𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐨𝐫 𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐝𝐚𝐥𝐚

            #   𝐒𝐎𝐔𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐏𝐄𝐀𝐂𝐄         .   independent  ,   highly   selective   &   mutuals    exclusive     padmé   amidala   naberrie     from   the   star    wars    universe    —    adored  by  r   .   (   twenty  -   six   ,    she   /   her    )  ;   oc   &   crossover    friendly   ;    always    open    to    plot   /   talk    -    inbox    is    always    open    for    mutuals   ;

     she  huffs  to  blow  a  loose  strand  of  hair  out  of  her  face  as  her  eyebrows  knit .    “  it  is  extremely  rude  to  assume  i’m  not  trying .  ”    she  searches  for  a  hint  on  his  face  that  would  tell  her  he’s  joking  as  she  assumed  he  was ,  but  she  chuckles  still .    “  not  all  of  us  have  force  aid ,  ani  ”   

     "  and  i  clearly  had  no  other  choice  but  to  improvise ,  it  would’ve  been  impossible  to  do  it  differently  ”    it  was  obvious  she’d  tried  to  make  it  work  obi - wan’s  way ,  but  once  the  droids  caught  her  there  was  no  turning  back .  would  it  have  brought  them  less  problems ?  less  steps  until  they  could  reach  their  goal ?  yes ,  but  running  from  the  droids  would’ve  meant  a  few  lives  wasted ,  and  she  couldn’t  let  that  happen .

     the  worry  in  his  face  and  voice  is  justified  and  she  offers  him  a  sweet  smile ,  but  the  worry  he  felt  was  the  same  she’s  had  to  endure  every time  he  went  on  a  mission  to  fight  the  separatists’  growing  control .  granted ,  she  was  no  jedi  nor  did  she  have  their  training ,  but  she’d  been  equally  trained  to  fight  and  face  this  kind  of  danger  since  she  was  little  too .    “  i  am  okay ,  it  would  taken  them  a  lot  more  to  kill  me ,  ani .  ”  she  cups  his  face  in  her  hands ,  hoping  his  gaze  would  soon  mirror  her  calm  one  too .    “  you  put  yourself  in  danger  all  the  time ,  how  do  you  think  i  feel ?  ”

     a  smile  brightens  her  features .    “  yes  we  do  indeed !  ”    abiona  would  always  be  one  of  her  favourite  people  in  naboo ,  padmé  was  sure  it  contributed  to  their  success  too .  “  i  couldn’t  have  made  it  without  your  help ,  thank  you .  ”

Concealing this secret from the Jedi was such a tremendous effort for the Knight, especially when he could barely keep his mind from wandering after Padme’s well-being or whereabouts whilst training. In fact, that very day he’d been scolded for his smirk – that of a lovestruck boy nearly – while listening to yet another lecture about his saber technique. Again he found himself in her arms, their lips touching home, and again he found himself wondering how such a thing could fester into darkness? Nothing felt more powerful than the love he had for Padme – nothing.

His own smile spread until his cheeks ached from the effort of maintaining it, yet the longer he gazed at his wife, the more he found he could not resist. “I did not intend to scare you. Not entirely.” He responded cheekily, laughing as he shook his head. “I was merely testing your…situational awareness.”

The fact that she referred to him as Master did not elude him and certainly boosted the Knight’s already brimming ego. “While I’m not a Master yet…it should only be a matter of time before I am. Still, if you wish to get ahead of yourself, by all means…” He gestured for her to continue doing so. “And if you were indecent, I would be too stunned to attack. Perhaps you could use this to your advantage and defeat me with those hairpins you’re so fond of…” He teased before brushing his thumb over her cheek and stealing another kiss. “I could hardly pay attention in my lessons today let alone clear my thoughts of you; Obi-Wan looked as though he was at a loss with me.”

     her  love  confession  came  with  the  idea  that  they  were  seconds  away  from  facing  death  back  in  that  battle  arena  in  geonosis ,  and  what  damage  could  it  have  caused  if  she  opened  her  heart  and  let  him  know  about  her  true  feelings  for  him ?  but  they  survive  and  love  remains  as  strong  as  it  was  at  that  moment ,  something  they  can’t  ignore  -  they  won’t  ignore .  the  idea  of  being  caught  has  crossed  his  mind  as  often  as  it  has  crossed  hers ,  padmé  was  sure ,  but  there  was  always  hope  that  they  could  keep  this  secret  marriage  away  from  the  jedi  council’s  attention ,  breaking  ancient  jedi  rules  with  crossed  fingers  hoping  that  it  could  last  forever .  

     his  excuse  warrants  a  faint  laugh  as  she  wrinkles  her  nose  for  a  second ,  his  smile  seemed  contagious .    “  testing  my  situational  awareness  with  jedi  tricks  seems  hardly  fair ,  i  am  no  expert  in  assassin  code  but  i  believe  it  requires  more  tact ”  she  teases  a  bit  more .

