Thoughts

Lowkey disappointed my boyfriend didn't plan anything for my birthday but it'll be just like every other year so it's whatever

Sometimes you wanna be happy but you just can't fake it no matter how hard you try. Hopefully I get better

I love my boyfriend and I'm almost sure he loves me but sometimes I feel so ignored, neglected, and not special. Idk if he does that or if it's just my constant need of attention that makes me feel that way.

Maybe I just won't see him for a week because it looks like he's getting bored of me. Maybe the time/distance will help

Spent roughly 9 hours at my boyfriends house today and did not get fucked once. I've obviously become unattractive to him

Note to self: never give you're all to anyone because you're actually annoying and clingy and no one really likes you

I love someone and I don't want to love anybody else. I cannot tell you how good it feels to be able to invest wholeheartedly in someone again. I have ignored my need to share myself fully and openly with someone and I'm doing just that. I love someone and I don't want to be with anyone else. I have missed this feeling.

SOS I've gone black and I'm not sure I can go back SOS

So drunk and so lonely and so horny. Wish the people at school paid attention to me.

Haven't been this ready to kill myself in a long time

I've got a chance at real life love with a guy who's thoughtful and sweet. My one complaint is his cockiness and his incessant need to talk all the time, but is that something I should try to fix? Maybe not fix but those are undesirable traits right? Idk I'm not sure if I like him bc of how much he likes me, or if I do really like him. But every time he looks at me my heart skips a beat and I miss him when he's not here and watching him sleep next to me was one of the most refreshing experiences I've had in so long. I think he might just be moving too fast for me to actually catch my breath

Life is boring and nothing is happening and I am blessed to even have a sex life. All casual but it's there at least.

Lmaoooo sorry that's all I've been posting about if anyone actually reads this, I just have nowhere else to express this frustration

On the plus side I was gonna put on some makeup for this guy but decided not to and he didn't come through so at least I didn't waste any :)

I guess someone coming over at 2am for a dick appointment two nights in a row is too much to ask for lmao