Spilled Ink

Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place.

Wake up early. Drink coffee. Work hard. Be ambitious. Keep your priorities straight, your mind right and your head up. Do well, live well and dress really well. Do what you love, love what you do. It is time to start living.

Letting go in order to hold on I gradually understand how poems are made.

She dwelt among the untrodden ways Beside the springs of Dove, A Maid whom there were none to praise And very few to love: A violet by a mossy stone Half hidden from the eye! Fair as a star, when only one Is shining in the sky. She lived unknown, and few could know When Lucy ceased to be; But she is in her grave, and, oh, The difference to me!

See, the darkness is leaking from the cracks. I cannot contain it. I cannot contain my life.

I’m not the girl your mother warns you about. I won’t kiss your best friend or break your heart. I won’t make you choose between what you love to do & me. I’m not cold. I’m not reckless. I will love you more than anything. I will kiss you when you cry. I will stand by your side until you decide otherwise.

I’ve learned that I still have a lot to learn.

Am I lonely? Sure. Like anybody  who has sat by themselves during their hardest moments is. The feeling of being completely  alone does not leave you- even when you’re assured that you have people to rely on.  I am trying to learn my Lonely. I foster it. So that it does not  eat me up. It is a piece of me that has never strayed.

Saying that you would destroy the world in a heartbeat for someone…isn’t a healthy sentiment. #asylum16

You can ask the universe for all the signs you want, but ultimately, we see what we want to see when we’re ready to see it.

I think the thought of being alone scares me more than it should.

That’s what I do; I drink and I know things.

I get way too sensitive when I get attached to someone. I can detect the slightest changed in the tone of their voice, and suddenly I’m spending all day trying to figure out what I did wrong.

I wrote about you leaving before you left and I wrote about the end before we even began. I am not clairvoyant, just realistic.

If you ever fall in love with me, please be gentle. My hands tremble, and I speak way too fast. I am scared. If I ever fall in love with you, I promise I’ll be gentle. Even when your hands tremble, too. If you ever fall in love with me, please remember that I’ve been through enough, and my heart has felt enough pain to last a life time. I’ll forgive you if you break it, though. If I ever fall in love with you, I’ll be kind. I am kind. I understand that you have probably seen horrible things, just like everyone else. I hope you’ll forgive me if I ever forget. If you ever fall in love with me, please pay attention. I hope you will notice when my voice shakes. Please notice, please be patient. I have so many bad nights. If I ever fall in love with you, I will try to be everything you need. But even when I’m not, I will be patient. If you ever fall in love with me, please don’t forget that I fell in love with you too.