blech

anyway, I haven't come back. the reason I even decided to take back this url and write this post was because, almost two years after what happened here, I feel as though I should speak about it, and plus, I was rewatching some of the edd memorial videos, and it.. awakened something in me.

so if ive intrigued you in an explanation, im going to give it:

I was 11 when I got sucked into the preddsworld community. I was dealing with a lot of issues, some I cant even fucking remember, but I know I was a frequent selfharmer (about.. maybe 4 or 5 months clean now? I haven't been keeping track), transferring schools, and undergoing severe bullying.  dear reader, if this somehow got mixed in with the eddsworld tag and you’re just a regular viewer of the tag who has no idea what preddsworld is, it’s the vore side of the fandom. 

yeah, disgusting, I know.

so then drama happened. to an extent, I believe the reaction I received was justified. it was always me who started it, for stupid reasons like, ‘oh, theyre more popular than I am’ and ‘oh they actually have a life but I want this fic written’ (yes, those are actual reasons I started drama), but in some areas, I believe it was taken too far. I remember being suicide baited a few times, probably by the same person too, haha. all of.. this.. turned me into a very sour, bitter person, and in turn, i lashed out on others. i’m still friends with 2 of the 4 ‘main’ people i considered my friends in the preddsworld days. One never forgave me for what I did and rightfully so, and the other just disappeared off the face of the internet and I can’t seem to find them.

i eventually just got so sick of the harassment and the fact that people outright refused to talk to me i just left. 

i no longer like eddsworld.  i’m not going to tell my newest interests, because it could potentially reveal my main blog, and i really don’t want all that shit to be tied to my main.