pretty mama;

"I know and I shouldn't have brought it up because it's your birthday and a special time for us. The past is behind us now and it needs to stay there and not be fug back out." She melted into Ashley's touch as she played in her hair. "You already are, baby. Sometimes it rears it's head in my mind but I need to push it back and not bring it up. I don't want the past to ruin the present. I refuse to let that happen." Things happen for a reason is what she kept telling herself. Both women had grown and were older, wiser and perhaps now they would work out. "I think you're right. I just want you to hold me and us to show each other how much we love each other." She pulled Ashley closer as they kissed.

“No, it’s fine that you brought it up. We have to be able to talk about the hard things no matter the day.” No day was special enough to not have the tough conversations. She wanted them to be able to sit and talk and not tip toe because it was a holiday or someone’s birthday. They wouldn’t get far in the relationship if they kept that up. “I refuse to let that happen too. We won’t let the past ruin the present, I promise.” She placed another kiss to Cara’s lips, and cupped her cheeks as she did. She nodded as the kiss broke, and then she took the blonde’s hand and led her upstairs and into her bedroom. Closing the door, Ashley kicked her shoes off before she laid on the bed.

they changed for the bad, the very bad.

why the bad? do you need to talk about it?

both? my days have all been the same lately. things used to be so good but things change.

that's not fun, especially if they changed for the bad rather than the good.

just another day unfortunately.

does that mean bad? or just normal?

happy sunday!

ashbenzo: did you have a good sunday?

She hated talking about the past because it was still painful for her but she knew they had to because as partners it was important. "It did and when you." This was the painful part but she wasn't the first woman to be cheated on. "Cheated. It made me doubt everything about myself. I had always been confident and thought I could be enough for someone so that fucked with me. I know now that it wasn't all about me but at the time it felt like it. " She let out a sigh because this was supposed to be a good night and she wasn't going to ruin her girlfriend's birthday. "The birthday girl gets to pick." She said softly before moving into the kiss and deepening it.

Her eyes softened as Cara brought up the past. She didn’t understand how her cheated made her feel back then. Ashley was all about herself then. But now that she was older, now that she had been cheated on, she understood better. She could see the pain even after all these years. And she hated that she caused that pain for Cara. And she was so glad, lucky really, that Cara was willing to give the blonde another a chance to show her how she could love her. She let her fingers tangle lightly into her hair. “I know, baby. And you were enough; you were more than enough. But I was selfish and I was lost. And what I did was so wrong.” She let her fingers play in her locks. “I’ll do anything to make up for the last years we should have been together.” Maybe they were supposed to end when they did. She wouldn’t have Aspen if they had stayed together. And she couldn’t imagine her life without the little girl. “I think we should go upstairs to my bedroom and snuggle and kiss.” Ashley mentioned as their lips collided again.

There was a light in her eyes, and Ashley nodded. “I know. I was never alone before when I was with you.” She knew things were messy before. They were both young, Ashley was still trying to figure out who she was. And they just couldn’t get along. But whenever they were together, she never felt alone. Not like she did when she was with Brandon, or now with all of her family living in another state. Sure, she still had friends. But a lot of them were friends with Brandon and it felt awkward being with them. “I’ll see you in a bit.” Ashley gave her one more kiss before she went and picked up her daughter. It took about fifteen minutes before Ashley was joining Cara in the living room. “And she’s out like a light. She should be out for about two hours.” That was if Aspen stayed on her normal routine. The blonde sat down on the couch, her hand reaching for Cara’s.

Cara knew she would have some fashion shows to go to but hoped Ashley could go with her and bring Aspen. It would be fun for the little girl to see the world. "I always tried but I admit that I wasn't the best at communication. I was young and trying to be someone. I dragged you to way too many parties." She smiled and lay back on the couch. "I'll be here. Give her a kiss for me." The night was going well and she couldn't help but think they could do this. So what if years had passed, there were still feelings there. "Poor little thing was exhausted." Her hand interlaced with Ashley's and she looked at her. "So what would you like to do?"

She nodded, “I think that goes for either of us. We were both young and weren’t good at communicating. And it just… fucked it all up for us.” She did hate how their relationship ended. But she was glad that they were getting this second chance. Even if they didn’t last long – at least they could have a better, stronger relationship this time around. “Hmm, I could think of a few things that we could do. Watch a movie? Snuggle? Kiss? So many options.” Ashley said teasingly as she shifted her body, moving her hand to cup the blonde’s cheek and kissed her.

Ashley was a heartbreaker so Cara felt Aspen would be as well but there was nothing wrong with having fun when you're young. "Can't have no boys or girls trying to get over on her." She watched as Ashley got Aspen cleaned up, she was such a good mom and she loved that about her. Now that they were alone she was quick to enjoy their embrace and kiss her girlfriend. "I wouldn't have missed it for the world and I loved meeting her. You don't ever have to be alone with me around." She smiled and nodded as Ashley said she would be right back after putting her daughter down for a nap. "Take your time. I'm not going anywhere." She gave her a slow long kiss before walking off to the living room to watch some tv and let Ashley take care of Aspen.

There was a light in her eyes, and Ashley nodded. “I know. I was never alone before when I was with you.” She knew things were messy before. They were both young, Ashley was still trying to figure out who she was. And they just couldn’t get along. But whenever they were together, she never felt alone. Not like she did when she was with Brandon, or now with all of her family living in another state. Sure, she still had friends. But a lot of them were friends with Brandon and it felt awkward being with them. “I’ll see you in a bit.” Ashley gave her one more kiss before she went and picked up her daughter. It took about fifteen minutes before Ashley was joining Cara in the living room. “And she’s out like a light. She should be out for about two hours.” That was if Aspen stayed on her normal routine. The blonde sat down on the couch, her hand reaching for Cara’s.

private: no, i would hate to share my girlfriend. but i guess you do things for love that you normally wouldn’t do.

private: you do and sometimes it works out and sometimes it doesn't.

private: well, i hope it works out for you in the end!

It was intriguing to Cara to watch Ashley and her daughter interact with each other. She kept looking and noticing little mannerisms that they shared. "She's going to be such a heartbreaker when she gets older." It was easy to laugh along with her girlfriend as she said she was glad she resembled her more than her father. "I think she'll get your personality since she's around you more and will pick up your habits." Shrugging Cara had to agree. "Money tends to do that to people if they aren't careful. We have money but we didn't grow up with it, that's the difference. She couldn't help but smile as she heard the cake was chocolate because it was her favorite. Cara followed Ashley into the dining room and took a seat across from Aspen. "Thank you, babe." She said before cutting into her cake and taking a bite of it. "It melts in your mouth."

“She probably will be. Gotta teach her how to put the boys in their place. Not let them try to run her life.” She let out a laugh. She wanted Aspen to be able ot stick up for herself when it came to a relationship. As the three finish up their cake, Ashley cleaned Aspen up and then let her out of the high chair. She walked over to Cara now that it was just the two of them. She let her arms wrap around the woman’s middle as she placed a kiss to her lips. “Thank you for coming today, it was nice to have company rather than being alone.” Ashley knew she could call her friends to come hang out with her. But it was different if it wasn’t cara. They just became official again and she wanted to spend as much time as possible regretting to know the younger blonde. “I’m going to put Aspen down for a nap if you don’t mind waiting a bit. Got to read a few books and then rock her, shouldn’t take longer than fifteen minutes.”