...even for an audience of one. ~ No, I will not act my age. I remain old enough to know better, young enough not to care; old enough to have had my heart broken a time or two, young enough to still believe in Love. Hopeless Romantic. Unapologetically Benedict obsessed, though I do post other content as well. I write romantic/smutty fanfic on AO3 as BeautifullyObsessed.
Getting approval for my short-term disability pay is out of my hands now. It took three attempts for the State's fax of forms to be noted by my doctor's office (possibly because the State had my name spelled wrong!); the office actually called me on Thursday past for clarification of what it was about. Doctor is out of the office for the holiday weekend until Tueday, so I'm praying that means it'll be submitted by the end of this coming week. I have calls into the personnel office at my store to ensure they complete and submit a Certification of Employment on my behalf.
In the meantime, I have shelter through Monday morning before I'm back to sleeping in my car. Any contribution to help me extend my stay would, once again, be heaven sent. With tax and fees, the total is $73/night ($66/night weekly rate). I hate asking again, but the nights I spent in my car the week before last were the absolute worst of my life, and I'm praying hard to avoid that if I could.
Am now moved into my car, indefinitely. Even a small amount would help me survive; I have $8 in my bank account and $5 in cash, to live on, including getting a little gas so I can drive between parking lots. I am so, so ready for an end to this. I hate myself for what I've become.
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This only *checks notes* nine months late, but we made it! Thanks for the ask! (Also on AO3 here.)
Sunlight spilled over Éowyn’s shoulders as she examined the sketches she and Faramir had drafted of the entry of their future home: wide double doors of black lebethron, upon which would be set the White Tree, and columns of white stone, carved in the vining fashion of the Mark, flanking the doors. Beneath the tracework of sunlight, she could see the abandoned lines and ideas that littered the sketches—the blots of ink where they had stalled in thought and the haphazard jots where their quills had fallen forgotten as their conversation ceased in speech.
“We shall have to provide a cleaner sketch,” she said, sharing a smile with Faramir.
“There is one thing more I would have you consider.” He withdrew a piece of parchment, neatly folded, and spread it before her on the small table they had carried out into Meduseld’s garden. Drawn on the parchment was a sketch of another house, similar in fashion to theirs, but smaller—a house of work or of craft. “Your wedding gift,” he said. “It shall be solely for your use, to be named and given purpose as you will. You need not decide its purpose now, but I wished for you to see it before I give the order to begin construction.”
Éowyn spread her hands over the parchment, silent. Tall windows filled the walls of the house, from eave to floor. She thought of the narrow windows beneath the eave of Meduseld’s eastern wall, where the sun touched but briefly on the shadows of morning and then fled, and of the small louver in the ceiling of the hall and its narrow net of stars, and of the pooling darkness of her chambers, pricked only by candle and hearth.
In this house, the sun would walk in every window, and the moon and stars would unspool their glimmering strands in the night’s shadows. In this house, no shadows would cling to her steps, and with them the ragged remnants of memories.
“I have yet to survey the land myself,” said Faramir, “but Beregond says he has found a fair place, near to the main house. A grove of lebethron trees will shade the house from the noon sun, and a stream lies near at hand, from which you may fetch water. There is room for a garden, too, if you wish for another beyond that which will grow in the courtyard of our home.”
“I do not know to what purpose I will put it,” she said at last. “I know so little still of healing.”
Faramir smiled. “Then it is well that I do not seek your purpose, only your consent. Beregond is eager to begin. He wishes greatly to please the Lady of the Shield-arm.”
Éowyn looked sidelong at him, a smile upon her lips. “Does he indeed? Then you may tell him he has.”
Faramir leaned and pressed a kiss to her brow. “He will be glad to hear it.”
— — —
Faramir left with the coming of winter and would not return until spring was in its fullness, and the grasses of the Mark rose to Men’s knees and the winds of spring ran streaming upon their green shoulders, and their wedding would be held in the long hall where Éowyn would dwell no more.
