This was 4 years ago. The day was not calm. The day was not going right. Long car ride was not fun for pregnant @sojlee_. San Fransisco gave me the middle finger with some ass kicking wind and rain. The fog decided to join in on the fun. . I was reminded of these photos today. Most of my recent days feel like this particular day. I can't see very far or even see straight. Many things are knocking me down and keeping me down. I feel defeated. All of the imperfections are in my way. . COVID kicked my ass and back. The forced pause was difficult. But one thing came clear. I lost all of my passion for photography, mainly love of making photos. Few days ago, @sojlee_ "kindly" told me that our son doesn't have any photos. I took more photos of my clients' kiddos than my own little guy. She reminded me that I stopped taking photos altogether. . I stopped picking up a camera, unless a client paid me to do so. I stopped sharing my work, unless it was for marketing or being done by someone else. I was embarrassed for my work each and every day. Passion was traded for income. I was really close to calling it quits with photography. . Today, I am struggling and working to find joy in photography again. I carry a camera when I can. I look at some of my old work to see what I took or forgot about. I am working on being ok with imperfections and not worrying about what others think. I am taking more photos my lovely lady and #abe윤lee. . I don't know where this will take me. You might see all kinds of photos. I will stop following all of these unwritten rules on what and how to post. It might get a little messy. . #fujifilm #myfujifilm #xpro2 #photooftheday (at Golden Gate Brige, San Francisco) https://www.instagram.com/p/CFhplgrnEyF/?igshid=1hlfyuimxmqrn
