sonder

I wanna kill myself and drink and jerk off and kill myself and cut my wrists and jerk off and masturbate and do drugs and punch myself in the stomach and cut myself and smoke and burn myself and stab myself and jerk off and jump off a building and kill myself

apparently telling someone is “easy to psycho-analyse” is weird and creepy

jiraitok is the most insufferable jirai space these mfs will see someone not shower bc of their depression and go “um.. maybe let’s not normalise this!” are you genuinely brainless

shout out to the fuckin alters who hate their sysmates for whatever reason. all the "positivity" stuff almost always demonizes us when we don't like our system as a whole or specific alters.

The lion can't take much more of this

after a certain point, i can't romanticise my struggling anymore. this isn't cute or jirai kei of me, this isnt insane gf core, this isnt anything but me wishing i was given a different, more functional brain. slapping aesthetic labels on top of it is just how ive learned to be okay with my illness, otherwise the guilt and shame of "not being okay" would just eat me alive