     “  from  everything  you’ve  told  me  i  believe  you  have  long  earned  the  right  for  that  title ..  besides ,  i’d  call  it  motivation .  ”    never  faltering ,  she  is  as  assertive  as  ever ,  after  all  he  should  know  his  worth  despite  the  jedi  protocol ,  she  believed .    “  that  sounds  very  effective ,  i  shall  use  it  if  i  ever  have  to  go  through  a  third  assassination  attempt .  ”    she  says  playfully  before  he  steals  a  kiss  from  her ,  the  long  wait  to  see  each  other  made  it  impossible  for  them  to  keep  their  hands  off  of  each  other .    “  poor  obi - wan ,  do  you  think  he  suspects  anything ?  considering  he  can  feel  your  emotions ..  ”    her  expression  turns  a  little  into  worry .  it  filled  her  heart  to  know  she’s  been  in  his  mind  as  much  as  he’s  been  in  hers ,  but  the  thought  of  being  caught  still  played  a  big  part .

     she’s  composed ,  she  tries  not  to  let  her  fears  overcome  her  —  but  she  can’t  help  it  either .  her  nervousness  and  worry  seeps  through  the  cracks  of  the  mask  she  was  taught  she  must  wear  as  the  representative  of  a  planet ,  it  becomes  visible  in  small  things  such  as  a  restless  leg  and  how  she  suddenly  stands  up  to  walk  towards  the  window  the  moment  obi - wan  speaks ,  seeing  the  evening  light  grow  darker  as  a  painful  reminder  that  they  were  running  out  of  time .

     “  how  am  i  to  remain  calm  and  collected  when  anything  could  be  happening  as  we  speak ?  ”  

A starter for @soughtpeace·,

As the sunset inevitably crept its way over Coruscant, the young Jedi Knight slipped away from the stifling clutches of the Academy, recklessly stealthy in his pursuit of his rendezvous. How could so pure an emotion–so strong, potent, and powerful–stray him from his path? Why was it wrong to pursue what he could only describe as right? Such thoughts strayed through Anakin’s mind as he reflected on the teachings of the Jedi, unable to fathom why to harbor love–that overwhelming and blazing feeling beneath his chest–was to court the Dark Side. Did the Jedi not love one another? Look to their kin as family? Was this creed not built upon such principles?

Much as he embraced their ideology, some pieces simply did not fit together for the young Knight. Surely even the most devout Jedi Master had fallen and embraced such emotions at one point in their life? Anakin did not wish to begin to imagine a life without this passion now that he’d kindled the flame with Padme.

As he quietly parked his cruiser close to her balcony–just out of view to surprise her–he leapt from below with a bounding Force Jump and landed only with the slightest of thuds as he tentatively approached the glass door. He glanced around, listening to the rush of the hums of thousands of cruisers zipping past, reaching out into the Force to determine whether or not he was followed, or if danger–something the Senator was no stranger to–was lurking nearby. Satisfied that they were alone and Padme was safe, he leaned in the threshold as the doors slid open, smirking instantly as he found her managing her hair in her silent solace. “You know, if I was an assassin, you’d be in trouble right about now.” He announced his presence, smirking as he knew she could see him in the reflection of the mirror. 

oh  the  wait  and  the  blaze  of  a  forbidden  love ,  the  fear  of  being  caught  and  end  up  ruining  anakin’s  chance  to  fulfil  his  destiny  as  a  jedi  —  but  also  the  selfish  happiness  that  came  with  the  idea  of  being  in  his  arms  once  again .  she  remained  devoted  to  her  mission  and  purpose  on  coruscant ,  but  her  focus  faltered  now  and  then ,  her  mind  strayed  away  to  the  more  enthusiastic  prospect  of  seeing  her  secretly  husband  later  that  day  —  and  who  could  blame  her ?  she  was  in  love  regardless ,  it  being  a  dangerous  relationship  or  not  wouldn’t  put  an  end  to  their  feelings  towards  each  other ,  she  was  certain  of  that .

     padmé  expected  anakin  at  some  point  the  moment  the  sun  started  to  set ,  exactly  when  she  had  no  way  to  know ,  however ,  but  she  begins  undressing  the  heavy  senator  dresses  and  undoing  her  usual  beautiful  hairstyle .  she’s  removing  the  last  of  what  felt  like  a  thousand  hairpins  from  her  hair  when  a  certain  stealthy  jedi  makes  his  presence  known  -  no  doubt  a  surprise  that  makes  her  heart  jump  but  one  that’s  quickly  converted  into  a  happy  one .  she  shoots  him  a  delighted  smile  through  the  mirror ,  her  voice  not  faltering  though  her  heart  still  beat  fast .    “  lucky  me  it  is  only  my  husband  giving  me  a  fright  and  nearly  scaring  me  to  death ..!  ”  words  spoken  in  a  light  mood  and  a  playful  tone  that  end  with  a  faint  giggle  before  she  gets  up  to  walk  towards  him  and  relish  on  that  moment  she  had  been  waiting  for  all  day . 

