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A Heart is a Heavy Burden - A Howl's Moving Castle Fic
Summary:
âWhat do you think it would be like to travel around as Howl does?â She asks, not noticing how the fabric in her hands becomes a deeper shade of red. âWould it be freeing? An adventure beyond belief? What do you think he sees as a wizard?â
Sophie hums, carefully placing more flowers onto her own hat and pinning them in place. Eliza sighs, placing the unfinished hat on a stand and leans her arms on the table.
âAm I dreaming too big?â She softly asks, looking down at her hand; the ring shimmers in the evening sun. âWhat if they donât share my dream of going off in the great wide⊠somewhere?â
âYou have beautiful dreams, Eliza. I believe youâll go on an adventure someday; soulmate or not.â Sophie says softly, placing her finished hat on a stand and turning to her friend. âAnd when you do, I hope you will take me with you.â
Back in 2022 I wrote a short one-shot for Howl's Moving Castle, then re-wrote it in 2025 and now in 2026 I have posted 3 more chapters for it! Updates will be slow but I will do my best to not forget about it like before. There will be some parts that don't follow the movie and that is because I am pulling some parts from a audio book I listened to and my own imagination. I hope people enjoy it and stick around to see how it ends! The og from 2022 is still up on my ao3 too if anyone is interested in seeing how it all started.
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Small fantasy worldbuilding elements you might want to think about:
A currency that isnât gold-standard/having gold be as valuable as tin
A currency that runs entirely on a perishable resource, like cocoa beans
A clock that isnât 24-hours
More or less than four seasons/seasons other than the ones we know
Fantastical weather patterns like irregular cloud formations, iridescent rain
Multiple moons/no moon
Planetary rings
A northern lights effect, but near the equator
Roads that arenât brown or grey/black, like San Juanâs blue bricks
Jewelry beyond precious gems and metals
Marriage signifiers other than wedding bands
The husband taking the wife's name / newlyweds inventing a new surname upon marriage
No concept of virginity or bastardry
More than 2 genders/no concept of gender
Monotheism, but not creationism
Gods that donât look like people
Domesticated pets that arenât re-skinned dogs and cats
Some normalized supernatural element that has nothing to do with the plot
Magical communication that isnât Fantasy Zoom
âBooksâ that arenât bound or scrolls
A nonverbal means of communicating, like sign language
A race of people who are obligate carnivores/ vegetarians/ vegans/ pescatarians (not religious, biological imperative)
Iâve done about half of these myself in one WIP or another and a little detail here or there goes a long way in reminding the audience that this isnât Kansas anymore.
One Of The Issues With People Trying To Do World Building Can Be Seen Here Because, The Concept Of Marriage Can Be Excluded Entirely, In Place You Could Do Something Like, A Society Without Romantic Relationships Entirely It Could Be Utopian Or Dystopian As In A Society Where Everybody Is Able To Have Relations With Anyone Else Provided Consent, Or It Could Be Where Parents Are Chosen By Maybe The Government Or Maybe The Gods/God To Make Perfect Stronger Children
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Don't worry about height, weight or muscles, all (humanoid) characters are easy to be adjusted. Small changes to the poses are fine, you can customize them a bit.
Might add on other characters if this goes well! If you want a custom, DM for prices here or on Discord (junthefairy).
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I plan on doing more Palia art, sorry for the long hiatus
Hey everyone, I'm a global south artist in desperate need for $$ to pay my debts, rent, feed my cats, etc.
My display tablet had issues in the process of doing these artworks and I'm now using an old 2015 one before fixing/getting a new one.
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Pairings: Yandere!Saja Boys x F!Reader ; SoulBond!AU
Synopsis: You were never supposed to remember them.
Four hundred years ago, a pact was madeâa blood-soaked bond tying five demons to one human soul: yours.
Theyâve waited lifetimes for your reincarnation, cursed with obsession, tethered by fate.
And now that youâve returned?
Theyâll burn the world before they let you go again.
