, occasional peer tutor through the university library, who could often be found committing drunken karaoke offenses at the off-campus bar with your friend and roommate Lois. Nobody would be shocked to see you in fishnets and lacy black everything one day, and mary janes and a denim skirt the next. You walked with your head down and iPod blasting on school sidewalks, but you managed robust debates in class. You even put on the bulldog mascot suit and rushed the field during your sophomore-year homecoming game, because your public speaking professor (assistant coach of the MetU team, coincidentally) offered anyone a pass on the final presentation if they had the guts. When your peers would walk by and see you either hiding in a novel or handing out bookmarks for your club, no one batted an eye â because you were just that girl who did anything. Knowing everyone, yet knowing no one.Â
It seemed every expectation of you both was subverted by another facet. Multi-dimensional in a one-note world. College isnât always the place for fully-formed people like that, but perhaps it can be good for finding each other⌠canât it?
You and Clark worked from the beginning.
He liked you when he found you standing in the corner of one of his frat parties, cradling a vodka cranberry (heavy on the vodka) with glazed eyes, staring over the sea of bodies like someone had personally offended you. He thought your dopey frown was sweet. You both remembered that night like it was yesterday.
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âWhatâs the matter?â Clark had cooed, sauntering over with an empty beer bottle and a torturous little smirk on his face. His eyes were green and bright like the light across from Gatsbyâs dock. You loved Gatbsy. Your drunken self thought of Gatsby religiously. Something about drinking and prohibition, and then the thought train justâŚ
âMy one friend dragged me here, and I think sheâs gettinâ her face chewed over there,â you slurred, pouting, as a black-polished nail pointed across the party to another corner near the kitchen. Your good friend Lois, the only friend you had, really, had a guy in a jersey shoved up against the wall like she wore the pants in that makeout.Â
Clark snickered and rested his elbow on your shoulder, laughing softer when you tried to wrestle out from under it. âYouâre friends with Lane? That canât be right. Lois is wildâ and sheâs here all the time. Iâve never seen you before.â
You lifted your buzzing head and rolled your eyes, sipping your drinkâ nearly missing the straw, and chasing it with your tongue. âYeah, well, she needed a resume booster and I needed to get out of the house.â
Clark grinned at your soft mushing words, and he jutted his chin out with a curiously furrowed brow. âHow many of those have you had, shortie?â
With a disgruntled scoff, you deflected: âMânot short!â
âRight, youâre just tall among hobbits,â Clark said, and he sat against the windowsill beside you.
He took a second to look you over that night. You had on quite the mix: a dainty little silver necklace that would nod to self-discipline, but it was bracketed by a denim jacket filthy with button pins screaming of new wave and half-niches. A little square neck tank that revealed a freckle by your collarbone. Army green cargos that rose low enough to squeeze the chub of your hips and tummy. Your boots had to have a platform at the very least one inch tall, he deduced, because they were serious and you were still short. And to top it off, there was a plum rim around your lips but a soft, neutral center, which meant you had lipstick on at some point, and had drank it all off.Â
All of your small contradictions mixed with your very suspicious glances at him made his heart thump, and he knew then and there that he could see you sitting across from him at diners and nuzzling into his neck at theaters. He saw you kissing his cheek, he saw you crying over a test, he saw you waking up with tank top straps slipping from your rounded shoulders and yawning like a cat. He saw you with him, the little romanticâŚ
âYâknow, you donât look like a frat party kind of girl.â
âI do what I want,â you scrunched your nose, âNothing means anything anyway.â
âOh, do I detect a little nihilism, shortie?â Clark teased.
