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txt: I doubt that. I could you show you the rough draft if you'd like?

txt: I should have listened to you. I guess I just didn't want to. I hoped you could love me back.

txt: a little bit but that's okay. Maybe we can begin a new journey.

txt: now you put that image in my head. Dancing cronut with a top hat. Glad you managed to stay. Gotta do what is best for you.

[txt]: would you really? I'll definitely take your word for it, rough drafts not necessary though I am kind of curious

[txt]: I was definitely trying to take the easier route, not considering anything but what was easy.

[txt]: is there such a thing as starting over? If there is, I'd like that.

[txt]: a top hat and maybe adding in some tap dancing. well, you might've had a point...about running away to australia

[txt]: yeah i'm honestly kind of free all day, can't even try pretending that i'm booked out. Is your day crazy busy?

txt: same boat. I tried to come up with something clever but it came out pathetic.

txt: It was on me. You weren't looking for anything serious. I should have listened to you.

txt: i do miss how we talked without the awkwardness. Can't deny that was the peak of our short amount of time together.

txt: you're still here? Do you want to go get a cronut? I promise no strings attached to this offering. I heard you before.

[txt]: it's better than anything I could've attempted

[txt]: that's alright, I don't know if I worked really hard to drive my point home...

[txt]: okay fair, I miss that too. Well, it's only half-awkward now?

[txt]: I am, yes....I probably should've told you that I'm still here. Well, now you put the image of a cronut attached to a string in my head. And the craving for it.

[txt]: So, okay yes, one cronut. Is that a today plan? Or, you'll let me know?

⋆｡‧˚ʚ💋ɞ˚‧｡⋆  𝐬𝐚𝐢𝐝  𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫  𝐭𝐞𝐱𝐭 (pt. 2)

[  TXT  ]  :  i’m  outside.  don’t  look  out  the  window.

[  TXT  ]  :  hypothetical.  if  i  stole  a  horse.  would  you  help.

[  TXT  ]  :  emergency.  answer  immediately.  do  you  trust  me?

[  TXT  ]  :  say  you’re  home  alone  right  now.

[  TXT  ]  :  don’t  panic.  but  where  did  you  put  the  spare  key.

[  TXT  ]  :  are  you  awake?  this  cannot  wait  until  morning.

[  TXT  ]  :  quick  question.  how  attached  are  you  to  your  car?

[  TXT  ]  :  okay  listen.  this  is  going  to  sound  bad.  but  hear  me  out.

[  TXT  ]  :  don’t  ask  why.  just  wear  black.

[  TXT  ]  :  i  need  you  to  lie  for  me.

[  TXT  ]  :  be  honest.  are  you  flirting  with  me  or  am  i  delusional?

[  TXT  ]  :  i  can’t  sleep.  tell  me  something  interesting.

[  TXT  ]  :  stop  looking  at  me  like  that.

[  TXT  ]  :  remind  me  why  we’re  pretending  this  is  nothing.

[  TXT  ]  :  i  almost  texted  you.  deleted  it.  this  is  attempt  two.

[  TXT  ]  :  are  you  trying  to  ruin  my  life  or  just  my  self  control?

[  TXT  ]  :  tell  me  you’re  thinking  about  me.  i  need  proof.

[  TXT  ]  :  i  miss  you.  i  hate  that  i  do.

[  TXT  ]  :  don’t  come  over.

[  TXT  ]  :  i  shouldn’t  ask  this.  but  are  you  alone?

[  TXT  ]  :  every  song  sounds  like  you.  explain  yourself.

[  TXT  ]  :  i  keep  rereading  old  messages.  don’t  judge  me.

[  TXT  ]  :  say  something  that  will  make  me  stay.

[  TXT  ]  :  if  i  show  up.  will  you  let  me  in?

[  TXT  ]  :  i  don’t  know  how  to  want  you  quietly.

[  TXT  ]  :  do  you  ever  think  about  what  we  almost  were?

[  TXT  ]  :  this  is  me  being  brave.

[  TXT  ]  :  i  miss  the  way  you  used  to  look  at  me.