Parts: Characterizations | Part 2 | Part 3
Warnings: Soul bond with the Saja Boys, Yandere themes!, soulbonding without full consent, obsessive behavior / possessiveness, mild stalking, romantic psychological tension, mentions of implied past death / reincarnation, intense emotional fixation, yearning, non-graphic threats of harm from a third party (Gwi Ma).
Author's notes: Hey guys! My first fic on Tumblr. I've been deep in a hole for Saja boys x Reader fics and have been inspired by all the ones currently out. Thought I'd give it a go and make my own. This is also just me purely projecting my fantasies (lol). But will post more on this story and will make more parts!
Itâs not tragic. Just quietly heavy. Most days are filled with the same mundane routine. The stress of adulting weighs in on you most nights making you feel more fatigued than you should.
Your art is the only thing that feels like yoursâuntil it doesnât. Lately, even your sketches look like someone elseâs memories. The past few weeks of downtime have been spent sketching images you vaguely recognize from dreams you forgot you even had.Â
You walk through life like itâs background noise.
Then, one afternoon, on the way to grab milk and instant ramenâŠyou hear music on the street.
Lugging your grocery trolley (because god knows you donât have the strength to carry a weekâs worth of grocery bags on your arms), you spot that a crowd has gathered in the plaza. The atmosphere buzzes with excitement. People are pushing each other to get a view of whatever it was that was making the crowd go nuts. Curiosity gets the best of you, and next thing you know youâre walking towards the center of the square. Grocery trolley rolling behind you. Someone steps on it, warranting a quick âSorryâ and they scurry to the front. You turn your head forward to see whatever it was they desperately wanted to see.
You stop.
Up on a raised platform, five boys move like a single bodyâsynchronized, supernatural, magnetic. Their colorful outfits shimmer under the lights, a kaleidoscope of sugar-rush perfection. The crowd is screaming, but all you hear is the songââSoda Popââsickeningly sweet and pulsing like thunder in your chest.
You donât recognize them.
Were they new? A secret debut? A niche group you missed?Â
And then you see them.
The Saja Boys. Five gorgeous faces, carved out of dreams and danger, singing like they already know you.
Your heart stutters.
Front and center is the one with the jet-black hair and fire behind his smile. His eyes sweep the crowd like he owns itâuntil they lock on you. And then itâs like the world tips sideways.
You canât breathe.
Something ancient uncoils in your ribcageâa thread pulling taut, like itâs found its anchor.
The stage beneath them morphsâno, risesâinto a giant soda can, and the absurdity nearly makes you laugh, but the pressure in your chest is louder.
The song ends. The crowd erupts. They strike their final poses like gods frozen mid-conquest. And stillâheâs looking at you. Right at you.
He lifts a hand, brushes off his shoulder like heâs dusting you into place. âThatâs it for now,â he says to the crowd.
His speaking voice slides down your spine like silk dipped in fire. Familiar. Impossible.
âSee you tonight on everyoneâs favorite variety showâŠâ His gaze doesnât waver. âSaja Boys love you!â
You donât know how youâre still standing. The other members turn tooâone by one, their expressions shifting. Eyes no longer playful. Theyâre looking at you like they remember something you havenât yet.
And thenâpink smoke.
They vanish.
Youâre left in a sea of people, lungs hollow, skin prickling like itâs just been marked.
You donât know who they are. You donât know what just happened. But your hands are shaking on the trolley handle. And youâre sprinting home like something inside you just woke up and started screaming.
They apparated back into the apartment in a burst of cold smoke.
Jinu collapsed first.
Not into a chair. Not onto the couch. He sank straight to the floor.
Hands tangled in his hair, breath shallow. Like the air couldnât reach deep enough. Like heâd been holding it for centuries. His voice cracked like something ancient being unearthed.
