Moved !

 of course she noticed. why wouldn’t she? it was foolish for  him to have thought otherwise. with his gem in plain sight,  she would have found eventually. he sighs, which transitions  into a yelp, as he feels a grip tugging at his sleeve. noting  how skeptical eyes laid on his gem, he uses his free hand  to conceal it from sight. “It’s– it’s nothing. I just over  exerted my gem, is all.”

 his tone was firm, despite knowing that it would do so little  to brush the problem aside. god, this was so troublesome.  he just wanted to get this mission over with.

“I just…look - when we get back, I’ll explain everything to them  myself, alright? I’ll be sure you won’t take the blame, so don’t  be so paranoid.” he’s certain that this was the case of worry. if  any harm was to come to him, his escort would surly face the  consequences of it back at homeworld, so he couldn’t  necessarily put her at fault for becoming so uneasy.

                                          ❝   No.  .  .  .   ❞

     Her voice was breathless, sheer dismay glossing her audio. her heart DROPPED, her mind fuzzed. concern laced her every fiber----becoming evident as she YANKED his hand away from his gem.

                       ❝   Nonononono-----Black Star---n--no wait--!        ❞

     Her voice quivered, she stammered. she was in distraught.

            ❝   I don’t care about what homeworld thinks---!! you could DIE---!!!             W---we.  .  . we need to--to find something---anything that can heal you             ----you could DISFORM a--a-and never come back---I need.  .  . I -----                                             I need to find.  .  .   ❞

     She stumbles, pulling him along blindly. desperation was the word to describe her. she could not imagine a world without Black Star, of how dull and grey it would be. the world would become her, monotone, gross, disgusting, plain, bland and so ordinary. she couldn’t be the reason that he died. she’d rather soon DESTROY HERSELF before that happened. what to do.  . ? what to do--

“ — !! ” taken aback by the gem’s bold and fearless protest,   eyes were drawn onto her locked stare. it wasn’t necessarily   intimidating, but rather, it was startling. his escort, who was   ever so obedient, was now sputtering with such will power   unlike anything seen before. for a moment, he doubted if this   was even the same gem he had previously grown accustomed   to years ago.

  easing into a state of silence, he fought the urge to look away   –  to look away from those rebellious, almost unfamiliar eyes.   and yet he begins to drift to the side; finding it to be unbearable,   until they sprung back to the center moments after she had   begun to speak of trust.

  black star could feel his chords snap; allowing pure fury to   encompass any remaining restraint he had left, before leaping   forward to loom spitefully over the smaller. “You…you – don’t   toy with me !! I was the one who trusted you! and then…and   then you just left me – you left me by myself! and for what !?   so you could rebel like all those other diospides !? so you   could betray me ?!”

                    ❝   Black Star.  .  .     ❞ 

     Her voice eases away, it’s harsh tone fading. her usual, soft, caring, voice returned; her eyes soon returning to the same state. SOFTER, more charismatic. but she didn’t move. as the monument towered over her, she merely looked up. a soft sigh left her, a small breeze rolled through the area. as if she could control the atmosphere about her----as if she could twist the weeping willow’s and their tears.

              ❝   Just because I trust you doesn’t mean you couldn’t                    have trusted me. we trusted each other. and.  .  . I’m                    sorry that it’s been broken on your half. ----------but I                    COULD NOT allow  y o u   to get hurt-----by any means        ❞

     It was her turn to turn her attention away in shame. the small, fearless, gem couldn’t bare to hear the betrayal in his voice.  .  . it caused a PANG in her chest; causing her knees to feel weak. yet, as the feeling passed, she straightened up, a new look in her eyes. determination, the want to CONVEY her complicated emotions.

             ❝   You were the  one good thing  on Homeworld.   .   .   .                   and I couldn’t dare be the one to let harm of any kind                   befall upon you, I couldn’t be the one to let the one                               good gem get hurt. I couldn’t.       ❞

     She repeated: that she couldn’t.            The one good thing.                 She couldn’t                        The one good thing.

   she wanted him to know what she truly felt. what she knew

                             ❝   Black star likes kisses--   ❞

     She tilts her head; curious. Scared? a little. 

💎 [Gem]: Where do your gem’s loyalties lie?