[  TXT  ]  :  tell  me  to  stop.

"The universe said and for you Samantha, here's love. You pour so much into everyone that you deserved your cup to fill up to the brim. But, I can see how seeing your siblings stories kind of made you happy for them but also content with you. Your brother held that title of not letting anyone in until way later in life." Comical since he could tell every bordeaux was one step away from getting their hallmark moment. "It's like all of you are locked in." He turned his head and smiled. "No baby. I promise you that I never need a moment alone. You're part of my peace." And he meant that. Sam was someone who he could be around even when he was exhausted and didn't say much in return. "Don't need to give up part of your identity. We already have two names for two kids. How many do you want? I like the names. Look at our beautiful imaginary kids. I hope they take after you. They gotta have your eyes. Though with how strong your mom's genes are, I can assume one of them may get the super striking greens."

"Funny little universe," but she loved the way he thought. "Yeah, seeing them allowed me to know that that kind of love exists and it's strong. Meeting you was my sign that there was someone out there for me." Sam chuckled in response, nodding. "Yes we either find someone super early or later in life, no in between." She didn't think of herself as someone who needed reassurance, but there was something about his words that eased any doubts before they even formed. "You are my whole peace, even with all the chaos in the world. You picked some good names. Hm, how many kids? Three, four?" Coming from a group of five, that number didn't escape her either. "We might get at least one. Mom's eyes totally skipped me, but maybe my family's genes and your eyes, our kids have a better chance. Your eyes would look adorable in a tiny face."

"Definitely. Nope, we're the biggest powerhouse," she said with a soft laugh. But, he went quiet for a moment and Sam began wondering what was going through his mind. Was it the break? Or, the fact that they were all on a break for a while? She knew that was a bit odd. Freddie or Sam, one of them was always present. And, since he got married, she could occasionally take a step back and trust her brother and his wife were keeping things moving. "Oh man, what gave it away?" She half-pouted. "All three of us being out, huh?" Sam tapped his shoulder, requesting he move a little closer. "It's a secret, okay? Well, for now!" She was practically buzzing with excitement at the thought of the whole family receiving the news. Nari was still working her way through the list. Right about now, Sam knew - for work purposes. And, if her time zones were not off, her brother Freddie knew too. "But, we're going to have a new family member joining us! So, immediately said yes break right now. No fussing or disagreeing, because oh my god, they deserve this time away."

"Ditto," he spoke softly as he nudged her forehead with his own. "I never understood it. The way people would talk about coming home to their person, I always thought that was a lie. Didn't people like their space or their own wind down moment and yet, I could have the longest and hardest day and coming home to you makes it all better. I don't need a few moments to unwind before I can be home me. I just am as soon as I enter our home." He smiled thinking that was cute. "So three names huh? Guess we don't have to think of middle names. Which is kinda cool if you think about it. I like that. Enzo Stewart Chen Bordeaux. Sounds old Hollywood. I don't know I think I was delirious so Enzo stuck. I always did like and this is a nerdy answer but if we had a daughter first, I'd like to give her my mom's middle name. She says she doesn't wanna be honored in that way but I know the mere thought had her tickled. Delilah. Though it doesn't need to be that. Just a lovely name."

Thinking back to her siblings, she half-nodded. “Yeah, I think I understood it happening to others. Seeing my siblings be head in the clouds for their person. I understood that they meant love, I guess I just didn’t quite believe it really happened to everyone.” And, she was perfectly fine being the exception in the family. Not be consumed by something so painful. “If you do need this extra moments, you just tell me. I recharge with you,” meaning she didn’t often need the alone time some might. “I like it though, feeling at ease in our home. Knowing that, you have my back regardless.” And that he chose to do so. “Yes! Thought it’d be a nice way for our families to be present and well, I’m a little selfish with my name. Can’t give it up I think. Enzo does sound old Hollywood, like he’ll be in the next blockbuster film even. Hm, maybe a little delirious but it works.” She listened to his suggestion and found the idea heartwarming. It was a lovely name on its own, but the idea of their child sharing a name with his mom was sweet. “I love the idea and I think your mom will too. Despite what she says. Okay, so Delilah or Enzo. We did not take long at all. Look at you running the name business.”

