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The morning sun sat high in a cloudless sky, beaming down in mercy, warmth kissing the cracked pavement of a dying city in much need of nourishment. The dense, Midwestern air pressed in all around you, winds the polar opposite of Jack Frost gusting through your open window, heat haze simmering upon the uncrowded roads like freshly scorched coals on the brink of collapse. Much like the town itself, a mere phantom of glory days long passed.

Lining the landscape were small businesses that continued to take blows to customer attendance as the population steadily dwindled, many jumping ship where employment was plentiful and the future felt assured. Low in traffic, their welcome signs hung in a fashion some would call futile--others, resilient--as the chime of their registers grew fewer every year. 

The fissured brick of apartment complexes and chipped paint of one-story homes stood stubbornly, battered by the slow erosion of decay and age, yet tended to with love and pride by the humble community that remained.

Whether from weightless wallets, familiarity, or clasping onto the fading hope possessed by a once-prosperous city, something kept Gary from flatlining--undulating with life that almost made the present mistake past. That almost masked the abandonment creeping in if you didn’t look close enough to notice it.

Children sprinted through the spray of a fire hydrant, their laughter and hollers bubbling through the mist. Their safekeepers--elders with skin marinated in light and faces etched by time, flapping paper fans that did little to nothing to stave off the humid heat. A wooden round table on a rickety porch supported their conversation over a game of cards, reminiscing about days when doo wop groups crooned from every corner and the raging pulse of the steel mill whirred and hammered with enough power to sustain the whole town on its own.

A group of young men lounged on an unusually active street corner, getting into trouble both good and bad, testing out manhood with the zip of a whistle or the hoot of a catcall after the pumped and platformed strut of dolled-up ladies passing by, met with scoffs and sideways glances of dissatisfaction at their immature antics.

Flared jeans and fitted tops accentuated every dip and curve of their divinity, sculpted like pristine deities amongst ancient ruins. Their hair bloomed in an array of different styles and textures that stood out like flowers pushing through concrete: feathered, fluffed out wide, or folded strands woven into intricate patterns. The jewels and bangles they decorated themselves with jingled in time with the rhythm of their idle stride to nowhere, but they did it with undeniable style.

Gary held a unique charm that spoke loudly. Even with the lack of audience, even though plenty avenues crescendoed in silence as more gradually fled, and void clung to the walls of foreclosed buildings like letters left unfinished, a story was still told in the absence of characters.

It was a bittersweet spectacle, heaving to prosper in spite of lost opportunity and neglect. And, though the town was barely holding on, those who stayed were its life support. The pulse that pumped blood to its vitals and breathed energy into its withering bones. 

They carried themselves in a way that painted these weary streets in hues of grit and glimmer, an ode to the fading legacy that once crowned it,“The City Of The Century.” As with Rome, this once-thriving metropolis had been trodden down by the unrelenting march of time it failed to keep pace with. Yet still, though meagerly, it endured.

It wasn’t the glittering skyline or the lull of ocean sways you’d rather be soaking up, but it'd have to suffice for the three months you’d be here. And what brought you, at least, was much cause for celebration.

As soon as the front tires of your station wagon slid onto the driveway of a quaint, brown bungalow with a white porch, your Aunt Vivica came racing out the front door like joy sprouted legs and flung itself at the first sight of love, ready to shower you and you mother in hugs and kisses after over a decade apart.

“Christmas must’ve swooped in early this year! Oh my--look at what a beauty my niece’s grown into! Those holiday pics don’t do justice. Got that from her auntie, no doubt.”

She teased her little sister in a sweet Midwestern drawl, like they were still rugrats on the sandlot, giving you a good look over before engulfing you in a hold tight enough to see stars. You squeezed back with an equal amount of enthusiasm, though carefully, as the reason for this getaway faintly swelled into your lower belly, small enough to miss even at second glance, but unmistakable when pressed so close. 

“In that case, it’s only fair that this munchkin pops out wearing my mug. You’ll have to take kindly to it,” your mother teases in a tone light and familiar, as if the distance from these parts had spanned only for a season as opposed to the actual years that had gone by. Breaking from your auntie’s hold, she lowers her hands to cradle the bump forming in her womb in a soft, yet protective way. 

“How far along did you say you were?” 

“Doctor says twelve weeks, but it beats me. Wasn’t a sign or symptom ‘til that faint I had. You almost took me out before you could get here, little one,” your aunt's jest was fond, paired with a light smile, marveling in awe at the miracle growing inside of her, being told for so long that her chances of conceiving were slim to none. 

She had been battling with infertility for years, trying everything doctors recommended. Every test, treatment and remedy in the book, but to no avail. Uncle Lenny even consulted some of his own specialists to ensure things were properly functioning on his end. They all ruled what was suspected: he was as potent as he’d ever been.

Nothing provided results, and reluctantly, she started to accept that maybe the universe had disconnected the line with her on this particular matter. 

So, imagine her shock when a dizzy spell landed her in the ER, one she chalked up to be from all the toiling she’d done in the garden that day, only to be brought the news that she’d been eating for two for quite some time. When the announcement was delivered to your mother through the ring of the telephone a few weeks ago, it was like the cosmos finally accepted her call and aligned for this specific moment.

Your father’s work as an orthopedic surgeon had taken him abroad for a year-long post in South America. Your mother, not having much to occupy her in his absence, saw no reason to not make travel plans herself. And for what better occasion than this? It was decided on a whim. She’d be of support in person through her sister’s first pregnancy, until your father returned home.

And you would be right there by her side.

When she suggested you join her until school resumed in the fall, you weren’t fully eager to accept it. But, seeing how ecstatic she was about using this summer for some long-overdue family bonding, you couldn’t refuse the proposal. Besides, life was bound to get busier after graduation, and this might’ve been your last real chance to spend meaningful time with your loved ones before the hustle of adulthood set in.

So, reluctantly, you packed your bags and slid into the passenger seat for a thirty-hour drive across the western United States, a trip that left your limbs stiff and your patience frail. But, once you’d finally made it into the snug fit of your auntie’s embrace and saw how she lit up upon your arrival, the dread you had on the way here all but dissipated. It truly had been so long, you’d forgotten just how much you missed her.

You’d all fallen into each other’s rhythm rather quickly and with not even a pinch of awkwardness in spite of the prolonged separation, almost as if there had never been any distance to begin with. There was ample space for both you and your mother, each having your own separate rooms, making crampedness a thing of naught. The few days you’d been here had been spent catching up on lost time over the sizzle of dinner prep or while leaned over side by side in the vegetable garden, tending hands busy, connecting through shared labor.

Uncle Lenny was a suprisingly spry character when he managed a break from the oil grime and hectic hours of his auto shop. He sprung at the opportunity to round everyone up for a family outing. One that uncovered gems that were miraculously never once sighted during your rare and brief childhood visits. The shoreline views and winding hiking trails that were nestled less than seven miles away felt like you had a small piece of the West Coast with you. 

While sitting on the sandy surface, grainy morsels slipping absentmindedly through your fingers, guffaws and memories of missed moments sailed through the afternoon until moonlight left silver tracks across the tides as crickets serenaded the day a farewell. And, truthfully, you were having a much better time than you’d originally settled for…

Then Sunday morning stormed in and shattered that sentiment like fresh glass contracting from sudden cold. Aunt Vivica was always an early bird, the aroma of breakfast already floating through the house by the rooster’s first crow. But on this particular day, she had you all waking up before dawn even brushed the horizon, determined that everyone be dressed to the nines and out the door in time to beat the bustle of the congregation for the best seats in the house.

Out of respect for your aunt, you attended. But, her Sunday service rule for anyone under her roof wasn’t exactly a matter of compromise. Seated in the pews alongside your family, the grogginess from early rising pulled at your eyelids and weared at your attention, making it all the more challenging to feign interest at the drone of testimony and drawn-out scripture readings you had no desire to connect with.

Unpleasant but expected, the church service dragged on for far too long, seeming to surpass the limits of time itself. As the minutes piled up, your boredom was ever increasing, silent and building behind the veil of a carefully reserved demeanor: face set, posture upright, yet ears so disengaged that the sermon registered as a non-cohesive string of words, hardly grazing the barrier of your unreceptive mind.

If it wasn’t crystal clear, churches had never been your scene. Faith, in any single form, seemed too rigid for something as uncertain and complex as existence. You’d never rejected belief itself, just the idea that one path could hold every answer. There were so many ways to search for meaning and purpose, each with its own light, each within its own walls. And sometimes those walls seemed to shape people more than protect them, drawing lines where curiosity might have wandered freely into something truly fitting.

You’d come to think that any belief’s worth rested in the peace it gave. Declaring one truth above all others felt too narrow for mysteries this vast, too simple for questions that expanded into infinite possibilities.

The incessant buzz of ceiling fans and stale reek of old hymnals had the strangest effect, melting you into subdued haze. Just beyond the preaching at the pulpit, stained glass light splayed across the bronze contours of the crucifixion in a spectrum of color, each glow glaring around the edges like the hues of a trippy hallucination you desperately wanted to come down from.

The only thing that snapped you back to the present was the choir’s closing number. And by the grace of God, it was the single time you felt a flare of inner stirring. Not because the verses spoke to you in any way, nor from the long-awaited release that would come with the piece’s final chord, but because of who no doubt must’ve been an angel, cloaked in sin, singing front and center. 

His fierce gaze swept over the crowd, sealing in passion behind every note. His voice--a timbre that made the whole church hall glisten in anointing, piercing and swaying all who consumed his holy recital. It echoed off walls, rattled window panes, and coiled around the fellowship like a tightening cord, squeezing hearts, clenching souls, overwhelming everyone who bare witness. 

Some shed serenity through tears in silence; others sprang up, glee in their feet drumming against the wooden floors in a rush they could not contain. But all were overtaken by his magic in melody. Every spirit, risen by his lyrical spell. Every soul, charmed into deliverance.

Unlike the congregation, his vocals struck somewhere inside you where godliness did not reside. Somewhere primal and visceral, where raw instinct drowned out reason, clouding your thoughts like vapor in a sauna. Stifling. Heavy. Inescapable. And if this sacred chamber could hear what coursed through, could glimpse into the musings of your mind--you’d surely be rendered to flame right where you sat.

The performance left you utterly spellbound, as if something else had seized your will, holding you hostage within your own skin. Rolling up your spine until you quivered, his baritone nearly casted down the rails of your restraint. Each falsetto--soaring, spectral howls that raked goosebumps across your flesh, conjuring a force that cleaved at your grip on sensibility until you felt stretched thin, barely holding on, your trembling grasp ready to give way, so delightfully, to that unrelenting pry. 

How could one feel so fallen in the presence of praise to the Most High?

Jovial figures danced and shouted all around you, but like the narrowing scope of a barrel, you were entirely fixated on him, unable to so much as twitch your eye toward the commotion. He had your undivided attention. Demanded it with each fluid spin and sharp, deliberate step that accompanied his tenor. Synchronized. Precise. Explicit? Brazen as it was--the heat that flushed your cheeks and nipped at your nerves until sweat beaded down your neck--it had to be.

Heavy as iron, your lungs were crushed beneath the weight of the breath you failed to release, laying trapped in your chest. Your limbs mirrored the statues you’d passed in the foyer, rigid and unmoving, as if carved from the very same stone. 

With locked joints, unwavering eyes, and mind like a boundless abyss, void of all clutter, yet only able to form notions of him, an epiphany dawned on you like the waxing of a red moon into view. Slow. Luminous… Laced with danger.

Where the congregation was being freed, lifted by these transcendent frequencies, ascending towards salvation, you were frozen, held captive, wrapped in the snares of damnation. Of possession. Of his possession…

And there was no fate that could taste sweeter.

In conclusion, the last ‘amen’ of the finishing prayer granted permission for people to begin filing out of the nave, slowly ambling towards the parking lot or pausing along the way to chat with their neighbors. As your sore, clammy palm released its firm clutch on the pew’s armrest, still reeling from the intensity of the performance, you made an attempt to rise until a maternal voice interrupted.

“I see you brought some new faces with you this Sunday.” 

A petite woman with a grin that radiated sweetness and welcome stood before your aunt and uncle, clearly expecting an introduction. Behind her, a group of boys and girls, appearing to be close to your age, were gathered. Some of them wore inviting smiles, upturned identical to hers and waiting patiently.

That is, besides the two teens--seemingly, the youngest--who were locked in a silent pinching match until an older boy with a thin mustache framing fuller lips gave them each a firm thwack on the back of the head. A direct signal for them to mind their manners in public.

“Oh, Kathy! This is my little sister and her daughter, the ones I was tellin’ you about. They just got in from California last week,” your aunt announced as she rose to embrace the woman. Someone you assumed was a close friend, given the same tenderness in her hug as the one she gave you the day you arrived. Uncle Lenny kept his salutation brief but comfortable, offering a quiet “Good afternoon, Kathy,” with a courteous nod before stepping aside for all of you to exchange greetings.

“That’s no quick hop down the road, is it? I hope it’s not too dull in these parts for you. I’m Kathrine, by the way. Kathrine Jackson,” her voice rang as softly as her handshake, gentle and inviting. “These are my children.”

A girl so gorgeous she could’ve been a supermodel introduced herself as LaToya. You were astonished to meet someone with such a high-profile look at an ordinary Sunday service instead of on the cover of Cosmopolitan.

The boy you’d seen scolding his siblings, Marlon, was all suave tones spread heavy under a flirtatious smirk now, handshake lasting a bit longer than needed and a failed attempt at subtlety as he tried to mack and sweet talk the best he could, just shy of his mother’s attention. But he’s quickly discarded, being pushed aside by the same two youngest, each scrambling for a turn.

The one named Janet won that battle, immediately doting over your dress and insisting to know where you got it, while the boy managed a sheepish “I’m Randy,” from the sidelines of his sister’s enthusiastic shove. And as if fate or fortune was at play, the one you’d seen on stage earlier was suddenly right in front of you, sliding his hand into yours, as delicate as the flit of a monarch’s wing: light yet intentional in a way that left you soaring.

“Hi, I’m Michael,” his smile was both polite and beaming, like a bow tied on a gift you didn’t expect to receive. Like a frosted lawn being thawed beneath sunlight, warmth spreading slowly. A soft beckoning for dew-dropped blades to dazzle in morning rays, resonant with the flicker in your heart.

You could hardly believe it… he was even more magnificent up close. His shy demeanor. His soft, velvety voice. A striking contrast to the absolute powerhouse vocals he’d nearly blasted the walls down with. He could’ve been mistaken for an entirely different person, but those eyes could only ever belong to one. Eyes that once blazed with so much energy, now unguarded and more befitting of a fawn in their mildness, sparkling and renewed, like smokey quartz catching light after the first rain of spring.

It was your turn to prolong the touch, your grip solid around the unexpected callus his hand was made of. Sinewy strength, broad and masculine, yet softened by a grace like golden leaves: veins weaving elegant paths beneath smooth, melanated skin, strong roots threading through rich soil. You held steady--engaged and waiting. Not just because you didn’t want it to end, but because you sought after how he’d feel in its calm maintenance. And, perhaps, in that stillness, you’d find his heart’s rhythm too.

His lips quirked into something incredibly boyish and bashful, as if he might draw back, overwhelmed by the proximity, the closeness. But he, ever full of surprises, didn’t loosen his hold. He allowed the moment to simmer in a daring game, played out between your shared gaze and persistence, each of you anticipating to see who would slip away first…

That round was ultimately tied, broken by his mother’s call for departure.

“Well, we’d best be on our way then. I’ve gotta get my pot roast going before they start grumblin’ like I don’t feed them. Growin’ kids sure make tired hands, and a stockpile of groceries vanish in a day… you’ll know all about it soon enough yourselves.” 

She gave a parting word of camaraderie to the soon-to-be parents, enfolding your auntie’s hands and delivering an affectionate pat to the backs of them before turning to you and your mother. 

“It was nice meeting you both. Don’t be too shy to stop by next week!” 

Her chime, followed by a light wave, was the cue the rest needed to follow her down the aisle, but not before Michael turned around to flash one last grin in your direction, wide and endearing, before heading out the way you all came.

Maybe Aunt Vivica’s church rule wasn’t so bad after all.

You lie in bed late that night, the fan’s low hum serving as white noise, room cool and dimly lit by the slivers of luna whispering through your curtains. In the hush of that ambience, you couldn’t help but wander back to that measured moment with Michael near the pews. His smile--a tilt so precious it could be bid on for more than the rarest diamond. Hands that could bind just as much as they could break. Eyes that shone like the expanse of the universe. Endless. Reverent. Reviving…

And revive, they did. It almost made you feel ashamed at how easily you found yourself getting reignited. When he was confident and in his element during his performance? Who wouldn’t be moved by such command, such presence? But being more drawn in, more enthralled by his softness, his quiet, meek nature… that felt down right blasphemous.

It should’ve been wrong, how it set something off inside of you that made you want to provoke, to prod until the other version of him surfaced again. Or, would it stay dormant? Would he remain docile and pliant when pressed? Malleable, easy to mold, effortless to sway to every whim’s lingering and turning.

Maybe, he’d shed his respectable bearings when presented with a chance for indulgence, for release. Cast them aside to open space for what was firm. Unruly. Untamed. Like a young tiger coming into its own, frenzied by the taste of its first successful catch. Ravenous. Reinvigorated.

And his sounds… would they glide over you like honey slipping from a fresh comb on a summer day? Thick, golden, melting under the heat of sweltering forbiddeness. Or would they spill out rough and low, a rumble teasing your nerves and tugging at your psyche until even you questioned your true self?