Our house and your wedding gift continue apace, he wrote to her in the months after he had left. Winter here is mild, and the rains have not yet come in full. Already much of the house has been laid down, and already it gleams like a pearl cupped within the palm of the hills. If the weather holds, all shall be ready when we return here from our wedding.
I have one last request of you. Think of what sign you would have placed above the door of your house to be the symbol of the Lady of Ithilien. I do not need your answer now, but the stonemasons will wish to have it when you arrive, for they wish to have you witness them place it in the stone. May the days until then pass swiftly!
In his offices in Minas Tirith, Faramir still displayed the signet and white standard of the Stewards, but for his newly constructed house and seat, he would display the symbols of his princedom. A new age ought to have new symbols, and the House of Mardil is no more, he had told Éowyn during the months of waiting and building in Meduseld, and together they had set the sickle moon above the Tree and sent the sketch to Aragorn, to be set in the annals of Gondor as the signs of the princedom of Ithilien.
Éowyn had not given thought to what she would choose as her symbol, but she thought long upon it now—of horse and grass and sword and shield, and of the moonlit hills of Ithilien, and the trees that clad hollow and hillock, and of the tools and work of the healer. And she thought of the days of darkness and dread, and the shade of the dawnless day, and of the sun shining in the Tower of the Sun.
And when spring came, Faramir came through the rippling grass clad in white and sable, with the sun streaming through the pennants of his house, and set his hand in hers before the throne of Meduseld, and the light of the setting sun shone through the doors of the hall and fell upon their hands.
When they rode at last to their new home, to be wedded again in the manner of Gondor amongst the blooming myrtles, their house already rose white and fair from the hollows of the hills, a pearl set amongst the tamarisk and terebinth. Hammer and chisel rang as the stonemasons set the new symbols of the Prince of Ithilien in the lintel above the door.
Bar-en-Ithil they had named it, House of the Moon, for it lay in the heart of the land where the moon went walking over the climbing woods and falling streams, shining upon bough and pool. It was built of the same white marble as Minas Ithil-that-was, so that it shone above the hills like the cresting moon. But it was not the imprisoned moonlight that welled through the marble walls of Minas Ithil long ago, but the gleam of the moon as caught in a mirror, fair and radiant in the hollow of the hills.
It was neither a garrison nor a keep nor a castle, but a simple house, low and sprawling, for they would have no symbols of war, nor of power over Men. No shields lined its halls; no banners of war fell from its walls; no trophies of valor hung above hearth or seat. Through its tall windows, the moonlight welled upon its white floors, polished and plain, for it was a house of work, not of office or rank. In its center was a courtyard in which grew the gardens of Éowyn: herbs for the healing of hurts, and others for the easing of minds and hearts.
And upon its eastern flank, as Faramir had promised, stood Éowyn’s house, shaded by a grove of lebethron trees and girded by a stream. The morning sun shone upon its eastern walls in a wash of gold, and the glass of the windows caught the light and gleamed.
As Faramir led her to the door, he asked, “Have you chosen a symbol?”
Éowyn turned upon his arm to face the dawn and tilted her face to its light. “I shall have the sun,” she said, “for as I stood in the Tower of the Sun and saw the end of the Shadow and knew at last my own heart and was renewed, so now shall I bring renewal. And this shall be the House of the Sun, Bar-en-Anor, and all who come here shall find themselves renewed.”
“So shall it be,” said Faramir with a smile, and he bent and kissed her beneath the morning sun.
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In honor of my 13th Anniversary of being on Tumblr, I thought I would start re-blogging my own art from the early days, because, why not?
Today’s re-blog is another drawing in an obsessive series of Benedict Cumberbatch as the subject. This one is bigger than usual and comes with bonus progress WIP photos.
Getting approval for my short-term disability pay is out of my hands now. It took three attempts for the State's fax of forms to be noted by my doctor's office (possibly because the State had my name spelled wrong!); the office actually called me on Thursday past for clarification of what it was about. Doctor is out of the office for the holiday weekend until Tueday, so I'm praying that means it'll be submitted by the end of this coming week. I have calls into the personnel office at my store to ensure they complete and submit a Certification of Employment on my behalf.
