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i've never been married but i've been divorced at least 3 times

thinking how insane it is that we don't know when di feisheng met li xiangyi but scratch that, it doesn't matter when, what matters is why di feisheng became so obsessed with li xiangyi. di feisheng is a man born for fighting, who killed all his opponents, sought to take down everyone in this world - why fixate on li xiangyi? on a man he "beat"? but scratch that, we know why. everyone who meets li xiangyi, whether it be once or for years, covets him, obsesses over him. shan gudao bases his whole life around being his brother and then his betrayer; fang duobing meets him once, barely even a backward glance, and dedicates his whole life to him; qiao wanmian is his mourner; xiao zijin & jiao liqiao are seething with jealousy at his mere memory; zhan yunfei wears his hair down for a decade; yun biqiu carries the weight of guilt over him. di feisheng is no exception, only that the reason is missing, the memory, the history. then again, maybe it's erased from the narrative, hidden from the audience, a secret only between di feisheng and li xiangyi, the blank space between the text that we are never permitted.

thinking how insane it is that we don't know when di feisheng met li xiangyi but scratch that, it doesn't matter when, what matters is why di feisheng became so obsessed with li xiangyi. di feisheng is a man born for fighting, who killed all his opponents, sought to take down everyone in this world - why fixate on li xiangyi? on a man he "beat"? but scratch that, we know why. everyone who meets li xiangyi, whether it be once or for years, covets him, obsesses over him. shan gudao bases his whole life around being his brother and then his betrayer; fang duobing meets him once, barely even a backward glance, and dedicates his whole life to him; qiao wanmian is his mourner; xiao zijin & jiao liqiao are seething with jealousy at his mere memory; zhan yunfei wears his hair down for a decade; yun biqiu carries the weight of guilt over him. di feisheng is no exception, only that the reason is missing, the memory, the history. then again, maybe it's erased from the narrative, hidden from the audience, a secret only between di feisheng and li xiangyi, the blank space between the text that we are never permitted.

thinking how insane it is that we don't know when di feisheng met li xiangyi but scratch that, it doesn't matter when, what matters is why di feisheng became so obsessed with li xiangyi. di feisheng is a man born for fighting, who killed all his opponents, sought to take down everyone in this world - why fixate on li xiangyi? on a man he "beat"? but scratch that, we know why. everyone who meets li xiangyi, whether it be once or for years, covets him, obsesses over him. shan gudao bases his whole life around being his brother and then his betrayer; fang duobing meets him once, barely even a backward glance, and dedicates his whole life to him; qiao wanmian is his mourner; xiao zijin & jiao liqiao are seething with jealousy at his mere memory; zhan yunfei wears his hair down for a decade; yun biqiu carries the weight of guilt over him. di feisheng is no exception, only that the reason is missing, the memory, the history. then again, maybe it's erased from the narrative, hidden from the audience, a secret only between di feisheng and li xiangyi, the blank space between the text that we are never permitted.