Mixed Thoughts

A wicked grin split across my face and the gates of Hell opened up behind me, releasing a gust of hot wind that whipped my apron around my body and forced the woman to shield her face. Demons came forth, dancing around in flames with songs of, “She wants to speak to a manager. Did you hear that? She wants to speak to a manager!” before erupting into earsplitting shrieks of laughter, none louder than my own cackling.

I took in the woman’s look of utter horror before my eyes rolled back into my head and I growled,

Just because a man won’t take you yelling at him like he’s a child in public doesn’t mean “niggas aint shit”

Just because a man won’t stand for you slapping him because you didn’t like what he said doesn’t mean “niggas aint shit”

Just because a man won’t stand for you telling him he can’t hang with his friends any more because you don’t like them doesn’t mean “niggas aint shit”

Just because a man won’t stand for you telling him he can’t talk or hang with his female friends he’s known for years before you came along doesn’t mean “niggas aint shit”

Just because a man knows that being forced to spend every free moment with you isn’t what a healthy relationship looks like doesn’t mean “niggas aint shit”

Just because a man won’t spend every dime on you doesn’t mean “niggas aint shit”

Just because a man won’t bend because he knows when you’re using tears to manipulate him into doing what you want doesn’t mean “niggas aint shit”

Just because a man won’t kowtow to your insecurities and give you the password to his phone so you can read all his shit doesn’t mean “niggas aint shit”

Just because a man stops fucking with you cause you’re insecure as fuck and thinks he’s always cheating doesn’t mean “niggas aint shit”

Just because a man won’t let you ruin his life with your constant making mountains out of molehills self doesn’t mean “niggas aint shit”

Just because a man doesn’t want to deal with your backbiting and gossiping on your friends habits doesn’t mean “niggas aint shit”

Just because a man won’t put up with your constant flirting with other men doesn’t mean “niggas aint shit”

Just because a man knows that your “sex as a weapon” routine is controlling and abusive and bounces on your ass doesn’t mean “niggas aint shit’

Just because a man won’t stop watching sports just because you don’t like it doesn’t mean “niggas aint shit”

Just because a man won’t stand for you disrespecting his family doesn’t mean “niggas aint shit”

Just because a man thinks for himself and doesn’t feel like he has to always agree with you cause you two are fucking doesn’t mean “niggas aint shit”

Just because a man doesn’t want to deal with your overly materialistic self doesn’t mean “niggas aint shit”

Just because a man leaves you because he realizes that you’re fake deep doesn’t mean “niggas aint shit”

Just because he sees through your hypocrisy which asks him to maintain certain standards that you fail to live up to and you fail to demand of other women doesn’t mean “niggas aint shit”

Just because a man leaves you after catching cheating and doesn’t buy any of your excuses doesn’t mean “niggas aint shit”

Just because a man stops messing with your manipulative ass doesn’t mean “niggas aint shit”

Just because a man gets sick and tired of you engaging in colorism and leaves doesn’t mean “niggas aint shit”

Just because a man leaves you cause you refuse to learn and exhibit basic manners and decorum doesn’t mean “niggas aint shit”