☆鹿晗

Ji.....ji....or?

Ah, ok, where do I start? 

Actually I was really happy that you sent that message, I was really worried about you for a long time. ^^; I only wish you'd told me all this before but then I guess back then I wasn't being open also. 

Since it was my first roleplay, I didn't really have much of a line between in character and ooc so a lot got very confusing for me. I spoke a lot to her - Hyosung - back then because I was actually becoming friends with the lady behind the character a lot more and I was helping them through a rough patch that they were going through with others muns. 

I guess the reason Luhan didn't talk to your character so much about his feelings was because I myself was really shy and young and I felt like you felt uncomfortable when I made him do that ;u; but--! I really really enjoyed roleplaying and talking and laughing with you! That's why I made Luhan propose because I wanted to continue and move our roleplay forward, for something exciting and because Luhan really did like your character so much. I felt like I scared you away though, and broke our friendship too. ;; 

But yeah, it was my mistake that I made him talk so much to her because we were becoming friends ooc. T_T Really, I don't remember, but I don't think I knew that you (or your rp?) was jealous about that, I'm sorry! When you left I was so depressed because I thought that we were friends ooc as well...that even if we stopped roleplaying we could still be friends? But it really felt like I was bothering you so much and then you just disappeared. And I knew that you were going through a rough time and that you would be hurting by yourself and I was so worried about you. ;;

After you left I wasn't really sure I wanted to carry on roleplaying. I mean Luhan dated once after but that relationship ended badly. The Hyosung at that time was having trouble and after about a year of talking ooc together me and her mundecided that to save each other from being hurt further from all these rp relationships that we would just put our muses in a relationship and that way we had that line between ic and ooc and we could plan things together as just good friends (hyo's mun is one of my best friends now). All that you see Luhan and Hyoseong like now is really just a plan we've created for them just for some fun.

Anyway! Don't decide on your own whether I care or not! I care about a lot of things I just find it really difficult to express it, and really it is something that I felt bad about when I looked back. That I wasn't able to talk to you again even though I wanted to sort it out. ;n; But I'm glad you did or that you care enough to check back on me. That's so nice<3

Ah yea- we just debuted recently under the Woollim entertainment. ( ` smiles ) I'm actually a fan of you, Luhan sunbae. You are really handsome and manly.