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... Meet Sybil, a star obsessed woman doomed by her research. Sybil noticed a patch of missing stars one day and doomed the entire world by summoning something that was never supposed to be here in the first place. She's a studious and kind hearted woman who hides in her room in fear of what she's done. She's slowly forgetting your face...

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Hmm, she has a few. Although she won't voice them unless asked, it would definitely be the Visitor returning for one. If it came back, she wouldn't know what to do with herself. She would be trying to figure out ways to do what Sam did because she doesn't want him to fix her mess again, even if it coming back wouldn't be her fault this time. As for her other fears... the fear of not being accepted, I think. She doesn't like feeling out of place, it's partially why she keeps to herself. In AUs like her Freak Circus one, losing any of her boys would actually destroy her.

I don't know much about Green Lantern but I would say Blue or Gold. She has a lot of hope in her imo, she loves spreading that to others. She may have a doomed mindset but she wants everyone around her to hope for the best and keep going... it's part of the reason why her and Sam talked so much. She was keeping his spirits high. Willpower... well. It's a bit obvious to me, but due to her condition. Despite everything and how badly her life has been grinded to a halt, she still keeps going. Sniff.

Physically she stands out due to her eyes of course. They glow in the dark, there's something etherially beautiful about her, as if she cheated death itself. But as for otherwise... she stands out to me as someone who's always got her nose in something new. She's always learning more, making efforts to observe others to learn more socially... she stands out to me as someone who could make a difference but doesn't have the time or materials to do so. She is doomed by the narrative when the world needed her most.

"Oh, could it be some kind of sign that my world is all about to change?

Is it finally time for the challenge I arranged?

Though I never thought that it would come to this, just know I'll be here, buying you time...

Let the arrow fly once you know that your aim is true.

'Cause I'd rather die than grow old without the best of you!

Though I never thought that these would be the lengths we go for love,

Apparently she's a INTJ-A according to this. Most of it fits her really well honestly...

Here's an excerpt from it just in case people don't want to read all that.

"As an INTJ (Architect), you possess a rare combination of vision and pragmatism. Your analytical mind constantly seeks to understand the world around you, driven by an insatiable curiosity and a desire to improve systems and ideas. You approach life with a strategic mindset, always looking several steps ahead and planning for various contingencies.

Your independent nature is one of your defining characteristics. You value your autonomy and often prefer to work alone, trusting your own judgment and abilities above all else. This self-reliance, combined with your intellectual prowess, allows you to tackle complex problems with confidence and innovation."

Sybil knew that face on Jester by now, he was thinking. She decidedly stays quiet, leaning into Doctor as she watches him quietly. Such a curious gaze, it fit her face well. She always observed them all quietly, it was just part of how she was. She would study their tells, the way their facial expressions shifted... it was harder with Bil, he was always masking it... but she had even partially broke through those barriers. Since he was usually always busy, she found herself not bothering him. But... lately he's been trying to invite her to at least sit with him while he works with internal matters so she doesn't feel he's ignoring her. It's been lovely getting close to the man, she could see why Jester was so fond of him. He was bright, he was cunning, and stunning might she add. The way he seemed to grin at her when she said something he liked always gave her a healthy flutter of excitement.

Listening to Doctor voice his desire for her to stay has her melt, her arms wrapping around Doctor and nuzzling her face into him. He had such a peculiar scent. Death, as did all of them, but his was stronger, and the scent of blood. There was something deeper though that she couldn't quite pinpoint, but she absolutely loved it.

... The day you cure me will be the day you give me the world in my hands, dear... I can only hope for the best. I... would kove to be able to spend more time with you all. There isn't a day that doesn't pass that I don't feel ill at the idea of... leaving so soon. With how much knowledge you've had over the years surely there's something we haven't tried yet... some of the medicines you've given me has alleviated a bit of pain for a while though. So it's a start. Thank you for that. ,,

She pushes a gentle kiss to his shoulder, her eyes peering out from Doctor's cloak to gaze at Pierrot. Ah, Pierrot... he made such sweet things for her and yet he was sweeter. He'd bend over backwards for her if she gave the word, but she much preferred studying him when she encouraged him to. He was so bright in his own ways, even if he was naive.