     knowing  there  was  absolutely  no  one  that  would  dare  walk  into  her  room  like  he’s  just  had ,  she  knew  it  was  safe  to  go  straight  for  a  passionate  kiss  even  though  the  smile  that  remained  glued  onto  her  lips  seemed  to  get  in  the  way .  “  this  is  very  concerning ,  master  skywalker ,  what  if  i  was  indecent .  ”

            it  brings  him  peace,  the  force,  something  that  makes  him  one,  feeling  every  speck  of  stardust  that  makes  him,  that  makes  all  things.  eyelids  remain  dropped,  every  sound,  every  beat  of  the  force  like  bloodstream  coursing  through  his  being   :   it  feels  like  home.  there  is  no  surprise  as  her  voice  echoes,  soft  like  flower  petals,  mixing  perfectly  with  the  silence,  part  of  it  really  as  his  eyelids  rise,  clear  hues  glancing  at  her,  taking  in  the  soft  smile  that  bends  her  lips,  the  care  crystal  clear  in  her  tone.  he  has  noticed  it,  the  care  she  has  for  all  things,  the  fire  that  births  a  fight  in  her  limbs,  the  senator  is  not  one  to  step  down,  caring  has  its  advantages  when  wielded  properly.  but  all  double  edged  swords  have  advantages,  the  perfect  balance  a  complicated  mechanism  to  find.      ❛  i  do  not  doubt  r2′s  abilities,  senator,  but  your  safety  deserves  as  many  beings  as  possible.  ❜       he  lets  the  peaceful  smile  echo  on  his  lips,  feeling  her  worry  like  a  pestering  bug,  one  that  leaves  ghosts  swimming  in  her  eyes,  haunted  as  she  is  by  all  those  lives  she  must  carry.      ❛  i  can  hear  your  worry  as  well  as  r2  should  you  wish  to  share  them.  ❜      there  is  appreciation  for  the  person  she  is,  the  strength  of  her  character,  offering  help  to  her  is  natural.

     she  admires  him  as  a  jedi  ( not  having  seen  any  other  side  of  him ) ,  a  dedicated  man ,  obi - wan  knew  exactly  what  the  future  had  prepared  for  him  and  it's  that  certainty  that  she  envies  now  and  then .  BEING  A  SENATOR  was  different ,  it  was  about  politics ,  strategy  and  a  chess  game  that  seemed  to  change  every day  -  if  only  people  were  selfless  like  the  jedi ..  but  padmé  remained  in  love  with  her  profession  regardless .    "  ever  so  kind ..  "    the  smile  on  her  lips  doesn’t  disappear  but  it  becomes  somewhat  more  serious  when  the  other  mentions  her  busy  mind ,  arms  crossed  in  front  of  her  chest  holding  the  robe  closed .    "  my  worry  is  only  natural ,  whoever  conducted  the  attack  on  my  ship  and  nearly  killed  one  of  my  handmaids  is  still  out  there .  "    precautions  were  taken  to  ensure  it  wouldn't  be  her  death  if  anyone  chose  to  attack  the  senator  when  arriving  at  coruscant ,  but  it  wasn't  the  possibility  of  a  sucessful  one  next  time  that  worried  her ,  it  was  how  close  they  were  to  find  who  wanted  this  army  so  much  that  they'd  call  for  a  direct  attack .    "  and  while  that  happens  i  am  to  be  closely  guarded  by  jedi ,  there  must  be  something  i  can  do  to  stop  this  attack  that  wasn't  simply  directed  to  me  but  on  democracy  too  ..  "    far  into  her  thoughts ,  her  rant  comes  to  a  halt  when  she  suddenly  notices  she  may  have  come  off  rude  while  venting  her  frustrations .    "  no  offense ,  of  course ..  "

     the  first  thing  to  come  out  of  her  lips  was  a  soft  giggle ,  one  normal  for  a  teenager  in  love ,  or  a  woman  who’s  found  true  love  in  a  forbidden  romance .  dormé  remained  one  of  the  few  that  knew  about  her  and  anakin .    “  we  were  very  discreet ,  and  you  wouldn’t  have  seen  that  if  you  weren’t  PRYING .  ”    there’s  an  unmistaken  but  playing  accentuation  at  the  end ,  something  more  like  teasing  her  handmaid .  as  she  speaks  she  recalls  exactly  what  dormé  has  seen  -  a  quick  kiss  goodbye .