he / ghost .

basically, my mother still has access to my bank account (and my brothers too) because it’s USAA and easier in the long run. she transferred the entirety of my paycheck that i just got ($234) because she claims i still owe her and it was long overdue. because she has legal access, there’s nothing i can do unless she willingly gives it back. ive cut her off now but she’s left me with literally $11 in my account. that has to last me through the next week.

Ya’ll don’t know what it is. Now You Known. This Is Nigga Commisions. This is Niggas R Us. Have you ever wanted a token black friend? You crave being called a nigga affectionately?

Now, There Is One (1) Nigga In Need I Care About. Uncle Father Cousin Brother Ruckus.  If you , Yes You , Bless You , Reading this , Donates to him. I Fuck With You. If you donate.

And If You Do Donate , Ooh. Imma Ride Fo you Nigga. Now I know that’s not always enough. I get it. I respect it. I understand. See , Me and You? We’re Vibing. I get you. I love you. Listen. Don’t sweat it. I got yous. You want a graphic? A new promo? A PSD? I said I got yous. You wanna be gassed up? You wanna watch anime together? You want an invite to the cookout? I got yous. DONATE TO RUCKUS , AND I GOT YOUS. Gimme proof of payment and lemme know what you in the need for nigga. I love you. Just do it. Just donate aight.

You want to write together? You want a ship? You want threads on threads on threads? I got you. just 1-800-DONATE-TO-MY-MANS-RUCKUS. And you got it , with proof of payment. 

as we already know from the other posts, i’m being kicked out of my home within the next week. we’re gonna try and see if we can, at least, remain through the month. but either way, i’m on crunch mode trying to figure out my next step.

i’ve stumbled across a great leasing company that has a potential place that i might be able to snatch up. it’s super easy and simple. the best part about them is that they don’t care where money comes from. since i lost my job, my last two paychecks wouldn’t look like enough to most leasing agencies. but they are ONLY asking for $400 dollars up front. comparatively, that is NOTHING. 

as i am still waiting for my gig money, which might not show up for another two weeks, i’m hoping that i could get some help here. i really don’t want to miss this opportunity and this could literally be a life saver for me.

again, thank you for all of the help. i’ve been so grateful for everything. as i’ve said, if you cannot donate, because i know how tight funds can be, please consider reblogging. the reach can be immense and there might be someone who can help in someone else’s follower list. so, from the bottom of my heart, please assist if you can. it means more than you think.

P.S. i know paypal can be messy… i also have cashapp, googlepay, and venmo if those are better. my inbox/message is open if that’s easier for you. <3

anyway, there are some people that really need help out there – but i’m particularly making this post in hopes that you will DONATE TO UNCLE RUCKAS ( direct paypal link ) . he really needs the money – honestly he’ll ( a black boi ) be homeless otherwise. i can do pretty much anything with graphic and theme work. if you send me proof of donation, i got you my humble nwords. 

not only is the third roommate (andrew) moving out next week, but the roommate (austin) whose lease i technically took over is also officially not renewing his part of the lease. if it wasn’t known, i am not on the lease. when i applied, i was denied for bullshit reasons. but austin was needing to move out regardless, so he got his own place but stayed on the previous lease because if he broke it prematurely, it would cause a lot of issues. i took over on his part of the rent payments and moved in. we, meaning my boyfriend and i, were under the assumption that life would go on as it did. we did not know that austin was planning on not renewing his part and that andrew was moving out this month.

what this officially means? i’m basically screwed and have to move out & find somewhere else. i currently do not have a job that’s considered stable and i don’t have paychecks to prove anything to someone, so i’m quite literally fucked. because of austin’s decision of ‘moving out’, i have to fucking move out as well because they have to do a walk through of the place to make sure it’s all up to their standards and whatever else the fuck they need to do.

i’m scared. i can’t move back in with my parents. it’s just not a possibility. i literally have nowhere to go and i’m fucked. i don’t know what i’m going to do and it pisses me off because this was NOT my goddamn plan. no one fucking told us anything and i basically have a week to figure all of this out. on top of that, my phone bill is about to be due and i don’t have the funds for that because i’m trying to figure out my housing situation so not only do i not have a home, i don’t have a way of contacting anyone too.

ON TOP OF ALL OF THAT, i’m literally starting tech week for the musical i’m in and it, quite literally, is the hardest and most stressful part of any production.

i don’t know what to do. i literally have no clue what to do. i have to talk to my boyfriend to see what his plans are because it’s all screwing him over too. he’s either gonna have to find two roommates by himself or he has to leave too. it fucking sucks.

i don’t know what good this will do. you guys have helped me through a lot and i feel shitty even for coming here so desperate like this. it hurts and i’m just… i’m spent. i don’t know what to do next. i really don’t know.

idk, here’s my paypal and my ko-fi. i also have venmo (@omiijstubbs), cashapp ($omdejo), & google pay ([email protected]). i am not expecting shit from all of the help you guys have already been… but i have nowhere to turn and i’m feeling defeated. 

if you can be a blessing, then please do. if you can’t & 100% understand, please please please just reblog it. it’s all i can ask for.

if you can, these are some of my links to help: -      -  paypal   /   ko-fi .