In the meantime, I have shelter through Monday morning before I'm back to sleeping in my car. Any contribution to help me extend my stay would, once again, be heaven sent. With tax and fees, the total is $73/night ($66/night weekly rate). I hate asking again, but the nights I spent in my car the week before last were the absolute worst of my life, and I'm praying hard to avoid that if I could.
Am now moved into my car, indefinitely. Even a small amount would help me survive; I have $8 in my bank account and $5 in cash, to live on, including getting a little gas so I can drive between parking lots. I am so, so ready for an end to this. I hate myself for what I've become.
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So, sleeping in my car tonight, and it's been raining non-stop, so the air is damp & chilly. Didn't expect to have to layer up on July 6th, especially after the heatwave last week, but here I go. My kidneys are not gonna enjoy this.
Duncan x Vicki (OC), based on You're a Shooting Star AU
romance, tooth-rotting fluff, Dunk is a happy, happy man, loving & being loved by the 'nice girl' he had wished for
Bus is running a little late cuz of traffic, babe. But I should be there soon.
No prob., she texted back, I'm yours for the whole afternoon, D. The rest of the day, too. Vicki hit send, then raised her face to soak in the warmth of the sunshine on a day that seemed the wondrous epitome of late summer in London. And I'm here for the rest of my life, if you'll have me, Duncan, she was thinking. Just say the word...
The past three months had been the most unexpectedly happiest she'd ever known. And Dunk's too, as he told her every other day. They had kept the secret of how they'd met diligently; by tacit agreement, their belief to share it with even their closest friends would somehow impinge on the magic that had brought them together.
Raymun had been the first to ask, on the night that Dunk had brought her to meet his best friend and his fiance at their favorite pub. Vicki and Dunk had just looked at each other and she'd blushed just to simply remember again, while Dunk answered, still gazing at her in that way that made her glad to know his flat wasn't too far away. "At the Renaissance Faire, bruh. She was playing Like a Prayer on her...lute." He had raised her hand to kiss just her fingertips, and she had shivered at the sense memory of the first time he'd done that. "Couldn't take my eyes off of her."
"Oooooooo, he's got it bad for you, girl," Rowan had laughed, "Way to go, Dunk!"
"Yeah, well, it took me a while to get here, Ro--but this part of my life has been absolutely worth waiting for." Dunk grabbed his glass to drink, licking the foam from his upper lip as he set it back down.
"Let's drink to that," Raymun proposed, lifting his own glass while tucking his arm around Rowan. "To waiting for the right girl!". The boys had clinked glasses and downed their beers, and the rest of the evening had played out like a marvelous dream, not the first, but like so many that she and her Duncan had lived since their return from the impossible world of Westeros.
A sudden shadow blotted out the sun. "A copper for your thoughts, baby girl," Dunk rumbled, standing above her, and Vicki couldn't help popping up from the bus stop bench to throw her arms around him. Well, almost. His chest was so broad, there were times she couldn't quite close that circle. Not that it mattered. His warmth, his solidity, and how he always went soft for her in all the right places (and so hard in the others that she would get weak-knee'd just thinking about it) was all that mattered. And that he loved her. Her Duncan. The sweetest, kindest man she'd ever known.
He laid a soft, lingering kiss on the crown of her head before wrapping his arms around her. "You ready, babe?"
"Ready and willing," she sighed, her head resting against his chest while she breathed in his good, manly scent. Beneath his clean, fresh aftershave was the pure musk of Dunk--a man who worked hard and when the chance arose, played harder. She'd given up trying to figure out how even the subtle scent of his sweat turned her on; like so much between them, since the moment they'd met, Vicki had learned just trusting her feelings was key to the happiness they shared. "Sooooo...what's the big secret? Why did I have to take this particular afternoon off?
"Picnic," he grinned, taking one arm from embracing her to point to the cooler with a rolled blanket bungee'd on top, sitting on the sidewalk at his feet.
"Oh. In your little park across the street." She nodded her approval. "I should've guessed when you said to meet you in front of your old building."
