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So, this is my first Tumblr post. I just created my account. I suppose I should introduce myself, although I doubt many will see this.

I am a huge fan of Undertale and Deltarune. I harbor extreme love for Ralsei. I enjoy playing vivid/stasis. I am a yuri fan. I like true grimdark. I am a book nerd, but in the recent year or so I've been reading a lot of webtoons. I enjoy the occasional anime, but I don't tend to watch any kind of video series very often. I hate inaccuracies, and I sometimes have a hard time admitting my mistakes. I love to argue online with people - but on chill topics, that are purely battles of wits (stuff like the morality of using commands in minecraft survival). I have no desire to argue with anyone about politics or religion (I'm not religious at all), although I will always say something when someone uses the wrong pronouns of a character. I have a lot of sleep problems, and chronic pains. I have my own fictional multiverse - I've been working on it for years. I am in my teens. I am very much a nerd, and hope to get as close as I can to ultimate nerdhood. I will probably write short stories in here from time to time, talk about stuff in our society I think is illogical, and rant about random things. I tend to care very much for the little details, although I'll almost never criticize someone for making such a tiny mistake - I will criticize myself, though. One of my rules for my fictional multiverse (it's called "Sorazys"), is that Sorazys has no plotholes. I intend to try my best to follow that rule. And I mean it - no plotholes, even the most minor illogicalities in the magic system. The most petty "but that's technically illogical". I care about that. But I will never criticize others for allowing such small mistakes to exist in their own works. One note: the "Sorazys has no plotholes" rule is not relevant to Extimerilion. I made Extimerilion when I was 10, and the main system is inherently illogical. Unfortunately, I cannot get rid of Extimerilion, as it's a core part of Sorazys. I did do my best to fix whatever I could, and make it as meaningless and irrelevant as possible. I don't really care about which of the three main pronouns you use for me, although I do use he/him IRL for convenience (my native language gets extremely annoying every time you try to do something even mildly complex with pronouns). I do a little bit of pixel art from time to time, although not much. I might upload some stuff in here from time to time. I am a massive fan of Brandon Sanderson's works. I finished Stormlight 5 in 1 AM - only then did I realize that "end of arc" does not mean "end of the story for these characters". I thought I'd get a pretty completed ending. I have already accepted the fact that I'll need to wait for 2031 for the next book. I am pretty good at predicting plot twists. In Tress and the Emerald Sea, I predicted Charlie's secret from when they first saw Crow's ship.

Well, to whoever read through my ramblings, have a nice day. I'll probably post something daily for some time.

EDIT (after a few minutes): I realized I forgot to put some stuff here. I have autism and ADHD. I am attracted to women, some non-binaries, and a specific type of femboys (that very much includes Ralsei). As I said, I care about the little details.

EDIT 2: I have now realized I forgot to mention that I've been LARPing for 5 years (Live Action Role-Play, not the other meaning). I mainly focus on role-play, in which I am somewhat good. I am okay at fighting - I can be a significant challenge for newer players, but I am not particularly good against people that have played for a similar amount of time to mine. I can do some character voices, but not a very wide range, and I tend to have a hard time doing them for long. I am quite good at doing different ways of talking, though.

So, I am in my teens. And it is around this age when people start to think about romantic relationships. Now, I currently have no interest in a romantic relationship, as I am already quite busy, and will be even more busy next year. But thinking about this has made me think about my point of view about romantic relationships in general, and I have reached an understanding.

Unless I find someone who is a REALLY good match for me, I would probably not enjoy being in a romantic relationship. I highly value my freedom and free time. With my friends, we can always tell each other "Sorry, I need/want this time for myself, so I won't be able to do this thing." If I want to play video games, and don't want to talk with my friend about the LARP he's running this week, I can just tell him so, and he'll understand. We both have the freedom to put this relationship aside when we want to do something else, and pick it back up when we want contact again. We do interact quite a lot, though.

here is a picture of my cat

I hate how some people that easily won against difficult boss battles act when talking to people that took a long time to defeat them. For example, the sans fight took me 20 hours of gameplay, which I played throughput over a month. And sometimes when I talk about it with people on the internet, that say it took them only 2 hours, they laugh at me and act all smug. I also see it happening with other untalented people which are unrelated to me.

Now, in my opinion, trying to beat a boss battle for 20 hours is more impressive than having good genes and beating it in 2. Some may disagree with me, but I don't particularly care. My point is, that the fact some people were born with less talent than you does not mean you should have the right to act smug about how they put more effort than you into achieving a goal.

Something that quite annoys me is that there aren't many non-binary protagonists in books and comics. In video games there are plenty. But in forms of stories in which the viewer is not put into the body of the protagonist? I remember a singular comic with a non-binary main character, and it was filled to the brim with people with many different gender identities and sexualities, including many rarer ones. Apart from that, I don't remember experiencing any other story (which is not a video game) with a non-binary main character.

In my fictional multiverse, around half of the important characters are non-binary (although this information might not be up-to-date). I am currently working on a book with a non-binary protagonist. Although, I am not sure if I'll have enough motivation and time to finish it, or even get anywhere far.

There are but a few days until the end of the school year. I see the end getting closer.

