rina 🎀🍵 ࿔

got high for the first time last night and i now understand why he has such a hard time spelling and writing full sentences. i felt like an orangutan that was just given a keyboard who was then told to recite the entire declaration of independence in pig latin

i actually need to die right now

i will never judge someone for anything unless they are a pedophile or something because i’m actually kinda mid in all aspects of modern life

does my current self even deserve love

i want to leave this country

doing a lot of thinking lately

me when i realize that ive never actually actualized my cool awesome ideas out of fear that i wont be able to communicate the mood and my intentions for creating whatever it is i want to make because i believed i lacked the technical skills and didn’t want to discourage myself from creating before i even started and now LACK the necessary technical skills and confidence to create anything because i think it’ll be bad for somebody who is supposed to have more experience in this field because it’s literally my dream to create and pour my time into giving my thoughts a corporeal form and am now deeply ashamed of myself because i have nothing physical to prove to myself and others that i actually like creating and and trapped in an endless loop

everytime i get a bad haircut my face card becomes exponentially more powerful

my intentions are pure and virtuous and that is what sets me apart

old habits die hard because why am back to only having one small meal a day and no snacks and self isolating again…. i’m going to college in like 2 weeks and this is my only coping mechanism LOL

forgive me father for i have sinned (ate half of a crumbl cookie today)