... Oh, sweetheart... even if I wasn't allowed with you all, I wouldn't rip you away from your family like that. They need you. No amount of love for me should get in the way of that... I'm very charmed you think of me so highly though... but yes, it would give me a chance to study the world easier... I do hope I can be useful to you all, I know a lot of things but I lack only in energy... ,,

Bil chuckles sweetly at her, his kneel shifting so he can lean in and add in his own two cents.

... Well, I believe you will be. Such a smart and obedient girl like you will fit in just fine in my eyes. Me and Jester will think of ideas, considering what I know of you so far a few things come to mind. ,,

Sybil smiles slightly as she was called obedient... she guesses that wasn't incorrect. She did make an effort to follow the rules, she didn't want to cause Bil any stress. Plus... she adored his company when she was able to have it.

She sighs in relief once Jester allows her to stay, and she sits up slightly to pay attention as he lays down ground rules. Was that all? That would be easy.

... Yes, sir. ,,

She giggles, hiding her grin behind a hand.

... Those won't be very hard to follow at all. I don't mind being accompanied places anyways... it's safer for me regardless since I struggle walking. I fear... me escaping would be impossible anyways. I can't run for anything anymore. ,,

She shakes her head. Why would she even want to, anyways? These monsters have given her more of a home than anyone else has. She speaks up to voice this too.

... You've all given me much more of a home than I've ever been allowed to have, anyways. A girl who lives in her room is not living at all. To be given a reason to leave it is to change her life. And... I'm very grateful for that. I'm grateful that you've even given me a chance to talk to you. Any of you, in fact... ha. Sorry, I'm... rambling. ,,

She leans shyly into Doctor, giggling softly. She couldn't help it, she always had so much to say and her fleeting life doesn't give her enough time to do it.

Bil nods as he's addressed, standing and offering his hand. Such a gentleman.

... Of course. Sybil... welcome, my beauty. ,,

Sybil's face explodes into red at that pet name, and she flutters her lashes and hides further into Doctor, which brings a chuckle from him. Ah... she was too cute to him. She was so bright and she loved to ramble, he found himself not minding. It provided a decent distraction when he had to force himself to take breaks... and her gentle reminders to as well. She was very helpful in that regard.

Once Jester and Bil were gone... Sybil raises up out of Doctor's cloak, although she was still leaning on him.

... ...Harlequin. ,,

Of course, he was the only one who was still neutral on her staying. She figured it was fair with how he was.

... I hope we'll have more time to get closer. I know our interests may not match in some places, I would love to be able to dance with you one day maybe but... I want to spend as much time with all of you as possible now. I believe... I'll have to adjust my sleep scedule, won't I? ,,

She smiles, tilting her head as she continues.

... I will... also need a little help transporting my journals. They're the only important things I desire to keep, everything else that I need are easy to carry in a bag... I'm sure you and Pierrot can help with that if you don't mind... ,,

She didn't have many clothes really, most of them were old and thrifted anyways. It's all she's ever been able to afford. She wondered quietly what her outfit for the circus would be like, since she would have to fit in. She sighs, holding a hand to her heart... it was absolutely racing. She couldn't help it, she was excited.

She finally had somewhere she truly found as home. And she had a family to be apart of... it almost makes her cry tears of joy. She didn't have to be alone anymore...

Sometimes she's sad she can't have kids due to her bodies condition. She wouldn't want to pass her own illness onto the child (especially due to it being linked to the Visitor itself) and it would most certainly kill her in the process. That being said... she would adopt if she was financially able. Maybe with a partner that has the money and time to help her care for one...