So, I am somewhat amused by the fact that we as a society decided that certain words are "bad", and called them "swearing". And then, because of that, many people use them so willingly they lose all meaning. So you have people that act as if saying a certain combination of sounds is a crime and is extremely indecent, and then someone just uses it 5 times in 3 sentences. Of course, I am talking about F-bombs. Now, one might ask me, "Azzy, if you think about this subject this way, why did you call it an 'F-bomb'?"

Well, I did so because of the inflation of curse words. If I use a certain swear word all of the time, it will lose its meaning. If I use it often, its value will degrade. But if I use it rarely, then when I do use it, the people who know me will truly understand the gravity of the situation. As such, I tend to avoid using curse words, and only use them when things are truly bad. As such, if I say that Marty Supreme was a shitty movie about shitty people making shitty decisions, then you can assume I most likely truly experienced it to be a bad movie, and am not just exaggerating. So, what about F-bombs? Well, I have never uttered an F-bomb in my life, and I plan to not do so for at least a decade or so. As such, when I do eventually use it, the people who know me will know the cause of using that swear must be worse than everything I've experienced up to that point.

I have only now discovered that "dozens" does not mean "tens".

Curse you, flawed Google Translate. Curse you.

One of my goals in life is getting as close as I can to the ultimate nerdhood. What is the ultimate nerdhood, one might ask? Well, I would define it as mastering every type of nerdhood. That's of course, impossible for someone with a human lifespan. It's also impossible to get even 1% of it. The amount of interesting facts, mechanics, skills and knowledge you'll need to acquire is near infinite. But humans don't judge others' traits based on how close they are to their maximum possible level. We judge them based on how strong that trait is in them compared to it in other humans. So, I hope to become as proficient as I can in these subjetcs:

Art - I am now meddling at pixel art, but I am pretty far from being decent. I hope to one day work on full resolution art skills, but at the moment, I have too many hobbies and important matters to attend to for me to seriously work on that.

Books - I am already quite experienced with them.

Video Games - I am working on that.

Role-Play and Theater - I have been doing that for years, and I hope to continue doing things of this sort. I have been LARPing for 5 years.

TTRPGs - I am playing at others' campaigns, and I am running my own campaign. I have designed my own system for it.

Shows, movies, animes, and the like - I am categorizing them as one, because even though they have meaningful differences, I do not particularly care about if the stuff I watch is an anime or something western (I mainly care about how I can watch it, what it's about and it's quality). I am okay with many different styles.

Science - This is a huge one. I know many interesting facts, and have taken a liking to knowing stuff about certain branches of science. However, this one is practically infinite.

Music Creation - I am working on that from time to time, although I would like to work about it more.

I often fear the passage of time. The years go by too quickly and too slowly at once. I can see adulthood in the distance, approaching rapidly. It isn't long before I thrusted into adult life.

I am enjoying my youth. On one hand, I don't have that much freedom to choose to do whatever I want to do. On the other, I have freedom to do whatever I want to do. I can play games in my free time. I don't need to worry about rent or taxes.

It feels as though time is moving too rapidly. It is weird for me that I am a teenager. That I am at the age of people I once looked up as an entirely different creature than me. And I know I've changed. I can certainly see the difference in personality in myself, even from just half a year ago. But it still feels like I haven't changed that much, overall.

She blinked into existence when it started. Just as the the being of Extimerilion materialized into reality in the existence of Extimerilion, she was there. Extimerilion didn't notice her. She watched them split into the different Zenders. She watched The Render start to exist. She watched the Zenders fight them. And none of them ever seemed to notice her.

And then, she was there again, at the start. But it was different. Like she was in a different version of that reality.

And then, a third time. But it felt more... Complete this time. She watched upon it the final time, suddenly remembering her name.

It was Eternal. She was Eternal. She has existed since the start of anything, and will exist until the end of everything. She knew that with absolute certainty. She was more certain about that than anything she has ever experienced.

She now came to be in a world called "Dariman". She learned their language. She travelled in that world. She watched a story unfold. And then, time reset. She could feel it was different than in Extimerilion. In Extimerilion, it was as if it started as an entirely different thing. In here, it felt as if reality merely took a step back in time.

She has Transported to somewhere else. And then somewhere else. Each of them was different. She didn't experience time altering events for a long time.

She was weak. Just as weak as any human. But she could get stronger - She discovered she couldn't die. Well, more so confirmed it. She would exist from the beginning to the end, after all.

She got stronger. She travelled reality, learning everything she could. Her immortality could only protect herself. If she had power, she could protect others. She could help others.

Time passed. She now knew the foolish nature of other humans. If they all just listened to her, everything would be fine. She knew better. She had lived for so long. She could make much better decisions than humans that have lived a fraction of her lifetime. That have only ever existed in one place.

Everything would be better if it was all as she wanted it to be.

They smiled.

They were always smiling, really. But this time, they had a particular reason.

It wasn't long now. The lorebinders they have put into their game will soon notice them.

They were always the same. Those glasses. Those headphones. That hoodie. That smile.

Lurking there, in the corner of your eye. Looking just like another one of the crowd. They created the crowd. They created you.

Or perhaps, if you were a true lorebinder... Then, they only created your vessel.

So they waited. It won't be long. When those lorebinders of theirs will finally realize they were there the whole time... Well, it would be interesting, for sure.

After all, the only thing that can be truly interesting for a being that controls everything is something that they can't control, isn't it?