âItâs her.â
Romance was already pacing the length of the living room, long strides restless, fingers tugging at his shirt collar like it was choking him. âIâI thought I was hallucinating,â he muttered. âSome kind of cruel glamour. A mirage. But the bondââ His voice shook. âThe bond snapped tight.â
Abby dropped into the couch, the cushions barely softening the weight of his frame. His knuckles were white, gripping his thighs. âI felt her heartbeat.â He looked up, dazed. Wild. âDuring the bridgeâour hearts matched. I know it was her.â
Mystery hadnât moved. He stood near the window, face shadowed, fists clenched so tight his nails carved into skin. His lips were moving in a near-silent whisperâover and over like a broken prayer.
âSheâs scared⊠she doesnât remember⊠but she felt it. She felt it.â
Baby sat furthest from them all, on the floor beside the armchair. Blood dripped from his palmâhe didnât seem to notice. Eyes wide. Hollow. Haunted.
Like seeing you broke the silence inside him. Like heâd finally found the ghost thatâd been crawling under his skin for lifetimes.
No one breathed. The room felt cracked. Like a single touch would shatter it.
Abby ran a hand down his face. âWhat do we do?â He was still staring at his hands. Still disbelieving. âIs this a trick? Is Gwi Ma playing with us again? Using her face to haunt us?â
Jinu looked up slowly, lashes damp, lips pale. He bit the nail of his thumb, the taste of anxiety sharp on his tongue.
âWe wait,â he said softly. âWe plan.â
Romance scoffed, but there was no humor in it. He was trembling as he smiled.
âWe charm.â
Mystery let out a low snarl. âWe go to her. Sheâs alone. Sheâs hurting. I can feel her.â
You curl up on your couch with a microwaved dinner, phone propped up on a cushion. You donât normally watch idol shows. ButâŠ
You press play.
Theyâre charming. Playful. Competitive. Too beautiful. Too perfect. You watch them struggle with the hot sauce challenge, lips curling upwards at some of the boysâ faces.Â
Your chest aches.
You donât know them. But you canât look away.
When they joke, you laugh. When they flirt with the camera, your stomach flips. When Baby stares dead into the lens, you freeze.Â
You watch as Baby wins the spicy challenge, somehow a part of you knew he would. You couldnât explain why. You watch as Huntrix makes a surprise appearance. You werenât a crazed fanatic or anything, but you did enjoy their music. When they bowed at each other, a part of your chest ached. You donât know why, but something didnât sit well with you seeing the boys interact with the girl group. Why? You had no claim over them. You felt like you were going crazy.
The Saja Boys find themselves ambushed by HuntrixâRumi, Zoey, and Miraâdemon-hunting girls who are too fast, too smart, and too close to the truth.
The boys run, Jinu being caught into a fight with Rumi which leads to him finding out her secret. A Hunter whoâs part demon. He gives it some thought as he walks out of the bath house. Then, his thoughts shift to you.
Did you watch the show tonight? What were you doing right now? Did you remember him at all?
Then suddenly heâs pulled into Gwi Maâs chamber.
Smoke. Fire. Screams locked in stone. The demons are cheering for the boys, now in their demon forms. Gwi Ma sings the chorus of Soda Pop.Â
âItâs catchyâÂ
He brings up Rumi- the hunter who bears his mark. He tells Jinu he has no control over her. Jinu remains curious, telling him that he can find out her shame and use it against her to bring the Hunters down.Â
Then, Gwi Maâs flames rise. The tension in the air thickens as the four other boys on the ground below are brouht to stand next to Jinu before the Demon King.
âHowever, I sense that youâve lost your focus,â the Demon king hisses. His flames grow âand conjures a mirage image of you, asleep in bed, cheek pressed to your pillow. The boys tense at the sight of you.Â
Their anger rises. They donât like that youâre being presented to them like this- in front of all demons to see. Of course- everyone else in the Demon realm had an inkling- an idea of what you were to the five. It was unspoken, a rumor that spread throughout the years - that they had tied their ancient souls to a human hundreds of years ago. But no details of that pact had been known. And now, the boys were livid as every demon knew your face.
Abby grit his teeth, immediately standing and stepping forward. He didnât want any other demons seeing you, gazing at what was his. âDonât-!â
Jinu grabbed his shoulder back, willing his friend to calm down, even though he was struggling to contain his own anger.Â
âThat girl... is she going to be a problem? A⊠distraction?â His voice was teasing. A sickeningly playful tone meant to mock them.