Until the shadows of your thirst intertwined with proclivities you never knew lay dormant, transforming you into something unrecognizable. Something that contradicted all you’d believed of yourself to be. The curiosity was driving you to madness. Either way, you were determined to find out which side was most true to the boy with doe eyes and spellbinding song, or to uncover what else he had yet to reveal…

Next Sunday couldn’t have rolled around any slower. It seemed the more you anticipated, the more it stalled. But, even as the days leading up to it paddled along at their own leisure pace, it eventually arrived right on schedule.

You took the honor of waking yourself before your aunt did with the scent of her famous hot cakes or the low, velvety murmurs of Billie Holiday, both wafting from the kitchen most mornings. Earnest and on edge, you reserved an extra hour to prepare yourself, outwardly composed in reserved elegance: pearls rested just above your collarbones, paired with the finest dress you could rake from your wardrobe. Inwardly, you were ruminating on a damn near million ways for a clue to get closer to him.

Between the service’s insistence on faith, worship or whatever other rites were meant to draw them closer to the heavenly and eternal, and the six rows that barricaded any chance of rekindling that flame beyond what it had been, you pathetically managed a mere “hello” and “goodbye” in brief passing during the prelude and dismissal.

Feet dragging and shoulders slumped, you trudged to your room, displeased at the lackluster reunion and failed attempt to connect past the point of polite pleasantries. You kicked off your kitten heels, their low thumps hitting the wall on impact, before flopping face-first onto the comfort of your bed, bouncing a few times before the springs settled.

With frustration needling your thoughts and creasing your forehead, you couldn’t help but fret, rolling over on your back, massaging your temples to ease the tension stored there. Most of it stemmed from the three-hour church session, but your inability to shift casualness to something more personal bore just as much weight.

It was a feat in itself. A full week of plotting, and still, you couldn’t piece together a single thought that might open the door to intimacy. Somehow, you managed it nonetheless. And if inspiration didn’t strike soon enough, the summer was sure to burn out before you even had the chance to make a move.

Meanwhile, at the Jackson home, a feeling in sharp contrast swirled silently in Michael, giddy and swooning over the encounter he’d had with you at church. They were only crumbs, but he felt full, sustained just by seeing you again and eagerly awaiting when you’d next cross paths.

He found himself reminiscing on your interactions with a smile he couldn’t hold back. One that would’ve risen even if every muscle in his face tried to suppress it. But he didn’t want to fight it. He wanted to bask in this newfound crush.

His mother had said they would be stopping by to welcome Sister Vivica’s visiting family, and he trailed after her without giving much thought to it. He figured this would be a quick in-and-out kind of thing and nothing more. What he didn’t expect to find was the bombshell who left him stupefied and stunned in equal measure. The sudden disorientation left him unsure of what to make of the moment or the way it hit him.

He was already taken by your beauty, allured before he’d even spoken a word to you. Like a moth drawn to a flame, entranced and instinctively compelled, he ached to get closer. Yet his nerves went haywire, rumbling like static as his feet remained rooted like pillars set in cement, defying his wishes.

It was unpredictable. He wasn’t sure whether he’d stay hidden deep behind the veil of his siblings, unknown and admiring from a distance where he felt safe, or if he’d actually muster enough courage to get a better look. But when he caught a whiff of Marlon’s obnoxious attempt at flirting, that was all the motivation he needed to trample his anxiety and take a shot.

In a rush of incentive and intrigue, he took his place behind Janet, waiting with as much nonchalance he could manage, until she finished gushing over your outfit.

He spoke in a reverent hush once in front of you, worried that raising his voice even a decimal higher might make it crack, especially with the jolt of electricity that ran through him at the embrace of your hand. Much to his contentment, he soon realized that you weren’t making any effort to let go… and neither was he.

Your grip was assertive. Firm, but not forceful. Just enough to show you were interested as well. Though, Michael couldn’t have pulled back even if he wanted to. The energy simmering between you was too enticing to let up. The hint of challenge dancing in your eyes, the warmth and softness where you connected. It sent his heart racing off the charts, ready to leap from his chest and nestle itself next to yours. He felt like he’d been catapulted into the stratosphere, elated and cruising on a high nothing could bring down.

And he wouldn’t let it…

“Hey, little bro. Peep this,” Marlon announced his arrival from the doorway of their shared bedroom before a magazine smacks Michael square in the face.

Well, that was short-lived.

His eyes rolled in annoyance as he got ready to tell Marlon to buzz off, but when they snapped to what landed in his lap, shock snatched the words right off his lips. He fumbled with the item, clumsy and startled, slipping from his fingers as if the contact had scorched him, but he managed to get a solid hold. The bold, scandalous letters spelled out Playboy, stamped across the cover like lechery dripped in ink.

”If mama knew you were bringin’ filth like this into her house, she’d send us both straight to the Lord herself!” He hissed at his brother, who slammed the door shut, locked it and pounced onto the bed to slap a hand over Michael’s mouth.

“She won’t find nothin’ if you shut your trap. Talkin’ loud enough to wake the dead,” Marlon whisper-yelled, scolding Michael for the ruckus he was stirring up. He froze for a moment, ears tuned for any signs of movement outside. When it became clear that the shouting hadn’t alerted anyone, he slowly pulled back, shooting Michael a look that carried a warning of its own if they got caught.

“...How’d you get this, anyway?” He stared at the girlie edition in disbelief. Considering their state had laws that heavily restricted pornography, there had to have been some strings his brother pulled to get his hands on it.

“Nothin’ for you to worry about. Let’s just see what’s inside,” Marlon tossed out, sly as ever, keeping his methods a mystery, all in service of his self-perceived cool points. He took the magazine, his thumb a glide along the edge that sent the pages spinning like a roulette wheel, only stopping when he felt like it landed on a lucky number. 

“Oooh, she is foxy! Jugs like that gotta be the tap to buttermilk,” he smirked lazily, ogling the blonde woman, clad in nothing but an underbust corset, laces weaved and stitched up in front to keep the skimpy article of clothing bound tight, elevating the spillage of her bare breasts.

Just below her sternum, the tassels--fastened and hanging low--were a threaded path leading right to the border of her pubic bone, legs parted wide like two ivory arches reaching towards the sky, revealing a well-trimmed tuft of brunette locks peaking over the rim of a glass of red wine, skillfully placed to shield her most intimate secret.

“Oh God, I’m not into all that stuff. It’s silly,” Michael scoffed, shoving the magazine away like it barely deserved his attention. The trouble that came with it was more than it was worth.

“You won’t think it’s silly no more once you get some,” Marlon teased as he turned the page, eyes scanning whatever lewd pose was on display next. Michael wouldn’t know. He wasn’t looking that way anymore. 

“I ain’t even gonna humor that ‘til I’m settled down.”

Suddenly, the book is snapped shut. Marlon practically leapt off the bed, staring at him like he’d just grown a second head.

“Settled down? How you gonna enjoy the main course if you ain’t tasted the appetizers?” He asked with what sounded like genuine concern. Given Marlon's long list of lady loves, he probably considered this a real crisis.

“All I need is God to guide me when the time is right. I happen to know how to put Him before pleasure--unlike some people,” Michael huffed, throwing that last comment to jab, slightly offended by his brother’s interrogation. Not to convince himself that he wasn’t just saying that to save face. That he wasn’t actually worried about the possibility of it not working out how he, or He, intended.

“Ahhh, you mad ‘cause I got game,” Marlon quipped, not taking the insult to heart. He knew relations were a sensitive topic for Michael. Knew when to back off from it too.

“Nah, I just ain’t willin’ to gamble with the devil,” Michael declares with conviction. Faux? Maybe, but he wasn’t letting the thought linger long enough for doubt to settle. 

He stood up quickly, snatching open his bedside drawer to pull out a worn, wrinkled binding of Holy Writ, creased and softened from the many times he’d turned to it for reassurance. Now, to serve as an antidote to the debauchery his brother seemed intent on poisoning him with.

He had just started toward the door, aiming to remove himself from the lasciviousness brewing in the room, when Marlon’s voice stopped him right before he could twist the knob. 

“Yeah, you keep tellin’ yourself that. All it takes is the right one, and you’ll dive in before you can even thank Jesus.” He left the conversation with that parting word--or omen--shuffling over to his own bed and plopping down to resume his porn-mag sesh in peace. 

Michael opens his mouth, ready to fire back some kind of rebuttal for the off putting remark, but the words sank like quicksand down his throat. Deciding it was useless to keep entertaining his brother’s provocations, he let them lie. With nothing else to say, he turned and left quietly, the door closing with a soft thud behind him.

“Michael, come here, please!”

His mother’s call from the living room halted the scribble of his pen. He flipped his journal shut, red cover closing over the notes, his feet padding softly on the carpet as paced to her request.

“What’s all this, Mother?”

He eyed the cardboard boxes stacked high around her, curiosity creeping into his voice.

“Old baby stuff I’m gonna donate to the church. I just got off the phone with Vivica. Figured she might find somethin’ useful here. She said she ain’t busy, so I’m headin’ that way first once I get all this in the car. Think you can load it up for me?”

His interest piqued the moment he heard where she’d be stopping, though he couldn’t tell whether the surge of excitement or his reply came quicker.

“Yes! Yes, I can do that. How about I come with you? You know, so I can help you unload when we get there.” He loved helping his mother whenever possible, but this offer was entirely self-serving. This could be the chance he needed to get to know you better, and he wasn’t about to let it slip away.

“Oh, I appreciate it, baby,” Katherine cooed, touched by her son’s thoughtfulness. Oblivious as she was to his true intention, but unlikely to turn down the extra assistance anyway, she smiled and handed him a box. 

Every bit of clutter that filled the family room eventually found space, packed tight in the trunk and backseat. The steady hum of the vehicle along the streets served as backdrop to Michael’s thoughts, which were about as stable as a wagon on uneven ground: wheeling, wobbling, and picking up speed as they neared Vivica’s house.

Though he initiated the invite, Michael realized his mouth may have moved sooner than he could’ve better assessed the situation, or himself. In his eagerness, he hadn’t considered the downside of showing up unrehearsed. 

His fingers drummed against the suede armrest and his lip fell victim to a nervous bite as he wondered if he’d make a good impression… or utterly embarrass himself. When the car parked and the engine sputtered to a stop, he had no choice but to wing it and hope he didn’t flail. 

They both stepped out, gathering as many boxes they could handle in one go, like they had a mission to see through: Kathrine, to help an old friend; Michael, to make a new one. And, hopefully, turn that connection into something more.

The front door opened to the familiar warmth of Vivica’s smile.

“Kathy! Michael! It’s so nice of y’all to think of me while doin’ this. Please, come on in! You need a hand with that, sweetie?” she asked, parting the door wider and stepping aside to make way for their entrance.

“No ma’am, I got it just fine,” Michael insisted, taking his invitation down the hallway into the living room. A path he knew all too well.

After several trips to and from the car, everything was finally brought in and spread across the room. They chatted easily with each other amongst it, settling wherever they could find a place and sifting through the items with care and grateful hands.

“So, how’s college life treatin’ you? You got one more year left to go, right?” Vivica inquired, neatly folding a striped onesie, then placing it in a pile of things she’d set aside to keep.

“Yes, ma’am. Just one more of learnin’, then I’m off to teachin’,” Michael replied with a proud smile, nudging the box labeled ‘Toys’ closer to her. He was just two semesters away from earning his bachelor’s in music education, and he couldn’t wait to spark a new generation’s love for the art.

“Well, if you’re showin’ ‘em how to hit all those notes, I’ll be sure to send this one your way,” Vivica quipped, promoting Michael to giggle, a shy grin breaking across his face at the compliment.

Their conversation carried on comfortably, more boxes joining the pile of those already explored, soon surpassing the amount left untouched. And yet, there was still no sign of you. It looked like you might’ve not even been home that day, and Michael was starting to wonder if his initial reason for coming had been in vain.

But it seemed his wishes were granted by the sound of the mechanical clicks of the door unlocking, your voice growing nearer over the light rustle of plastic. 

“Auntie V, I forgot which you wanted, so we just grabbed broth and stock. I hope that’s alright. Oh--hello,” you paused, surprised, as your steps came to a halt. You weren’t expecting to find visitors when you got back, and certainly not him, the boy you’d secretly been plotting to get a little more personal with. 

“That’s fine with me, honey. Just set it down on the counter. Kathy and Michael brought some things for the baby,” your aunt chirped, maneuvering through the clutter to lend your mother a hand.

Michael gave a small wave in your direction, which you returned with a smile, being mindful of the bags in your clutch. Perhaps, this was destiny, meddling in your favor…

“That’s so kind of you. We appreciate it a lot,” your mother acknowledged warmly, passing a couple of the lighter groceries to her sister. Not that she needed any help, she just knew Vivica liked feeling useful when she could.

“It’s no trouble, really,” Michael replied breezily, gaze finally pulling away from you to address her. At that, it felt like an anchor had lifted and your feet found motion again, crossing into the kitchen to help put things in their rightful place. 

As you tucked the items into the pantry, that same frustration and nerves were bubbling back to the surface. He was here, in your home, so close, and yet, your master plan for closeness was still nowhere to be found. There had to be something you could bond over.

You finished unpacking your bags, fixing yourself before you went back out. You primped your shirt and tousled your hair, making sure not a crease nor stray was in sight. After a deep, self soothing breath, you turned to exit the kitchen. Just as you stepped through the threshold, reentering the main room, a gentle tap on your shoulder stopped you in your tracks.

“Could you fill this with some carrots and potatoes from the garden? Need it for dinner tonight,” Auntie V requested, passing you a woven basket you’d need two arms to carry once it was full.

“...Of course,” you forced out after a beat, reluctantly redirecting your course toward the backyard. Before you could get far, your mother chimed in with an offer:

“Let me come with you.”

With you being steered away from the group browsing to toil outside, it appeared you wouldn’t be able to take advantage of this unexpected arrangement after all. 

Katherine, however, had other plans.

“No, no, no--us ladies need to gossip. The young ones can handle all that hard work,” she said with a playful wave of her hand, “Michael, go help her with that, please.” 

“Yes, ma’am,” he replied, already making his way to your side as your mother slid into his vacated spot, ready to join the chatter. Their voices grew faint, fading as the two of you made your way to the garden.

In that moment, an odd and heavy silence clung to the air, breached only by the rhythmic trill of cicadas, both of you at a loss for words now that you were alone. 

“So, do--” 

“How’s--”

You both spoke at once, reaching for a conversation starter to squash the awkward tension. It’s melted away by the imperfect timing, a fit of giggles dancing between you.

“Sorry, you go first,” you offered with a small grin lingering as the laughter subsided, your ears fixed in anticipation for what he might say.

“I was, uhm, just asking how you like Gary so far?” Michael said, his voice faltering as he knelt down next to the garden bed, hands tugging at the stubborn roots in an effort to calm his nerves. You followed along, resting the basket in between you and gently loosening the soil around the base of a carrot to make it easier to pull.

“It’s been great! A lot slower than summers out in Cali, but I’m enjoying it. It’s been a long time since we’ve been here, got to see family like this… it’s nice. I don’t care too much for the humidity, though.” 

Michael chuckles at that, placing a few small carrots into their designated spot.

“Yeah. When the sun’s high, that heat’ll have you sizzlin’,” he joked. “We hit the beach sometime to catch a break.”

“Uncle Leny took us out that way a while ago,” you gushed, thrilled that you shared something in common with him. “It’s beautiful up there. Especially at night.”

“Probably ain’t much compared to the Pacific, I bet.” It’s a modest guess, one that you readily agree with.

“Nothing compares to the Pacific. You should see the coastline at dusk,” your voice lilts softly, faraway and fond, your thoughts adrift in the golden scenery of your mind’s eye. “It’s like the Earth stole a piece of paradise.”

Michael stays silent for a moment, his hands still moving on autopilot, but he was focused entirely on you, drawn to the warmth of your expression as you recounted the sites you most cherished.

"Maybe I’ll get around to it someday," he mused lightly, his tone naturally softening to match yours.

You glance over, only to find his gaze on you, gentle and unwavering. Like calm, amber pools catching the light of the afternoon, reflecting it back at you so intensely, you might’ve fallen right in.

“Uhm, I think that's a good amount,” you say, clearing your throat and forcing the words out. Sitting up straighter, you wipe the dirt off on your jeans and nudge the half-full basket closer to him. ”Could you carry this for me?” you ask, not quite meeting his eyes.

“Sure,” he squeezed out, surprised and a little embarrassed that he let himself get swept up in his feelings. He smooths down his tee shirt, as if the gesture might help him reclaim his sense of composure. 

You both rise to your feet. He stoops down to take the woven basket into his arms, and together you walk a few rows up the garden plot to where the potatoes were planted.

"So, where’d you learn to sing?" you ask, gripping a sturdy stem and yanking until the soil gave way, revealing a cluster of thick, well-nurtured russets.

Michael follows suit, grunting as he wrenches a shoot from the ground. “It’s always been somethin’ I just… kinda had, I guess,” he pants. “I was probably singin’ when I came out the womb.” 

You both chuckle at that, his hands plucking each spud from the plant and carefully brushing the dirt from their skins.

“You never had any lessons or anything?” you ask, your voice light with curiosity, your focus resting a little too long on the constellation of droplets scattered across his toned bicep, each one shimmering over muscle drawn taut as he tugs another root.

“Not really. Well, my father, Joseph--he was a music man, and our manager. Had me and my older brothers start a band. Called ourselves The Jackson 5.” 

A faint smile tugs at his face, remembering the time he spent with his brothers. The long days on the road and the joy of making music together, built on something they all loved deeply.

Your hands freeze at the revelation, and you stare at him wide-eyed, your mouth agape in awe.