"Yup." The blue of his eyes in the August sunlight was breathtaking. Distracting. Utterly enchanting. Vicki had told him so a time or two, practically gushing at how gorgeous they were, but Dunk always shook such compliments off, telling her she only thought so because she loved him. And then seeking to change the subject as though thinking himself beautiful in any way was simply ridiculous. "My little park. My elm tree."
Grateful tears prickled her eyes, but Vicki vowed not to give in to them this time. She flattered herself to believe he had already shared nearly all the quiet, desperate details of his life before the wishing stars. She knew what that tree had meant to him, and how without it, he might have missed the shooting stars altogether, which in turn had given them one another. Her heart was too full to speak just yet.
Dunk simply smiled. "I know, baby girl," he assured her, the gentle depth of his voice the most soothing sound in the world. "I know. And I love you, too. More than I could ever describe."
"Right," she nodded up at him, her smile her whole truth. He bent to kiss away the little tear that traced a path down her cheek despite her best intention. "We'll, I'm hungry, Duncan. So, you better have packed something extra scrumptious in that cooler."
"Only your favorites," he chuckled, slipping his arm around her back and taking the handle of the wheeled cooler in hand. Vicki eased her arm around his waist while they waited for traffic to clear, and together they crossed the street into the cool shade of the neighborhood park.
"Is this a new dress," Dunk asked, popping a grape in his mouth before reaching to right the strap that had slipped down from her shoulder. Vicki bit her lip as he let his fingers linger there. She was warm enough from the weather, though his touch was always warmer. And even his slightest touch was apt to make her shiver. Dunk knew it too, which was surely why he missed no opportunity to do so.
"Yes," she smirked, batting her lashes prettily. Vicki knew, of course, that she needn't play the coquette for him--but oh what fun they had when she did. "Last weekend's tips were a wealth I never expected. So, I thought I'd treat myself..."
"And treat me too?"
"Duncan...don't tease me like that," she giggled, "It's really nothing special."
Dunk leaned a bit closer, not wishing the other park visitors in earshot to hear him. "On the prettiest girl in London it is..." From any other guy in her past, such a compliment had only ever been a means to an end. But from her Duncan, a man of so few words? She'd learned he meant every word he ever said. "Besides which," he murmured, "You could be sitting here starkers, and I couldn't find you any more beautiful."
"Don't you just wish!"
Dunk nodded enthusiastically. "Every damn day, V," he growled, moving in for the kill, taking her face in both hands, "And twice on Sundays." Kissing her breathless, bending her to his will, so that she slipped her arms around his neck and softly moaned into his mouth.
When they finally parted--and only for each to catch their breath--she had to whisper against his lips. "You are such a wicked man sometimes, Duncan Dunne. You do realize there are children about, don't you?"
"Only doing what comes naturally, baby girl." He nipped at her lower lip. "Let their mums cover their eyes a while..."
Vicki tapped his chest, a half-hearted attempt to push him away. "I don't fancy getting kicked out of this park for indecent behavior, Dunk. Please...please behave."
"Alright...alright," he sighed heavily, turning to look at the remains of their feast. "Did you get enough to eat?"
"Uh-huh." Vicki had actually finished at least a quarter hour ago, and then had simply sat back and enjoyed watching Dunk feast on. They had laid the blanket in the shade of his elm tree, which seemed to Vicki the most perfect spot in this world--and a beautiful echo of the tree back in Westeros, under which they'd made love the very first time.
For this picnic, he had provided many of her favorites; chocolate croissants, honeyed almonds, sliced apples and red grapes with brie. Dunk had never had brie until she had introduced him to it, and was like to finish off a full wheel himself if left unchecked. He had also included a loaf of fresh French bread with a small pot of herbed butter, elderberry jam, a bacon & apple jam (Vicki had never heard of such, but when the clerk had suggested it, Dunk had asked for a sample and had loved it), and three kinds of gourmet crackers. "I would've got that wine you like best, too," he had told her as he unpacked their bounty, "But not to drink in a public park." Instead, he provided them a bottle of white grape juice. And for dessert? Several Jersey Wonders from a bakery just down the road, reminiscent of the fried bread they'd shared at the tourney on the night they met.