You swatted his shoulder and whined, âI am not short! And do you even know what that word means?â
âWhat, you think Iâm an idiot?â
âWho coined nihilism?â you sneered, leaning down a bit to study his eyes, to see if they shifted.Â
Clark tipped his head back and craned up, giving you a knowing grin. âNietzsche. But that one guy Jacobi was the first guy to bring it up, Nietzsche just made it big. There was that other guy who wrote about it in Fathers and SonsâŚâ
âTurgenev,â you suddenly smiled, the drunken judgement slipping away. âYou know your depressing Germans!â
âAnd Russians,â he hummed, smiling wider. Your eyes were big as the moon, and his heart felt like it could seize at any moment. He had to find a way to keep you. âWhatâs your name, smartypants?â
By the way you smiled, it was clear you preferred that nickname.Â
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It was unusual, following that fateful encounter. Usually in college you get the couple who dances around each other for years, or you get the two horndogs who canât even wait until the first date. For you and Clark, it just started⌠shapeless.Â
You were too drunk to walk home that night, and so was Lois, so instead of letting you crash with all the other drunkies on the ground floor of the AGR fraternity, Clark personally put you both up in his room. He slept in his buddy Oliverâs room next door, in case he heard any creepers try to catch you or Lois offguard⌠or if he heard any puking. Then, when he expected to find you embarrassed the following morning, you were simply precious. A perfect, whiny little picture of a hangoverâ asking him shamelessly for McDonaldâs and hogging his mattress until the fog cleared. When he asked Lois if youâre usually so fond of quick friendships, she just raised an eyebrow and said, âDonât be stupid.â
And you liked him from the start, too. Letâs get that straight.Â
You didnât really want to, because the reputations of frat guys seemed to lean towards accuracy in most casesâ but you couldnât deny that they could be brutally attractive. When he stalked over with a Sharks cap on backwards, pretty little curls of chocolate peeking out at the nape of his neck, flexing those annoyingly toned arms under an AGR short-sleeve, you felt heat creep up the back of your neck. If you werenât drunk, you might have been a bit more stuttery. But it was when he gazed up at you like a puppy whilst dropping all kinds of specialized knowledge on philosophy, the soft timbre of his tone cutting through the egregious EDM shaking the house, you felt the butterflies making your toes curl in your boots. He was sweet, non-threatening, and he smiled like a wolf. Something in your gut told you that Clark Kent was hiding a whole lot of beautiful behind that brotherhood insignia on his chest.Â
It took you two all but a week to fall disgustingly in love, because Clark fell first, and he was a self-starter.Â
He found you at the library the day after your drunken romp at his house and brought you a coffee (his brothers felt the urge to adopt you as their pet, by the way, when they found you rummaging like a racoon through the fridge and Clark sitting on the counter behind you, staring with hearts in his eyes⌠and Lois asleep at his side.) The day after that, he bribed Lois with five bucks to tell him you would be leaving the literature club at four. He walked you to your tutoring shift. The next, he almost breached the creepy line when he used the student directory at the tutoring center to find your dorm number⌠but you didnât mind when he showed up with Chinese food and that God-given grin.Â
Then the week was up again, and there was another AGR party. You were formally invited that time; he snuck you up to the roof through a series of window-hoppings, and he kissed you when you were in the middle of a rant about women writing under male pseudonymsâŚ
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âAnd did you know that they didnât even let George Eliot get buried in Westminster? All that judgement for being a female writer, and then the thing with her husband dying and finding a new lover, and the Church said no, so now sheâs buried in Highgate and sheâs never been moved! Such bullshit, because she literally redefinedââ
Clark couldnât take it. Your eyes did this special thing when you got angry over book stuff, this little flashâ like someone was starting up a lighter, over and over againâ and it made his knees weak. He lurched forward as if he had no control over the urge, and he pressed his lips to yours in a manner that didnât match the preceding; gentle, like he might hurt you if he wasnât careful. His big palms, a bit rough around the curves, cradled your cheeks, and he smiled when he felt the way you sucked in a little breath, like he made you lose your place in thought.Â
You didnât even pull away, you only let your lips brush his as you asked, "What are you doing?â
âI think Iâm in love with you,â he said, like an absolute idiot. But he wasnât one. If any girl would take that kind of truth bomb well, it would be you. He knew that for sure.
