SomeRandomBox

Hello everyone! I just want to say that I decided to write my journal here. Even if everyone is not interested, I will still opt to do so. So, brace yourself! Lately, I've been struggling to find a job that suits my personality. I am a teacher by profession; however, I am not currently teaching. I genuinely want to grow as a person—both in terms of career and finances. As for the kind of person I want to become, I’m still figuring that out. Finding a job is really hard. These days, having a job is truly a blessing. I’ve been actively searching for one. I even tried applying for jobs overseas, but to no avail. I don't know if it’s bad luck or a lack of ability, but securing a position has been extremely difficult. As much as I try not to dwell on it, I’m starting to regret the opportunities I’ve missed. Honestly, I’m a teacher by profession, but I decided not to continue in that path. Don’t get me wrong—it’s not that I dislike teaching, but I just can’t see myself doing it long-term. For me, it’s very stressful and demanding. I’m aiming for an office job or even a business opportunity because I feel those align more with my personality. Despite being stuck in this ongoing situation, I truly want to grow as a person. Career-wise and financially, I want to achieve something I can be proud of. I know I can’t stay in this situation forever. I really, really want to succeed—to discover and unlock my full potential. If you were to ask me what kind of person I want to become starting today, my answer would be: I want to become someone I can be proud of. It may be hard to achieve right now, but I’m trying—still trying. I don’t want to be the same version of myself as I was yesterday. Slowly, I want to become the person I am meant to be.

I can clearly remember It was in the middle of August I was alone, I had lost the friendship I built for almost a year.

And then it came.. A light A light sprout like a bean And it is calling me to come I found myself hastily coming over.

There I saw shadows of people They were so blurry They were against the light But each time I came closer, they are those person I know

Days… Months… Years… Had gone so easily Those days became memories Those connecting link has come to end.

Now, at this point of my life, I'm tired of chasing. I'll let things fall into places. I won't rush. I won't force things the way I wanted it to happen. Maybe it's not for me. It's not my time.