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⚠︎ This blog contains mostly vents and sadposting. iwc!

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ⓘ call us starry on here

ⓘ personal / vent blog

ⓘ all pronouns!! please mix them up

ⓘ traumagenic sys

ⓘ bodily a minor

ⓘ no dni, but we block freely ^_^

#jirai #jiraiblr #ghhh i dont feel like tagging this. go my poast

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#𑣲𝘷𝘰𝘹 𝘱𝘰𝘱𝘶𝘭𝘪 : 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦'𝘴 𝘷𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘦 !

coolhumanoidbeing

Shout out to people with Complex Dissociative Disorders (parents edition):

If your parents genuinely changed and improved overtime

If your parents were absent when you were a kid because they were sick / ill / working / otherwise indisposed

If your parents were not your abusers

If your parents would have acted differently if they knew you were being abused

If your parents didn't have the resources or knowledge to help / understand you

If your parents were loving and yet still neglectful

If your parents inadvertently invalidated / didn't believe you, but now do

If your parents weren't your primary caregivers when the abuse happend

If you weren't abused at all and your trauma was medical / environmental / etc

Had emotionally and physically present parents but you still had disorganized attachment with them as a kid because of your delusions / paranoia / etc.

If your parents regret how they treated you

If your parents loved and love you but acted the way they did because of substances / mental illness

If your parents are not completely bad people, or bad people at all

If you still get along with your parents regardless of what they did

If you ever invalidated your own traumatic childhood experiences because your parents were "too nice"

Your trauma is not less valid if you get along with your parents today. Sure, you needed disorganized attachment to your primary caregivers as a kid to develop a CDD. But that can take plenty of formes, and they don't all include your parents being monsters.

Edit: any other emotions regarding your parents are also valid and okay, and I couldn't mean that more. Childhood trauma survivors go through so many rough emotions, and self-invalidation is sadly way too common. Your feelings are a direct result of what happened and that makes them normal.

#saving

also i have had a lot of things to vent about recently i just kinda forgot about this blog. ithink one was like the Main user and now she just doesnt really front anymore. anyways yeah i was gonna stop being avoidant by my partner's birthday and then i wasnt and i missed it and i feel so so bad and now it's even scarier to message them again oh god.. it's been Months of hashtag ghosting. ohhh im so cooked. if uou're seeing this im so so so sorry i'm working on late birthday presents rn slash genuine and i'll be back as soon as i finish them i know i fucked up really really badly im so sorry

#𑣲𝘰𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘪 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘶𝘱 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 ...

was thinking about opening comms & then i checked tumblr 2 an art request ,,, This Is A Sign

#𑣲𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘰𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘰𝘸 !#<-i like never use that tag omga it wasnt even a recommended tag when i tried to find it lol

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just posting to save

#i'll show my therapist probably idk

freakoutgirl

how it feels to accept you're fucked forever

#𑣲𝘷𝘰𝘹 𝘱𝘰𝘱𝘶𝘭𝘪 : 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦'𝘴 𝘷𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘦 !

gumi-megpoidd

girl who begs for attention but the second she receives any she gets scared

#𑣲𝘷𝘰𝘹 𝘱𝘰𝘱𝘶𝘭𝘪 : 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦'𝘴 𝘷𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘦 !#100 reblogs in spirit #<-barely even in spirit i reblogged it like 15 times on main

armydr34m3r-deactivated07-20-26

i feel like we tend to over exaggerate. nothing that happens to us is that bad. we’re just so fucking dramatic

#𑣲𝘷𝘰𝘹 𝘱𝘰𝘱𝘶𝘭𝘪 : 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦'𝘴 𝘷𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘦 !#100 reblogs in spirit

armydr34m3r-deactivated07-20-26

me after posting and wanting attention: holy fuck. nobody look at me or read my post or like it or reply or reblog or do anything. i will throw up and start crying. nobody even LOOK at me or i will bawl my eyes out right now LEAVE ME ALONE WAHH

#if uu don't want me interacting rn this i can delete my rb ^^ /gen #100 reblogs in spirit #𑣲𝘷𝘰𝘹 𝘱𝘰𝘱𝘶𝘭𝘪 : 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦'𝘴 𝘷𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘦 !

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avpdculture

Avpd culture is being so convinced in your own self inadequacy that you doubt everything bad that happens to you. Are you really experiencing abuse, or are you just pretending you are just so you can pity your useless self and blame your troubles on somebody that's just trying their best? Are you really being isolated, or are they just not talking to you because your actions made them think YOU don't want them to talk to you? Do you even have avpd, or are you just seeking attention and excuses for you being too lazy to actually fix anything?

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#𑣲𝘷𝘰𝘹 𝘱𝘰𝘱𝘶𝘭𝘪 : 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦'𝘴 𝘷𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘦 !

avpdculture

Avpd culture is alternating between yearning for connection because you hate feeling lonely and feeling disgusted by connection because you are used to being alone

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#100 reblogs in spirit #𑣲𝘷𝘰𝘹 𝘱𝘰𝘱𝘶𝘭𝘪 : 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦'𝘴 𝘷𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘦 !

avpdculture

Avpd culture is hating friend hangouts because you end up feeling more isolated and empty once you return home

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#𑣲𝘷𝘰𝘹 𝘱𝘰𝘱𝘶𝘭𝘪 : 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦'𝘴 𝘷𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘦 !

avpdculture

AVPD culture is wishing that you could be a hermit so you never had to worry about being embarrassing.

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#𑣲𝘷𝘰𝘹 𝘱𝘰𝘱𝘶𝘭𝘪 : 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦'𝘴 𝘷𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘦 !

avpdculture

avpd culture is being terrified by the idea that someone might depend/rely on you even just a little bit

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#𑣲𝘷𝘰𝘹 𝘱𝘰𝘱𝘶𝘭𝘪 : 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦'𝘴 𝘷𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘦 !

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avpdculture

avpd culture is being so so jealous of fictional characters.

like, i'm currently watching a series where one character is really awkward and shy, but she still makes friends at her academy after a few days. because other people are like "aww, she seems so sweet and soft and scared - i wanna help her settle in, and get to know her."

meanwhile when i'm acting like that - hell, even when i'm trying not to act like that - people at my university just don't give a fuck. like they don't even see me. they're wrapped up in their own business, their own friend groups, and don't even bother looking at the person sitting alone.

how come fictional characters get tight-knit friend groups where they're accepted and supported for who they are, while i only get struggling to have any conversations and still being alone?

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#𑣲𝘷𝘰𝘹 𝘱𝘰𝘱𝘶𝘭𝘪 : 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦'𝘴 𝘷𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘦 !

avpdculture

AvPD is no matter where I am and who I am with, I’ll always feel a deep sense of rejection steeping through ever interaction I have with the world.

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#𑣲𝘷𝘰𝘹 𝘱𝘰𝘱𝘶𝘭𝘪 : 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦'𝘴 𝘷𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘦 !

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