The boys bristle, their jaws clenched as they see the demon kingâs image of you. You- who was so precious to them. Jinu steps forward, eyes hard. âShe is ours. You made it so. The pact cannot be undone.â
Gwi Maâs image of you faded and the boys all visibly relaxed, though still tense.
Gwi Ma spoke once again, voice teasing. âYou remember, donât you, Jinu? How you came crawling to me, weeping like a child the moment she died in your arms.â
Jinuâs eyes widened, haunted at the memory.
Gwi Ma continued. âYou begged me to bring her back. But I gave you something better.
A deal.
Bind four others to her soul. Trap their power. Anchor her across lifetimesâand Iâd let her return.
And you did it.
You found them. Broken little things. Monsters like you. You forced the bond. You made her the center of your madness.
You cursed her to be wanted. Needed. Torn apart by obsession.
All for what?
To share her?
To watch her slip through your fingers again and again?â
The boys visibly grew more tense with every word he uttered. Romance grit his teeth, and Babyâs nails dug so deep into his palms they began to bleed again. They were monsters who desperately clung to the only light they had. Demons who tainted the purest thing they had ever laid eyes on. The guilt. The shame. All weigh heavy on their hearts, but not as heavy as their deep desire for you.Â
Gwi Ma continued. âNo matter how close she gets⊠sheâll never truly be yours.
But if you succeedâif you finish what I told you toâmaybe Iâll give her to you.
All of you.
For good.â
Their heads snapped up at that. Disbelief and false hope gleaming in their yellow demon eyes.Â
Gwi Maâs flames shift to a smile as he saw their non-subtle desperation. âThen hereâs my offer.â
âSucceed. Harvest the souls before the Honmoon seals, bring down the hunters. Do your job. And Iâll let her live.â
âFail⊠and I rip her from the cycle. Sheâll never be reborn again.â
The boys snap their heads up. Shock, desperation, and fury ablaze on their faces. He wouldnât dare. The boys donât speak. But silent thoughts race through their heads. They wouldnât have to wait centuries for you? All the endless years of loneliness and suffering⊠if they succeeded, theyâd be gone. And you would be theirs. Fully. No more dying, no more waiting. Theirs, for all eternity.Â
The offer was weighing heavy in their minds. But it wasnât even a question. How far would they go to have you? The answer was that there were no limits. No lines they wouldnât cross. No world they wouldnât burn to keep you.
They just kneel, a silent agreement.Â
Theyâve waited centuries. They can wait a little longer.
The boys apparated back to their apartment in silence.
No music. No lights. Just the faint, cold glow of Seoulâs skyline spilling through the penthouse glass like a wound that never closed.
They didnât speak. They couldnât. The memory of Gwi Maâs offer still echoed like ash in their throats. The price was steep, yesâbut the reward?
You.
Untouched by his claws.
Unwatched.
Unmanipulated.
Free.
If they could ensure your soul was yoursâand theirsâforever⊠they would pay that price a thousand times over. So they agreed. Without hesitation. Without question. Now they sat in the dark, five demons and the shape of a girl in their hearts.
It was Abby who cracked first. âShe looked cold,â he muttered.
His elbows rested on his knees, large hands clenched together so tightly the skin over his knuckles had gone pale. He wasnât looking at the others. Just the floor. Somewhere past it. Somewhere where you had been.
âShe looked cold in that vision. Like she hadnât been held in years.â He swallowed thickly. âIâd keep her warm. Sheâd never feel cold again. Not even for a second.â His voice broke near the end.
âShe shouldâve been with us.â Romance was standing by the tall windows, framed in moonlight, arms crossed tight like he was holding his chest together. âShe doesnât even remember us,â he said softly. âWeâre strangers again.â
He tried to sound nonchalantâbut his voice cracked on âagainâ.