Together, they began to tidy up the remains of their picnic. "Could you hand me the cooler, V?"
"Yeah, sure...hold on." She scooted over and grabbed it, hearing a quiet thunk of something smallish inside. "Sounds like we missed something when we unpacked the cooler, Dunk."
"No, I don't think so. I unpacked every morsel of food." He was trying hard not to smile, but the man did not have anything like a poker face. "You wanna look inside, V?"
Vicki shook the cooler--gently--and then shook her head. " You sneaky, sunuva..." she reached in and pulled out a blue velvet box tied with a white satin ribbon, "What is this, Duncan?"
He'd adopted the most innocent expression on his face, shrugging, "Open it and see."
"Duncan...really?"
"It's okay, baby girl," he prompted her with a growing grin. "It's just a little thing."
Oh my giddy aunt, thank heavens, she was thinking, because even if I've thought about forever, it's way too soon to really go there. Still, Vicki's hands were shaking as she untied the ribbon. "Oh my," she breathed softly, then covered her mouth with a shaky hand. Just this once, she didn't want to cry like a little fool. "Oh, Duncan," she exclaimed at last, "It's perfect...and perfectly lovely! Come and help me put it on?"
A thin gold chain lay inside the box, with a single charm affixed. A golden star with a wee green stone at its center. Like a wishing star...like a shooting star with a bright green tail.
Dunk, whose fingers were usually clumsy and too thick for something so fine, carefully removed the chain from its place and moved behind her to set the clasp. Vicki held her hair up, allowing him to drape it round her neck. When finished, he slid his arms around her from behind. He placed his mouth against her ear. "That's why it had to be this afternoon, you see. Because it's three whole months in our world since we met..."
Was Vicki crying? Of course she was. But he had already proven time and again that this was one of the qualities that had drawn him to her in the first place. That try as she might, she could never really hide her heart. Not from him. Any more than he would ever try to hide his from her. I have to be the luckiest woman alive, she realized--and turned her face in profile to her man.
It was as if he read her mind. "We got so lucky, Vicki. Our dearest wishes really came true." Dunk tightened his embrace, overcoming her with his warmth. "But I'm the luckier one. Because I've found my guiding star, and my whole world is better now. Because of you."
This brief piece was based on an Ask from a lovely Mutual who has always supported me & my work. Always encouraged me to write, and was ever understanding during the long, dark days when I was hopelessly stranded in writer's block. I hope you enjoy this @bakerstreethound ~ I know I missed the piggyback ride, but Dunk & Vicki's adventures in Westeros aren't done yet, so it could turn up there. And I know this one seems to end abruptly; I may go back and add a more finished ending sometime soon. Lots of love to you, my friend!🥰🥰
self-indulgent reblog. am in need of comfort & softness today, and this fits that for me. plus, I'm considering other fics that will be part of this series.
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Getting approval for my short-term disability pay is out of my hands now. It took three attempts for the State's fax of forms to be noted by my doctor's office (possibly because the State had my name spelled wrong!); the office actually called me on Thursday past for clarification of what it was about. Doctor is out of the office for the holiday weekend until Tueday, so I'm praying that means it'll be submitted by the end of this coming week. I have calls into the personnel office at my store to ensure they complete and submit a Certification of Employment on my behalf.
In the meantime, I have shelter through Monday morning before I'm back to sleeping in my car. Any contribution to help me extend my stay would, once again, be heaven sent. With tax and fees, the total is $73/night ($66/night weekly rate). I hate asking again, but the nights I spent in my car the week before last were the absolute worst of my life, and I'm praying hard to avoid that if I could.
Am now moved into my car, indefinitely. Even a small amount would help me survive; I have $8 in my bank account and $5 in cash, to live on, including getting a little gas so I can drive between parking lots. I am so, so ready for an end to this. I hate myself for what I've become.
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Glad to say I received some funds that will help with food and gas! Any further help would enable me to get a room for at least a night or so at some point this week.🙏🙏