"A band? That’s so cool, Michael!" you exclaim, giving his shoulder a playful shove that draws a breathy laugh from him. Another question rises to your lips.

“Wait, older brothers? I thought it was just, uhm… Merlin, was it? Marvin?” you guess, tilting your head. The action clearly does nothing to help your accuracy, judging by the cackle that bursts out of him. He doubles over slightly, hands resting on his stomach as if to keep himself from floating off with it.

“It’s Marlon,” he says once he’s caught his breath, quietly satisfied that your mix-up confirmed that despite his brother's church flirtation, you weren’t holding any space for him.

“I knew that didn’t sound quite right,” your voice is sheepish, but Michael is smitten enough to praise your efforts.

“Was a good guess, though,” he murmurs with a faint grin, returning to the potatoes. His fingers move deftly, detaching one from the root with attentive care as he continues.

“Jackie, Tito and Jermaine--they’re all settled down with their families on the other side of town. We competed in a lot of talent shows across the country. Were even gainin’ some traction, too. Had record labels reachin’ out to sign us.”

His smile fades a little.

“But, then Joseph got killed comin’ home from the mill one day, and that was that,” he mutters, dropping three potatoes into the basket.

“Oh my… I’m so sorry,” your hands falter, stilled by the sudden weight hanging in the space between you. Michael is swift to lift the mood again.

“You ain’t gotta apologize. It was an ambulance, ironic as that is. Driver was hammered on the job--sped right through a red light… I guess Joseph couldn’t dodge it in time," he shrugs. 

“We got compensated, though. Nothin’ crazy. Just enough to get a place that could fit all of us, and stash some away for the kids' college funds.”

You nod silently, letting the information settle. After a pause, you decide it’d be best to shift the conversation.

“Do you miss it? Band life and all?” 

“Sometime,” he responds after a brief moment, reflecting on both the grind and glory of life as a young musician. 

“It was hard work, especially bein’ so little. But, I remember bein’ so happy when I got on stage. Felt like I was free… like I could do or be anything.” 

The memory of packed auditoriums and thundering applause under bright stage lights brought back treasured moments he had long since laid to rest. Though the church choir offered a near-enough imitation of that feeling, it could never quite compare.

“Would you ever go back to it?” You asked, laying a cleanly picked haulm aside for the compost bin.

“I don’t know. Music industry’s a tough one to break into. Ain’t likely to make it,” he said, uncertainty threading his voice as he wiped the sweat from his forehead with the back of his wrist. 

Besides, he already had a career path laid out that offered high stability and low risk. Maybe that was the route he was meant to take after all.

“With your voice? You have nothing to worry about.” It’s an honest remark, though Michael doesn’t quite know how to take it.

“Ahh, you’re just sayin’ that,” he dismissed the compliment with a bashful giggle, shaking his head as he rubbed the back of his neck.

“No, I’m not! I’m serious,” you insist with a chuckle of your own, but there’s no humor behind the words. “You’re selling yourself short if you don’t think you can go far. You’ve got something really special.”

You couldn’t understand how he could doubt himself. To you, his hesitation felt like greatness turning back on itself when it was already his to claim. If he chose to walk a different path, you’d hoped it was out of true passion, not because he didn’t believe in himself enough to bet on his own potential.

“You really think so?” he asked hesitantly, like someone who wasn’t sure he had what it took to go the distance. 

“I know so. What you did in that program on Sunday--there wasn’t a soul who didn’t feel it. That’s your gift. It moves people. It makes magic.”

Like his most devoted spectator, you offered firm encouragement. Not out of flattery, but out of true faith in him and his capabilities. Nonetheless, he is beyond pleased by the praise as a quiet bashfulness bloomed in his cheeks. Not in a way the eyes could reach, but felt all the same, gently veiled by his rich, earth-toned skin.

But what he asked next would’ve fooled you into believing he had all of the boldness and confidence in the world:

“What about you? What’d you feel?” 

His voice wraps around the question like mahogany. Soft, deep and smooth in a way that had you wondering whether the culprit was all the lifting and rending he’d done under the afternoon sun… or something more. Somehow, he’d managed to surprise you again, a pattern that seemed to repeat itself each time you met.

Perhaps, it was nothing more than an innocent inquiry. But whether it was intended to rouse you or not, you were determined to strike your own spark and toss it into the fire simmering between you, already hot, and nearly too much to handle.

“...You’ll have to sing for me again before I answer that,” you utter with amusement curling at the edge of your lips as you watch him, waiting to see if he really was as daring as his words made him out to be.

For a breath, neither of you look away. The tension so palpable, even passing strangers might sense it. Michael’s throat tightened, heat creeping up his neck as his heart stuttered, reactions he knew the muggy weather could not be blamed for.

Before it could build further, before his body did anything else against his volition, you’re quick to cut through it, redirecting his focus to the basket that was near overflowing at that point.

“Well, that seems about enough,” you say with finality, rising to stretch and push the creak out of your back. “Guess we head back inside now.” 

The sudden shift nearly gave Michael whiplash. The mood had flipped so fast, he almost wondered if he’d imagined it altogether. He blinked a few times to regain himself, then stood to his feet. Taking a deep breath, he rushed to speak before his nerves overrode what little courage he had left.

“Y’know--uh, we don’t really… talk much outside of church. I mean, maybe we could… I dunno, fix that? If you want?” he stammered out, wincing the second the words left his mouth. God, she probably couldn’t understand a thing I said.

But, you heard him clearly. And now, you found yourself scrambling for an adequate suggestion, still without a clue where or how to plan anything outside of those church walls. Then, as if by divine intervention, something caught your eye: the steady sway of a windchime, its crystal cross glinting in the sun, tinkling in the breeze like a bell tolling the arrival of your brightest idea. 

“Bible study,” you say after a beat. “Are you free for it sometime? You bring the scripture, I bring the snacks?” you quipped with a grin, jokingly extending your hand to shake on the bargain while internally high-fiving yourself for landing on something both practical and promising.

How you hadn’t thought of it sooner was beyond you, but now that you had, you were prepared to endure the discomfort it came with for the reward it would surely bring. And Michael, in his faith and infatuation, was more than happy to reap the benefits.

“Sounds like a sweet deal to me,” he smiled, clasping your hand in his for a solid, settling shake to anchor the promise.

One hour, twice a week, at your place. That was the arrangement you both agreed on. Michael would come over at any set time, his satchel slung over his shoulder, packed with everything needed to annotate and deconstruct the verses: highlighters, pens, note paper, sticky notes; all tools to ensure a productive study session.

But once you finally delved into the Word, those minutes spent poring over scriptures swiftly gave way to laid-back exchange about your lives. Plans, interests, passions, all mingling with the long-forgotten, colorful array of stationary items scattered across your bedspread.

Michael didn’t mind the change of pace at all. In fact, he much preferred to savor these moments getting to know you, rather than mulling over words he’d already absorbed so deeply, they felt like a second skin.

He realized you had more in common than he initially thought. Both of you were in your final year of college and majoring in creative fields. You were an aspiring writer with plans to take an editing position after earning your degree. A career option that provided financial stability, plus gave you the flexibility to sharpen your skills and focus on your own literary projects.

Often, he found himself swept up in your grand imaginings of a future still waiting to unfold. The way you spoke of the possibilities you envisioned for yourself made it clear that your encouragement didn’t come from someone waiting on the sidelines of their own dreams. It came from someone who believed just as deeply in their own potential as they did in others’, and who’d stop at nothing to have those dreams made manifest.

Although Michael had taken a more grounded approach to music, committing to teaching, his reluctance was beginning to bend at your inspiring words, slowly cracking the door open to grander pursuits in his talents. Not to abandon his course in education completely, but to remember that he could always pave another road.

And as naturally as a river flows downstream, an ease settled between you where twinkling eyes and giddy hearts played off of one another as you shared hopes and wonder, dreaming together over disregarded Bible pages.

Then there were the instances when banter and friendly dialogue yielded to fleeting glimpses of something deeper, something more intimate. The more you opened up to each other, the more your chemistry bloomed, unfurling through a prolonged glance, a dulcet utterance, and subtle brushes of skin, slipping between laughter and quiet, almost ephemeral gestures.

They always ended just as quickly as they came, reeled back before anything could move beyond the domain of decency. It felt like sipping from an elixir, offered in drops too few to fulfill. Just enough to awaken something in him, but never soothe. It was addictive. And with every passing interaction, he found himself craving more. More of your talk, more of your touch, more of your time…

Alas, the summer was inching closer toward its end, already nearing its halfway point, and with it, dread crept to the front of Michael’s mind. He wasn’t sure what the distance would bring, or if it’d bring anything at all. Maybe, this connection was only meant to last a season, destined to remain as wistful memories of quiet longing and unspoken confessions…

Michael’s wrist moved with a lazy rhythm as he dusted off a trunk filled with vinyl records from his favorite artists, spanning from Claude Debussy to Stevie Wonder. Everyone had been tasked with a set of chores for the day, nestled in various rooms as they carried out their homely duties. 

He was close to being finished as he swept over his bedside dresser, briefly lifting the Peter Pan figurine resting there before gently setting it back down, redirecting his attention to the last item in need of care--his bookshelf. Resting the microfiber towel on an empty spot along the middle row, he gripped the ridged spine of a random volume, one of the few in his collection he hadn’t gotten around to yet, and slid it out with a careful touch to place aside.

More titles followed suit, piling on his bed as he removed others to reach the undusted row beneath. But, when he tugged one of the last books free, a thinner, flimsier paperback fell out after it, landing on the floor with a soft rustle. A sound that gnawed at Michael’s growing suspense.

Strange. He never put magazines in this section, but he had a creeping suspicion of who the culprit might’ve been. Lo and behold, as his stare dropped downward, they met with that cursed cover of erotica his brother had shown him some weeks ago, and undoubtedly planted here for Michael to take the fall if it was discovered.

“Real clever, Marlon,” Michael muttered with a huff, rolling his eyes as he bent down to retrieve the item, the covers folding shut under their own weight as he lifted it.

The front page showed the woman he’d seen before, now in a white dress sitting in a field of tall grass, almost giving the object of impurity a touch of innocence. But from her top that dipped too low to the far more scandalous sights inside, it wasn’t nearly enough to cleanse its contents.

Without his brother’s teasing and egging on, and with the silence occasionally wavering under the muffled sounds of distant activity, Michael was left entirely to his own devices. And in his solitude, as the angel and devil on each shoulder battled for dominance, it was the voice of impulse that triumphed.

He stared at the edition for a minute too long, rested in his palms as distaste waned into curiosity. Like tasting something that doesn’t quite please the palate, but letting it linger long enough to try and find its appeal. And the only way to test it further was to take a peek…

With caution, he glanced at the door, peering intently, as if looking away might summon someone to burst through.

“So stupid," he muttered under his breath, shaking his head at the ridiculousness of the superstition, or of what he was about to do. He didn’t know which had compelled the action first, but he chose not to care as he turned his focus back to the magazine.

With a gulp to swallow down his unease, he let the cool, matte-coated paper slip beneath his fingertips as he opened to a random page. His brow raised, face scrunching in puzzlement as he spelled out Destination Hollyweird, scrawled across the top in a bold, blocky font, backgrounded by a chaotic graffiti piece that screamed of Americana on the wild side.

A police cruiser skidded from side to side, chasing a red convertible shredding down the highway with two, cigarette-toting, rugged-looking mavericks in the front. It mirrored the type of machismo and masculinity many of the magazine’s audience idolized and aspired to be. The rest of the spread simply contained an article on the piece: all words and no women.

Maybe, this uneventful selection was the universe offering him a final chance to turn back before doing something he’d regret. His stomach twisted in knots as he hovered there, caught in hesitation. But, it’s only for an instant before he ultimately chose not to heed the warning and proceeded with shaky hands anyway.

The next flip stopped him cold. His cheeks flushed, nearly blooming a shade close to the ruby red of Miss June’s lips and manicured almond tips. Her real name, Ola Ray, taunted him from the lower left-hand corner in white, all-caps print. 

She was poised on the edge of a green, marble desk: half standing, half sitting. A calculated posture that concealed just enough to leave the rest to imagination. But what was real and raised high were the well-rounded peaks of her chest, tantalizing in their boldness, paired with the black mesh and gold silk of her blouse, undone and hanging haphazardly around her upper arms.

Suddenly, the glossy image felt a little too real, too personal, like he’d crossed into something private he wasn’t meant to see. And though a flush of guilt crept beneath his skin, it still wasn’t enough to stop him from venturing further into the pages.

The poses grew more revealing, more risqué with each passing page, sending Michael’s pulse pounding in his ears, overtaken by the very thing he swore he had no interest in. One spread wide, another angled low, each beckoning him to keep folding over to more of her lithe frame, dewy and glistening like molten caramel.

Jewel tones, gold pumps, satin and nylon clung to her form like delectable candies slipping from their wrapper, offering a sliver of leg, or a glimpse where she dipped deeper and eternal. Not enough to see everything, but just enough to leave him craving to.

His hands shook and his heart hammered for different reasons now. What began as simple intrigue had unraveled into something sultry and illicit, curling around him like smoke and dragging him into its depths. 

He couldn’t deny it, or pretend it had no effect on him, which was exactly why he tried so hard to refuse it in the first place. And though his conscience tried to pull him back out, his fingers were aiming to turn to the next spread, already sunk too far to break free…

The sudden pound of footsteps stomping down the hallway, paired with the loud bickering of his two youngest siblings, yanked him out of his hypnotic state, startling him so badly he nearly tore the book in his rush to shove it under the bed.

“I swear I’m gonna strangle you with my headphones when I find it!”

Michael heard the threat just before the door slammed open, revealing a very disgruntled-looking Janet. You could practically see the steam rolling out of her ears.

“I’d like to see you try!” Randy’s snark doesn’t make the situation any better as she lets out a frustrated groan, stomping her foot to release some of the fury building in her chest.

“Michael, he’s done it again!” she fumed as Randy sauntered into view, arms crossed and annoyance written all over his face.

“What is it this time?” Michael sighed, having no choice but to step into the role of peacemaker while their mother was out running errands. By now, his initial alarm had dulled into exasperation as his siblings clashed yet again.

“He hid my Walkman and won’t tell me where it is,” she gritted through clenched teeth, jabbing a thumb in Randy’s direction.

“I did not! Why you always gotta fib on me? Ain’t my fault you can’t keep track of your stuff.” 

Michael was unsure if Randy’s defense was reliable or not, but he wasn’t betting in his favor. His brother had a well-documented knack for getting under their little sister’s skin. He didn’t even have a chance to interject as their arguing picked back up, forced to watch the verbal scuffle play out between the two.

“That’s a bold-faced lie and you know it!” she snapped, wide-eyed and full of wrath. “How’d I set something down one minute, then it’s gone the next? Must’ve grown legs and run away, huh?” Janet's quip was sharp, hand planted on her hip while her foot tapped furiously against the hardwood floor, frustration brimming dangerously close to boiling over.

“From you? That ain’t too far-fetched,” Randy sneered, waltzing in just in time to tip the pot.

Janet balled her fist up and slugged him in the bicep as hard as she could. Their five-year age difference didn’t do much to soften the blow, and she never held back when she was mad.

“Ow!” Randy yelped, cradling his arm like it had been mortally wounded. “Are you crazy?!” he yelled, shooting her a look that held all the resentment in the world.

“Oh, I’ll show you crazy!”

She spat out with a scowl, pulling her fist back and gearing up to land another strike, but Michael stepped in before it could turn into a full-blown WWF smackdown.

“Alright, alright! That’s enough, you two,” he exclaimed, arms flailing as he broke in between them, swatting their hands away from doing any more damage. Just like that, his secret indulgence was shoved far to the back of his mind, replaced by the immediate task of settling his siblings’ dispute.

“Oh, Michael…”

His name--a sweet sigh from behind the veil of a cracked door, light spilling across the floor in golden rays like treasures waiting to be claimed. 

Who could it be? The timbre held a warmth he recognized, but couldn’t quite remember. A name sizzled on the tip of his tongue, staying trapped there, just out of reach as the gears in his mind turned too slowly to drag it free.

Another honeyed croon escaped, sharper and higher, wrapped in silken soprano. The sound sent a jolt through Michael, rousing regions he’d dared not to engage. 

“Come inside…” she called out softly, almost a whisper--perhaps meant only for him, quietly drifting into the night like a secret, knowing Michael would follow.

He scanned the room from side to side, confirming what he already felt: no one else was there. The invitation couldn’t have been aimed at another.

His feet moved in echoes of hesitation as he inched closer to the breach of dim glow, faintly illuminating a path he wasn’t sure he was ready to tread.

Time felt non-existent, his timid steps lasting but an instant and stretching into eternity all at once. By the toll of a hidden hour, he stood before the mahogany barrier, barely ajar and concealing what waited beyond.

His hand pressed flat to the surface, pushing forward with slow, measured force to reveal more of the scene in unraveling fragments.

The room was cloaked in candle light and compulsion, so thick that if he stepped inside, there’d be no stopping what would unfold.

A womanly silhouette lay centered on a queen-sized bed, writhing and tangled in satin sheets, her gilded heel glinting against the violet fabric like a nightshade in bloom. Beautiful, yet signaling the danger of the intrusion, the enchantment it held.

The door edged open in invigorating increments, uncovering a leg draped in nylon, rising from beneath the sheets. A hand with nails a shade between crimson and candy, clawing gently at the sleek fabric.

The dip of a torso, the swell of a bust, bathed in a steady celestial flare, luminous and bare as the day she came. And lips, rouged and rounded to speak more serpentine seduction, a lure so potent, so perilous, resistance stood no chance.