You nearly knocked him on his back with how excitedly you kissed back, lips slotting against his eagerly and unorganized, head tilting from left to right, trying to find the right way, the right pace, the best feeling. He knew within a second of your sloppy mouth that you had probably never kissed anyone before and were dying to figure it out.Â
âEasy, easy!â he chuckled, passing his fingers through the strands of hair around your face. âJeez, Einsteinââ
âShut up,â you giggled, pulling back. Your eyes were on fire in a whole new way. âYou love me?â
âProbably,â he hummed. Definitely.Â
âI love you,â you countered.Â
âYeah?â
âItâs probably too soon,â you reasoned, eyes drifting to his lips like they were a magnet.Â
âYeah,â he breathed.Â
âMaybe weâre moving really fast,â
âMaybe.â
âWhat would I be?âÂ
âMy girlfriend.â
âAnd youâd be my boyfriend,â
âHopefully.â
âAnd you want that?â
âSure I do.â
âYou donât think I'm fat?â
âWhat?â Clark mumbled against your skin, because he couldnât take it anymore. He could volley your questions with his lips on your neck. âStupid question⌠I like how much you weigh, and if you lose a pound Iâll be pissed.â
âIâve never had aâ mmfâ a boyfriend before,â
âThatâs fine,â a kiss.
âI might get needy,â
âMm, please doâŚâ a nip.
Your eyes fluttered when his hands slipped into your back pockets, squeezing happily. âI have a lot of h⌠homework, all the time,â
âSo do I.â
âI vote in every election,âÂ
âMhm, so do I,â a squeeze.
âI want to write books for a living, even if it means Iâm poor,â
âI have a family farm back home⌠wonât ever have to worryâŚâ
âI- I want to have kids⌠three kids and two dogs,â
âFarmâs definitely big enough⌠they better have your eyes, cutie.â
âMmfââ It got hard to think when his teeth scraped behind your ear. âAre you even listening? Youâre talking crazy,â
âThree kids, two dogs, active citizen of democracy, Iâll keep you fed and pretty andâ mm, is this new perfume? â nâ you love me?â
âOh, god⌠yes.â
âGood. Then weâre both crazy.â
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So, it worked. Nothing you said turned him off or away. He practically knew what you were thinking before you said it. Clark didnât have to learn to anticipate your every move, he just did. And you seemed to read his mind, although that wasnât so innate as it was easyâ it was all over his gorgeous, gorgeous face.Â
It was one of those things where you seemed to just fit like interlocking fingers. Every strength, every weakness, they melded into a trade of wills. Where he couldnât, you could, and you shared life like a milkshake. One straw and a lot of kissing between sips.Â
Your first time was in your shared dorm room with Lois, when you remembered to lock the door but forgot to deadbolt it, and so she had the misfortune of opening it up and finding the two of your startled into fits of laughter, hiding from her grumblings about âboysâ and âprivacyâ:
âÍÍÍĄâ â
You really had never felt anything like it before, and whatever bad porn you watched or had seen in artsy movies did not do it justice. Or, maybe it was just Clark.
Clark had you pressed into the mattress under two hundred and twenty pounds of soft, twisting muscle, his hands wrapped around your back and digging into your sides. You werenât sure youâd ever be small enough to hold, but maybe you just needed a bigger guy all this time. Everything in proportion, right?
