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The softer side.

I’ve come to realize that working towards and/or maintaining a slimmer body is me identifying with the feminine side of myself. Not that I think slim = woman or that women only fit into a single body type (fuck every bit of that forever), but simply the female side of me is seen in the person I am when I’m physically active. I’ve spent decades physically and metaphorically being uncomfortable in my own skin, and I know the mental work is the most important work. But I also want to make sure to not neglect the other side of things. I want to be comfortable in my tiny shorts, and my swim briefs, and my tiny underwear, and wearing nothing at all.

These self portraits are some of my favorite I’ve ever captured. Confident yet out of focus. With warmth and intimacy. I love who I see and don’t see. All while still having so much work to do towards self acceptance. It’s so hard to be a physical, sensual, horny person with esteem and body issues. But putting myself in front of myself helps.

Happy Pride, everyone.