“Sing to me.”

Her plea was a sacred strain. A breath of longing, a revitalizing expression of desire. One that burned him so deeply, it scorched through the refrain that sought to keep him in the dark.

He had to know. To put a face to this source of forbidden delight, fatal and magnetic, pulling him deeper toward his destruction… a fate he felt ready to embrace, regardless of the consequence.

The slow, restricted stretch of entry gave way below Michael’s hand, as if holding its own bated breath, anticipating to unmask the lady of silk and sin.

As it took a final bow to his will, to his yearning, to his demise… a full face emerged within the flame-lit boudoir.

In an instant, the reel holding all the moments of his life shifted from blurred flickers to a single, still frame. The remedy that lifted the fog of amnesia, sparked by the alluring visage of his infatuation…

“You.”

Michael jolted awake to a dark room, drenched in a cold sweat, panting and disoriented at the shocking revelation from his dream. The covers clung briefly to his back, warm and clammy, as he rose on his forearms, one hand fumbling around the bedside table until it found the familiar, rectangular shape of his alarm clock.

He pulled the device close, its red glow washing over his face and stinging his freshly opened eyes, reading out the numbers 2:15 am. With the time confirmed, he set it down with a clumsy thud, then swallowed, trying to ease the cottony dryness of his mouth.

His breathing slowed as the initial surprise faded and he adjusted to his surroundings. That’s when he noticed something he couldn’t believe he hadn’t recognized sooner. He flushed in embarrassment as he became aware of the uncomfortable, unmistakable situation below his waist, slightly wet and severely constricted.

He peeled back the covers timidly, as if moving slow enough might rid himself of the unwanted arousal, but it remained, strained against the fabric of his briefs, a damp patch staining at the crown. Guilt twinged in his gut, knotted and churning like something he’d dared to consume, knowing he shouldn’t have.

With each flickering remnant of his astral fantasy, the girl he fancied intertwined with what his wandering eyes hadn’t abstained from the afternoon before, a suffocating and heavy dread pooled in his chest like an unconfessed sin, cowering in his rib cage, as if giving it voice would make it too real to ignore.

And yet, it wasn't enough to keep his hand from drifting down, reaching to soothe the persistent ache. Thankfully, Marlon was off on one of his secret escapades--mischief that would surely give their poor mother a nervous breakdown if she knew even the half of it. He wouldn’t be crawling back through their window until the streetlights blinked off, which gave Michael the time and privacy he’d need to complete the task at hand.

He descended into a maddening whirlwind of pain and pleasure with a trembling touch. A spiral that twisted in his chest, contorted his conscience, until the lines between his shame and satisfaction blurred where he could no longer tell which imprinted his heart so.

The thick skin enveloping his head served as both a shield and gateway to the cool breath of air that had long settled in the room, sliding back and forth under each tentative tug. He teetered in the liminal space between discipline and debauchery, the once-impenetrable fortress of obedience slowly but surely crumbling, stone by stone. 

Yet, as the walls collapsed, his concern for their ruin was swept away, overcome by sensations too powerful to suppress. His movements grew smooth and languid as more slick coated his palm, an enticing gleam of maroon and cream, spilling through the crevices of impatient fingers, precum pearling down the side of his shaft.

With eyes shut tight, he could barely grasp the glimpses of unconscious vision dancing among the snowy static behind his lids. But his eagerness prevailed, peering through frenzied specks to catch the racy sights he could swallow down and savor.

Your red was the tart bite of cherry, sheen of gold and glossy skin, rich and syrupy-sweet. And the shadow of nylon, as smooth, dark and earthy as licorice on the tongue. It was a riot of flavors and textures that teased his senses, driving him wild with want, spurring his pace to quicken, trying his hardest to keep his moans and groans from spilling over too loudly.

Your contours were compelling and evoked covetous longing, his restless mind wondering, reveling in what hands could not touch. How would you truly appear, stripped of the confines of your Sunday best? Not that it ever revealed or concealed so much as to leave the imagination uninspired.

But for more hidden parts, the ones that inquiring eyes could never quite reach, he had to delve deeper, conjuring from lust alone. What shade adorned the peaks of your chest? What hue did you blush down below when lost in the throes of pleasure? 

And how you would feel…

Would your lips meld like rose petals dancing on a balmy breeze? Or would they be greedy and all-consuming, pouring over the desperation of unfettered desire? Would your breath be a summer whisper, brushing against his neck? Tracing gently down the planes of his torso, ghosting over his hip bone, and finally fanning over his…

The sudden whimper that burst through his lips was jarring and stark against the restful quiet of the house. He grabbed the edge of his bunched-up white tee, tucking it between clenched teeth to stifle anything else that might escape, leaving only the lewd harmony of his muffled sounds beneath ragged breath and the slippery squelch of motions that carried him closer to ecstasy.

While the friction thrilled him, the rough, calloused edges of his hand bordered on abrasive. Frustration made his head toss back as it nearly pulled him from his purpose. That is, until he pictured the soft outline of your fingers replacing his own.

Would they, lithe and lovely, be the soft caress of bonded doves nesting? A touch so delicate, pure and eternal. Or would they be greedy, gripping and groping at a fleeting moment their yearning allowed to simmer for only an instant, clinging to passion they might never feel again?

Then came crashing in like a rude awakening, the looming reality of the fading season and impending farewells, threatening to shatter his flow. But he pushed it deep into the recesses of his mind, immersing himself once more in the realm where the salacious took on fanciful form.

Would your pulse pace as sporadically as his when pressed most intimately? Desperate pants of passion, mingling as he sheathed himself deep into the cavern of your heat. Driving into you over and over and over again, your wanton cries and gasps, feeding his transgression, until you were both filled with the inner glow of satiated longing.

He felt the coil of his impending release wound tight, licks of fire ascending his spine in a sweltering path, setting his entire being ablaze. Perspiration clung to his blissfully concentrated face, his brow furrowed and lips quivering, pale drops shimmering like scattered diamonds as he was hurled deeper into carnal becoming beneath the gracious hue of moonlight.

And as all burgeoning sinners are, he was too far gone in his lust to retreat, propelling toward gratification and undoing through the wet, fluid flow of his hand, the increasing speed of his wrist and reveries too satiating, too ravenous to ever forsake.

He painted lively visions of you, wrapped around him, enveloping and warm as the western waters you dreamt of reuniting with. Your nails raking across damp shoulder blades, overexerted from delight, carving welted streaks of burning hunger in their wake. Your thighs a vise around his ceaseless hips, anchoring him to the deepest part of your being as he sunk into you with gentle, steady rocks or vigorous, merciless thrusts, alternating and addictive.

The strength in his jaw was spent, his shirt bitten and tugged in stress, snapping back against his torso in wrinkled rumples as mumbled sounds of approaching release spilled forth in a hoarse, hushed rasp. He was right on the brink of letting go, enraptured by you and him in fervid invention.

What he tested next was the straw that broke the camel’s back. Your name fell from his lips like a desperate plea, low, needy, and begging for desire to be quenched. At its utterance, the pressure building in his groin intensified, drastic and electric.

And with growing confidence, he did it again… and again, until your name became a chanted incantation, seeping into every corner of the once-hallowed bedroom, and finally, the invoking force to his climax, erupting in long, rapid spurts, painting his heaving chest and hand in pearlescent webs, the other racing to firmly block the heightened noises escaping his mouth.

A supernova exploded inside of him, sending sparks radiating through every nerve, expanding into a bright, blissful cataclysm of primal emergence. He exhaled with a shuddered breath, eyelids lifting to take in the disheveled sprawl of afterglow, his shirt and sheets a crumpled heap around him, skin shining and tacky with the exhausted efforts of pleasure.

But just as the remnants of his release died down, euphoria swiftly waned into the crushing gravity of what he had truly surrendered to. His head sank into the pillow with a groan, now heavy with the burden of contemplation.

He had always been one to keep his desires at bay, mastering his wants through unwavering will and staunch godliness. Had prided himself on maintaining his chastity in a world riddled with devilish delights, their snares only multiplying with the widespread reach of modern media.

For twenty-one years, he had managed well in leading a life of humble devotion, never shaken by ruses meant to taint his soul and leave him desolate. Had long believed that staying in the Lord’s good graces was all the motivation he needed to keep himself diligent in holiness.

But then you came in and upended everything he thought he was certain of about himself. Your presence lingered in his thoughts, haunted his dreams and took root in his heart where he once believed pure faith had become so deeply entrenched, it could never be severed.

He found himself unraveling beside his own will, weak and ravaged, losing control in ways he vowed to always abstain from. His emission stuck stale and cold against his skin as he blinked rapidly, perturbed and staring upward for answers that wouldn’t be uncovered in the patterns of a stucco ceiling. 

And he was perplexed, disarmed and lost at your mercy under God’s watchful eye, ever more uncertain whose power truly held claim to his soul.

The sun hung motionless, blinding and stinging like it had overstayed its comfort, vexed at being out for so long, yet begrudgingly doing its job all the same. Just not without making it everyone else’s problem. Despite being outside for only a few minutes, sweat was already staining the back of Michael’s hand where he kept wiping it, an expected result of the heatwave that had been plaguing Gary for the past week.

His loafers scuffed against the sidewalk, leather satchel rested at his side, carrying his bible and other church-related materials as he made the short trek from his house to yours, just the next block over. 

Surprisingly, it wasn’t a matter he spent much time weighing, choosing to proceed with these weekly meetings despite the severity of what transpired that night. Though he hadn't cast the matter aside entirely, he reasoned that falling prey to sin was bound to happen once or twice in a person’s life, and that, afterall, was what repentance was for. 

The battle with his feelings for you was far from over. He struggled to keep them dormant, but he wasn’t foolish enough to waste these final weeks in distance just to preserve his sense of dignity. Besides, it had been his own dabbling in worldly devices that sullied his self-control, and he was confident the countless prayers he’d offered in atonement had long since settled the debt.

His steps quickened as the familiar outline of your porch came into view, relief washing over him like the promise of central air waiting just inside. With a short skip up the porch, he found himself face-to-face with the wooden front door. Letting out an exhausted huff, he knocked with a deep, solid thud that briefly disrupted the low buzz of the afternoon.

The sudden noise sent a trill of excitement through your chest, your freshly tinted lips curving almost cunningly at you through the vanity mirror, anticipating the long-awaited fruits of your labor. 

You gave a light spritz of fragrance to your pulse points and unclasped the top button of your white blouse, cotton and faintly ruffled along the cuffs and neckline, just enough to seem innocuous. Then, carried by the satisfaction of a riveting plot on the cusp of being actualized, you floated into the front room to answer.

The door announced itself with a long creak under your touch, opening to Michael who appeared to be sweating bullets by the millisecond, yet still managed to wear a warm, weary smile. 

“Why, don’t you look exhausted. Quick! Let’s get you cooled down." You playfully ushered him in with a firm tug of his hand. He stumbled along without resistance, a faint giggle falling from his lips at the gesture. He sighs in ease as the immediate chill envelops him.

“I’ll go grab something for you to drink. You’re usual?” you ask from behind him with the gentle clicks of the door being sealed and locked.

“Yeah, that’ll be fine. Thanks,” he turns around to face you, and suddenly it feels as if a freight train barreled in and knocked all the wind from him. It must have been the flurry of your urgent invitation that kept him from noticing before. But now that he does, a rush of heat floods his cheeks. 

His eyes pan from head to toe, taking in the traces of you that were more tinged and exposed than usual. A teasingly short, pleated red skirt hugs your waist, calling to mind the manicured nails that encircled him in private fantasies. The fabric skims along your thigh like venom on ice, dangerously enticing in a way that has him taking a gulp that feels sharp as nails, fingers nervously fidgeting with a single strand of loose thread, unwound from his bag.

The dresses he saw you wear at church were always at least knee-length: stylish and tailored, yet modest. Your usual casual outfits were more relaxed, something he'd grown used to. But this... this was unlike anything he’d ever seen you in before, and it instantly made all those prayers he whispered feel utterly useless.

Of course, it’s only natural that you’d opt for less concealing attire to counter this unrelenting heat. Still, with the Most High’s omniscience breathing heavily down his neck, he can’t stop himself from lingering on the smooth expanse of your legs. A detail that doesn’t go unnoticed to you.

Internally, you wear a wicked smile, triumphant as you recognize the intensity of his observation and where it’s directed. Well, this should be easy. You weren’t entirely sure how he’d react, but now, you’re confident that what you’ve planned for this little one-on-one just might come into fruition. Until then, you’ll need to keep up this guileless act for a little while longer.

“On the rocks?” you quip, donning a grin that deceives with its sweet gleam.

“Huh? Oh--y-yeah! Sounds good.”

Your bubbly voice snaps him out of his ogling, shame creeping in at the lecherousness of his gaze, especially when met with your cheerful disposition. You welcomed him in good faith, and now he’s tainting that gesture with impure thoughts. Hoping to shake the unwelcome feeling, he clears his throat, reaching for a conversation starter.

“Issss everyone taking a nap or somethin’? It’s awfully quiet around here.” 

He drawls out slowly, his voice low and inquiring, as he’s noticed the only signs of movement are confined to the main room. The drop of a pin would thunder against the silence blanketing the rest of the house.

“Nope!” you chirp, “Uncle Lenny wanted to go on a little family camping trip for the weekend. They should be headed back this way tomorrow evening.”

Your voice fades into an echo as you amble down the hallway to the kitchen, leaving Michael alone in a quiet panic. That was not a detail he’d been filled in on. He certainly wouldn’t be here now if he had.

“You know how Auntie V is about her sermons. She wouldn’t miss it for the world,” you jest, right back in front of him just as quickly as you left.

“For now, you and I have the whole place to ourselves.” Your voice lilts around the words, something between sacred and forbidden, your stare unwavering as your fingers brush while passing him a cold glass of orange juice.

He’s really trying not to read too much into the exchange, but he can’t help but feel something more lies within it. He pushes the thought aside, forcing a smile as he speaks through nerves to ease the tension.

“Oh, heheh okay. Uhm, how come you stayed behind?” He takes a timid sip of the drink, avoiding your eyes.

“Eh, I just didn’t feel up for it,” you shrug, all the while knowing the lengths you’ve gone to make this moment possible.

Truth is, you were supposed to be off on that outdoorsy retreat as well. But one evening call from Michael to reschedule your study session, an adjustment you failed to mention to your folks, and a conveniently timed fake illness left you all alone, free to do exactly as you pleased.

“Besides, I can’t miss out on our lessons. That’s no way to make a star student, right?” you tease, your tone light and playful, tilting your head in a coyish manner to reach his line of sight.

“You sure are about that, haha,” he retorts with a tense laugh, not sure if this was an unintentional overstep with your family. It’s not like she’d invite me over if that were the case… right?

“Well then, let’s hop to it, teach,” you say, giving him a cheeky tap on the shoulder and signaling him to follow you to the room, brushing off the suspicion before it has the chance to take root. 

He trails after you up the stairs, his hand grazing the cool, mahogany banister to ground himself, and crosses the threshold into your room with a stride both hesitant and willing. You both quickly settle onto the familiar comforter of your bed, the mattress dipping beneath you as you reach for your Bible from the storage drawer in the bedframe.

“Whenever you’re ready,” you propose while flipping the book's pages lazily as Michael sets his beverage down, condensation glistening under the dim lamp light. He then draws his own Bible from his satchel, setting the bag down beside the bed and sliding out his bookmark from where it’s tucked between the chapters you last studied together. Before long, you’ve both fallen into the natural rhythm of reading each scripture, trading off after every verse.

“Whew! Is it warm in here, or what?” you exclaim after some minutes have passed, fanning yourself with one of the pamphlets he brought over. You swish your hair from side to side, shaking it off of your shoulders, giving them access to the faint breeze.

“Uh, I-I feel fine,” Michael stutters, blinking rapidly as the motion causes the collar of your blouse to slip a bit lower than he can handle. He swallows hard, his focus averting to the padded window seat where a pile of plush companions stare back at him with beady eyes and finely stitched smiles.

“Must be me, then. I’m super sensitive to heat,” you comment with a sigh, standing to move closer to the fan across from you. “You don’t mind if I turn this on, do you?”

“No, not at all. Don’t mind me,” he says, waving his hand permissively and glancing down at the pages as they begin to gently billow in the fan’s draft. Soon, you're back at his side, your reading carrying on beneath the faint whir of spinning blades and the quiet strain building between you.

As the minutes drag on, Michael begins to feel suffocated by the closeness you share. Each sacred word, spoken from your stained lips in soft syllables, cuts through the stillness, just as sharp as the notes of your perfume, wafting into his senses on a steady current. Smoked vanilla drenched in mahogany and golden amber, a medley of aromas that are as sweet and comforting as they are undeniably sensual.

The warmth of your skin, nearly pressed to his in this confined space, radiates like bonfire embers. His glances, flitty and furtive, straying to hints of more intimate places that peak from beneath the seam of your skirt, the low cut of your shirt. His will for virtue is slowly seared away, simmering sparks of self-control, clinging to dwindling heat before each flicker fades to settled ash.

Despite how desperately he tries to suppress the lure of temptation, sneering and sinking its fangs into him, it torturously gnaws at his inhibitions, even as they flail and writhe in urgency. Urgency for him to get his head together before he succumbs to something he’ll regret. 

His hand trembles as he picks up his now-watered-down orange juice from the nightstand, raising it to his mouth in an impatient chug. Condensation cascades over his cuticles, vanishing just as swiftly as his inclination toward the Lord slips further from concern.

All the while, your attention sharpens on every subtle action he takes, fueled by creeping unease and waning restraint, exposing fragility in every stammered word, every involuntary twitch. You relish in his confliction, intoxicated by the power of knowing that it is you who can make him falter in the steadfastness of his conviction.

