Lane

Even after 3 years .... even the most stubborn of people have to admit when a joke isnt funny anymore ..... or is it only funny because it's me who is being made fun of ? i wish i understood ....

There are people who categorize me and my music for their posts and i have the weirdest feeling theyve heard one or two of my songs and never cared to venture deeper into my works . i wish i could feel happy and i used to feel happy to be included … but after a certain point it feels utter trash to have my name dumbed down to One genre that i made in 2021 or dumbed down to my identity and who I am as a person whilst they use a press photo of me from several pronouns ago … And at that level im moreso a talking point for cis influencer people to prove their wokeness rather than a human being who makes music . all the work ive put in the past 13 years feels invalidated in these monents . im sure i wouldnt feel this way if people were so weird about genre names and identities but we all know that is never going to change . i know its definitely a situation that definitely cannot be fixed by me complaining but its been running way too heavy on my mind recently . i feel better now

Having to come to the conclusion that musically i am extremely manic . all the decisions and choices i make in music (mainly career wise .. this is excluding producing for other people) are extremely emotionally unstable and i think it leads to me taking longer to make music . all of my music is just decisions in the moment ... i think i may be going insane . its gotten to a point where i have two jerma videos playing at the same time when i'm making music- one on my TV and one on a browser at low volume . and best thing is , i didnt even realize this until half way into my session today . that is INSANE . but i feel my insanity keeps me wanting more creatively , so everyone finds their process i suppose . mine is watching two jerma videos at the same time . and happy accidents . Its beautiful i suppose

Twitter is filled to the brim with so much evilness now and it’s kind of really sad . Your algorhythm is literally curated to make you MAD and make you see things you hate seeing . And I would be lying if i didnt think that app was just making people going insane because of that . I abandoned my twitter and logged out .. never looked at anything again . Its hard these days to justify using it for any reason . i hardly go on instagram these days if its not checking up on my friends on my personal … IDK . The internet is evil and so many evil people are just roaming free , hating themselves waiting to make your day miserable cos of their own problems . Maybe i just was never ready to be an artist and should consider following thru with retiring … producing for other people is going well enough anyways . #3AMDelusionalThoughts #DelusionallyTired #ICannotSleep #Help #IllGetOverIt

I was totally fine with the broader audience of music enjoyers finally realizing that trans and queer people are behind a lot of the genius of today's sound but kinda icky about it becoming a trend/punchline . just appreciate and support us and that's all you gotta do

They dont make white women like Dolly Parton anymore

I bring help to my friends when most needed , so i need a bunch of nachos . chips , nacho cheese and whatever you can get . thank you

The reason why i wont release any more music is because the internet scares me

Dancing around to salem nothing is better than this