[looking at people younger than me] you have your whole life ahead of you [looking at people older than me] you have your whole life ahead of you [looking at myself] its over

i think i tend to forget how good boredom is for creativity because we're all so addicted to numbing ourselves with screens and stimulation. but standing in the shower or going for a walk with no music or just sitting in your bedroom without being allowed to touch any screens & all of a sudden i have multiple new projects to start, a solution to a months-long plot problem & 4 new original characters

i used to say that i hate my phone so much but then i realized that technology is a neutral resource exactly like sugar or money. and the more i think about it the more it makes sense. even the way people talk about a carb detox is the same way people do a dopamine detox from social media. but carbs are not bad! for example if you’re a runner you know how useful sugar is, even some candy before a sprint can have its place. and carbs are not all the same like tumblr is not the same as instagram, and quantity matters! but also money. so many people think money is bad but money is not intrinsically evil it’s a neutral resource. i can use it to help someone in need, or it can bring a sense of safety or be a resource for art-making. but the more one thinks in scarcity the more they overspend, the more one cuts sugar out the more they crave it. i think it’s the same with technology - once i stopped saying that i hated my phone i forgot about it and it started to become a tool for creativity rather than something i was feeding some undefined hunger with. sometimes i still catch myself saying i hate my phone and i take a second to pause.