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He's getting railed by closeted frat guys who can never look him in the eyes when they come, who get dressed faster than the speed of light when they're done, and then leave him alone in the small dorm beds, all for some quick cash. He doesn't think it's that bad, as long as Jess doesn't find out.

Plus, it pays pretty well. There are a lot of "straight" dudes out there willing to empty their wallets for a night with the cute law student.

But rumors spread fast around campus, and when a video gets posted on some site of Sam getting fucked from both ends, moaning and whimpering like a girl, his social life collapses.

Jess dumps him, his grades begin slipping, and all his friends start talking behind his back, acting like they're immature teenagers still in high school.

But the worst part is something Sam doesn't even know of yet.

In the middle of nowhere, in some dark and moldy motel room, Dean is sat in his bed staring at his computer screen.

He's watching his baby brother, his Sammy, getting destroyed by some random dudes.

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Dean doesn’t mean to actually come out and ask it.

“Do you like me?”

The question had been bubbling and brewing in Dean’s skull since they left town. It had left his head aching like the excoriations on his forearm left by his own fingernails. The dark car and long road had only given him time to stew.

Sam doesn’t even look up from his book.

“No,” he says. “You’re an asshole.”

Dean takes it on the chin. He nods, slowly, swallowing heavily. Yeah, he thinks, that’s fair.

It hurts like a sonovabitch, but yeah. That’s fair.

Thank you! 🥰

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Let me tell you, as someone who loves books and fan fiction, there is nothing better than taking a digital story and creating a physical copy of it that you can hold in your hands and keep on your bookshelf.

Hot AUgust Nights is a gooo!

The rules are similar to last year, though I've added one:

Don't be an asshole.

Your work must feature an alternate universe (AU). Yes, canon divergence counts as an AU for the purposes of this fest.

Do not use generative AI.

It's simply too hot to be more restrictive than that.

Fill as many or as few prompts as you like, in whichever order you like.

Interpret the prompts how you like.

Ship who you like, or ship no one at all.

Cross over with another fandom if you like, as long as at least one SPN character or actor is the main focus of your work. (Yes, SPN RPF is welcome here too!)

Make it as spicy as you like. Just, y'know, keep in mind Tumblr's rules, and tag accordingly if you post on AO3.

Post where you like, any time between now and the end of August. (But let's be real, if you tag me in September, I'm still gonna reblog you. Like I said, rules are for cooler weather!)

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Take their childhood, Sam has a right to mourn the fact that he didn't get a normal childhood. He's allowed to be angry that he didn't get a home, a present father, a stable community, and consistent education. But whenever Sam attempts to express his complicated feelings about his childhood, Dean immediately interprets it as ' oh I was supposed to look out for you. Are you saying I failed? Are you confirming I'm worthless?' which grinds the conversation to a complete halt. Because of Dean's intense self-criticism, Sam can never really be 100% honest with him or ask for support with his own issues, especially regarding their childhood. As anything outside of 100% gratitude just becomes another stick for Dean to beat himself with, and the conversation is immediately derailed.

Not only does Deans self-hatred mean that Sam's expression of his own experiences are pretty consistently shut down. In some ways, I think Dean strips Sam of his autonomy - he's so self-loathing, he sees every decision Sam makes as being about/a reaction to him. A good example of this is Stanford. Rather than understanding Stanford for what it was, an attempt by Sam to carve out a better life from himself and escape hunting. Dean views it as betrayal or abandonment, some re-affirmation of his own belief that he's not worth caring about. Rather than understanding it's a rejection of hunting, he sees it as Sam rejecting him. To Dean, Sam isn't attempting to find a better life, he's punishing the family.

My message is pretty simple - Thank you.

Thank you for bringing my favourite character Sam Winchester to life. 

Thank you for your seemingly endless kindness and empathy.

Thank you for being a safe space.

Thank you for sharing so much of yourself with us.

Thank you for being a genuine queer ally.

Thank you for actively continuing to learn about others & the world, and championing others to do the same.

Thank you for ensuring the media you produce is inclusive both in front of and behind the camera.

Thank you for encouraging love, acceptance and conversation.

Thank you for being a good male role model.

Thank you for being open about the fact you’re human and fallible.

Thank you for using your platform for good and to raise awareness.

Thank you for showing that you can do all of the above and still encourage fun & silliness.

S02 E17 - "Heart"

First Werewolf case on the show..

I fear this episode might not be as memorable for the fandom on the grand scheme of things, but I'm hoping to god I'm wrong. It shows so much about both Sam and Dean's characters.

Sam's situation quite obviously mirrors Madison's; she is a good person who becomes a monster despite her own wishes. She doesn't want to hurt and doesn't want to kill, yet has no way of stopping herself. And it reflects Sam's fears about himself by a 100%.

It doesn't escape me that when Sam is trying to comfort Madison he repeats a lot of the things Dean has said to him. "We'll find a way", "I will save you".

Which is all levels of heartbreaking.

When Sam breaks down crying at the end of the episode there's so many emotions at play. There's grief for Madison and for himself, anger at his own powerlessness and I think under all of it, a lot of fear.

All of this time, both Sam and Dean have been holding on to this hope that they will be able to help Sam escape the demons plan. Yet this is the perfect example that sometimes there's no way out... No matter how much you want it.

I also think it speaks volumes that Sam decides to kill Madison himself. After all, he knows exactly what it means to ask someone to kill you.

At the end, when Sam is charging up to shoting her, there's a moment where he turns to look at Dean, and for a split second he genuinely looks so young and lost. It's the most heartbreaking thing I've seen so far.

And you just know he was looking at Dean to comfort himself, to allow himself a moment of weakness before soldering on.

I already knew Dean was Sam's safe space before this, but this pretty much solidifies it to me.

And Dean...

All during the conversation between Maddison and Sam Dean keeps looking at his brother, eyes tracking him. He notices the exact second it all becomes too much for Sam, and is there to take the reponsability off his hands immediately.

It's a level of familiarty I honestly wasn't expecting. Dean knew exactly when Sammy needed him... You just know it must've destroyed him to not be able to protect Sam from the situation.

By the time Sam leaves with the gun Dean is crying and when he hears the gunshot he flinches.

To me this scene is about fears.