You’ve reached chapter four of the Book of Proverbs a few pages back and are now making your way towards the fifth. At this point, you struggle to stay engaged in dissecting the words as other profane thoughts persist just beneath the surface. The day isn’t getting any younger, the sun almost leaving a dusky imprint on the horizon. So, now seems as good a time as any to amp things up.

“Uhm,” you hum softly, scooching closer to Michael until there’s no space left between you, your thigh and bicep pressed flush against his. He stiffens at the contact.

“I’ve lost my place. Was it verse thirteen?” you ask, tilting your head in faux confusion as you glance up at him from where you’re slightly bent over the text on his pages.

The soft dazzle in your eyes, the delicate dip of your cupid’s bow, and the faint ripple of your blouse, now angled just enough to reveal a glimpse of the frilly bralette beneath, have him seizing up before abruptly leaping from the bed and retreating to the far side of the room.

“O-okay! Uhhh, I-I don’t think I should be here,” he rushes out with a shaky smile, fingers toying with the side of his pants to keep himself stable and from going insane. His eyes darting elsewhere, anywhere but you.

“What’s the matter? We were making good progress,” you express with concern lacing in your voice, lips pouted and brows furrowed, feigning ignorance of the trouble you’re causing.

“It’s just, uhm--you’re folks are out and--,” he blinks several times, clearing his throat behind a loosely clenched fist. “it’d probably be best if… ya’know--they weren’t,” he finishes awkwardly, not even sure if he managed to string together a coherent sentence. 

“I’m sorry, but you’re not making any sense right now,” you murmur, the mattress shifting with a subtle squeak as you rise. You saunter toward him with slow, calculated steps. A movement that makes his heart pound as he catches it in his peripheral vision. He swallows hard to keep it from jumping out before offering reluctantly,

“Well, you see? Uhh, m-maybe we shouldn’t be… alone together. Not sayin’, like--me and you--anything would happen, but--”

“Things could happen,” you interject, stepping even closer. “That’s what you're getting at?”

“I dunno. Maybe?” he replies, unsure if it’s in either of your best interests to reveal too much. But then he finds himself seizing a moment of unusual courage. “I’m a man and you’re a lady and… s-sometime I can’t keep my head on straight. It floats off too far.”

“What do you mean?” The inquiry is futile. The answer is written all over him.

Michael drags a hand down his face, exhaling like the weight of the words might crush him before they even leave his mouth.

“I can’t focus. I try so hard to push these… feelin’s aside, but you… the way you look, how close you are… you’re makin’ it really hard for me to do,” he confesses, both relief and dread washing over him now that it’s out in the open.

“What kinds of feelings?” you whisper, stepping right in front of him and slipping your hand into his. He neither accepts nor rejects the gesture. Instead, his face tightens with frustration. Not at you, but at what he fails to control within himself.

“Ones I shouldn’t have… ones I shouldn’t even think. I-It's not right--by God.” It sounds more like a last-ditch effort to save face than a principle he still believes he can uphold.

“So, I’m the cause of these feelings… I suppose I should take responsibility then,” you muse softly, your words meant only for the space between the two of you. “Michael… do you like me?”

A knowing smile plays on your lips, eyes shimmering with mirth as his finally snap to yours.

“Like you?” his voice cracks, eyes wide as saucers as if your question had knocked the ground out from under him. Yet, here he stands, frozen and shaken, silently wishing it actually had.

“I, uh… well, l-like you like a friend. No wait--not a friend!” he blurts out, waving his hands frantically, cringing as his sudden loudness startles you both. “Sorry, I mean--uhm, haha--you’re pretty, and--”

You stop his rambling with a gentle, deliberate press of your finger to his lips, silencing him effortlessly. He blinks at you and swallows hard, as if the task of tackling his unspoken words and what lies before him is too daunting all at once… Luckily, he won’t have to face it all on his own, and you’re more than ready to take charge.

“You know,” you muse, fingers grazing the back of his hand with an affectionate stroke. “I’ve had my eye on you since that first church service I attended. That performance? You left quite the impression.” Your voice is like rose thorns in hiding. The bloom is so entrancing, it’s enough to make him bleed. And yet, some long-evaded part of him savors that sting.

“But when we finally met… you were nothing like I expected. You amazed me even more. And, I couldn’t help but wonder… if that’s how you transform for the Lord, how do you come alive under a woman's touch?”

You whisper into his ear, then place a delicate kiss just beneath it. You can feel his pulse quicken at the contact, can almost hear it drumming beneath his skin. Or perhaps it’s your own, just as affected by the proximity.

You’ve grown so close to him, it’s hard to tell where one of you ends and the other begins. You pull back just enough to gauge his reaction. Your gaze is intense, unflinching, and you’re certain you have him right where you want him.

And he looks at you like he’s seeing you for the first time. The real you. 

And in that moment, he fully understands he has fallen right into your trap.

“You did all of this on purpose, didn’t you?” he says, his tone laced with accusation, eyes dark and conflicted, searching yours, a storm of betrayal tangled with reluctant admiration.

You ‘tsk’ disapprovingly, grinning like a Cheshire cat at the inkling that he’s secretly just as enthusiastic about this ploy as you are.  

“Let’s not pretend we weren’t both already aware… I think that’s why you chose to stay,” you say, your voice a soft purr, breath brushing over his lips as if trying to breach his defenses, invade, and shatter his denial. His heart beats wildly, pounding like a thoroughbred at the Kentucky Derby, driven onward by this increasingly bold and dangerous gesture.

The skimpier attire, the orchestrated solitude, the fine fragrance, the lingering touches and stares… all of it is for him. He knows it’s manipulation, and he knows he should resist, but he can’t help feeling flattered, his morals fading, slipping away under the pull of your intent.

“So, what now?” It doesn’t sound like a question. More like an admission that he’s already in too deep.

“Whatever you want, Michael. Just say the word,” your words pour out like tainted honey, slow and smooth, dripping with promises as bitter as they are sweet. 

“What if I want to leave?” He asks as if saying it aloud might break the spell. Might save him from the fall he doesn’t truly want to avoid.

“Oh, we both know that’s not true. And I’d much rather you didn’t.”

You lean in, your breath ghosting against his ear, your voice low and tempting.

”I think something brought us together on purpose, just so we could share this moment. Wouldn’t it feel wrong to fight it?” Your gentle petting resumes, climbing up his arms to rest on his shoulders, a touch both grounding and destabilizing.

“Let’s just see where we are. It doesn’t have to be a bad thing. We can explore a little, have some fun. We don’t even have to go all the way if that feels too much… all you have to do is say yes.”

Your hands remain still, but your lips wander with growing curiosity, planting featherlight kisses wherever they can reach. A gentle peck to his left cheek, tender and deliberate. Michael nuzzles into the affection.

“I’ve n-never… I’ve never done anything--like this--before,” he whispers vulnerably, as though he might shatter from shame if you recoil from his lack of experience.

He doesn’t notice the way heat winds through you with wicked delight at his admission. “That’s okay,” you purr, voice low and sure as your lips resume their lavishment between each phrase. “I’ll take the reins… you just enjoy the ride.” 

“I think… I think--” he splutters, nerves and excitement blurring beyond any discernible line.

“Tell me what you want, baby,” you coax, mouth growing bolder against his neck, searching for the places that make him melt.

“Oh God--” Michael breathes out, his eyes squeezing shut at the intensity between you, right on the brink of boiling over. Or perhaps his exclamation is one last desperate cry to the Redeemer for a chance at salvation.

“Say it.” Your command is accompanied by a trail of petals along his jaw, soft yet persistent. Each one blooming his growing desire. Unfurling the passion beginning to awaken in him.

“Yes…yes, I want this,” he complies, signing his name on the dotted line to whatever lies ahead in the wake of your persuasion.

“Would it be alright if I kiss you?” you whisper against his lips on bated breath, barely there, yet striking in impact, igniting the final thread of his composure until it snaps. Damn you Marlon and your stupid jinx.

“Please,” he sighs, chest rising and falling over each shaky exhale, hands lifting on their own accord to settle on the small of your waist.

And you take him, wasting no time in melding yours with his. He welcomes them eagerly, pressing back against your own. Your hands cradle his face, thumbs brushing over his cheeks, capturing the warmth and faint stubble, while his tighten their grip, bracing himself to you as if you might slip away. As if he’ll wake to find himself only dreaming of you, an apparition of his unfulfilled desires. 

But you are real. The embrace of your lips, your heady fragrance invading his senses, the heat that radiates from you, they’re proof enough that he’s not imagining. He deepens the kiss, hungry and unrelenting, consuming more. The soft smacks and heated pants of your entanglement are barely drowned out by the fan’s steady hum.

He takes a daring move that has your eyes widening, his tongue teasing along the seam of your lips, a silent plea you grant with a sigh, soft and surrendered. Your lashes lower as you sink into the motion. Each swirl, each flick, exploring, meeting his with mirrored fervor.

Your fingers curl into his coils, tugging ever so slightly, but it’s enough to rile something inside of him as he groans, low and desperate. His pace shifts, greedier now, stumbling you both back toward the bed, his need to feel more of you outweighing the need to remain rooted.

You follow his lead without resistance, careful not to stumble along the way. The hollows of your knees meet the edge of the mattress, and in the next breath, you both tumble onto it, the springs creaking beneath your crashing presence, but the action doesn’t halt the passion you unleash through tangled limbs and lips. Doesn’t distract either of you from the unending want and burning need you share for one another.

His frantic heartbeat, a hummingbird against his ribcage. The lingering scent of sandalwood and citrus, sharpened by the faint salt of sweat from his short walk over. His weight, steady and solid, holding you down. His presence surrounds you like a sanctuary, its permeating elements blending into something both comforting and addictive, anchoring you to the moment.

But then you move, swiftly taking control, sheets wrinkling as you roll over and pin him beneath you. He holds you closer, his hands a roaming force, caressing what they’ve yet to uncover. You exhale, rough and ragged, your tongues clashing with the heat of a summery gust, not in a battle for dominance, but in a dance of push and pull, give and take. Each movement is an embodiment of the symbiosis you share, guiding one another.

Your shoes are slightly distracting, so you kick them off. Then, with your toes, you try to wiggle his loafers off, bending and twisting around the backstay. It’s not the most effective method; in fact, it hardly works at all as you repeatedly lose your grip. Michael's eyes flutter open, looking confused at first, but when he realizes what you're trying to do, he breaks the kiss with a low laugh that shakes between you.

“I reckon you need some assistance?” he jokes, his eyes and teasing smile alight with amusement at the gravity of your charm being momentarily broken by the clumsy attempt, a feverish heat rising to your cheeks in response.

“Uhm, yes please,” you murmur shyly, an awkward chuckle trickling from your lips to soften the embarrassment. He removes them without delay, unwilling to let you sit in discomfort for too long, sliding them off with two resounding thumps as they join yours on the floor.

Michael halts for a moment, hesitant in waiting, staring at you with pending decision. Of what, you're unsure. You’re gearing up to ask, but he interrupts with a brazen, searing kiss, pulling a gasp from you, part shock, part arousal. His strong fingers grip where your neck meets your hairline, tangling in the locks, and he holds onto you, like not grasping what’s tangible now might erase it from his memory.

You lean in to take, the flow of your lips unceasing, even as you swing a leg over to straddle him, settling with purpose on either side of his waist. Your arms wrap securely around his shoulders, and you finally break the kiss with a soft parting smack, eyes closed, softly heaving as you rest your forehead to his, gathering yourself.

“So…” you pant, pulling back just enough for your eyes to meet his. Their sight leaves you even more breathless, blown out and endless, two onyx gems absorbing you, grounding you in the undeniable longing they reflect. It mirrors your own, only burning brighter. A flame you're determined to feed.

“Where do you want to start?” you offer, mild and gently entreating, a hopeful request to fulfill his every wish.

Michael freezes, caught in the headlights, suspended between sanctity and seduction. He could retreat, backtrack, and leave it at nothing more than a kiss, one steeped in the rush of lust but not yet succumbed to it. Or, he could move forward into uncharted territory, crossing the threshold from which there is no return.

But as he takes you in, lips shaded and swollen from craving, the slow, steady ebb and flow of your chest, a soothing tide pulling him closer, and a look that holds the full warmth and security of a haven, where he knows he is safe to explore those depths with you, he leaps in with a soft, stumbling supplication,

“Could you… c-could you take this off?”

Michael tugs lightly at the hem of your shirt, his hand a tremor of nerves and anticipation, this single piece of fabric being the only thing to separate him from the closeness he’s dared to imagine. Your fingers work deftly and slow, unfastening each button free at an unhurried pace, revealing inch by inch of what lies beneath the cotton, the barrier upholding any trace of purity between you.

Once you reach the last nob, a single shrug of your shoulders sends the fabric gliding down your arms, falling in a faint rustle as it meets the floor. The last delicate layer remains, lacy and fragile, gracefully shielding you with the final threads of complete modesty. You look at Michael in silent communication, and he answers with a gaze that strips you bare without a single touch, giving a subtle, permissive nod for you to continue.

You reach behind, fingerpads trailing over the white band until they find their target, accompanied by a faint snap of hooks releasing. Michael swallows harshly, pulse surging at the unmistakable sound of the clasp giving way, a quiet cue as thrilling as it is definite, indicative of what’s to come.

He’s unaware, but the chaos within you matches his, raging and relentless in equal measure as the straps slip from their place at your guiding touch, swiftly followed by the cups sliding past your breasts, the garment discarded and landing like the final nail in the coffin, sealing his fate.

You hold your breath as he beholds you in all your glory, eyes darkened and heavy with the haze of desire, sweeping over every inch of skin you have to offer, reverent, grateful that he’s the one who gets to drink you in. Heat stirs deep within him at the sight of you, a vision more captivating, more hauntingly perfect than any he had shaped in longing. A marvel beyond his wildest wonders, a frame bearing both infinite grace and insurmountable allure.

“You’re an angel,” he whispered, low and thick with feeling, his voice trembling with ardent admiration.

Your bashfulness surfaces as a faint smile, eyes dropping as his words leave you at a loss for your own. You hadn’t expected to feel so green in his presence, but he had a way of making you seem as fresh as a lily in mid-June.

"Can I?" he asks after a beat, hopeful, yet thick with the undercurrent of pent-up nerves and fervent need, his fingers itching to take hold of what he’s so willingly lost himself for. You answer with action, steering his wrists with a decisive grasp, lifting until his palms rest flush, splayed across the swell of your disrobed chest, charged with a magnetic heat that has your heart thrumming beneath his hold.

“Just do whatever feels right.”

It's a gentle phrase, yet gravity seems to collapse inward, pressing in on you both, yearnful suspense tangled with tension, rising to heights too immense to be contained by the walls around you. And Michael, ever determined, reaches to transcend the barriers that once bound him.

He gives an experimental squeeze, his large, hardened hands enveloping you, a stark contrast to the soft, supple surface that yields beneath his touch, molding to him like it was made for no one else. You expel, gasping and overtaken by the caress, quaking under the strength and warmth of his command.

Michael presses further, rolling and kneading the flesh, folding over where his eager digits imprint, wondrous in his focus, attuned to every tremor, every shift of your body’s response. They lower tentatively, only to tweak and toy with you with expert precision, your nipples stiffening under each measured stroke.

Your eyes, glazed and low-lidded, speak what your lips cannot, parted and preoccupied with the haze of hallowed sighs. And he honors them with a sweltering kiss, tongues and breath dancing, swooping in as if to steal them straight from your lungs. His lips descend in a blazing trail, lathering your neck with impatience, nipping and etching hues of carnal urgency, dousing kerosene on the small flame already kindling within you, stoking an ache that begged to be soothed.

They brush along the line of your collarbone, hurried pecks carried to your ears on his frenzied breathing, much like your own, immersed in the rush of this moment, then dip to lavish ardent affection just where your curves begin to rise, inching closer and closer to where you need him most. Your waiting ends before it even begins as he delves in without hesitation, his mouth latching onto your left tit, as if his own ellipsis had been a purgatory stretching for millennia, and his torturous longing was finally at its end.

“Oh Michael,” you whimper, face contorted with bliss, exerting your pent up pleasure wherever it can press through, fingers twisting in the fabric of his red polo, hips swiveling along his lap, the fine fabric of your panties paired with the textured surface of his blue jeans, creating a dizzying friction between you, offering a moment of shared relief. He moans in reply, long and muffled around the cushion of your chest, sucking and nibbling with renewed vigor as you grind against him.

His hips cant upward to meet you, rocking in rhythm to the sway of your motion, one hand groping tighter at your waist while the other drifts skyward along your skin, reaching to give attention to your unoccupied breast, fondling with tender ministrations. They spur your actions, your paired sounds of pleasure blending into a symphony meant for your ears alone, a duet of raw need and long-held desire, finally breaking free.

Your yearning seeps through the fine material, stamping your brand where his length lies, stiff, an aching strain beneath the restricting confines of his pants. He pulls away with a wet pop, a thin strand of saliva still tethering you to his mouth, before he delves into the other, his tongue reaching to draw you in.

Your hands skim over his biceps, fingers tightening as his exquisite manipulations leave you craving for more. More closeness. More connection. It persists without benevolence, burrowing deep within your skin like a maddening itch you must scratch or else you’ll go insane.

“Stop for a minute,” you say, breathless and panting, gently pulling him back until your eyes lock, ending his intense doting. His gaze wavers with insecurity.

“D-did I do it wrong?” His voice is shaky and timid as he asks, worried the sudden withdrawal might mean he didn’t live up to your expectations.