SORRY BUT LITERALLY JUST GOT THIS EMAIL. OFFICIALLY IN PANIC MODE AND I WASNT BEFORE. WE’RE PROBABLY GONNA HAVE TO COVER HIS PART OF APRIL WHAT THE FUCK.

i lost my job throughout the bullshit that happened with the withholding of checks. my landlord is claiming that march’s rent never got paid and when i tried to explain to him that it did, he’s claiming that the money we sent for march was actually for february since february never got paid. which is a huge fucking issues because we DEFINITELY DID pay february & now i’m concerned that my roommate never sent in our portion of payments. which means 1. he probably stole our money & 2. i now have to come up with $475 extra dollars that i DO NOT fucking have.

on top of that, i was selling my hamilton tickets because i couldn’t go to the dates that i had and the theatre isn’t letting us change said dates unfortunately. so i figured i’d sell the pair i had and use that toward rent and everything else that is necessary. i just got a fucking email saying my order was cancelled because it never got sent, even though it did. i apparently made the mistake of putting the tickets into a USPS mailbox and not a UPS mailbox. but i did ‘send’ the tickets before the buyer cancelled them literally this morning so i thought i wouldn’t have to cover anything since it ‘wasn’t my fault’. nope. just got off the phone with stubhub and i still have to pay the $316 late fee that goes with that. ON TOP OF THAT, i don’t even have my tickets back yet so i’m a sitting duck that needs to come up with $791 dollars plus if i don’t recover my tickets, that’s another $711 that i just fucking lost. my landlord is threatening legal action, which means either a collections agency, eviction, or both.

i’m already negative in my bank account and i…. i can’t handle this, guys. i’m tired of fighting and failing. i’m tired of fucking shit up and i’m tired of having to ask for anything but please… please help. my family is shit and can’t do a damn thing. i have no food, no gas money, nothing for basic shit in my fucked up life. my boyfriend has his own problems to worry about but he is affected by this and it hurts me that i’m putting him in a situation like this. my roommate is about to get his everlasting ass beat. i’m just hopeless. i don’t know where i’m gonna get over $1000 dollars from. i just don’t.

please. reblog if you can’t do anything. i’m not expecting much because that would be rude of me to think that people would cover something like this. i’m tired. i’m so fucking tired. and i’m asking for your help. 

if you can spare anything, i will do whatever i can pay you back.

from the bottom of my heart, thank you guys for everything. you don’t know how much even just being here means to me.

with the release of the new black panther movie, we all know there will be an influx of characters created. specifically those from wakanda such as t’challa, shuri, nakia, okoye, and others. now, no one can ever say ‘do not roleplay this character’. no one can physically reach through your laptop & prevent you from playing someone. all we ask, as a black community, are three simple things. these shall be referred to as the 3Rs.

R1  /  RESPECT :  respect who you are about to play and/or already playing. respect. respect the culture. respect the character. respect what it means to play them & who they are as symbols & icons for the black community.

R2  /  RESEARCH : research anything & everything involving your character. understand the differences between african cultures & how they apply to your character. specifically for the MCU, they state that the wakanda of today is somewhat of an amalgamation of what africa is as a whole. however, that does not mean speak swahili in one breath & then speak xhosa in the next. be mindful & careful, most importantly.

R3  /  REALIZE : realize that, honestly & truthfully, these characters are not & never will be meant for you. realize that we, as black people, have a strong connection to these characters; those from black panther in particular because they are from our motherland. realize that if a black person asks you a question, it is not to demean you or ‘call you out’. it’s because we love and care about them & want them handled with the respect they deserve. do not take offense when a black person shows a concern. nine times out of ten, it’s for good reason. most importantly, realize that there is literally the entirety of marvel’s encyclopedia at your feet when it comes to picking a character to play. so when you go for the very few african selections, know that yes… we may question the choice, but ultimately we just wanted them played correctly & the way they deserve to be played.

bonus. i will make this as bluntly as i can. 

you do not get cool points for being a white person playing an african character. 

you don’t get a congratulatory certificate or a standing ovation. you don’t get to be proud of that fact alone. be honored that you are writing someone who means so much to the black community and be humble. that’s all we ask. 

i just want this to be clear. again, as stated above, no one is holding a weapon to you and telling you not to do something. we’re just asking that you be careful, be mindful, be respectful, and be aware. we want the best for them. that’s all.