ｄａｒｌｉｎｇ.

          it’s her SCENT that first did him in   –––––   a beautiful girl who smells like fresh bread and FLOWERS,   he was a goner from the day they met   –––––   and it still does too many embarrassing things to him even now.     he inhales,   mouth brushing the very corner of hers,   merely a light tease because he knows they’ll get too distracted otherwise.     “ right.     i promise,   i’ll never subject you to pennywise again. ”     he hadn’t found it all that scary   ( LACKLUSTER,   actually,   compared to its novel counterpart )   but he should have known wendy WOULD.     he leans closer now,   hand sliding round to press against her lower back.     “ i actually rented the shining   –––––   did you ever see it ? ”

          “ oh   –––––   no,   chocolate’s fine.     you… really didn’t have to do that,   though. ”     she’s UNCOMFORTABLE as she takes her seat across from wendy,   tempted to give her the same money talk blue’s had to give her brother at least FIVE times already,   but wendy’s request steals the thought away.     “ okay.     what kind of HELP ?     if it’s gansey-related,   i’m sorry,   but i think he’s a little beyond saving. ”

          blue should be ASHAMED of herself for getting so close.     for letting wendy into her life,   into her bed,   even if just to look over a map of ley lines for her brother.     for making her LAUGH,   for not pulling away when she gets too close,   for going still when the moment shifts into something else   –––––   her breath on blue’s cheek,   blue’s gaze too intense where it lingers on full lips,   blue’s hand on her knee.     “ i can’t, ”   she whispers.     she’s forgotten how many times she’s been told she will kill her true love.     “ i’m SORRY.     i can’t. ”

adam doesn’t seem to LIKE making a big deal of his birthday. he seemed happy with all wendy’s suggestions — a bike ride, a picnic in the woods, back to adam’s to watch a movie together, and what she delicately referred to as ‘ private time ’ , blushing all the while. now, later, they lie in the humid heat of adam’s bedroom, with blinds drawn and windows wide open, and a small fan by the bed doing its damnedest to keep them cool. the sheets are kicked to the end of the bed so wendy draw lines between adam’s freckles with her fingertips, dreaming constellations over his chest & arms & cheeks.

STARDUST FELL FROM HER LIPS, AND SHE BLED OUT LIQUID GOLD SHE WAS THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE WRAPPED UP IN A GIRL, AND IT WAS FAR TOO MUCH TO CONTAIN.

gansey: ACTUALLY it’s a bit big to be classified specifically as a pebble, you see (long monologue, eventually chucking said pebble to watch it skip across the water)

zodiac sign

sensitive cancer is ruled by the ever-changing moon, and your moods go through many cycles. you’re intuitive and nurturing, even psychic. pay attention to your dreams, especially near a full moon. you are sensitive and loyal, with a ready shoulder to cry on. cancer loves to get domestic, serving your friends and family home-baked goodies and tea. when you get moody, you need to be comforted, or else just left alone. like a crab, you can cling — or pinch — when you feel threatened or vulnerable. and thrifty cancers can pinch pennies just as tightly. ( of course, you also love to spend! it’s a mood thing. ) to make life easier, surround yourself with comfort: a cozy sweater, a favourite book, trusted friends, and a stash of your favourite goodies. cancers are close to their moms, so keep yours on speed-dial and call her when you’re down. you may be an unofficial mom to everyone in your life, too. taking care of kids, friends, and pets can keep your spirits high.

myers-briggs

the protagonist: ENFJs are natural-born leaders, full of passion and charisma. forming around two percent of the population, they are oftentimes our politicians, our coaches and our teachers, reaching out and inspiring others to achieve and to do good in the world. 

four temperaments

the sanguine temperament is fundamentally spontaneous and pleasure-seeking; sanguine people are sociable and charismatic. they tend to enjoy social gatherings, making new friends and tend to be boisterous. they are usually quite creative and often daydream. however, some alone time is crucial for those of this temperament. sanguine can also mean sensitive, compassionate and thoughtful. sanguine personalities generally struggle with following tasks all the way through, are chronically late, and tend to be forgetful and sometimes a little sarcastic. often, when they pursue a new hobby, they lose interest as soon as it ceases to be engaging or fun. they are very much people persons. they are talkative and not shy. sanguines generally have an almost shameless nature, certain that what they are doing is right. They have no lack of confidence.

celtic zodiac

the stabiliser: those born under the celtic tree astrology sign of the oak have a special gift of strength. they are protective people and often become a champion for those who do not have a voice. in other words, the oak is the crusader and the spokesperson for the underdog. nurturing, generous and helpful, you are a gentle giant among the celtic zodiac signs. you exude an easy confidence and naturally assume everything will work out to a positive outcome. you have a deep respect for history and ancestry, and many people with this sign become teachers. you love to impart your knowledge of the past to others. oak signs have a need for structure, and will often go to great lengths to gain the feeling of control in their lives. healthy oak signs live long, full, happy lives and enjoy large family settings and are likely to be involved with large social/community networks.

soul type

17: the quintessential characteristic of a caregiver type is the desire to take care of others. if you recognise yourself as a caregiver, you may already have noticed the tendency to put others’ needs ahead of your own. this trait makes it essential that you go out of your way to take care of yourself as well as those around you. remember that you’re no use to others if you’re not healthy or fit enough to help them. you are loyal to the extreme, and you guard those who are entrusted to your care with your life. fighting another person’s battles can be important if that individual is unable to stand up for themselves, though you should be cautious not to disempower those in your care by not allowing them to do things for themselves. your empathy allows you to understand nonverbal emotional signals. this ability will tell you when someone needs your help, and how best to assist them. it is common for caregiver types to intuitively know what someone needs at any given time.

17: as the name suggests, creators are drawn to creativity of all sorts. without a creative outlet, creators can become miserable, which is why, if this is your type, you will be drawn to express yourself creatively in anything you do. you have the ability to be original, and will use your imagination to find new or better ways to convey your ideas. the sensitivity that is a mark of the Creator can be hard to manage in this harsh modern world. it does, however, give you an advantage when it comes to accessing the intuitive part of yourself. the creator trait of idealism allows you to see the good in others and the potential in people and situations. focusing on the big picture will come naturally, though paying attention to details may not.

alignment

a neutral good character does the best that a good person can do. she is devoted to helping others. she works with kings and magistrates but does not feel beholden to them. neutral good is the best alignment you can be because it means doing what is good without bias for or against order. neutral good can be a dangerous alignment when it advances mediocrity by limiting the actions of the truly capable.

dark triad

narcissism is an egotistical preoccupation with self. because of all their experience with maintaining their self image, people who score high for narcissism will often appear charming but their narcissism will later lead to extreme difficulty in developing close relationships.

the animal in you

cottontail rabbit personalities are small, gentle individuals with a tendency towards shyness and whose instinct is to run at the first sign of danger. Their extraordinarily acute senses are well-developed and always on the lookout for any impending peril. cottontails are astoundingly cute and rely heavily on their soft personalities and vulnerable appearance to succeed. these beautiful and skittish creatures have the most elegant imaginations of all; spending hours creating magnificent castles in air and populating them with an endless variety of whimsically pastoral characters. These romantic dreams dramatically influence the cottontail's behavior, and although they could be described as quirky, they're also friendly, warm, and understanding. although they are bright, cottontails often hide their intelligence when it interferes with their primary method of survival: cuteness! Almost all mammal personalities find them to be irresistibly attractive and they rarely need to employ their personal resources to succeed in their careers or relationships.

rosenberg self esteem scale      

17/30

brain lateralisation test