You can’t help but giggle at the incredulity of the question. The proof of his success is written all over you, from the lingering trace of his kisses still on your skin, to the way your loins simmer, as if he’s branded them with his name, claiming you as his own.

“No sweetie, you were great,” you reassure, intertwining his hand with yours in quiet, heartfelt comfort.

Michael’s shoulders visibly relax, letting out a breath of relief he hadn’t known he was holding. 

“It’s just…” you pause, worrying your lip in thought. “Do you trust me?” Your hand squeezes his tighter, a silent gesture to convey the genuine care and concern you feel for his comfort and enjoyment in this experience.

“More than anything,” He answers without hesitation, his expression showing that he stands by his words, sincere and certain. You smile, your thumb a tender sweep along the back of his hand. Then, the caress eases to stillness, your hands drifting down to…

“I wanna try something…” you declare quietly, your words layered with an undertone of mischief. But it’s barely registered over the soft purr of metal teeth as your fingers, tugging and deft, move along the zipper pull. Michael feels heat stir within him, violent as a fire whirl, as he gulps at the sound, sharp with the promise of far more indecent deeds to ensue.

“If it’s too much, you tell me right away. Promise?” you say, gentle yet firm, resolute in making sure nothing you do goes beyond what he’s ready for. With your sensual brilliance on full display, just as much wanting as his for the taking, he’s sure he can go pretty far.

“I promise.”

And that’s all you need to hear before capturing his lips again with slow, languid movements, a patient coax to ease him into the intimacy that lies ahead. Your hands move with practiced ease, lifting the red polo shirt over his head and adding it to the growing heap of fabric collecting nearby. Your eyes trace every line and angle with quiet appreciation, from his faintly toned biceps to the trim cut of abs that rest against his physique, unexpected yet effortlessly natural.

He groans, soft and barely above a whisper, groping your waist tight as you etch a bruise into his neck, pressing close until you’re satisfied with the mark it leaves behind. Your delicate touch lowers to the planes of his chest, your tongue dipping to swirl around his nipple, a sensation he clearly delights in, given how his fingers dig deeper into your flesh and the quiet whimper that slips from him at the heightened sensitivity.

You resume nipping along the way, gentle and attentive, his heart thrumming like a jackrabbit beneath your lips, then move further down his torso as you slide to the floor with featherlight pecks, tender and warm, reverent toward the frame that will become a source of pleasure as deep and powerful as your own.

“Just relax, Michael. It’ll feel good,” you murmur, looking up at him from your kneeling position, rubbing his thigh in a soothing pattern, back and forth, easing him out of rigidity. He would need to be for what’s to come.

His nod is stiff at first, but as your words and adoring gaze sink in, he gradually begins to loosen, his throat easing, joints unlocking, and breath shifting into a steady, calming flow. He plants his hands firmly on the mattress, bracing himself as your fingers start to tug at the waistband of his briefs, preserving his decency only as long as it takes to glide the fabric down, slowly, deliberately, heightening the anticipation of the reveal.

Over the jut of his hips, past the shield of dark coils draping his pubic bone, and finally, his length slaps against his lower belly as the material gives way, settling right below where he’s erected. You draw in a small gasp, desire swelling in your widened eyes, momentarily stunned by the sheer magnitude of what you're faced with. He stands tall and thick, foreskin curled over the tip, veins woven and pulsing just beneath the surface, as if responding to the intensity of your stare.

Michael groans quietly, overwhelmed by the embarrassment of being so exposed. He slaps his hands over his eyes, as if hiding them could somehow erase his self-consciousness. He feels you rise slightly from the ground, your hands skimming up his arms with patient care, yet firm as they circle his wrists and draw them away from his face. He’s met with a gaze swirling with concern, affection, and something more, something entrancing that leaves him feeling caught and unable to look away.

“It’s okay. You’re safe with me,” you whisper, your voice full of sincere conviction, every word a vow to protect and please him with all you have. You lift his hand tenderly, pressing a soft, lingering kiss to his knuckles. And with reverent surrender, he lets his guard fall, yielding to the sweet reassurance he’s certain you’ll stay true to.

His heart skips a beat at what you say next, low and seductive, draped in velvet and the foreshadow of delicious trouble,

“Don’t look away. I want your eyes on me every second I make you feel this.”

That unspoken flame behind your eyes rises higher with every heartbeat, glowing warmer, bolder, just for him. You emanate an aura so hypnotic, so utterly arresting, he couldn't tear his gaze away even if he wanted to. He’s captivated, mesmerized with bated breath as you lower again at your own leisurely pace, dragging out the suspense between you, charged with desire stretched thin, on the verge of snapping.

He inhales sharply when your hand wraps around him, lithe and delicate, your fingers straining to meet from the sheer width he carries. You begin to stroke him at a slow tempo, the flesh warm and soft beneath your touch, his fingers wound tight in the sheets as your forbidden caress overtakes him, molding him in ways that leave his will knelt at the foot of your command.

Your hold encircles him with increasing certainty, gripping tighter, bolder in your intention. His teeth sink into his lower lip, biting to hold back a groan, his arousal aiding the glossy glide of your embrace, each dribble a testament to his waxing need. The skin moves back and forth under each measured movement, revealing his flushed, leaking tip, sensitive and practically pleading for attention. And who are you to ignore its cry?

You lean in to acquaint him with a gentle kiss, barely there, yet powerful in its capture. Michael quivers, his heart thrumming in a frenzy at the thrill of your lascivious claim. You can feel him trembling, shaken with delight, a delight as fierce and potent as the one that drives you to serve. So you cater to him by resting deeper, more intense kisses to his crown, enclosing your lips to suckle at the head.

A moan falls from him on a stuttered sigh, weak from your wantonness, your tongue swiping out to sample his flavor, salty with a sweet edge, a tangy, harmonious blend dancing across your tastebuds. It fuels the drizzle of your own essence, pooling at, weeping along your womanhood. You shift your affection down the side of his shaft, tongue tracing the vein that runs there, licking a wet trail to the base before climbing up again. Your ambition is a craving that can no longer be contained, and the reward, vulnerable, frayed and unraveling, is yours for the taking.

You welcome him in with eager possession, your rouged and kiss-swollen lips, stretched tight over the head, sinking down to take him deeper into your mouth. Michael's eyes squeeze shut, fingers wringing the comforter so hard it might tear. But his lids fly back open abruptly, the echo of your demand snapping him back into focus. He truly wants nothing more than to be on his best behavior for you, but the exquisite sensations reigning over him make that anything but easy.

You keep your motions unhurried, wanting him to feel every ridge, every wet, elastic corner you have to offer. A gentle inlet, intent on easing him into the sail of a high like no other. As you lower halfway, taking all you can handle, you hollow your cheeks, suctioning like a vise around him, your hand stroking in tandem with the orchestrations of your mouth, working over what doesn’t fit.

You intensify your actions, bobbing your head in long, drawn out drags to enhance his pleasure, softly gagging as his tip nudges your soft palate each time down. You slurp and lap at what dribbles out, pooling around the corners of your mouth, descending his shaft in glistening trails to meet your hand, a sleek sheen shining below the room light as you tug up and down, coating him in the blendings of your shared enthusiasm.

His sounds spill out, heightened in both volume and frequency. A hiss when your teeth lightly graze, sending shockwaves through every nerve. A whimper, high and frail, when you constrict around him, tight and warm. A groan, low and throaty, as you pull off with a wet pop, staring him square in the eye, face flushed, water line damp with tears and lips gleaming, lowering to catch the steamy concoction that trickles down the side of him.

“Goodness,” he grits out, momentarily disoriented as your eyes collide for the first time since you’ve fallen to your knees.

Weepy drops well within his own, misted with the veil of profound pleasure, your bleary visage almost phantasmal to him as he blinks the haze away just to see you more clearly. He feels lightheaded, struck by a dizzying wave of realization, crashing into him like time snapped into place, and now he’s fully here. Present. Immersed in the reality of illicit wiles made manifest through mutual pining and desire.

“How does it feel?” you ask, your voice a sultry husk, worn thin from the exertion of your labor, your hand relentless in its slick caress.

“Like heaven,” he hiccups, watery and wilted. It’s a reluctant confession laced with aching relief, both painful and euphoric in its release, tearing through him as if admitting that the wayward path he’d chosen was the true one to ascension all along, freeing him from a piece of himself he’d long clung to.

He cannot place the culprit of his tears: pleasure surpassing anything he has ever known, treachery toward his long-abided covenants. Yet, the possibility of betrayal fades quickly: the flame kindled within your eyes at the sight of his sunken state seeping into him, awakening a part of him he never knew lay dormant, a part that craves for the sole validation of that flame dancing higher. You relish in his weighted confession and the weak, pitiful sight of him, his vulnerability the finest exhibit of your actualized appetite, a condition only a lover’s touch could reduce one to.

“Mmm…” you hum, thick with satisfaction, “Then I’m most obliged to take you there.” 

A wicked grin plays on your lips, your gaze smoldering with the heat of triumph and possession, basking in the sacred knowing that you’re the first to bring him pleasure beyond his wildest dreams. You lick a broad, hungry stripe up the underside of his length before consuming him again, enclosing your lips around the head, taking it much deeper than should’ve been possible, swallowing him down so far it nearly blocks your airways. 

Michael quivers from the rush of your zealous ministrations, his face scrunched in agonizing ecstasy, brows drawn tight and eyes lowered, zoned in on the erotic scene playing out before him. You hold him there, throat pulsing around his girth, pulling back with a soft sputter, sending a thin trail of your dribble and his seed to merge with the messy mixture that assists the slide of your grip. Your motions plunge him farther into depths of you where tenderness has vanished, now driven by the greed and urgency of your own fulfillment, wholly committed to making him shatter completely beneath your control.

Michael’s body bends like a marionette under the pull of your power, his back bowing outward, posture beautifully broken, his fists buried in the sheets, knuckles clenched and bleached with strain. His mouth agape, pouring over ragged, guttural resonances within the room, blending with the wet sloshes of your mouth and hand tending to him, an obscene and tantalizing harmony of carnal passion. The provocative sounds and overwhelming sensations blur together, intoxicating and deeply gratifying, making you water more freely, the ridges and lines of your slit drenched with drooling arousal, your thighs squeezed tight to subdue the throbbing ache within you.

“I feel like… I f-feel--”

The heat and pressure in Michael’s loins are beginning to build, slowly climbing to unbearable heights that leave him teetering on the precipice of something uncontrollably vast, his summit just out of reach.

You can sense his impending release, from the way he twitches in your mouth, his precum beading out faster against your palate, to his thigh seizing up beneath your grip, winding tighter with each push and pull of your heated manipulations, inching him closer to the edge of ecstasy. You draw back with gasp, labored and spent, escaping your passion-glazed lips as your hand remains wrapped in its care, slipping and sliding along him as you heave, fighting to reclaim the breath you’ve so willingly given up.

“Shhh, I know baby. I got you. Let it out for me,” you coax in a hoarse murmur, smoked with rasp and warmth. It’s a reverent command, infusing every nerve with the searing pleasure already coiled inside him that has yet to be expelled, reaching in to take what’s been rightfully, resolutely earned.

You lean down to welcome his tip just past your lips, sealed tightly to catch his approaching outflow, near the point of spilling over, your hand steadfast in its slick, torrid pursuit. Michael trembles with ragged breath, pressure mounting, compelled by the force of your sensual mastery, bordering on the edge of pain. And finally, he releases with a wanton cry, high and unrestrained as waves of turbulent, heated euphoria course through him, every extremity singed by the radiant bliss erupting from his core.

Watchful and clouded with hot-blooded vapor, your gaze does not falter, riveted on the way he contorts as he climaxes. His face wears an eroticism so utterly enchanting, so enrapturing, that not even the murals of the Sistine Chapel could compare.

His mouth ajar over each desperate sound, a melodious tonic that invigorates your own need. Lids drawn tight, pressing out a cascade of wept ecstasy, painting his face with willowy streaks as he melts into the pleasure that ravages his body. Perspiration gathers at his furrowed brow, beads trailing from temple to jugular, each oxy-infused droplet a testament to the fruits of your labor.

You drink down what he has to offer with great elation, your hand stalling to a halt as he drifts back to earth, still buzzing with the pulse of a rhapsody in decrescendo, pulling off completely as he sags into relaxation. Reaching for your discarded shirt, you use it to wipe away the spent remnants still glistening on your hand before casting it aside. You look up to find him staring back, eyes still shimmering with unshed tears and whispers of unquenched desire.

You rise with ease, reclaiming your place upon his lap, his arms finding you by second nature, drawing you close until your bare chests merge in tender accord. He holds on tight, clinging to you as if the closeness of this moment will expire once you separate, burying his head in the crook of your neck as a single tear escapes him, its warmth tracing your skin before sliding down the curve of your shoulder. Your hand moves in a gentle drift along his back, soothing the storm that no doubt rages within him.

“Thank you.” He says in whispered reverence, his tone too light to bear the weight of his gratitude. His breathing slows, a soft steadiness returning as warm repose seeps into his bones. You hold him a little tighter, letting him find his calm within your embrace. A small giggle rises from you, your heart fluttering at how effortlessly he turns the aftermath of such lewd displays of desire into something so endearing.

“Are you ready for more?” you whisper, leaning back just enough for your gazes to meet and fasten, yours patiently searching for his answer--whatever it may be--as your thumb brushes away the tear from his cheek. His reply is wordless: a small, brief nod, yet a tender, brighter warmth lives in his eyes, a fervent light that stirs you to dive in with no hesitance.

His lips are seized with your searing kiss, deep and languid, letting him delve in to savor the lingering notes of himself, still fresh on your tongue. But a grander, amorous pursuit tugs at Michael’s conscience--unventured, waiting--as he swiftly peels away from you, his panting uneven and soft.

“Could I… maybe give it a try?” he asks, timidly hopeful, voice quiet with gentle insistence, his fingers fidgeting with the knit material of your skirt. 

“Only if you’re really sure about it. I don’t want you to feel like you have to return the favor,” you say softly, your hand grazing up and down his arm in a soothing rhythm, eyes searching his for any flicker of uncertainty or discomfort.

“No, I--I been needin’ it so bad, it’s been hoverin’ over me and I just can’t shake it… Lemme taste you. Please.”

He’s quick to dispel the notion with his declaration, imbued with lust and longing, his voice raw, trembling with hunger, sending heat pooling low in your core. You move without a word, stealing his breath away with another kiss, wrapped in its warmth as you rise from his lap and shift to the other side of his body, all without slipping apart. 

Your hands brace over his shoulders, easing him down atop of you as you melt into the fluffed pillows, making space for him to rest between your parted thighs. Your lips peel away once you’ve both adjusted, goosebumps rising across the skin where your skirt billows in the breeze. You’re not sure if it’s the cool gust of the fan gliding underneath, or the way Michael’s ardent gaze and avowal seep into your bones, settling there like they’ve always belonged.

He leans back in, dousing quick, affectionate nips and kisses along your neck. You mewl softly, tilting your head back on instinct, offering more of yourself to him. He’s on a mission, moving with haste past your collarbones, descending the valley of your breasts, decelerating slightly to savor the sensation of the warm, velvety surface, dusting delicate pecks from your stomach to your hips, and finally, stopping to rest where pleats of red still veil the rubies between your thighs.

“Okay, Michael. Do you know what to do?” you ask out of courtesy, though you already have a strong idea of the answer, especially in the way his eyes falter as he twiddles the hem of your skirt.

“Uh--in theory? But, I ain’t exactly ever…” he pauses, sifting through the wreckage his nerves left behind. “Put my skills to the test, so…” he finishes in a murmur, rubbing the back of his neck in an attempt to ease the awkwardness.

He had four older brothers, each guilty of telling a raunchy tale a time too many. College dorm life had been a revelatory experience as well, whether it was his fellow roommates bragging about their sexcapades, or waking Michael up in the middle of the night with one. Yes--he’d been abstinent until now, but never quite oblivious.

Still, he wasn’t convinced that the scraps of knowledge he’d picked up would help him much at the moment, and this wasn’t exactly a situation the Lord would be inclined to help with. Truth be told, Michael had left Him at the doorstep the second he set foot in your home.

“Hey, that’s alright. Don’t worry. I’ll teach you,” you console, fingers reaching out to lift his chin, a gesture as gentle as the look you give him, carrying no trace of judgment. The innocence of the moment vanishes as quickly as it arrived, replaced by an atmosphere thick in sensual intimacy as your thumb grazes his full lips, tracing to revel in their softness, his heart hammering at the touch.

It only increases as your hands, slow and purposeful, lower to gather the trim of your skirt, nudging it up your thighs until it rests at your hips, loosely bunched and abandoned, no longer given a second thought as the illicitly enticing royal purple peaks from below, your legs as brazen and unrepentant as the hue, spreading wider to give more access.

“Have mercy...” Michael breaths out, eyes ravenous and roaming over the lace intricacies that embellish your undergarment, to the longing in you that’s seeped through the silky center.

“I take it you approve of the accent piece I chose?” you jest, a teasing curl on your lips as he marvels at the object, weak in the wake of the attention it commands. He’s spellbound when you shift, it scintillating like an enchantment that refuses to let his eyes stray. And in them, wonder blooms, curiosity stirring for the hidden power that lies beneath.

“You wanna take them off?” the coquettish lilt of your voice snaps him out of his ogling, his fingers itching to pursue the invitation. A part of him is reluctant, wanting to gaze just a little longer at the skimpy article, lustrous and decadent, wrapped around you like temptation in the deepest shade of twilight. Still, he tugs at the waistband with slow, adoring care, your lip caught between your teeth as you lift slightly to assist the graze of his fingertips and the fabric down your skin, rich with the promise of pleasure.