This is a tricky question, because, primarily her loyalty lies in the Diamond Authority—–or so it seems. Her nature is to follow orders from her superior, and because of that, she gains a sickly bond to whomever that is. Even if they’re cruel to her. Her true loyalty lies within those gems that she serves directly. And if they are taken from her, or if they are proven ( to her standards ) , that they are untrustworthy; she will find herself. And soon find the loyalty of her own mind and thoughts.

💗 [Heart]: What does your gem like about themselves?

 “Well I’m fine, alright? there’s no use in worrying. we have   more important matters to be concerned about.” his tone   was bitter, as usual, thought there was a bit more haste to   it, as he intentionally attempts to move from the focus at   hand. seeing as the gem discarded her worries, he as well   blows himself a sigh of, what seems to be, relief.

  that feeling was only momentarily, however, as he feels a   prick over towards the side. it didn’t take much to notice that   his arm had glitched out. although only for a second, that   gave plenty of time his escort to take notice as well. though   perhaps that wasn’t the case, in which black star keeps   his gaze ahead; straightening himself so as not to look   too unusual.

                                           ❝   ?   ❞

     Keen eyes instantly flickered down to the glitching of his arm. her body moved foreward, arms reaching out. without hesitation, without any pause, she grabbed that arm. butterflies fluttered from her stomach, to her head. and further; they ruptured from her skin, causing her skin to peel from worry.

                        ❝   Black Star, what happened.        ❞

     From whispered sorrys and mumbled apologizes to a DEMANDING tone. her meek voice was gone, her tone changed to such a harsh one. one that didn’t belong.

             ❝   Why are you.  .  .  .       ❞

 was that it? that was her excuse? lips brushing against  each other restlessly, the gem wasn’t sure whether to  yell or laugh – he wasn’t sure what to feel.  “…hah.”  a measly chuckle. it was meant to be voiced with scorn,  but yet all that came was the pathetic cracking of his voice.

“What…what made you thinking I was coming back?  No one was coming back. we left – everyone left.  we  abandoned this place. so why would you..?” he had to  refrain from finishing, for he could feel his anger rising  to the surface once more. “you’re…you’re really  PATHETIC, you know that?”

                     ❝   No. I’m not.     ❞

  She was FIRM in her answer. She wasn’t meek, or scared, or even averting her eyes. She stared at him as if he was equal to her; a crime on Homeland.

               ❝   Tell me, Black Star. What should I have done?        enlighten me with your thoughts. A Diopside cannot use the        warp pad by themselves, we’ll be SHATTERED. so, tell me              what should I have DONE !? tell me Black Star       ❞

     Her voice bellowed out, stronger than ever; she held no fear. And she held no remorse.

░ ☹ ░ - “ I….dont know?”

    Again, Topaz had little answers for what the other gem was asking. Her time on home world was small—only the span of a few years—and the memories of that time were lost completely. Even with the other gem’s explanation of the diamonds, the tiny blue gem had little mental footholds to go off of. All she knew was that the Black Star’s ramblings were a bit….odd…in her eyes. The idea of her life revolving around another set of gems was a foriegn concept.

          Besides, all her life revolved around for the moment was music.

  Still, there was a part of her that felt kind of bad for not being able to answer the other’s questions. It wasn’t like she could lie about how she was made either—because she had no clue. That information along with many similar kinds that other gem’s had inquired about were unreachable to the healing gem. This routine got kind of repetitive too, which was frustrating at times.

          She did have to give credit where it was due though. Without meeting some of the gems she was acquainted with now, she wouldn’t have even figured out that she had powers at all—or learned anything about fusion.

                “ Sorry I can’t really answer your questions or anything.

                        I don’t know a lot I guess.”

                    ❝   That is okay, Topaz. I can help explain.   ❞

    Excitement dotted her voice. She seemed happy to explore her knowledge, her FINALLY having a purpose. finally more than a mule for Homeworld’s needs. but where to start.  .  . ? She pauses, and sputters for only just a moment, before rocking on her heels gently.

           ❝   Gems, originally, were made upon Homeworld, before we went to          other worlds to gather resources to make other Gems. these places we          create are called Kindergartens, but sometimes Gems are left behind.            sometimes they don’t make it, and sometimes they become runts.                 ❞

    Her overwhelming excitement bubbled over, like a pot. her hands, and arms, gestured rapidly, and quickly. a small, beautiful, smile had been plastered on her face as she continued to explain. she was so happy !