TTYL
So…I have no idea if you’ll ever read this, but, I think I need to do this anyway. Perhaps one day, you’ll go back looking, and you’ll find this. Perhaps not. That’s entirely up to you. Also, I’m not going to change my login info, so if you want to erase this, then feel free. This is yours.
I want you to know, I don’t hate you, I don’t feel anything negative towards you. You gave me so many happy memories, and I cherish each and every one of them. I will remember you for all the good you did in my life. I’m not going to throw out anything, not erase the good you did. I…honestly love you. And I want you to have a good life, to be happy. I wanted to be your friend, to give you good gifts. I want to give everything to you. I hope you don’t hate me, for being a guy who loved too much, too unwisely. I hope that one day we will see each other and be able to stand as friends, as equals. I’m going to keep the same email if you want to contact me, and well, I’ll always have the same facebook, even though im practically dead there
…Damn…It hurt a lot, to lose you…to have you run away, when all I wanted to do was…to love you. Being honest…I miss you, so much. You were the first person to believe in me, and I…I believe in you. I pray that you find your happiness. I pray that you find the things you’re looking for. And I’ll keep praying every year. I know that one day you will wake up, and the world will fall at your feet when you realize how much strength you really have and begin to wield it. I wish you nothing but the best. No resentment resides in my chest. How could it? After evrything, you are still nothing less than incredible in my eyes.
I hope you had a good life so far, that you kept fighting, regardless of the demons that try and drag you down. I hope that you kept shutting the door on the darknesses of your past. I hope you chased your dreams, and found them, that you set your goal to become bathed in light and settled for nothing less.
This is my last time on tumblr. I’m leaving this post as a monument on the very top of everything. I built a pretty little edifice, and I feel this is a good last step down this road. I’ve said all I can to you. Well…maybe I can say one last thing…
I love you.
