Sirius Starseed

Kinda bullshit I have to just live the rest of my life without you while you’re still here and alive lol I think about it every day and it just trips me completely out. Bout to turn 30 without you? Became licensed without you. Did all this dumb shit and good shit but all without you. Some of the hardest times of my life because it was all without you. I’ve been all alone this whoooole time just somehow making it by. Yah, just not as good. Nothing is. Doesn’t matter what I surround myself with, it’s always gunna be there. And I just go on and on and on.

Now I get to go through my day exhausted because I could not stop watching rock hyrax videos and talking to ppl about it until almost 3am like idk who tf I think I am lately

The whole time I was watching that memorial I swore like three different times he was really going to come on stage and be alive again somehow. Like I really thought and hoped it was all just an elaborate joke or fucking performance art. I was thinking things like.. there’s three coffins of his characters and they weren’t centered on the stage. I thought they were gunna roll a fourth coffin out and boom he was going to pop out alive after they rolled him on stage. I am in the denial stage still obviously lol.