And god, he was a whiner. Clark rutted into you in what shouldâve been little motions, but he was so genuinely large that any thrust made your legs shake. It was quite a struggle getting the condom on, actually, because he was so anxious to be sweet with you that his hands shook. You had to roll it on for him, and you couldnât help but laugh at his blushing cheeks.Â
âOh, god, baby,â he whimpered, nibbling at the joint of your neck and shoulder as the plush heat of your walls throbbed around him. âOh my god, oh my godâŚâ
You were a hot mess, burning up and completely eager. Every grind was met with a buck of your hips, your knees hitched high and your fingernailsâ purple this timeâ digging into the meat of his back. For a first timer, you had no reservations. You moaned into the dampening hair behind his ear, âHo-oly shit, ClarkâŚâ
His hands rushed to touch every inch of your back and sides as he lifted himself up a bit and gazed down at you. His chain dangled against your lips and he watched as you took it in your mouth, passing it between tongue and teeth, batting those sinful lashes up at him. He scrunched his face up with a weak desire and tucked a hand under your knee, opening you up that last bit before driving into you with a force that managed to compromise speed and safety. Just as his hands kneaded your tummy, just as your hands twisted the sheets up, just as the two of you were begging and pleading and whining like little vocal twin flames, Lois unlocked the door and froze in the doorway.Â
You startled immediately and Clark flopped on top of you, his first concern to cover you from whoever it was. But a poor moment of judgement caused him to keep going, even when Lois burst into a flurry of curses.Â
âJesus Christ, you guysâ oh my god, somebody shouldâve just told me, I wouldnât have come home, couldnât even put a fucking sock on the door like civilized peopleâ oh my god, are you still going? Fuck, guys, ew! Privacy! Privacy in my own dorm room, that's all I ask! Boys in the room, thereâll never be boys in the room she saidâ oh, Christ, someone text me when itâs over!â
You devolved into helpless, shocked laughter as she babbled herself out and locked the door again, and Clark smiled into your chest as he made you punctuate every giggle with a moan. He couldnât get enough of the way you soundedâ it was breathy, like a whisper, until it hit harder and your pleasure reached a low register, whiny and hungry. He wanted to chase it out of you until you had no sound left. And he didâ until your back arched, until the condom simply couldnât take any more, until your eyes fluttered shut and wouldnât open again, until your body twitched and slumped and every other word either sounded like âClarkieâ or âLove you.â
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No matter what first came to pass, or whatever college threw at you, Clark didnât budge. He knew it when he sought you out at that party. He knew you were the stroke of good luck heâd never find again. So, he kept you. Good choice, because he got a free tutor out of it- not that he needed it. The perks were really just making out in the library.Â
He met your parents after a couple months, and they gushed over him. The homegrown farmboy had the good sense to bring flowers, and your parents kept them on the sill for weeks until they wilted to nothing. You showed him your childhood room, and he nearly cried at a little list of birthday wishes you had pasted next to your vanity, to which you laughed and accused, âYou sap.â
Then it was his turn; he took you home on break to the farm, and his parents nearly gave Marthaâs ring over on the spot. You received five pie recipes free of charge. Jonathan Kent gave you a rigorous tour of the farm, and he even let you brush the horsesâ one of which sneezed on your nice blouse. Clark took you into town for a new one and you got to see all the places he grew up in, and then you nearly cried, and all he could do was kiss you and tell you just how pretty you looked with grass in your hair.Â
Clark bought you exactly one second-hand novel a week, and you wrote him little poems on scraps of paper and tucked them in every place possible, so that when he went through life, heâd find it unexpectedly, and remember that wherever he was, you were, too.Â
He went to the slam poetry night your club hosted. You were crowned kegger queen to his kegger king at a particularly rowdy party. His brothers threw you a birthday party and got you delightfully drunk, so you could enjoy a childhood birthday wish of stargazing at midnight next to a cute boy. Said cute boy had to usher his friends to bed just so he could consummate the day you were brought into the world properly (and it was better than the first, somehow.) When you woke up the next morning, hungover in his bed, you smiled to yourself. Your tank top strap slid down your arm. He pushed it up.Â
It didnât matter on your shy or outgoing days, or when you felt dark or light. It didnât matter when he had to put on the âbrotherâ face and do the stupid shit fraternities do. What mattered was that he protected your heart in a little box, and just when it felt like maybe you two wouldn't meet on some small level, you did. It was synchrony. It was easy.
And you know what? It didnât have to make sense. You two were the odd couple. Soulmates exist like flames in the eyes of girls who float in the wind. He was yours, backwards hat and all, and there was nothing easier than that.
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