So, I’ve realized that I would probably be like %1000 more productive and happy right now if I had never gotten into this roleplaying in this fandom. Like, even though I’ve barely been posting for the past week or something like that, I still spend way too much time on here, mostly waiting for things that aren’t going to happen. It’s just super not productive and pointless and deters me from doing the things I actually need to do.
For instance, I have a shit ton of homework to do, but I’m here right now writing this stupid post.
Anyway, I guess the point that I’m trying, and probably failing, to make here is that I need to stop doing this. And I don’t mean just limit how often I’m online or go on hiatus so I can focus on my classes. I need to stop. Honestly, the past week or so is the least active I’ve been on here in like five years, and despite all the deadlines coming up for school, it’s been one of the best weeks of my life. I went outside, hung out with friends, and stopped obsessing over my stupid rping blog. I was happy.
I’m not going to delete my blog. These characters, and all of you people who wrote with me, are a big part of my life, and I don’t want that to just disappear. I mean, it’s been years, and I would consider a lot of you my friends, even if you don’t think of me as one. Anyone who wants to keep in touch with me through discord or wherever is more than welcome to, but I won’t be roleplaying anymore.
For all intents and purposes, my OC’s are dead.
And it’s not that I wasn’t enjoying myself. I was. I really loved rping more than most things, and I love Wreck it Ralph and everything. It’s just...I think I made it more important than it really was. Whether or not people kept replying to my threads or whether or not people decided to reblog my pictures rather than just liking them was part of how I measured my value as a person. And I just don’t need all the negativity that I was putting on myself.
Besides, I’ve started to realize that this...just doesn’t suit me anymore. The stories to be told about my characters are ones I don’t care to tell any longer.
So, as I’m sure you can guess by now, I’m leaving this blog. I’m probably not leaving tumblr entirely, but I’m done obsessing over this fandom. Maybe I’ll start a new blog completely dedicated to my own writing or something. I don’t know. All I know is that this doesn’t work for me, and I’ve ignored that fact for far too long.
It’s time for it to stop.
So, to everyone who’s rped with me, thanks. It’s been fun.
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