let the thread come undone

I'm so angry at myself for getting blackout drunk on Saturday night and I can't remember anything and it's so scary. At least I had really good friends around me to make sure I was safe, but I don't remember anything. I saw someone I used to be friends with and apparently got really sad afterwards. I just wish I could remember the night for myself.

Ooooo yeah I get to go on a long drive tomorrow and that means I get to blast my music and have a fun time I'm so excited!

Argh no I literally don't want to talk to you at all, I have no interest and you make me feel like shit every time I see you. But I can't just cut you out of my life cause that'd make me horrible and my entire family would hate me. You seem to be unable to see the terrible situation you constantly put me in and I don't know how much longer I can put up with it. You text me at the worst times without fail and guilt trip me and I cannot deal with it.