but that was yesterday

today is here and she said

it’s gonna be alright

just one bite at a time

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Playing pretend?

Is there merit in the berry on her right foot?

Will her worth make a guest appearance?

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Where did I go? Am I still here?

Why won’t she cry?

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the relief

the calm

the peace

—

more to come remember how strong you were

remember you’re worth it

The second day, gun in pocket.

Phone plans.

My home was next.

Something cold against my back,

it’s dark just entering: if you tell anyone, I’ll kill you.

Grabbing my face, smacking my face: you’re fucked I’ll kill you if you leave.

Sweet to get my money,

Spoke like a demon in garbled tongue

After / the bed, the bathroom, the kitchen

Dangling sex over my head, like I wanted it

Old versions spilling out and up - play the part

Survive. Don’t kill my cat when I leave.

Please don’t kill my cat when I leave.

I’ll come back I swear.

Waited 3 to report.

DNA at my house,

his shit on my sock.

The humiliation

The relief

The fear

3 of them, with badges: tell us this

Timeline it. But you can’t. I can’t.

It’s blurred between the blood bw my knees

It’s floating just out of reach.

Disassociate.

It fades by like burnt worms

dried from the sun

it’s just a carcass now.