a part of me doesn’t want this to work out because I want to give this dead end a chance for a while longer and I also feel guilty about leaving in such a tight time and also I kind of wanted to hit 2 years and show that im not a bouncer and also maybe be able to take all the time off I want and just straight cruise ykno plus the discount not to mention prove that i understand analysis …. Like thats the only thing i want to prove like thats the last thing for me to be good at
BUT I DONT know what the future entails at this job and genuinely what am I really sticking around for other than the comfort and liberties, it’s not like I’ll get a promotion or make 15-20k more overnight here, they don’t operate that way and I don’t want to hold myself back for the sake of being comfortable
On the other hand, I really wish and hope this new role could give me the salary I want like I’ll be so disappointed to only make 5K more than I am right now to do MORE work and always be ON yes remote status, yes smart and respectable people, yes young people but I feel so inadequate and I feel like they’re gonna prove that right by giving me a shitty salary which feels like starting all over and that makes me sad
but I’ve gotta move on and I’ve gotta open up to the possibilities that I can get everything I want and everything I need
the discomfort of moving on is freaking me out, the reality of letting these people down is making me sad, the idea that the ai bubble will pop scares me and then what im tired of instability and im looking forward to proving to myself i am exactly who I know i am
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