Rarity

sunset in film

this is the only place i could come to

to write my thoughts into oblivion

into the void

i had too much built up, too much bottled

i have no outlet.. everyone seems to be burdened by me

i know the answers may be clear to outsiders but it’s never been more foggy in my head

i want a different life, a different version of myself, i feel like ive been paved over when all i want to do is grow

i want safety and comfort

i know it’s because i’ve never truly had it

i want to be sure of something, not the constant doubt and speculation, the constant anxiety and overthinking

i want something true, real, tangible

something worth the pain and discomfort i’ve felt for so long

a life that’s like a breath of fresh air

i am lost. i am so far away from myself, i just want to find my way back.

i want to stop longing for the life i want to live. i want to just live it. be it. see the things i want to do, and just do them. i’m tired of waiting. of being scared. i’m tired of the noise. the ache.