You both gasp, breaths hitching in unison: yours from the cold exposure; his from the slow release of anticipation, as it slides past your knees, gathering in soft folds around your ankles. You nudge them away with a gentle sweep of your foot, your flower… weeping… wanting… finally dawning into view. Michael is transfixed by the slick evidence of your need laid bare, swollen with yearning, drenched in desperation. Desperation reserved solely for him, a sacred obligation he’s vowed to tend to with the utmost care. Just as soon as his eyes set him free.

“Sorry, I don’t mean to stare. It’s just… you’re so lovely down here,” he murmurs, voice trembling, full of awe and wonder. He’s broken out of his trance as he looks up at you, gaze wavering with nerves, yet shining with everything he longs to give.

“The view’s not half bad from where I’m at either,” you breathe, struck by his reverence and the way it cloaks over you, adorning you with his eagerness to please. He takes the initiative in an unexpected move, one that sends a rush of need through you as he crawls closer to the source that craves him just as fiercely as he craves it, his tone low and heartfelt when he says:

“Show me how to please you.”

His eyes mirror that humble request, imploring, pining, as he presses a soft, lingering kiss to your thigh. His large hand undulates in a slow, lulling motion where it rests before ceasing his drift, gently moving to urge your legs farther apart, opening you more fully to his imminent claim.

Your hand reaches for his with trepidation, shaken by the energy he emanates, already surrendered to whatever your body seeks to draw from him… and everything he intends to pour in. The space that separates his touch from your need is but a breath, yet the distance seems to grow with every inch he gravitates nearer. They eventually find their way to their target, your hearts drumming in tune, one beat bounding after the other, as he makes contact, brushing against the soft, outer layer of your petals.

“Stroke back and forth along the edges… slowly. Don’t be afraid to apply a little pressure.” you coax, warm and hushed as his fingers, stretched and charged with excitement, begin to massage you in smooth, unhurried motions, timid but tactful, fully absorbed in the task of easing your ache.

His digits gleam brighter beneath the caress, silken sap over glossed mahogany, your arousal saturating them with each controlled shift and slide, his movements a stark contrast to the chaos that roars within him. His expression teeters between careful concentration and craving tension, brows drawn in delicate focus. His eyes display everything he's afraid to ruin… and sing of everything he wants to unleash.

“You see that little button right at the top?” you ask, nearly a whisper, careful to not disturb the quiet tenderness that envelops you both.

“The clit?”

So… he does know his way around that anatomy. It shouldn’t be as surprising to you as it is.

“Yes. Use your thumb. I want you to press on that. Rub it.” Your gentle instruction is solemnly obeyed by his inquiring touch, his thumb working in deft, figure-eights where it’s nestled. 

“Like this?” he glances up briefly to gauge your reaction. 

“Just like that,” you sigh, the softest sparks awakening under his ministrations, warmth blooming slow and sure. “You can go a little faster.”

He does as he’s told with much enthusiasm, quickening his pace against the soft button, keenly acute to the way your breathing sharpens, the way your love tenses and flexes, spilling more of your wet passion in an abundant stream. Your body buzzes like a drowsy hive beneath his curious affection, gently humming as your nectar, rich and intoxicating, swells steadily in electrifying agitation, your pheromones a seductive potion that pierces his senses, luring his focus ever closer to its sacred source.

You feel the moment his attention is drawn away, his thumb being replaced by his middle and trigger, sliding back and forth along your slit where moisture has gathered, stopping to trace lazy circles around the endless curve where you overflow. Gingerly, he lifts his head for you both to share a look: wordless, telepathic in its clarity, each of you aware of the mutual desire guiding this shift in placement… and what it leads to.

“Go ahead, baby. Put them in,” you encourage him, your pulse and need surging as his touch nears its inevitable dive. 

He doesn't leave either of you suspended for much longer, his digits, cautious yet earnest, breaching your entrance with a steady, graceful push, inching in with gradual force. But the sultry, clinging tightness of your warmth pulls him in with a mind all its own, desperate, driven, as if more of him was the only thing it sought for. He’s soon sunk in to the hilt, his thick fingers buried deep, stuffing you, stretching you in the most delectable way.

He settles into a steady tempo that has your walls thrumming in tune to that rhythm, smooth enough for him to truly explore the hot, wet, wanton wonder within a woman, yet bold enough to unravel it. His fingers, astoundingly skillful, fan the flames of your longing, burning brighter just beneath the surface with every prod and tilt, every slide and graze he delivers with tender motions. You moan, sharp and shuddered, as your excitement leaks past where he fills you, dripping down his hand as he remains engrossed in the task, his nerves and need morphed beyond recognition.

“A-am I doin’ it okay?” He edged the question in quietly, stammering around the lump in his throat, almost afraid the answer would confirm his anxieties.

“You’re doing excellent, sweetie,” you say, breathless and nearly strangled under his attentiveness, relief and pride swelling within him at your praise. You honestly feel as if you could come undone just from this alone, but the main event still lies in wait, having yet to be fulfilled. “Now, t-try using your mouth. Almost like how we kissed, but more… vertical. And tongue-driven. But don’t rush. Take your time. Tease me.”

Heightened thrill, tinged with both hesitation and undeniable hunger, has his heart racing, thoughts spiraling as he dips toward you, his tongue peaking out for a light, experimental swipe through your longing, parting you with featherlight grace as his lips envelop your lower ones, sucking softly on the tender flesh. Your hands, fervid and tensed, fist the sheets with an ironclad grip, your body glowing, pulsing with radiance under the advent of his new-found devotion.

He deepens his actions with growing confidence and mounting desire, submerging himself willingly, wantingly, into the depth of your arousal, unmistakable in the way it staccatos--slick and piercing--alongside your labored breathing, as his fingers remain avid in their wet cadence, his mouth making a filthy melody of its own where he licks and laps at you. Your pleasured sounds trickle over his ears like a whispered prayer, quiet, yet saturated with the full extent of your thirst, a parched ache he craves to quench.

Though you struggle under his lavishing, you find your voice, quivering, stammering with delight to say, “M-move up and down the center… Yes… t-that’s perfect.” 

His tongue slithers with serpent-like charm beneath the slow pour of your invigorating medley, pleasantly pungent notes that flood his senses as he delves low to swirl at your piquancy, sugarcane and petrichor, spilling out where his fingers maintain their stimulating rhythm. It tumbles out in spite of his volition--a moan, husky and desperate, torn from him by the voracious delicacy you provide in plenty, empowering his resolve to satisfy you to the fullest extent.

You gasp as the vibration rattles through you, his tongue gliding along the rift of your womanhood, swaying through your folds on the path of his ascent, climbing higher until it’s perched on your throbbing pearl before engulfing you, all separation erased as you’re sealed within the supple hold of his lips’ embrace.

He drags in with gentle insistence to suction around the bulging, beckoning bud, his tongue twirling against it in steady orbit. You mewl, wispy and high-pitched, arching into the celestial force that unfolds a glimpse of paradise. Michael had always been a fast, eager learner--now was certainly no exception. And as he consumes with newfound prowess, with messianic vitality, your fruit yields the waxing light of a new horizon, where a full moon’s red glow illuminates, bathing him in her divinity and sweet damnation.

You speak, stammered and near-incoherent, trying to override the pleasure that’s reduced you to a babbling mess: 

“I think you’ve--hah… g-gotten the hang of it. You can take it from here. Just--lean into what you think might feel good. I’ll let you know what I like.”

Michael acknowledges your bestowal with a soft, longing hum of assent, his free hand sliding to your hip to draw you closer to his indulgence, his grasp firm, warmth pressing into your skin like a living furnace. His eyes squeeze shut with intent, tuning into the way your body responds as he continues exploring the surface and inside of your heat, digits stroking smoothly along your silken walls, tight and fluttering around his graze.

Your head tosses gently from side to side, shallow gusts breezing across your lips, the frilly ruffles on your pillowcase rippling in small waves under its faint current, your chest rising and falling in uneven undulations with every breath you chase beneath the ardor of his waxing touch. You thrust into his actions, smooth and firm, hips flexing as the hand that cuffs your skirt unfolds with mindful consideration to keep the bunched-up material from disrupting his flow, your fingers stretching to intertwine with his where they grope you.

The sudden brush startles his heart but does not sway him from his purpose. He simply lets your hand melt into his delicate hold while his mouth remains absorbed in unwinding you with the sweeping pets of his tongue, with long, attentive slurps to your bundle of nerves, engorged and throbbing, lapping along your petals to savor your essence, glistening on you like a renewed orchid after tender rain. You shimmer with liquid sustenance, nourishing his hungered spirit, stirring his loins to reawaken as every tastebud gets sopped in honeyed ambrosia.

“You’re doing so good,” you gasp, airy and strained, your deliverance blooming brighter, drifting nearer as he cherishes your most intimate parts. “Try a little more to the right… That’s it. Good boy.”

A raw, helpless whine escapes before he can stop it, the words shooting through him like a paralyzing current, his body faltering, its utterance alone threatening to undo him. He doesn’t understand what awakens inside him at those two simple syllables, only that the sound rips through his composure. Good boy… your good boy. All he wants is to be worthy of that title, to prove he’s earned it.

Once that determination has settled into every vein and vessel, woven into the very fibers of his being, his motion finds him again, driving him forward with relentless, ravenous intent. The wind is all but shoved from your lungs, your back caving in, your hand squeezing his tighter as he delves into your passion with renewed energy. 

He’s honed in on your clit, sucking and flicking at the tender, achy nub, his fingers sliding in and out of you with gained momentum, his low hums and moans of indulgence hardly veiling the sound of your dripping heat, each sticky squelch echoing between you, loud and unmistakable. He’s enamoured by the way you mewl and squirm beneath him, by how overcome you are with the weight of his worship.

He knows he’s truly struck gold when his tips nudge against a particular spot and you seize up, letting out a breathy, broken whine before your free hand shoots down to tangle in his curls, pushing his head closer to your center, your hold strong and unshakable against his nape. He’s practically suffocated within your sweet, sweltering love, though he can’t find an ounce of panic at the yieldless circumstance, his length jolting from the force of your excitement and his inability to escape it.

“Hngh! Right there! Don’t stop!”

Your demand is desperate keen, your right leg thrown over the side of the bed, lower limbs shaking and splayed out wider for him as he brings you ever closer to transcendence, his fingers curling into the spongy point that sends muted bliss crackling within you, faint but dazzling, like fevered sparks leaping from colliding pyrite, on the brink of blazing into the inferno he seeks to summon.

Michael’s jaw lowers to tongue down more, alternating between fast flicks and long laps, greedy and unrestrained in the way he moves along you. Your nectar gently froths around his mouth, thin traces of syrupy gloss dripping past his chin and the corners where it’s pooled. Your bare chest lifts and heaves in sync to every broken gasp, every breathless sound, every desperate cry, body twisting and writhing with the welling pleasure your limbs can hardly contain, falling apart beneath his unexpected mastery, one that far exceeds anything either of you ever imagined he could possess.

“Michael! You’re gonna make me--”

Your warning slips pass tensed lips as that familiar, heated knot winds tighter in your core, muscles pulled taut and hips remaining avid in their chase for blinding rapture, so close you can almost taste it. Though trembling and clammy, your hold stays firm on his neck as you look down at the scene unfolding where you two connect.

He noisily feasts on you with the same wolfish desire that oozes from his eyes: dark, wild and devouring every inch of you until they lift to meet yours. And that ravening flame pours into you with such admiration, such intensity, every morsel of all he has to give, it’s enough for the coil within you to snap free, currents of shimmering elation spreading from your center and outward, fully consuming and overriding all self-composure. 

You release with a shattered wail, your head thrown back, your body a quivering, contorting mess of soft, faintly sheened curves and lines, melting into the comforter’s plush embrace, unraveling to Michael’s faithful dedication. He can feel the instant your dam breaks. Your walls spasming as a large tide of arousal gushes around his fingers, spilling past your entrance and dribbling onto the bedsheet where he pushes more out of you. His mouth still lapping at your pearl as he remains immersed in his lavishment, aiming to please you until the very end.

He drinks you in completely, storing in his mind what his senses might hold later only in yearnful recollection: your graceful form convulsing as the power of your orgasm surges, rippling through every nerve and fiber, your sacred sounds swelling in sync to each earth-shattering wave, each rapturous strain composing a euphony all of his making.

Michael doesn’t let up until your blissful cries turn bittersweet as you wince from the stimulation, painfully sensitive and overstayed, your hand untangling from his curls to gently guide his head away, your grasp slipping from his to rest upon your heaving chest, shuddering between each breath you try to catch.

He withdraws his fingers from your core, gently, so as not to disturb you as you wind down--a thin, viscid strand of your cum keeping you both connected until it snaps, clinging to his digits in a silvery, translucent luster. Michael is mesmerized by its gleam, a glistening reflection of his impeccable craft, a reward he delights in with a slow swipe of his tongue, delicate at first, then fully talking it into his mouth, lids fluttering shut as the taste melts into a rich, pleasantly tangy burst, sucking your essence clean off with a groan that rumbles low in his throat.

He’s given a mere breath’s pause to savor those mellow notes, fingertips easing from the warmth to rest on his lips where your presence still lingers, before your sudden acknowledgment pulls him from his focus:

“Looks like you enjoyed that as much as I did.”

His eyes snap open, darting down to what he already knows is certain… He’s glaringly, remarkably hard again. A furious flush creeps across his malars, eyelids shuttering in an uneasy flash, a nervous giggle erupting from him, followed by the brief consonant of a stammered, attempted excuse, cut short by your leading insistence:

“Come here,” you murmur in a kittenish coo, eyes alight with the ravening flare of a tigress, sultry and low-lidded, your index curling inward in a ‘come hither’ motion to lure him closer, though he follows largely on his own whims, clumsily shuffling over the bedspread--the monument poking out awkwardly from his pants making it a challenging endeavor--until he’s in range for you to capture him by his wrist, dragging him down in a sudden swoop.

His hand shoots out beside your head, propping himself up to keep from crashing into you, a startled noise leaping from his throat at the swift seizure, but you swallow it just as quickly as your lips slant against his, joined in a deep, unhurried meld. Michael finds himself sinking into their warmth. Two plush, malleable clouds, cradling him in the sweetest high, both of you floating in the aftermath of expelled intimacy, yet not fully sated.

If it wasn’t obvious by his risen excitement, solid and dangling between you, it’s palpable in the way your fingertips latch onto his back, digging into his deltoids with a firmness that vows that these clandestine pleasures are far from over. And as every moment spirals by, edging towards hours and ever closer to the reluctant parting of ways, there’s not a second to be spared.

Your axis has shifted again, the change in position a courtesy to you, with Michael’s head now resting upon your pillows as you straddle his lap fully, fronts finally pressed flush to each other as you settle atop of him, his thick appendage nestled snugly between your lower lips. You share a sound, sharp and shuddered, breaths intertwining through the deliberate, molten flow of your mouths, a dissonance that resounds with the clash of your readiness and his sudden hesitance.

But that indicator goes unnoticed as you part abruptly, wrapped in your own anticipation for the finale, stretching toward your bedside dresser. The metallic knob is cold against your palm when you pull the drawer open, the drag of the roller guides creaking in a way that gnaws on Michael’s nerves, a boding of what naturally comes of these events. That unease is only amplified when you reach inside--a faint, plastic noise rustling under your fingers as you draw out a stacked strand of condoms. 

“W-wait!” 

You’re only pulled from your oblivion once he catches your wrist in a firm clutch, halting your movements before they lower any further, his eyes wide and wild with anxiety when you look back down at him.

“I don’t--uhh, I’m not sure that I can--” Michael stammers, taken aback by the untimely arrival of his precaution, feeling strangely misplaced in the midst of all he’s already succumbed to. Still, reckoning with that truth doesn’t quiet the feeling.

“Is this a little too fast for you?” You lift slightly, careful but quick, creating distance between where you connect, your stomach tightening at the thought that you might have intruded on him somehow. Had you realized his discomfort sooner, you would’ve stopped immediately. And Michael knows that, can see it in the timid regard swirling in your eyes, solemn and concerned, in the way your body holds rigid above his, afraid to overstep any further. 

“That’s so… silly, ain’t it? Chickenin’ out now, after we’ve gone this far and--I’m sorry.” He apologizes, voice faltering as embarrassment blooms in his chest, simmering in his cheeks as he silently berates himself for believing he could entirely cast aside a lifetime’s worth of spiritual oaths in a single day.

Though he has violated his virtues in ways that will shadow him long after he leaves your side, the complete stripping away of his chastity weighs on him all the heavier, driven by a fear of straying too far from the Lord’s good graces. The gravity of that descent is too great to be borne, especially for something as fleeting as a summertime fling.

“Michael, that’s not silly at all. We can stop whenever you need. No pressure.” Your reassurance, calm and genuine, goes a long way in soothing his worries. You set the condoms on top of the nightstand, a small, conclusive gesture to the sensual advance that exceeds what he is willing for, your leg lifting to remove yourself from over him until:

“But, I--” he interjects, startling you with a sudden rush of his hands to your waist, closing around it in a vise-like grip that stops you from leaving, “I don’t want it to be over… not yet.” 

“Well, what else did you have in mind?” you ask softly, earnest yet patient, all ears for whatever he’ll propose.

”How about we just…” he trails off, thumb rubbing at your soft curves in slow, comforting circles, a subtle, centering effort to steady his thoughts as they waver in contemplation… Should I? 