Baby didnât move from the couch. His legs were crossed, jaw tight, nails digging crescent moons into his thigh. âThen we make her remember.â He looked up. Eyes black.
âTie her down if we have to.â
No one told him to take it back. Because all of them had thought it.
From the corner, curled on a throw blanket like a resting animal, Mystery breathed out a long, aching sigh. He was clutching something close to his chest. Your scarf. One from a lifetime ago. The threadbare edges frayed, carrying a scent only he still recognized. Heâd stolen it then, kept it hidden through each century. He never let it burn.
âShe cried last night,â he whispered. The room went still. âI felt it.â
They turned.
âShe misses us,â he said. His voice was too soft for the size of his pain. âEven if she doesnât know why. Even if her brain doesnât rememberâher soul does. She sees us in dreams. She reaches out.â
No one doubted him. Mystery had always been the tether. The first to feel you across lives. The first to know. He curled tighter around the scarf like it could bring you back. âShe reaches,â he whispered. âBut weâre not there.â
Silence again.
Then Jinu stood. The weight of four centuries in every breath he took. He moved like a monarch of griefâshoulders squared, spine straight, eyes dark and steady.
âWe need a plan,â he said. The words dropped like stone. âNo chaos. No claiming. Not yet.â His gaze passed over each of them, firm.
âWe woo her. Win her. Make her feel safe.â
Abby let out a bitter snarl. âI donât want to pretend. I want to take her.â
Jinuâs jaw tensed.
âSo do I,â he said. âBut not if it means she runs. Not if she thinks weâre monsters.â
âAre we not?â Baby asked coldly. But it wasnât really a challenge. It was despair.
âWeâre hers,â Jinu replied. âThatâs all that matters.â
The silence that followed wasnât emptyâit was thick with agreement. Each boy looked down. And one by one, they nodded. For now, theyâd wait. But not forever.
You would remember.
You would come back.
And when you didâ Youâd never be allowed to leave again.
You told yourself it was for a snack. The cold night air. The glow of convenience store signs. But the truth was burrowed beneath your ribsâtight, restless, and waiting. Something inside you itched, tugged. Like an invisible string pulling you down familiar streets.
You turned the corner and froze.
âY/N?â
A voice. Soft, velvety, soaked in a sadness you didnât understand. You looked up.
Jinu.
Standing beneath a flickering streetlight like a secret carved out of the night. Hoodie loose over his frame. Hair tousled, moonlight catching in the strands. His eyes locked with yours.Â
Your breath caught.
He took a step forward, hands raised slightlyâlike approaching a wounded animal. âDidnât mean to scare you,â he said gently. âI just⊠recognized you.â
Recognized? Your heart began to pound. Hard. âHow do you know my name?â you asked.
Jinu smiled. But it wasnât cocky or flirty. It was aching. âBecause itâs the only name that ever mattered to me.â
And thatâs when it happened. A flicker behind your eyes. Noâit wasnât a flicker.
It was a memory. A feeling. A lifetime cracking through your skull like thunder.
You saw him.
Not here. Not in this hoodie, not on this street. But in crimson silk beneath a palace moon. A hanbok embroidered in gold, eyes lined with kohl. He reached for you across a garden of foxglove. Your name spilled from his lips like scripture.
And thenâ
âY/N.â
Another voice. Close. Too close. Romance stepped beside you, holding a book. One from your wishlist. The exact one youâd looked at two days ago online and never bought.
You took it in trembling hands. His voice dropped to a murmur. âBecause Iâve been whispering it for hundreds of years.â
The world spun.
Another vision. His fingers on yours. A past version of you, crying. Him kissing your knuckles in the candlelight.
âBecause Iâve never stopped saying it,â Abby said now, appearing at your side, holdingâ Your scarf. The one that went missing days ago. âEven when you werenât alive to hear it.â
FLASH.
There was blood on his hands. A blade meant for you. Abby standing between it and your body, screaming your name.
Your knees went weak. You staggered. The breath in your lungs turned jagged.Â
A gentle touch. Behind you.
