Squadbuddy

What we have is a problem with people not respecting each other.

It consists largely of “oh yeah, we don’t do that”

I deserve better than I got. I love her more than she loved me. Our separate directions are the way we needed to go. It sucks. It hurts. I feel like my soul has been ripped from my body. I want so much to wake up and realize this is a dream. My stress level is through the roof. I don't know what to think right now.

I didn't stutter

Seriously. I do. Everything about her. The way she smiles. The way she laughs. The way she looks at me. The way she smells. How she brightens my mood and doesn't try.

The only way I could be more frustrated right now is if that bitch came into my life again.

Today I was asked to be dishonest. It's over something someone will get in trouble for. The person asking was trying to cover themselves. It could backfire and get me in trouble. I'm covering my tracks. Still, it makes me dislike people when this stuff happens.

Lie to me. (Sorry, can't vent elsewhere)

I didn't talk to you today because I don't know what to say. You scare me, then we get along, then you get mad at me, then we get along, then we don't talk, then things get weird, then things are ok, then they're good, then they're great, then we start over. I need to know what you're doing.

And smiled.

I'm feeling good.

In Paradise and I'm miserable.

I lost my best friend, and have no clue how or why.

I would hate to see what would come out of me today. My thoughts are everywhere.