“The ultimate power couple,” a pause, “after us, of course.” In Sam’s world, her and Benji were the power couple. Something that was simply not up for debate. “She survived,” she teased with a small chuckle. Messing with her older siblings was a favorite hobby of hers, and she was always ridiculously amused that he joined in on it. "Deployment team, led by Seoyeon. Those were part of the meetings this week. She walked me through her strategy and we’re all set.” Sam smiled softly at his reaction, she knew breaks were often few and in between. “Right? Hm, might be the medication making you loopy, but I’ll remind you later. We’ll be taking a break. We feel good about this launch and have a good team to handle analytics and such.” And, the break was no longer optional for Freddie and Amari. “Point is, break and that means I’ll be glued to you for the foreseeable future. So, buckle up sir.”

"Just because you think it was an intentional flirting doesn't make it so. Okay, so instead of an apology which you could have just talked to me about you decided press was the way? To stroke your own ego? It matters because it's my life and you ruined it. It's not being dramatic either but it's a fact. I wasn't gonna hide it but I still had a choice to come clean. And you in your revenge tour obliterated it."

"Whatever, I'm not debating that night with you. After all, seems only one of us actually remembers what happened." And it wasn't him. He knew this. "Sure, why not?' All in hypotheticals and rhetorical questions. "Tried talking to you later, and you sidestepped so quick, you'd think I was infected with something. But, perhaps to your point, sure - I don't take rejection all that well." A laugh escaped her, shaking her head. Ego? Please. "Of course not! Just to spice things up for the family dinners. We were kind of running out of topics at the table." And, well yeah it ruined his life and there would be no marriage now. It was one of those odd solutions that seemed too good to be true. "You were never going to come clean, face it. You were lying to everyone. My parents, your fans, your family too, I assume. Whoever that friend was. Who were you actually honest with? I might've just given a small nudge." Set him free, so to speak.

He nodded as a smirk took over his gentle smile. "Certifiably insane actually. Lately, I have. Not in a pressure type of way either but more so what it'd be like to have them. We both have steady income and a home, we're not traveling back and forth anymore. Not since we've moved officially. We can give kids a normal upbringing. I've thought about boy and girl names too. Enzo was one of the male nurses here, I thought that was a cool name. Enzo Chen. If they'd have two long names or just drop one. Who would be a godparent. That'd go to your siblings since I don't have any.

"We'll need to get some certificates to verify this insanity." Humming in complete amusement, her smile widened as she heard where his mind had been at lately. "I would never think pressure from anything you say babe. You make a good point, us finally settling in somewhere is a huge win. I like coming home to you." As much fun as it was to travel and meet her love halfway, it was truly the dream to go home knowing he would be there. "I'd like that," she said softly, wanting to give their kids a normal upbringing. Or as normal as possible. Sam's upbringing felt slightly less chaotic, on account of being younger than her other siblings, but she still remembered. And, that's the kind of chaos she didn't want her kids to ever know. Her mind had begun wandering, chuckling when she heard the name idea. "Enzo, huh? Well, I think they'd have a long name. My sister and Jaime did the whole, two last name thing. Not super popular here, but I kind of liked the idea? Except ours might just be three, Stewart and Chen-Bordeaux." Theoretically, she could drop Chen, sure. But, that was such an important piece of her identity, she couldn't bring herself to consider not passing that on. "What did you have for girl names? Or, you think we'd get a boy on first try? Hm, don't let them hear you - they'll be flying to sign up for godparent duty."

"Well now you're sweetening the deal, haunting me everywhere is a yes in my book." Snuggling closer to him, she sighed content. This love meant the world to her. "Mhm, the last product launch we did. It was driven mostly by my brother and Nari, but it's doing so well, we're preparing to launch it in the U.S. Just wrapping up the fun details to send it off. Always feels like it is its own, new product launch when it's a new country. But, after this, I'm taking a break. Freddie and Nari too. So, get ready to have me around day and night."