Mystery. Quiet. Wide-eyed. Fingertips brushing the sleeve of your coat like he was afraid youâd dissolve.
âIâve known your name longer than you have,â he whispered.
You blinkedâ
And you were in the mountains. Your hands small. Younger. A fox curled against your legs. You were humming. He was warm. It wasnât possible. It wasnât real. It couldnât be.
Across the streetâ Baby. Still. Watching. Eyes black as obsidian. And thenâ
The fire.
A palace burning. Bodies. You, screaming. Baby dragging corpses away with one hand while shielding you with the other.
You gasped. Your vision blurred. Your hands shook. You didnât know if you were crying. But you felt like you were breaking.
Romance reached out, arm around your shoulders, steadying your frame.
âSheâs remembering,â Mystery said, voice trembling. âSheâs starting to remember.â
You didnât hear them clearly. Your ears rang. Your body pulsed like a struck bell. Romanceâs forehead pressed to yours, voice like velvet and ashes. âWe missed you,â he breathed. âSo much it drove us mad.â
Abby was pacing now, unable to stay still. His eyes burned. âYou smell like home,â he choked. âI forgot what that felt like.â
Baby hadnât moved, but he looked like he might lunge. His fists were clenched. His shoulders tight. His jaw locked.
His eyes were nothing but shadow.
He wanted you.
Jinu stepped forward, palm raised like a commandment. âStop,â he said. Sharp. Firm. âSheâs scared.â
He was right. You were. Tears blurred your eyes. The world spun again. âWho⊠who are you?â you asked, barely a whisper. âWhat do you want from me?â
Abby took one step. âWeâre yours,â he said, voice low.
Jinu caught his arm. âAbbyââ
âYou were ours,â Romance added, lips brushing your temple. âYou will be again.â
âNoâno, this isnât realâthis canât beââ You backed up. âYouâre crazy.â
You looked into their eyes for the first time. And your blood ran cold.Â
Not human.
They were glowing. Amber. Topaz. Garnet. Glasses of gold and rage and want.Â
You didnât thinkâyou ran. Your footsteps slammed into the alleyway pavement. Breath heaving. Vision swimming. You ran like your soul was on fire.
And behind youâ They didnât follow.
They stood, the five of them, like statues in mourning. Longing. Rage. Grief. Hunger.
Mystery whimpered once.
Babyâs fists dripped blood from his own grip.
âWe scared her,â Jinu muttered, teeth grit. Shame painting his face. âWe were supposed to make her feel safe.â His voice was raw.
âShe looked at us like we were monsters.â Abby slammed a fist into the wall. âShe didnât even recognize me.âÂ
Romance still watched the alleyâs end where your shadow had vanished. His lips curled into something bittersweet. âNot yet,â he said. âBut she will.â
The other boys turned. He smiled wider. Devastating. Determined. âNow?â
You donât remember getting home. One moment you were running. The next, your apartment door slammed shut behind you. You locked it. Bolted it. Double-checked it.
Then you fell.
Not gracefullyâlike a collapse, like a marionette whose strings had been severed. Youâre curled on the floor now, your fingers tangled in the hem of your clothes, your back pressed to the side of the bed. Shaking. Silent. Your chest is heaving, but the air doesnât reach your lungs. Youâre not crying because youâre sad.
Youâre crying because youâre losing your mind. Every time you close your eyes⊠theyâre there.
Jinu in royal silk, kneeling in the blood-soaked courtyard of a Joseon palaceâhis eyes hollow, your lifeless hand in his lap.
Romance cradling your head by a lake turned black from poisonâscreaming into your mouth like he could breathe life back into you.
Abby roaring over a field of corpsesâhis armor cracked, clutching you as smoke swallowed the sky.
Mystery baring his fangs at priests dragging you awayâhis form shifting between beast and boy, voice howling your name like a prayer.
And Babyâoh god.
Baby in a burning chamber, crawling toward your corpse through ash. His smile was carved wrong, twitching, shatteredâhis arms cradling your body like a doll as fire devoured the world around him.
