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I have a feeling i cant seem to shake Is it too late? Everyday i feel more & more inadequate Who cares? Is it actually possible  that im doing worse than i was last year? When i thought i hit rock bottom Have i fallen even deeper? So deep That i cant see above ground This time around I had a feeling it’ll be different I told myself id be better But i dont recognize my own self I keep losing any lil bits of hope I felt i might have had I feel like im never enough I can do no right I feel like i keep trying & i just get knocked down I wonder what it feels like  To not hate yourself so much Pain is too familiar  Darkness feels too comfortable I am unlovable. I wish i just didnt care i thought things might be different If you were there It just doesnt seem fair If this is the best life has to offer I just dont want to be here.

Sometimes  i feel like im falling  Just like raindrops Falling on the rooftops & when it rains it pours So many windows  i've jammed So many doors  i've slammed Cuz i'm convinced You’ll never understand  & i’d much rather  Shut the world out Than stick around  to find out If it's just as bad As i imagined Or maybe even worse It feels like a curse & oh how it hurts To feel so trapped & alone  In your own home Somehow  i find some comfort Sitting alone in the dark With my heavy heart But i wonder If and when  i’ll ever be ready To face the world  Again I wish  i could have just washed Away in the rain & oh how the pain hits when i realize Its all a lie When i look at the sky It's not even raining outside The only thing falling Are all my emotions  That i hide inside And my world is soaking wet from the the heavy tears Falling from my eyes Every time I storm off.