somewhere out there, someone’s waiting for you to meet them. and how can you meet them unless you’ve had a nice rest? sure it’s hard to fall asleep sometimes, but gentle now and let your dreams dream and let your body rest easy

your smile is my favorite way to start the morning, you know i have a mental collage of them. i think the one i revisit the most isn’t even a visual one, it was the first time i heard your voice— did you know that you can hear a smile? that’s the craziest feeling, to know that you made someone smile without even seeing it. without a doubt, my most favorite version of lips and teeth dancing because happiness came easy and it’s a trip because i couldn’t even see it, but i just knew. that makes me happy.

through the ups and downs, every single day i fall in love with you more and more. i’ve been closed off for so long, at one point i even considered myself to be unlovable. but everything changes. everything is temporary. nothing lasts forever. i get it. i really do. so this shared freedom of ours, to love each other as hard and as gentle as we please— i want to feel it. all of it. i don’t want to miss any seconds. i don’t want any refunds or rain checks. i want to be present. i want to be here even if you’re so far away.

i think the craziest thing about a long distance relationship is the initial fear of not knowing if you’re going to like the person when you meet one another in person— would you like to hear the best part? i never had that fear, not really. i kinda always knew, i just knew. knew that we’d be good to one another. knew that we’d build bridges to see one another. knew that we’d be okay, that we’d be safe.

your eyes hold the weight of the sun as they drown back into the horizon— and by sunrise or sunset, you’ll always be ready for the day. regardless of how it ends, regardless of how it begins. your love is all that i want to know like how the sun will always brighten up the day, i don’t want to be a heart attack, i want to be an involuntary thing to you. a breath. a pulse. an effortless means of loving someone, if at all possible, i want that.

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