You cover your ears. You curl tighter. Your bones ache. âThese arenât mine,â you whisper. âThey arenât mineââ
But they feel like they are.
The grief. The rage. The longing. The love. Too much love. It presses against your ribs like a dam waiting to crack. And deepâdeepâwithin your chest⊠something stirs. Something ancient. Something hungry.
You drag yourself under the blankets. Trembling. Numb. You donât sleep. Sleep claims you.
And you never hear the figures outside your window. Five of them. Silent on the balcony.
Jinuâs hand is on the glass, forehead pressed lightly to the cold. His eyes are shut, breath fogging the surface. He had to see you. Just once more. Even if it killed him.
Romance stands beside him, one hand in his coat pocket, the other pressed to his lips like he might say somethingâbut doesnât. He just watches. Unblinking.
Abby paces behind them, boots scuffing against concrete. Every noise inside your room makes his head whip toward the door. He wants to kick it down. Drag you into his arms. Keep you warm. Keep you close.
Mystery is curled beside the potted plants. His ears twitch. His claws dig into the concrete. He hears your breathing. He knows when your sleep shifts. He knows youâre dreaming.
And Babyâ Baby stands furthest from the glass. He doesn't move.Just stares at your sleeping form through the sheer curtain. His eyes are too wide. His hands are in his pockets, but the blood dripping from them gives him away. He clenches his jaw. He had wanted to go after you. To hold you. To punish anyone who scared you. But Jinu made them promise.
No chaos. Not yet. They all told themselves they were here to make sure you got home safe. But deep down, none of them believed that. They were here because they needed to see you one last time. Because you were in their veins now.
Because the bond was waking.
And soonâyouâd be theirs again.
âââââââââ àŒșđàŒ» âââââââââ
Author's note: Let me know if you guys enjoyed this? I plan to expand more into the backstories as their relationship develops. I've got characterizations up just for a teaser that I might post tonight. :)
With love,
Willa x.
I just wrote this on a whim, so there were probably grammar and spelling mistakes.
Saja Boys manager!reader, but they also have their own fans.
There are multiple clips online of you taking care of the boys.
Either you helping Abby clip his shirt or running to catch a button from hitting a fan. Or you standing in front of mystery when the wind is too strong and his bangs move to the side about to expose his beautiful bbg face.
Even during a fansign, when Baby drops a pen and is about to pick it up, you put your hand on the end of the table so he doesnât bump his head.
There are also paparazzi clips of Romance testing his flirting skills on you while you just look at him nonchalantly, clearly done with his behavior. And then there are videos of you adjusting Jinuâs hair during a fan sign, with him clearly comfortable with your touch, letting it happen like itâs the most casual thing in the world.
Yeah, the Pride freaking loves you, so much that you have your own fans. When they see you escorting the Saja Boys, expect to hear things like:
âManager-nim, please take care of the boys well, but also yourself!â
âManager-nim, we love you!!â
âManager-nim, please sign my shirt, Iâm looking for a partner like you!â
Hell some fans even printed out your pics for you to sign them, that was a surprise to you.
There's even edits going around of just you helping the boys or shit editing of you with each member, sometimes even all of them.
You were flabbergasted at first but quickly got used to it, the Saja Boys never seemed to mind though.
In fact, they started to openly interact with you more in front of the fans.
When you button up Abbyâs shirt, he'd hold your hand to stop you for a moment before kissing it. That made the fans squeal, but you quickly pulled your hand back and hit him on the head.
Or when you'd give a speech at a fan meet to thank the Pride for all their love and support, and Jinu slowly gets closer to you without you noticing. Before you know it, heâs already holding your shoulder in place, his head resting in the crook of your neck, smiling at the fans like the golden boy he is. He takes over your speech as you scowl at his actions.
Overall this whole thing was totally not in Jinuâs or your plan for the fandom .
You didnât really mind fan interaction is good for the groupâs popularity.
But the group?
Even though they play into it, they definitely don't like it when fans are getting close to you. Your attention shouldnât be divided between them and the fans.
You should only focus on them.
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