low energy frequency

I often feel weird sharing writing 'cause I use it to cope with a lot. Buuut I guess in the past that's how I made friends online 'cause a lot of people related, but also I don't want posting for validation [my own issues 😔] to drag me down like before.

So that's why I stopped posting. But I did make a side blog, its respawningparasite, lol let's not talk about the username but I set everything to not be rebloggable I guess it helps me feel more in control. I got a lot of issues guys. Highly don't recommend getting traumatized in life in so many ways.

Anyway, it's there if anyone wants to read. I guess it's my way of safely like sharing? Idk honestly. I just feel so vulnerable. A lot of real life happened that made me want to clam up so hard. But I'm working on things slowly through therapy lol

Anyway I can't follow back on that blog 'cause it's a side one but idk tbh idek why I'm writing this.

Just to be clear though, only my main story is sorta the way I cope. I have a few other side stories that are just dumb stories and some sad, but I don't relate in any way lol. I just like to write I guess.