It found him by unlikely chance during a restroom break as the sermon went on, a murmured exchange that had no rightful place in the Lord’s house. Two of his peers indulged in worldly gossip, sordid and unashamed as they defiled its sanctity, their words staining the air with irreverence. With his back turned to them, the disapproving scowl tugging at his face remained hidden from their view as they blindly conversed, boasting of all the illicit deeds they’d done with the opposite sex.

"Trina Wilkins?! Man, there ain't no WAY you tapped that! Her pop’s got his eye out for ‘any ol' mutt that thinks they can sully his precious baby girl.’"

"Well, what he don't know is she's stickin’ it out for any guy that comes sniffin’ ‘round. She's one of them play-prude types, ya know, all clean and proper-like on the outside. But once ya get her alone, sweeten her up ’til she’s all hot ’n bothered--I mean ‘til she’s damn near tearin’ down her legs and can’t take it--you ain’t walkin’ outta there empty-handed. Only one way she'd have me, though. Said the Lord wouldn’t hold it against her that way..." 

Part of it was astonishment at their sheer audacity that kept him at the sink, thoroughly scrubbing away at invisible grime, his fingers lingering below the lukewarm stream longer than necessary. The other, perhaps stronger side, was curiosity, reluctant yet waxing as he dwelled near the waste bin, prolonging the simple act of patting his hands dry while their lecherously enlightening whispers carried loud enough to echo off corners he strained to hear.

Now, in the heat of the moment, that actually doesn’t seem like such a bad idea to Michael. Though it treads dangerously close, as if all that’s transpired thus far doesn’t loom there as well, it’s still not technically a lapse of equal measure compared to what had just been intended. But if this transgression exceeds what God is willing to forgive, well, he guesses he’ll simply have to wait and find out on that inevitable day of judgment…

“I-it doesn’t have to go inside s’all.”

His face burns hotter than ever, as if singed by the obscenity of his own words, spoken so low he almost convinces himself he didn’t mean for you to hear it. For an instant, he believes that to be the case, your brows dipping in what could be mistaken for puzzlement, but the quiet fascination that flickers in your gaze makes it clear you’ve already caught on to what he’s barely managed to spell out.

“You’re talking abou--oh my God…” The confirmation dies on your lips just as soon as Michael fills in for you, his large, strong palms cuffing right above your red waistband, tugging you closer to place his length firmly between your silken drapes again, restoring the previous heat that blanketed him with such compelling invitation.

He’s careful to remain loyal to his limits, shifting his hips along yours with steady, controlled movements, creating a delectable, gratifying friction of ridged warmth and clinging wetness where you merge, still honouring the boundaries of this trespass, not prodding or breaching beyond what permission he has granted himself. 

“I-is this okay?” It slips out lowly, weighted with his regard for your pleasure and the faint shimmers beginning to stir within him, kindling brighter with every glide.

“More than okay,” you sigh as radiance ripples through every erogenous point on your fevered frame, your pelvis rousing from stillness, moving along his in perfect unison, your hands falling to rest on his pectorals to anchor both body and mind, grounding yourself amid the electrifying pulses that no doubt course through him too, that send his heart pounding beneath your fingertips.

“Keep going just like that.”

And that aching, tremulous entreaty is all he needs, his hands sturdy grips against your midriff, his hold growing stronger around you. There is a new firmness to it, a wordless sign of how deeply he is affected by all of this: the warmth you emanate in your nearness, the fire building where you fuse with each slow and purposeful rut against one another, both driven by a primal need to become each other’s undoing. Both absorbed in a requited endeavor of the most beautiful wreckage.

A sensuous note rises with the labored exhale you release, suspiring bliss as you lean back, one hand sliding down the cleft of his chest to the faintly chiseled terrain of his abdomen, your touch making him shiver and respond in consequent with a stuttered breath. You take each other in, the very sight stoking your excitement further.

You watch in awe as his sleek, ebony muscles flex where he rolls into you, lightly misted from his efforts, from the heat smoldering there, just beneath the surface. You can feel it where your palm lies, every tense fiber rippling below your gentle possession, your nails biting deeper into the tacky flesh as your arousal amplifies, your womanhood gliding over his length with each rhythmic cant of your lower body.

Michael observes, greedy and entranced, as a delicate ribbon of sweat traces a path from your neck to your breasts. A gentle sheen dances off of them as they sway, catching the half-yolk of sunlight that fractures into luminous threads through plumes of marigold and lavender, the day waning just as your shared passion rises towards its crest, a conflicting culmination he dreads even as he yearns for it. A moment shaped in the relief of release and the inevitable aftermath of leaving all of this behind.

He doesn’t dwell on that fleeting notion for long, too enthralled by the sultry, slick sensations where your centers graze, by the golden beams and pastels that gather in a soft halo around your silhouette, subtle motes glimmering, surrounding you like stardust as your pelvis undulates with sensual grace, and he is certain that he must be gazing upon something truly heaven sent. A witness to the divinely fallen, liberated through earthly decadence, now bestowing that liberation to him.

The admiration his eyes hold you with, reverent, aching and desirous, has your sap soaking his length as you rock along him, feeling every line, indent and vein he bears. Drawn-out moans bleed into the space between you as your clit repeatedly catches the base of his tip, grinding down harder to have that little ridge rub you in just the right way.

He’s so thick, parts you so wide, you can’t help but quiver at the thought of what it would be like to fully take him. How his girth would fill you, stretching you past limits your walls would struggle to accommodate, how he would sink deep enough to kiss your cervix, straining you at the seams until you molded to his fitting, until he settled into your warmth as if it were always his. And it seems wickedly befitting when your hips surge further for a single instant, a sharp gasp escaping you both as his swollen head brushes against your entrance.

Your movements halt as soon as it happens, and you hurry to apologize for almost crossing the one boundary he wouldn’t dare to break, but he interrupts you when his hands shift their placement, dropping to take a firm hold of your upper thighs beneath your skirt, the plush skin bunching around his fingers where he gropes, his digits trembling against you.

“Do that again,” he pants, low and ragged, his chest billowing like something deprived of need, his gaze dark as pitch and wild, ravenous for the one thing he withholds from himself. 

“This?” You slide up, pressing his leaking tip to your soft opening again, caressing him with small, experimental swivels, savoring the tingles that flourish there while ever mindful not to slip beyond his comfort.

“Y-yes!” he pleads, sounding the utmost devastated as his sensitivity heightens with each tantalizing twirl you deliver, his vises growing firmer, more desperate upon your supple flesh as they begin to move you to his liking, slow and measured. His expression crumbles into one of ecstatic torment, features warped by the sheer effort it takes to defy the ultimate impulse.

And that limitation being provoked should seize him with alarm, should wrench his mind out of the spellbound fog that binds him, but the danger looming above, lurking at the edges, only makes this subtle, perilous dance all the more enticing.

He must be insane: verging on such risk, yet finding thrill where there should be dread, caught in the scandalous pull of having you only half-way how he wants you. Of being so close, a simple push could pierce the heart that throbs and weeps below, agonized, beckoning for him. And yet, he restrains, even as every sinew twinges to trespass this sole virtue.

Your silken surfaces stroke together with the tenderest of touch, mingling in a sticky, lustrous glow, your combined essences trickling down his shaft, the excitement in your loins rising, near the point of boiling over. From the heat that fills and surrounds him, sultry and insistent, pressing him ever closer to completion, to the sweet, heady musk of your coupling clinging to the air, and how your countenance morphs into something delicate and decadent, finely sewn, every stitch wrung taut on the cusp of your own unraveling: he is engulfed. Overwhelmed entirely.

And the only thing he can find to anchor himself amid the torrent of sensations, welling too sharply for him to withstand, is the clement cradle of your lips, mild and merciful in every reverie they’ve made real, in every passion they’ve set free. He pulls a small gasp from you as his hand curves around your nape, tugging you down into a famished kiss, your mouths meshed, your hips moving in heavy, languid tandem.

It’s all tongue and no technique, damp and clumsy, impossibly vehement. A feverish exchange of panted breath and swapped saliva and shaken, needy notes. And yet, its raw imperfection is everything that binds you to this moment. That encircles you tightly, that swathes you from within, pleasure mounting in a balmy burden your core aches to let go.

He can sense your struggle, your desperation, hardly masked and laid bare in how your lips move even more tactless, mashed and messily fumbling with his whenever they manage to meet. It feels futile and redundant now, and yours slip away, your forehead pressed to his, the warmth of his breath brushing across your face.

“You’re driving me crazy, Michael. I’m almost there,” you whisper against his mouth, harsh and weighted. Your chest parts from his, your torso lifting and hand returning to its resting place on his stomach, your pelvis grating and gliding along his harder, sharper, chasing your release and determined for him to follow. 

His hold seems like more of a hindrance to you than a help, so he settles it back on your waist, just firm enough to keep you steady as his hips begin to rut in tune to your motion, assisting with his own eager force. As molten, unshed bliss simmers and builds within him, drawing him closer to his climax, his focus narrows to the sounds of forbidden passion spilling into the air.

Each sigh, each mewl, each groan, flowing freely in treble and bass, lilting, dulcet and unrestrained, resonating with the slick, heated harmony your bodies make where you collide. The primal aroma of perspiration and faded perfume and the fusion of arousal, your shared fervor and exertion deepening its potency. Soon that scope closes in, thinning until he can only register the repeated twitch of his length against your dripping heat, the strain of his groin tightening, filled with the urgent need to unload.

“I’m gonna--” he warns in a broken whine, one hand clenching tighter on your side as the other shoots up to clamp over his mouth, already sensing that whatever might escape him will be blaringly loud. And even though he knows the only living souls in the house are confined to this room, he’s still overtaken by a sudden need for courtesy, instinctively trying to muffle the volume incoming.

“Nuh-uh. Don’t hide.” 

You move with a quickness that nearly gives him whiplash, prying his palm away from his face and cupping his jaw with a grip he can’t shake, forcing his mouth open and locking his gaze on you.

“Give me those pretty sounds. Wanna hear how good I make you feel.”

That sultry command, that desperate declaration, and a final upward shove of your hips is all it takes for him to be plunged into disorienting ecstacy, his vision blurring around the edges, muscles going rigid as thick ropes of cum spew from his tip, some landing on his lower belly but mostly staining the flap of your skirt. Now that you’ve given him that liberty, he has a complete lack of regard for his loudness, unabashed and heedless as he’s entirely submerged in turbulent tides of rapture.

At some point, he feels your movements waning, becoming stiff and jerky until a sudden, full-framed tremor and an unbridled moan cuts in sharply, your entrance fluttering, syrupy nectar pouring over in a delicate rivulet, oozing along his length as you ride out those incandescent waves with him.

An aligned frequency threads through this union, one only perceived through your shared connection. It pulses where you merge, your hearts drumming in frenetic tune. Harmonious tones mixed with the aspiration of exhausted breath. Resounding. Rhythmic. Synchronized. Ligaments pulled taut, bodies strung with euphoria, nerves thrumming like strings, bones shaped into a contorted expression of rhapsody and rhyme. And in concord, you’ve conducted a symphony of all-consuming eros, your bodies making sweet music together.

A languorous stillness drapes over you, as restful as the worn-out sun, lazy-lidded and blinking along the horizon, protesting drowsily as if witnessing the deep bond blooming between two young lovers has made it reluctant to retire.

Half-clad, your forms lie entwined atop jumbled bedsheets, limbs cozy and relaxed, undergarments now shielding what you’ve just newly become well-acquainted with. His arms--strong, velvet ropes--keep you bound tight to his side, enfolding you with a warmth that seems determined to never let go.

Your cheek rests comfortably on his pec, your eyes drawn to your fingertips, skimming over his breastbone, coiling every so often around the barely budded patch of locks, grown in so faintly they almost go unnoticed, even this close. 

For minutes, you’ve sat in silence. No awkwardness. No tension. Just resting in the soft heat of each other’s presence, the day’s unfoldings reflected quietly through the gentle press of skin, underscored by the fan’s faint but persistent drone, and the subtle invitation this calm offers to speak your minds when either of you wishes to.

“So,” you begin lowly, inclined to give way for him to voice what he might be holding, “how does it feel to have a few petals plucked?” The inquiry dances with playful teasing, all the while carrying genuine curiosity.

“...Ain’t as bad as I supposed it’d be,” he replies after a beat, perhaps coming out more tongue-in-cheek than he means it to be. It’s reflexive, a response born from being flustered by a question that turns the spotlight onto him; an unintentional deflection that slips out from vulnerability that isn’t quite ready to sit on his sleeve, even after sharing the most intimate parts of yourselves.

But there is a layer of honesty to it too. He wasn’t struck by lightning, the gates of hell didn’t open beneath his feet to swallow him whole the moment he said yes to your advance, and the residual guilt he expected never came. In fact, all he can do is bask in the warm tingle that spreads through him, swirling high in his stomach and lulling his heart’s pace, feeling profoundly fortunate that it was you who opened that door for him.

You push yourself off his chest, lifting until his hold naturally slips away, much to his displeasure, his arms falling limp against the mattress as you hover over him, your brow quirked and mouth agape in amused, exaggerated offense.

“Ohhh, you’ve got jokes,” you sing-song, your voice ringing with lighthearted sarcasm, “I’ll see myself out then.” You’re swift to rise, but your feet aren’t even given a second to attempt a fake exit before his arms circle around your waist.

“Get back here, girl–” A surprised yelp jumps from your lips as he pulls you into his embrace, you both tumbling back onto the bed, the springs bouncing like the fit of giggles that erupt between you.

“It was amazing,” he says once the laughter has subsided enough for him to speak, the sound fading gently. 

“...You’re amazing,” he whispers, his thumb tracing a featherlight path back and forth along your cheek, as tender as the warmth his gaze cradles you with; staring through you in a way that causes your breath to catch and your heart to stammer off beat, shining with a vibrance that proclaims you a light unlike any he has ever witnessed. One that would pain him dearly to part from once you leave, all too soon. And it seems that concern has quietly crept its way into the serenity you’ve nurtured, prompting what follows:

“You’re pretty neat yourself… So, what does this mean for us?” Your tone carries a pensive edge meant to mask the soft, nearly imperceptible nervousness tracing your features, thankfully too slight for him to notice. 

His thumb ceases its drift along your skin, hand lowering instead to take hold of your fingers, splayed across his chest, twiddling with them in an anxious effort to steady himself. A moment of silence stretches almost unbearably as he ponders, his brows creased and lips pursed in thought, apprehension building as he gathers himself to answer:

“Well… I enjoy what we’ve got goin’. But we ain’t known each other long, and you’ll be outta here in a month, so… I ain’t gonna fault you if you leave all this behind when you head home.” 

He chooses words he feels are most proportionate to your comfort, though they fall far short of what he truly wants to tell you, trying to play it off as if he wouldn’t be devastated if your interest ends here. Yet, even as his heart aches at the thought, it still hammers with hope that you’ll requite his affection.

His honed-in focus on your interlocked hands breaks when you pull away to sit upright, looking toward him with a delicacy he can’t tell is meant to let him down easy or that mirrors his most honest emotions. 

“I really do like you, Michael… a lot. I’d like to keep in touch. See where things go,” you murmur, optimistic and sure, your certainty releasing a rush of relief through him that settles every worry he’d been carrying.

“Y-yeah! I’d like that too. Very much.” His teeth tug at his bottom lip, lashes fluttering as he tries--and fails--to keep the happiness from rising in his cheeks. Though, his moment of elation is gently interrupted by your voice, small, yet shadowed by a trace of something heavier underneath.

“And, uhm,” you clear your throat, straightening and rolling your shoulders, a feeble attempt to ease a tension that lives not in your posture but in the words stalling to leave your mouth. Your gaze drifts away, taking sudden fascination in the few, faint freckles scattered along the side parallel of his forearm--an odd mechanism, but it manages to do the trick.

“...I was kind of wondering--just hypothetically. Over one of your breaks or something, if I bought you a ticket out to Cali… would you come?”

With caution, you look up to gauge his reaction, but not long enough to truly tell what lies there, eyes darting back down out of fear of what you’ll find. It’s a flustering ordeal now, too direct, too loaded for something that has upgraded from mere study partners no more than an hour ago. You want to just drop it, to escape the embarrassment grappling with your nerves and simmering in your chest, but now that you’ve started, you feel obligated to finish.

“You can think of it as a little solo getaway if that makes it, you know, less heavy. We could--maybe take a spin down that coastline I never shut up about. It’s way better in person than I could ever describe..." 

You know it’s a rash request, a bold shot to take so soon, and the thought of putting yourself out there only to wind up in rejection makes your stomach twist. Still, you can only reason that you’ve followed through because the thought of not seeing him again, the threat of finality that comes with distance, far exceeds your need for composure. You haven’t garnered enough bravery to look up yet, but the single syllable he utters almost makes you glad you didn’t:

“No...” It stings a little more than you anticipated. 

“Oh.” Dammit. Of course, I came on too strong. 

Trying to mask your overmounting disappointment and save yourself from any further shame, you go to feign polite indifference.

“I-I understand--”

“I can cover my own fare. All I needed was the invitation.”

You go mute, stunned by his statement, your eyes freed from the gloom that kept them avoidant, finally looking at him with full intent not to waver. And what you find in his countenance, tender and resolute, holding everything you hoped for, allows you to breathe again.

The silence embraces you both once more, carrying something new, something promising, something profound. It dances in your steady gaze, rises in the warmth of the knowing smile you share. It sings of far greater things awaiting you beyond these walls, and radiates with the heat of this summer, reassuring that it will endure long past its season.

Note: Welp, there it is (thank goodness omfg.) I apologize if there were any grammatical errors. This would’ve been done a lot sooner if I would’ve actually followed my word count guidelines lol. The process was as stressful as it was exciting, and I can’t wait to make more content for you guys!

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